Life is so strange and interesting. If I ever sit down to think about it I think I'm living in a comic book style reality. Life imitates art, if you choose to think of it that way. I'm learning more about the nature of the self. It's pretty clear I will never have anything but a flowing river of perspectives on reality but maybe I can let those go and just live authentically immersed.
I've been pretty fortunate to have been introduced to a community of people who keep each other on track asking the important questions. It's still an individual path to find answers. There are so many ways to seek. I feel a nudging from within to explore certain things without being attached to results or even the process.
Maybe this is all a part of being in my 30s. I've held some of the same patterns in my mind and actions for so long that they've worn out their place in this life. Getting older is a trip and it has nothing to do with self awareness.
On a more practical level, I will probably take a break from a few things to get focused on moving and resetting my linear life. I don't know exactly what will need to go on the shelf for a bit but this is necessairy if I am to engage more authentically. Work is going to pick up again soon. I know this and my injury has prevented me from engaging in the protests. My plan of action is to cut the costs of my food and consumption so I can buy from or donate to artists raising funds for important causes.
I've been terrible with money my whole life but that really doesnt need to be the case. I think I always thought amassing funds was a pointless way of engaging in society. Now, I see that there is something very useful that can be done with even a couple hundred extra a month. I certainly couldn't see that when I was struggling more.
Just more rambles for the void.
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