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[inevoblivia]

This blog is from here on archived. I might bring it back one day, but that’s unlikely. 

[inevoblivia]

I’m...going to be fully honest here. Hitori hasn’t been present in the depths of my mind very much and as much as I love her, I haven’t felt too much of an urge to RP her. So I’m probably going to put this blog in indefinite hiatus. Perhaps I will come back to her in the future, hence why this blog isn’t being archived entirely- but until further notice, she’s going to be inactive. I apologize for this!

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tricoloredillusion​:

With Hitori starting to talk about revenge like that, Neo couldn’t help but narrow her eyes a little; teeth grinding more even if her mouth was closed tight, and even if she was trying to not let her emotion ride her, it was obvious she didn’t like the statement too much.

‘I have nothing left, so I have nothing left to lose. Yet, I have freedom, and for that, I will avenge the person I was closest with, and then I will go back to Vale to keep living like I used to. Simple as that. Where’s there’s mischief, there’s business.’

With no companions…alone, if necessary.

Neo didn’t want to admit her own loneliness, however. She has always followed her heart, to do whatever she wanted to do, and she simply wanted to go back to that kind of life once she was done with Ruby.

It’s what she was best at.

The visible sadness on the other’s face, though, didn’t go unnoticed, and even if Neo herself could boast about not being chained to Salem, she wasn’t going to do it. After all, she was right, many of the people that were here, serving her, had tragic reasons to do so.

And she felt pity for that.

‘I may live for revenge right now, but I still have freedom.’ Thinking so to herself while making her illusions disappear, the mute shrugged her shoulders then, trying to relax them a bit.

She would make sure to survive through this, one way or another. Not only for Roman’s lost life, but also for herself.

A slight look of surprise forms on Hitori’s face. “ Oh? That’s surprising to hear. Yet, I must say that I’m glad to hear that you’ve got something to go back to after this, rather than being completely lost after you get your revenge. I wish you luck in your quest for revenge, then, Neo. ” She made a small smile, as she felt happy for Neo, happy that at least she wasn’t trapped like she was. That she did have something to go back to after this. She’d heard of and seen too many people just go on a wild goose chase for revenge that they went on solely for the sake of having a purpose in life.

Plus, she was slightly glad, even if Hitori couldn’t fully understand how someone could find meaning in this world exactly, that Neo at least was able to find some meaning in this purposeless world with nothing going on but the fact it was on the fast track to falling into chaos because of an immortal bitch who they had no hope of defeating. Hitori wouldn’t mention that though, it was better to be blissfully unaware rather than to know the cruel truth.

She sure as hell wishes she was able to live in blissful ignorance like she did so many years ago. But that time was long gone, and can’t be recovered. She wondered for a moment what life would be like if she never ended up being forced to realize the horrible truth of this world...where would she be? Would she be anything like she is today? She couldn’t really predict it. She doubted anyone could really predict such a thing. Not even herself.

“ Just make sure you don’t let Cinder take advantage of your current state of mind. Trust me, all that woman has in mind is proving to Salem she’s worth something. It’s pitiable, but she’s also willing to do whatever it takes to achieve that. I just want to make sure you know that. Cinder’s quite manipulative. ”

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vicehunt​:

the start of the school year was always busy, and jamie might say a nightmare. in a matter of days it seemed the work he had to do doubled. talking to parents whose opinions he doesn’t care about… proposing rules and changes based on disasters that occured the previous year… that one student council kid blowing up his email with his ‘groundbreaking’ (expensive!) event ideas… and, of course, meeting with new staff members. and here he was, doing just that. 

vice principal… damn right. he can’t help but feel a little proud of this title he’s earned.

“pleasure’s all mine. and, sure, but formalities are always appreciated. jamie fowler.” as per usual when meeting new coworkers, he offers his hand for a handshake. his knuckles are a little bruised due to a recent… scuffle. he hopes she doesn’t notice.

“looking forward to having you with us,” he continues, almost robotically—he’s said this plenty of times, “and i’d hope you’re looking forward to working here. what are your thoughts so far, hm? feeling prepared?”

“ I suppose so. Regardless, nice to meet you, Mr. Fowler. ” She says as she shakes his hand upon him offering. She for sure notices the bruises he has on his knuckles, but she doesn’t mention it. Maybe she’ll mention it later. But she’s focusing more on introductions and all that...as much as she also doesn’t care what others think of her very much. Eh, whatever. 

She did notice how he seemed almost robotic- ‘Mr. Fowler, more like Mr. Robot’, she thinks, but to be honest? He seemed the type to be like that. “ I’d say I’m feeling prepared. Of course, I’m not an idiot to think it’s not going to be hard, teenagers are wild and like to rebel, but kids will be kids. ” 

Every adult surely knows that, they all were once the same age as the very kids their now teaching after all. “ We can only prepare them for the future they’ll face- and as we all know, being an adult sucks, and the world as a whole sucks. But we’re stuck with it, and those kids are stuck with it too. ”

[inevoblivia]

You know what will be beautiful? It’s when Hitori isn’t alone anymore. All of her life, she’s had to be strong and do all of the awful hard things and make all the hard decisions by herself, she’s always been alone even though there were people around her. She’s always had to do everything by herself, with no support from anyone, in fact everyone turned against her once she made the most difficult decision in her life. Actively, she’s long accepted she’ll be forever alone, and so that’s why she willingly played the role of the villain in order to try to unite humanity.

Her name means ‘Alone’ for a reason.

But perhaps, for once, Hitori can finally gain a companion. Someone who will support her, comfort her, give her the sense of not being alone that she’s never been able to experience for so long. It won’t be easy, as Hitori is very used to being alone, to a point where it’s difficult for her to accept people trying to help her...

But, I’m sure that eventually, she’ll get the companion she’s always wanted and needed, and she’ll no longer be alone anymore for the rest of her days. 

And that just...makes me so, so happy. I won’t go into the details, but I was in a sort of similar position to Hitori until I met my best friend. And one of Hitori’s main growth points is going through what I did, finally getting a companion to support and be with her. God, that’s going to be an emotional day whenever that happens.

Either way, adore Hitori, man. She’s just a sad, lonely woman whose had to make so many hard decisions for her world that she believed would guarantee her to be alone forever. 

[inevoblivia]

What tragic horror character trope are you?

the final girl

the final girl comes out the other end of trauma alive- or, they were supposed to. honestly, you're not so sure you're really alive anymore. you saw the same hurt take those you were closest to while everyone paraded your bruises as bravery, as strength, as if you're the hero. and it hurts. you're tired and you don't want to have to be brave anymore. whatever you went through, it changed so much of who you were that you're still getting used to the person you see in the mirror. you didn't have a say in any of it, but you're here now, and that's gotta count for something. you'll make it count for something. but first, you need to let yourself find rest.

Tagged By: I think I stole it but I forgot from who.

Tagging: Whoever wants to do this.

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wonderloste​:

“  THEY WERE ALWAYS DORMANT  ,  fearsome creatures who once oppressed the citizens of Wonderland in the age of steam.”  He refers to the steam golem, whose corpse now rots within the marshes of what had once been, he supposes, the ruins of the city. Whatever it’d been, it was grown over with flora and rivers.  “This world did not run on steam machinery, once upon a time. They say Wonderland would never change based upon the psyche of the outsiders who fall into it, now.”

How curious this was, that she ended up here with this strange man in this strange land completely unfamiliar to her. She never anticipated she’d be here in this situation- but she never anticipated everything she’d gone through prior to ending up in this world, either. “ ‘Age of steam’, huh? I’ve never heard of anything like it...or seen anything like these things. ” She says as she examines the corpse that the man referred to, the machinery unfamiliar to her, given she came from a world that preceded much technological advancement. 

She felt almost as if she should point out how he spoke in contradictions, but decided against it; she was the type to just go along with whatever the world threw at her, anyway. She’s had to kill a god and send her world onto the fast track to death because it’s alternative fate would’ve been far worse. Really, dealing with a world that makes no sense along with a man who makes just as little sense surely cannot be as difficult as that. But life always liked to screw her over, so she shouldn’t let her guard down. 

“ This world really is a weird place. But I figured that out waaay before I encountered you. ” The marshes, the odd creatures she saw around, that probably definitely crazy cat who gave her some weird cryptic crap she didn’t understand one bit, and now this. All of it added up into her coming to the conclusion this place was weird- and that’s her being nice with her word choice, by the way. “ At least this place is better than my world in some ways...no wait, I take that back. The moment I say something like that, this world is probably going to prove me wrong. ” But she did already say it, so for all she knew this world would slap her in the face any minute now.

“ I do have to wonder, WHY would these things oppress the very people I would’ve assumed made them? Some evil ruler make them for that purpose? Some evil god? Wait, let me guess...you don’t know, do you? ” It was always the case, the nature of creations from civilizations now long fallen was rarely known to those who proceeded to succeed them. Still, she wanted to ask, given she was intrigued. But given what she just said, it was clear she was anticipating to be told that no one really knew.

[inevoblivia]

A long, drawn out yawn leaves the mouth of the young woman as she stretched. “ Aaaah, that was a nice nap...it’s already night? Well then...guess that was a nice sleep, I suppose... ”

[inevoblivia]

ELEMENTS OF TEYVAT.

bold for what always applies, italic for ‘sometimes’ or ‘in certain verses’.

ANEMO

a sense of restlessness. a wish upon a dandelion seed. well-worn walking boots. the taste of sweet white wine. a bird’s wings outstretched in flight. unable to sit still for long. a notebook filled with poetry. seeking solitude to think. a tendency towards pushing oneself too hard for the sake of others. a scrapbook filled with photographs of places travelled to. happy whistling in the morning. a clear blue sky. the wind ruffling through your hair. the sleeplessness that comes from having too much and nothing to do all at once. the smell of freshly cut grass in the summer. four-leaf clover. grapes ripening on the vine. a spinning compass. the tune of a song you have forgotten the words to long ago. hiding your pain behind a smile. our greatest duty is to others.

GEO

as solid and dependable as foundations of stone. wondering about those who walked this road before you. an unshakeable will. statues weathered by the passing of time. glimmering jewels. golden opulence. solemn memories. respecting tradition, yet not bound by it. oral legends passed down through families. the silence of a tomb. dusty old books. pleasantly fragrant tea. candles flickering at the altar. perfectly cut jade. the softness of expensive silk. hearth and home. stronger than you look. lilies blooming under the full moon. the smell of a hearty meal served by a loved one. a night at the opera. a story told over dinner amongst friends. ornate chopsticks. sunrise over distant peaks. those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it.

ELECTRO

a preference for familiar routine. sakura blossoms drifting on a gentle breeze. troubled thoughts, darkening clouds. fireworks bursting across the summer night’s sky. the sweetness of candy on the tongue. each day like the one before it. peacefully reading under a tree. a remarkable person thought strange by many. wits as sharp as a blade. afraid of what the future holds. crumbling like a castle of sand. a sudden growl of thunder to interrupt a previously pleasant afternoon. strict adherence to the rules of tradition. desperately trying to hold on to a fleeting dream. fearful of your own potential. an explosive temper. the calm before the storm. relentless in pursuit of your goals. absolute clarity of vision. turning of the hourglass. the only true ending is being forgotten.

DENDRO

wandering barefoot in the grass. hands cupped around fresh garden soil. a crown of wildflowers. sun-kissed skin. freckles like a constellation. grass-stained clothes. the background noise of chatter in a busy market. strong roots in unstable ground. the woods are lovely, dark and deep. the fresh scent of crushed medicinal herbs. often preferring plants to people. finding joy in causing a garden to bloom. always knowing things that others don’t. heart like an open book around those who matter. burdened by all that knowledge. advocating growth. trading in secrets. grieving the agony of the earth. green-fingered. a bath filled with flower petals. knows how to kill you with 20 different poisons. loves even the most ugly of blooms. full of childlike wonder. the flower that blooms in adversity. be less the innocent flower, and more the viper underneath it.

HYDRO

scent of the first spring rain. as swift and graceful as the river. a taste of salt: the sea or one’s own tears?. moonlight on the surface of a lake. footprints laid out before you in the sand. hearing the waves when you hold a seashell to your ear. a singular cause that means everything. a torrent of grief that threatens to drag you under. shimmering fish-scales. small stones cast huge ripples. the courage it takes to do what is right. fate is a force more powerful than the will of gods or man. firm and resolute. the call of the tides. feeling always somehow inadequate. the sea is both a cradle and a tomb. a quiet pride in one’s accomplishments. a sense of justice that can’t be broken. intent on communication: even if you’re saying what they don’t want to hear. keeping your promises. always the first one to step forward. preferring night to day. starlight, star-bright.

PYRO

fist raised in protest. was studying the blade while everyone else was busy getting laid. clash of steel upon steel. the sweat of one’s brow and the strength of one’s back. iron heart, iron will. black-ash sand. burning in righteous fury for past wrongs. blazing creativity. passion as hot as the unrelenting sun. light up the night. bloody knuckles. molten lava. the strong one for the sake of others. merry laughter. often misunderstood. loving and hating fiercely. the smoke of the forge. hammer and tongs. the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb. raising your voice where it counts. sunburned shoulders. fire-red hair. a drink between friends before the battle begins. relentless hope despite everything. anger forged in the fires of past trauma. never hide your light from others. loud, but kind. i can’t carry it for you, but i can carry you.

CRYO

the crown weighs so heavy. softly falling snow. mountain peaks under a frosty twilight. a cold and cautious exterior to shield your broken heart. a feeling like you just don’t belong. desperately reaching out for love that never comes. a chill so deep it makes your bones ache. breath misting in the air. catching snowflakes on your tongue. it must never happen again. tear trails still frozen on your cheeks. the beauty of a snowflake. the snow queen was always your favourite fairy-tale. some things you just can’t speak about. cruelly crushed innocence. pushing others away, even though you really want to let them in. eerily echoing bells, slow as a funeral toll. empty halls once filled with laughter. a photograph hidden in a drawer. a rose wilting in a sudden snap frost.

[inevoblivia]

🤔 - What’s something they’ll never understand? 🖌️ - Do they have any hobbies? 🍽️ - What’s their favorite food?

🤔 - What’s something they’ll never understand?

How people can be so idealistic and hopeful in the face of the horrors of the world. She can’t understand how they can just...still remain steadfast in their hopeful ideals and beliefs. 

She even hates some people who are like that because she finds it almost idiotic or flat out foolish. Especially when they go on rants about their ideals and to still have hope in a world so flawed and near the end of it’s days.

She really needs someone to bonk her and show her that the world isn’t completely full of despair. Will that person ever come? We’ll see.

🖌️ - Do they have any hobbies?

Surprisingly, yes. Calligraphy and astronomy specifically, Hitori’s got some of the most stunning handwriting you’ve ever seen- and also writing in general she’s super good at. 

And astronomy is more so she researches it whenever she’s got nothing better to do and feels like it. Her world’s astronomy is obviously behind modern times’ understanding but y’know. She’s quite smart actually when she wants to display that she is.

🍽️ - What’s their favorite food?

I’d say Hitori likes a variety of foods and doesn’t really have a specific favorite especially since she’s not that picky either, though some of the ones she likes more so than others includes tofu, wagashi, and gyoza.

[cowboahs]

quotes that broke me starters

feel free to adjust pronouns / names as needed !

quotes taken from random sources or tiktok. i claim no ownership whatsoever.

❛   i’m supposed to be the one who protects you from monsters. i’m not supposed to be one.  ❜  

❛   if i could make a deal with god, and i’d get him to swap our places.  ❜  

❛  no one heard our screams for a long time.  ❜  

❛   i know so many last words. but i’ll never know hers.  ❜  

❛   there is a home for every departed thing.  ❜  

❛   it reminded me that i will never truly know you.  ❜  

❛   i also buried a part of myself alongside them.  ❜  

❛   after you died i could no longer hold a funeral. so my life became the funeral.  ❜  

❛   you don’t have to be awake to cry.  ❜  

❛   forgive me, for all the things i did. but mostly the things i didn’t do.  ❜  

❛   the human eye is the loneliest creation of all.  ❜  

❛   fairness is for happy people.  ❜  

❛   the things we lost will always be heavier than the things that stayed.  ❜  

❛   perhaps it is the greater grief, to remain on the earth when another is gone.  ❜  

❛   you stain the pages with yourself.  ❜  

❛   tears will not wash away the sorrow.  ❜  

❛   beautiful things grow a certain height and then they fall and fade off.  ❜  

❛    who in all these centuries has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?  ❜  

❛   i have scars on my hands from touching certain people  ❜  

❛   despite everything, i believe that people are really good at heart.  ❜  

❛   you tried to change, didn’t you?  ❜

❛   you can’t make homes out of people. someone should have taught you that.  ❜  

❛   i hid my deepest feelings so well, i forgot where i placed them.  ❜  

❛   we have no scar to show for happiness. we learn so little from peace.  ❜  

❛   i didn’t leave because i stopped loving you. i left because the longer i stayed, the less i loved myself.  ❜  

❛   at every moment in our life, we have one foot in a fairytale & the other in the abyss.  ❜  

❛   there are too many sad eyes on happy faces.  ❜  

❛   it’s strange, i felt less lonely when i didn’t know you.  ❜  

❛   things change, friends leave. life doesn’t stop for anybody.  ❜  

❛   it takes a lifetime to die, and no time at all.  ❜  

❛   i am deathly afraid of almosts. of coming close to what i want and then falling just a little short.  ❜  

❛   i felt your absence.  ❜  

❛   what do we do now, now that we are happy?  ❜  

❛    you honestly thought anybody would love you? purely and truly love you?  ❜  

❛   don’t stop looking. he deserves to know someone saw his end, that someone noticed him.  ❜  

❛    i can bear my pain so long as it has meaning.  ❜  

❛   i dont have a single friend - not one.  ❜  

❛   i’ve had more than enough pain in my life, what’s a little more going to do?  ❜  

❛    it would have been you if i met you first.  ❜  

❛    i really thought he was going to be my forever.  ❜  

❛    maybe in the next life it would work.  ❜  

❛   in spite of everything, you’re still you.  ❜  

❛   the dead have it easy.  ❜  

❛   there’s an ocean of silence between us, and I’m drowning.    ❜  

❛   there have been countless times in my life when i thought i’d be better off dead.  ❜  

❛   what on earth… have i become?  ❜  

❛   don’t look at me! i don’t … i don’t want you seeing me like this.  ❜  

❛   i wish i could’ve been like you.  ❜  

❛   your fate was sweeping you away, like a flood.  ❜  

❛   the future should know the mistakes we made.  ❜  

❛   of course you have. you feel guilt. you want redemption.  ❜  

❛   i’m here because you can’t accept what you’ve done. it broke you.  ❜  

❛   even now, after all you’ve done, you can still go home.  lucky you . ❜  

❛   you’re all that’s left, and we can’t live this lie forever.  ❜  

❛    prometheus gave us light, and warmth, and eternal damnation.  ❜  

❛   take a gamble that love exists, and do a loving act.  ❜  

❛    i know i ruined your life. i suffer for it every day.  ❜  

❛   don’t let yourself get killed for… for pride. i’ve seen it kill too many folk.  ❜  

❛    you and me, we ain’t decent… but those folk… they were.  ❜  

❛   we’re more ghosts than people.  ❜  

❛   despite my best efforts to the contrary… it turns out i’ve won.  ❜  

❛   i gave you all i had … i did.  ❜  

❛   this whole time, I’ve blamed myself for that decision.  ❜  

❛   do you think even the worst person can change…? That everybody can be a good person, if they just try? ❜  

❛   i don’t want to break their hearts all over again. it’s better if they never see me.  ❜  

❛   please leave me alone. i can’t come back. i just … can’t, okay?  ❜  

❛   no matter the struggles or hardships you faced… you strived to do the right thing, you refused to hurt anyone. ❜  

❛    people like you don’t ever want to be happy.  ❜  

❛   i don’t want to let go. i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❜  

[inevoblivia]

Anyone whose not Salem’s literal enemy/target (looking at you Gale) gets a one time offer to hide somewhere with Hitori away from Salem. Because Hitori does NOT want to deal with this right now and others who don’t want to deal with this right now can not want to deal with this right now with Hitori. Consider this carefully.

[inevoblivia]

...sheneedstofindahidingspotorsomethingasapdeargod

[inevoblivia]

MUSE ICON MEME.

when happy:

when sad:

seeing something they want:

seeing someone they dislike:

when their berserk button is pushed:

Tagged by: Took this from @crxstallium​

Tagging: Anyone who wanna do this!

[inevoblivia]

Hitori just doesn’t understand how people are able to have hope in the world, or how people can be so idealistic. She has little reason for going on with life besides a fear of death, and a tiny desire for things to become better, even if she knows it’s foolish. She doesn’t get how people can base their entire lives upon ideals. Will she ever understand? Who knows.

[inevoblivia]

…And this was why she served Salem rather than opposed her.

[inevoblivia]

Well besides the fact she was forced to serve Salem since Salem murdered her parents and gave her the choice between death or servitude.

[inevoblivia]

...And this was why she served Salem rather than opposed her.