In Memory of VF

[youtherealmvip]

…And it’s a comforting feeling, to have loved, because it means one is capable of doing so; as is belonging to another, knowing you meant so much to someone as they mean to you. And to accept such loss is courage, that one day you will find something greater than what has been. 

[youtherealmvip]

Gmh.

[inmemoryofvf]

In memory of you; In which today would have been our 3rd year together.

[inmemoryofvf]

That night when you told my friend

how to know if we were tipsy or not.

Classic.

[youtherealmvip]

One thousand days, one thousand cranes.

Do you believe in wishes?

You made me.

[inmemoryofvf]

I wanted to get that summer biology class that you wanted

and we tried getting it along with your friends. It was nine hours of waiting, but there was never a dull moment with you.

We didn't end up being classmates

but who would've thought we would be more

[inmemoryofvf]

I should have gone to that party

the one where you said you were going to with some of our friends

but I went home instead so that my parents would allow me to go to my friend's sleep over the next day.

But I don't think anything would have changed had I gone

[inmemoryofvf]

I always thought you were always too nice

because you helped me out with physics

and you'd go all the way to school just to teach me.

It was physics, and who does that?

[inmemoryofvf]

You gave me a USB on my birthday.

It contained videos of messages from my friends and our org mates.

It came with a Stitch phone accessory because "you'll need stitches if you keep falling for him!"; in reference to my first date, when I kept on tripping and falling down that night.

Little did I know I would need more stitches than ever after you were gone.

[inmemoryofvf]

I honestly don't know how we became friends

but I remember you changing your name in my phone book, 

adding the word “Prince” because it rhymed with your name.

I kept it like that for some time.

[inmemoryofvf]

There was a time when I saw you kiss her

before we left to sing Christmas carols in other houses

and I felt a tiny pinch in my heart as I looked away 

[inmemoryofvf]

It was the day before my debut

and it was our organization's anniversary ad hoc party.

I was about to leave, and I saw you. I wanted a picture with you.

We had the picture taken, but you pulled another of our friends in.

It turned out okay, but I wanted to crop her out so bad!

Don't worry, I didn't.

[inmemoryofvf]

There was a time when you were in the nook

and I stared at you for a second or two.

"What did you see in her? I wish it were just me."

And a year later, I started to believe that wishes do come true.

[inmemoryofvf]

You wished me good luck on the morning of my interview for our organization.

I asked you who you were paneling for, and you said you weren't allowed to tell.

A few minutes later, they led me into my room, and I saw you across the chair I had to sit in.

My heart beat faster, but it was not because of you. I was just nervous.

Hours passed, past fifty questions about the organization and its members later, you asked me to recite the preamble of our organization.

I stood up and recited, "We, the members of the---"

"Are you already a member?" asked your co-panel.

I breathe in. I didn't know what to say.

"....You, the members?"

The panel, including you, burst into laughter.

I knew I left a mark on you that day.

[inmemoryofvf]

I wanted a date for Valentine's day.

I had a bucket list of things to do before I turned 18, which included things like: I needed to ask someone out for a first date, I had to have a Valentine’s date, etc.

You were seated in front of me and my friends in Chem 1 class.

My friend Toffer asked me, “Why not him?”

I said, “He has a girl.”

I ended up asking a random friend from my street dance batch.

[inmemoryofvf]

I don't know why I put you as one of my eighteen roses.

I barely knew you, and the most interaction we had back then was when I hitched a ride back to school in your car with another friend from our org's chorale practice.

And as you met me in the dance floor, you bowed down, as if to ask me for a dance, and I felt so giddy inside. Kilig, as they say in our language.

We danced, they took pictures, and then it was over.

Later on, when we were together, we'd think of it as a sign that we were meant to be.

[inmemoryofvf]

My earliest memory of you

was when we were in the nook, and you commented on my costume for the day, back when I was an applicant for our organization. 

I told my friend, "I have a new crush!"

I would then later see you with your girl, and you would say good bye to me and my friend as both of you walked down the stairs of the great Palma Hall.

And then I told her, "Okay, never mind about that new crush."