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001. ADDENDUM.

Some important points to my portrayal that may or may not interfere with future canon (if they do, I might adjust them; chapter 6 has not been released yet as of writing this).

Idia has social anxiety. Writing them off as simply ‘shy’ or ‘timid’ ooc is something I am not a fan of, especially since it’s clear that they exhibit at least some signs of serious anxiety: talking quietly, ‘defensive’ poses, stuttering — to name a few. Your muse can do whatever they want and think whatever they want about this (after all, in real life it’s quite common for people to write anxiety off as simple nervousness and odd behaviour), I don’t mind it, but ooc do not treat it as some personality quirk. It’s not. It’s a serious problem that causes a lot of discomfort to the point where Idia cannot even attend meetings / ceremonies.

And Idia is not quite nice of a person. Just because they turn into a nervous mess when their anxiety affects them doesn’t mean they’re always non-confrontational and / or nice. It has been shown multiple times, although we don’t know the extent of it, but they exhibit the elitist gamer behaviour which is, frankly, toxic, and it seeps into real life too (as evidenced from Jamil’s Gala SR where Idia starts ranting about Jamil being a ‘bandwagon fan’ having only assumed that).

Additionally they’re shown to be perfectly capable of telling somebody off even in real life, if the other person does not see them / they don’t see the other person (Idia’s Robes SR where they have an argument with Riddle) — and while it is not a negative trait, if coupled with their hobbies it might prove to be rather a nuisance to deal with. Or, in some extreme cases like Ghost Marriage MSQ, they can voice their not so nice thoughts even when looking at others, and have almost zero problems asking for help right after.

They also seem to like to egg Azul on (Azul’s Uniform R), and since they’re not shown to be anxious around him (or maybe to a way smaller degree than normal), we can assume it is what their real personality is like.

#headcanons.#[ i rest my case but basically yeah ]#[ living in fear of ch6 bc i hope it wont just erase their anxiety ]#[ esp since it seems really bad. like REALLY bad ]

poiseons:

Despite attending the same school as Idia Shroud for three years, Vil rarely has to deal with their … peculiar nature. Their references always fall flat, and he can never tell if they think themselves some sort of comedian by the words they use. The fact that the two of them are the same age only serves to baffle him more, and he lets out a sigh. ❝ Yes, it’s me. ❞ Arms crossed over his chest, he then expects the door to open for him to continue what he has to say, but it stays closed. And there’s no sounds within that indicate what Idia’s doing, leading to the impatient expression upon Vil’s face. ❝ …Surely you heard what I said. I said I needed to speak to you. It’s important. ❞

Usually he wouldn’t mind taking the time to explain his reasonings but today it was urgent – and he has little time to spare to play a game of make believe with the other. ❝ Open your door, and don’t you dare tell me there’s some sort of ‘code’ I need to say before you’ll open it. ❞

“C-Code? No, there is none but...” They waver, stuttering a bit, pitch rising. Could it be they failed their courage roll? Could it be the sheer aura of this celebrity that inflicted them with a penalty to their rolls?? Surely that wasn’t the problem earlier this year with the other dorm leader.

“You only want to talk, so why should I open my door?!” Maybe it’s the demanding tone of Vil that makes them think that if anything — if push real comes to shove — he’d dislodge the door and it will be GAME OVER. It’s not possible, is it? Is it?? (little did they know Vil is not some frail beauty) “Someone like you should not be in my presence... Your beauty will be corroded...” That sounds like a last resort to get someone (Vil) off their back (and it totally is one) so Idia doesn’t have to move from their comfortable position or (and?) open the door. (not that it’s completely untrue when they speak of their self as they’d rather not be perceived — or, for that matter, be around such a celebrity: oh, who knows just what might rub off on Vil? They wouldn’t be able to handle all the internet rumors about some weird person with hair on fire— but Ignihyde students aren’t so low, right?)

#poiseons #ic.#v: twst.#[ the dumbbells in vil's room still scare me ]

poiseons:

He stands for a minute in front of the door, pondering his next move. There’s no doubt that his presence has already been noticed, given the amount of screens and cameras within the Ignihyde dorm. Paranoia and awkwardness seems to be the true motto here ― what he wouldn’t give to teach the students here proper etiquette and posture. Vil gives a small huff to clear his mind before giving hard knocks upon the metal plate. ❝ Idia. I know you’re in there. I need to speak to you. ❞

@inhaides

There is never free time in Idia’s schedule: it is either being productive and working on Ortho (or on something for Ortho) or indulging in a very valuable and necessary for their soul activity that sharpened their senses — in other words, escapism with games. Interrupting which isn’t recommended (but people tend to not care for others’ needs and instead be rather selfish); getting on dorm leader’s bad side, no matter how competent they are, is never a good idea.

However, today... Today Idia is either their unluckiest (most likely) or it’s a blessing in disguise (probably not), since it’s Pomefiore’s Vil Schoenheit himself who has so mercifully graced Ignihyde’s halls (and Idia’s door) with his radiant presence!.. Alas, Idia does not seem that eager to subject themself to that presence (or anyone’s for that matter).

But the game is already interrupted. The mood’s gone. So whatever.

“Oh-ho~, isn’t that Vil-shi?” The voice is almost monotone, with faked curiosity. “Venturing in so deep... Makes me feel like a su-u-uper secret merchant, hehe.” They totally did not spend past few hours trying to get to a certain NPC that sells certain stuff, so a mere thought of somebody like Vil willingly going into Ignihyde’s dorm strokes their ego a bit too much.

...

They aren’t moving from their seat to open the door until it’s absolutely necessary.

#poiseons #ic.#v: twst.#[ iiiiiii have forgotten how to idia ]#[ but i hope this is okay......... ]

do you ever think about the fact that mr. crimson muscle that was mentioned in one of idia’s chats can be vargas? because i sure do

#ooc.#[ i wish twst would elaborate on that i mean. ]#[ a gaming teach sounds cool ]#[ even tho im of the same opinion as idia irt pe ]

i log on here to do liz’s starter and i proceed to be very productive (not)

#ooc.#tbd.#[ something something to apply a bit of pressure bc i gotta Stop procrastinating ]#[ it didnt help that my brain was occupied by azul and my oc but azul has vacated ]#[ so h. ]#[ i could maybe do a write up about idia's relationships w people ]#[ like how i perceive them + maybe preest that's different from canon ]#[ and do something about vice lead position unless canon mentioned it like w savanaclaw ]#[ or i could go on another deep dive into Lore and write up a f.fxiv verse ill never use ]#[ but. starter. yeah. ]

phiinae:

[ to: Idia S. ]: huh … I guess I get what you mean?

[ to: Idia S. ]: Doing the same thing over and over would drive sb crazy.

[ to: Idia S. ]: but anyway, I thought I’d just watch you two play??

[ to: Idia S. ]: actually now I think about it Azul probably won’t allow that. He wouldn’t want to risk looking foolish by himself lol.

[ to: Idia S. ]: So sure, I don’t mind. Just let me know the details if he says yes ig?

[ to: 🐍 ] nah not that im fine w same shit over and over

[ to: 🐍 ] but i dont wanna use my brain all the time when playing u kno

[ to: 🐍 ] and ugh no you either play or go. i hate. being watched.

[ to: 🐍 ] i’d rather not play at all if it meant being watched. it’s not worth it.

[ to: 🐍 ] brb gonna ask him.

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[ to: 🐍 ] 10 pm, tomorrow, his room.

[ to: 🐍 ] [ File: Screenshot_200809.png ]

[ to: 🐍 ] how to navigate through the dorm

[ to: 🐍 ] we don’t have classes next day so

[ to: 🐍 ] and the whole thing will take a few hours...

#phiinae #ic.#v: twst.#[ theyre fine they just. had an anxiety spike ]#[ o god finally the rpg thread will commence ]#[ its gonna be a mess im loving it already ]#[ ok tumblr be an ass w formatting. ok ]#[ had to put them in bc >:( it would erase the break ]

😔 (edit: okay no pls dont make it big it looks awful)

#ooc.#tbd.#[ ive had so little energy past week or so ]#[ + headaches past few days bc weather ]#[ hi im a big snail ]#[ so sorry for being v slow w replies ;w;;; ]#[ doesnt help that f.go has a grindy event and ]#[ 5.3 is dropping in a few days haha ha h aaa ]#[ maybe after it ill write out idias f.fxiv verse just for myself bc i like the concept i have for them ]

phiinae:

[ to: Idia S. ] So you’re both acting basically??? That’s interesting.

[ to: Idia S. ] Azul I could see, but are you comfortable with that, senpai? I feel like Azul’s personality might overpower yours…

[ to: Idia S. ] Oh sorry if that’s rude.

[ to: Idia S. ] But if Azul’s luck is as bad as you say I’d like to see his face when he fumble his rolls

[ to: 🐍 ] Overpower... Heh.

[ to: 🐍 ] I’m not the one who gets baited so easily when you tease him about losing

[ to: 🐍 ] i’m also not the one who’s afraid of unpredictable games

[ to: 🐍 ] strategy this strategy that it gets sooooo boring after a while

[ to: 🐍 ] games arent always there to work your brain ughhh

[ to: 🐍 ] anyway, i derailed. yes, it’s all acting, and i take it you want to join? ..........

[ to: 🐍 ] that’s........ ,,,,,,,, unexpected

[ to: 🐍 ] i guess i should ask him abt this??

#phiinae #ic.#v: twst.#[ god f jamil thats hell hes walking into ]#[ dm idia is not kind or benevolent ]#[ idia vc at least im not baby like azul i can take a gamble ]#[ we all know they play gacha games theyre used to this ]#[ but they do admire azul for the lengths hes willing to go i mean ]#[ learning how to roll a die like!! sweetie..... ]#[ they prob have a similar respect towards jamil?? or will ]

i promise i’ll try to get to threads tmr bc i planned today but i. got busy.

meanwhile fun fact: since idia’s aroace they’re immune to any romantic / sexual charms, spells, abilities — you name it. i doubt twst will implement smth like this but it goes for any other verses too, said stuff simply does not work on them and never will, especially since they exhibit no interest in that area of life. neither they have a good understanding of it, preferring to treat it as a task to complete. yeah no, they’ll stick to killing the bosses and raiding dungeons, thanks.

#ooc.#headcanons.#[ i guess??? ]#[ their third chat is literally the biggest aro mood ]

i was about to make an insightful post about ‘what if ppl from t.wst get into a m.obage event’ but... i realized t.wst itself is a m.obage... with events...

#ooc.#tbd.#[ ugh... ive been grinding this thing for like 6+ hours be nice to me ]#[ but like what if. during i.gnihyde chapter ppl are transported into vr ]#[ WHAT IF ]#[ also look at :pensive: idia bc they cute ]#[ as soon as im done farming ill get to stuff on here sobs ]

cattell’s 16 test. // repost, don’t reblog!

Warmth |||||| 14% ( cold, selfish ) Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% ( cerebral, analytical ) Emotional Stability ||||||||| 30% ( irritable, moody ) Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||| 58% ( controlling, tough ) Liveliness ||||||||| 30% ( somber, restrained ) Dutifulness ||||||||| 26% ( untraditional, rebellious ) Social Assertiveness ||| 10% ( shy, withdrawn ) Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 54% ( touchy, soft ) Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% ( wary, suspicious ) Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% ( strange, imaginative ) Introversion |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% ( private, quiet ) Anxiety ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% ( fearful, self-doubting ) Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% ( curious, exploratory ) Independence |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% ( loner, craves solitude ) Perfectionism ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% ( orderly, thorough ) Tension |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% ( stressed, unsatisfied)

tagged by: @phiinae tagging: i think everyone’s done it

#tagged.#[ honestly some of these heavily depend on situation you think of them in ]#[ but. yeah. ]

phiinae:

[ to: Idia S. ] Oh. Azul. That would explain it.

[ to: Idia S. ] But a TTRPG? What does that even mean?

[ to: Idia S. ] I figured your club was more for things like chess.

[ to: 🐍 ] A tabletop role-playing game. To put it very simply, you create and play a character with their actions being determined by rolls of dice.

[ to: 🐍 ] I definitely did not pitch this idea because Azul is bad with dice...

[ to: 🐍 ] He might have learned how to roll a 6-sided die so it’d (most likely) land on a number he wants, but he can’t do the same to a 20-sided die.

[ to: 🐍 ] His LCK is so abysmal... www

[ to: 🐍 ] But I do not think we should be restricted to board games only... They can get tiring and I’d rather do something less restrictive sometimes.

#phiinae #ic.#v: twst.#[ you: im clearing out drafts ]#[ me: here have this ]#[ idk why they r a bit bulli to azul.......... ]#[ also im. idia texts so formally w jamil for now its cute ]#[ for now bc its a matter of time till they just say fuck it and text normally ]

I switched accounts on mobile just for this but god I'm both happy and in fear about the new event w Idia (F my ssr Idia fund).

So like my main issue is that if twst gonna act like Idia can do stuff if they just try as suggested by a dancing outfit when it's so not true. It has been canonically stated that they get physically sick from social anxiety and if the game won't treat it seriously I'll be fucking disappointed. I myself suffer from extremely bad anxiety (like, even considering following / interacting with people first sometimes can make me physically sick, that's how bad it is) so if it's just gonna be brushed aside like it has been all my damn life I'm gonna be very, very, very mad and upset.

#ooc.#tbd.#( probably )#( ask to tag if anything but im just ughh )#( like im really happy they deserve everything but!!!!!!!!!!! )#( i just dont trust ppl w anxiety stuff sometimes )#( i want a proper rep for struggles ive been facing god knows how long )#( because every time i see sb talk about anxiety they end up doing stuff i can't )#( like ik not everyone's anxiety is the same but it always made me feel like im doing smth wrong )#( if i cant so stuff people w anxiety can (because silly me didn't think she had anxiety) )#( but im just here ranting eh )#( dont mind me 😔 )#( like i am 90% excited 10% fear i just had to like )#( make it clear on here i wont tolerate any glossing over struggles Idia faces )#( ill do replies when i have enough energy 😭 bc ive been lacking it )#( sorry abt this i just have Feelings over this whole stuff )

thornsraised:

[ to: idia-kun 💀 ] bishounen… i hadn’t even considered him as bishounen but he fits the archetype spot-on, doesn’t he??

[ to: idia-kun 💀 ] LOL idia you are a GENIUS (*≧ω≦*)

[ to: idia-kun 💀 ] full-body tracking vr is the obvious next step in this progression and i’ll have to start working on setting that up right away!!

[ to: idia-kun 💀 ] once we see how this dance pad works…

[ to: idia-kun 💀 ] we’ll start working on the next level (◕‿◕)

[ to: 🦇 ] yeah... and one of

[ to: 🦇 ] princess archetypes too ngl like

[ to: 🦇 ] all animals gather around him when he sleeps...

[ to: 🦇 ] u right tho but we just gotta see how the dance pad works

[ to: 🦇 ] what if he cant clear that

[ to: 🦇 ] then hes not ready for the real challenge

#thornsraised #ic.#v: twst.#[ i mean hes getting stronger so theres that?? ]#q.

@doodlesuit / accidental text sc.

[ to: ??? ] do you ever just sit there and wonder just what is vargas

[ to: ??? ] is there a hidden quest for a boss fight with him

#doodlesuit #ic.#v: twst.#[ i hope its fine that idia complains abt vargas dfjhgd ]#q.

skarlr:

[ to: ??? ] …wtf, it’s 4m???

[ to: ??? ] …imposter cat? what’s that supposed to mean?

[ to: ??? ] u always stay up later than me stfu

[ to: ??? ] and hes not a real cat like have u seen him ugh

[ to: ??? ] if u gonna look like a cat at least be pettable

#skarlr #ic.#v: twst.#[ i m so sorry ]#q.

@maelfica / accidental text sc.

[ to: ??? ] so i was thinking abt going to class tmr but ughhh dealing with normies dont wanna

[ to: ??? ] idk who knows

[ to: ??? ] the stars might not align

#maelfica #ic.#v: twst.#[ i hope this is ok dfjhkdg ]#q.

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