So my ancient art professor is a palmist aswell. I asked him to read mine and he threw some verdicts that didn’t amaze me at first, such as how I looked upon a male relative for guidance (which I don't seem to do anymore), how tidy I liked things to be, how appearance only means a strict thing when it comes to myself but I can careless about others’ because i tend (or try) to notice what's within, I use my hands as an expression outlet, how I’ve always let myself to walk forward led by intuition and how I’ve solved my life and work for it to happen just like I see it in my head.
Then he got into deeper levels about myself:
My endless omnipresent need to be understood so I can unlock my potential to anyone who isn’t me.
Being defeated matters to me slightly more than a heart scratch and the time I spend to get over it (he found, -and I agree with him- that I use excessive amounts of time and harsh thoughts.)
How my priorities aren’t worthy for this world’s pace since I’ve worked –and still do it- too much on me that I forget to find the time to share myself to other people.
But when he got to my core he had me nearly in tears.
He found the social-relationships line to be slightly deeper than anyother and was crossing both experimental and professional lines which only meant the effect of rupture between these 3. Then he got a closer look.
I detest being disloyal or dishonest to people so much that I always expect them to treat me equally.
9 out of 10 people I make contact with will betray my interests no matter how I’ve put all my faith, resources and energy and no matter how much I trusted and made them trust me.
1 out of ten won’t do the same but my real problem is being too stubborn to find and reach that someone since statistically it will only mean that I will get drained by helplessly hopeless 9 cases.
He told me that I had to start betraying 9/10 too. It’s nothing I’ll be fond of doing because what my father taught me is far from that. But I should reconsider if it will get me to a higher level of sense while I’m here struggling vs the world. So I think I should better start practicing.
Means that i won't have to keep my word and stop defending what i said or meant because it is a treat that's fading out of earth's surface and people ignore the great value behind it. Pretty sad thing to know compromising yourself to others means hardly a thing now.
I’m truly sorry, dad, i'm sure you're 1/10 too.
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