Gemini J

Just a random middle aged woman trying random shit out to see what sticks. I needed a page to start logging things I am working on for growth, and it was too distracting to do it on my Facebook or my Twitter

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So glad Omaha finally has a goth bar

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Tomorrow I turn 54. Considering how many things should have killed me, I am pretty pleased with this.

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I miss Dr Steel so much. I think I understand why Rion Vernon retired this character, but I feel like we need him more than ever.

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Heh. Just occurred to me that today is my ex husband's birthday and he hasn't been on my mind until just now. June 2nd used to be a bit rougher for me. Granted, most of the rage and fear over what happened went away when the divorce was finalized, but his birthday was still rough.

I have to wonder if this is related to my recent trip to fix something on another ex's birthday. (Albeit I don't know how, because the issues with the other ex and his birthday were completely different)

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Just some random shots from my altars

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Going to see if I can remind myself to post a cash cow sigil daily.

This one is of my new favorite T-shirt that I bought on a very recent road trip. My intention is to get more money for more travel, financial success to both the small business I bought the shirt from and the artist who designed the shirt. (They're in an Appalachian town of less than 5k that's particularly difficult location for both sorts of gothy businesses to get by)

As far as the "group harmony" aspect goes. Part of it the intention is for an improved relationship with the estranged loved one I went to visit. The other is in hopes the small businesses involved will be increasingly beloved by the locals.

Also I just wanted to show off my dope ass shirt. I love Bride of Frankenstein and I love the ubiquitous 1990s sticker machine kitty, so this is a dream shirt for me

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When I was younger Inanna was very important to me. She was centered in many of my esoteric practices from my teens well into my 30s. Unfortunately, I separated myself from Her nearly two decades ago, due to some trauma involving my ex husband. Also, in that time I had developed a close relationship with Durga as my interface with the divine.

The past year or so I had started to feel a pull to start studying and honoring Inanna again, and reintegrate her into my practices. There was something blocking me from quite tapping into the energy.

Strangely, it was an interaction with yet another ex from my past, that made things click back into place.

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I chose this pic to use for the cash cow sigil, specifically because of the location it is in. For the purpose of this charge it represents being within an art community. As group harmony is as much a part of this sigil as wealth, I am hoping this brings an old friend something they need.

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Here's a song dedication that is neither goth nor Appalachian, for a distant Appalachian Goth friend. May he take it to heart. It helped me though my worst times when I just wanted to die

(lyrics below)

We're not scared to lose it all, security thrown through the wall

Future dreams we have to realise

A thousand sceptic hands won't keep us from the things we plan

Unless we're clinging to the things we prize

And do you feel scared?

I do

But I won't stop and falter

And if we threw it all away

Things can only get better

Treating today as though it was the last, the final show

Get to 60 and feel no regret

It may take a little time, a lonely path, an uphill climb

Success or failure will not alter it

And do you feel scared?

I do

But I won't stop and falter

And if we threw it all away

Things can only get better

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Aw, my poor little girl is on edge

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