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Summer ‘25

Became 30TH ranked poet in the nation at Southern Fried Poetry Slam

Was invited to LEAF Global Arts Festival’s invitational poetry slam in October

Hosted a workshop for the writing program that launched my career at 14

Became a substitute teacher

Began the process of applying for my Masters degree

#personal #selfies #college

Spring ‘25

Became head of events for Mental Health Ambassadors

Declared a minor in philosophy

Went to my first protest in several years

Registered for my first slam tournament (Southern Fried Poetry Slam)

Made a whole friend group

#selfies #personal

Fall ‘24

First semester at University; fell in love with the campus, proved my ability to myself, and finish in 3 weeks.

Became a Mental Health Ambassador for my University; working as an events coordinator

Did a small book promo tour, still with three appearances to go before this year ends!

Turned 23, happily

Did my first open mic in years

Was invited by the Alabama State Poetry Society to host a workshop; did so and knocked it out of the park!

Explored the city my University is in, fell in love with the cuisine.

It’s been a killer semester. Here’s to many more ❤️🐉

#selfies #personal #college

Buy a copy of my newest book, A Living Thing, on Amazon using this link!

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Summer ‘24

Published my second book, A Living Thing, available now on Amazon.

Went to Atlanta, Georgia for a national poetry convention where my book was released.

Judged a round of a national poetry slam.

Met many amazing people, including Georgia Me.

Got a new job making the most of any job I’ve had so far.

Discovered the joy of my local farmer’s market, and go almost every week.

#selfies #personal #college #my poetry

Spring ‘24

Graduated community college (with honors)

Accepted to my top choice university

Got a full ride scholarship for my bachelors degree

Published my new book, set to release this summer on Amazon

Bought a new car, 2023 Corolla with only 25k miles

Got my first colored tattoos

#personal #selfies #college

🎄Fall ‘23🎄

Participated in my college’s Beauty Pageant

Got really involved in History Club

Saw The Front Bottoms live in concert

Finished prepping for my college transfer and got all my final credits lined up

Celebrated my 22nd birthday

Featured in a literary magazine

#selfies #personal

🤍SUMMER ‘23🤍

Saw City Morgue in concert for the second time ( Atlanta )

Completed two mini term classes with both A’s

Had a NASCAR experience (won on the radio !!)

Began my quest to find a new car

Sister came to visit from TN

Commissioned a SUPER NEAT PORTRAIT from my friend Verla :)

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My writing mentor flew in from CA ❤️

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““About all you can do in life is be who you are. Some people will love you for you. Most will love you for what you can do for them, and some won’t like you at all.” - Rita Mae Brown”

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you get used to it, but it's tiring, because they need you to understand your own life as a series of goalposts. what college are you going to, what's your major going to be, whatcha gonna do with that, oh where will you settle down, when can i expect grandkids.

for the longest time my goals have been so blurry that they track into each other, their undefined edges slipping quietly back into the soft night. today i want to be a writer; tomorrow i will want to be a doctor, later i will wish i took that law school free ride. how the fuck do people just know what they want to do with their life?

where do you want to be in five years? i want to be alive; which is a huge step for me. ten years ago i would have said i want to be asleep and meant i hope that i'm dead by then.

but i want a yellow kitchen and a standup mixer. i want a garden and a fruit tree (cherry, if i can make that happen) and a big yard for my dogs to play in. i want to come home and read poetry out loud to someone and have them close their eyes to listen. i want a summer watergun fight. i want to make snowmen. i want to be the house to go to for halloween. i want my life to settle around me in a softness, for it to lay down gently. if i am very, very, very lucky, i want to travel; finally go someplace overseas.

of course i don't know what i want to be doing professionally. what i actually want to be doing is curling up beside my dog, settling in to read. i want to be making myself a cup of good coffee.

i can't answer the other questions. whenever people asked me what do you want to be when you grow up, i used to say i hope i'm happy.

i hope i'm still kind, five years from now. i hope i never get jaded and mean. i hope i have stayed in therapy. what do you picture yourself doing? when will you actually be an adult about this? why are you so afraid of being ambitious?

am i not ambitious? the other day i rearranged my furniture which doesn't quite fit into my apartment. i watered my plants. i'm going to try to propagate a cherry seed. my five year goal is to spend more time laughing. to lie down in a patch of sunwarm moss. to relax for a minute. to close my eyes and think oh thank god. this is why i stayed. this is finally it.

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The best type of character is a girl who says "I am a completely normal girl" and the instant you actually learn anything about her it becomes incredibly clear that she is not even remotely normal.