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Kapan-kapan kesini lagi ya, pas langitnya cerah, tanpa mendung, hujan dan kabut.. https://www.instagram.com/p/B054zcUj5vK/?igshid=koxhbmc3ygp0

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Ingin membuat caption sok puitis seperti: "Marriage is a lifetime commitment, so it has to be with someone you can always count on, someone you can always talk to in every condition even when there’s no conclusion. Congratulation, you've found yours!!" Tapi sebenernya aku cuma mau bilang: "Sungguh Marasol aku tidak bersandar pada Kokok, itu hanya tipuan kameraaa!!"✌ Semangat menjalani hidup baru ya, Marasol! Kami tunggu cerita-cerita kocak lainnya 😘😘😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/BzX1zEHDXuD/?igshid=10z4hp2hc5uyv

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...for lighting up my life😇 💡 😎

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...for everything 💕

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... for making live far away from home become bearable 😘

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The Day

You know, I never like my birthday. Not that I hate it, I just don't like the idea of growing old. I don't want to get old. Year after year, people will give me harder question. The question they shouldn't have asked, because me myself never know the answer. Where's your boyfriend? When you'll gettin married? Why are you not getting prettier? I never like the idea of being the center of some fake attention. But I do love when all the best people in my life remember my birthday. It's always make me feel their gentle heart, their pure attention. I do love them so much.

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Tag your best friends- and thank them for being extra special. <3 :D

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Everyone makes mistakes and has shortcomings. Even if you fail at something, that is one thing out of your entire life, and it doesn’t make you a failure.

Bringing back this reminder! It’s ok to make mistakes. I’m super overwhelmed this week because I’m moving and there’s so many things to take care of, so I haven’t been able to draw very much. Hopefully things get better soon though!

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[9]

Happy birthday, you! I hope today will be a very great day and I wish you can get everything that you want in this life. I wish you have a happy and healthy life forever and ever. Maybe this is my last post about you. I promise myself to stop all of this unhealthy habit, and start living an easy life without you in my mind. Well then, happy birthday, again. I love you.

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[8]

Eight. Really? I’ve wrote seven posts about you, and this is gonna be the eighth.

You broke the record. Or maybe it’s just because I have more time to write now. I don’t know. But like I said before, I’ve never been too obsessed with a person other than you. You are the first person who make me feel the urge to have someone loving me back.

I feel so ashamed, and stupid, for loving you. For wanting you.

Arggghhhhh

Why can’t you just disappear from my mind?

Won’t you please being a jerk so I can hate you?

I don’t know what’s Gods plan for me, but honestly, I want someone like you to be my life companion. Someone just like you.

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But truly! You are also important, and we tend to forget about ourselves.

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I’ve been taking care of myself this week, so I hope you don’t mind me bringing back this old piece while I rest from drawing and coming up with new ideas! Hope you all take some time to look after yourselves too. <3

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Well, I wish I have that luxury.. All I need is just to be grateful. Again and again.

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You deserve someone who does these things for you! ❤️ Webtoon Link!

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Winter is Coming

Hellooo

It’s been a while, I currently busy working on my final task (nope, I just regularly open my laptop and read some article or just scrolling twitter timeline) LOL

Well, if lately I posted about ‘geu namja’, today I’ll tell you a story about my new life as ‘anak kosan’ hahaha

Since I recruited by this company and moved to Palembang, I officially live on my own, not with my family anymore, far away from my best friends. Here, in the middle of nowhere, me and some of my fellas started our new life and try to adapt with this town.

The town itself are my towns neighbor, so I have to be grateful for not be placed in a land far far away like some of my friends. Yes, I have to be grateful, because here, God gives me good companies. With them, I eat my lunch and dinner on time. They also push me to study with them. If they’re not here with me, maybe I’ll just laying on my bed all day long on the weekend. I’ll be the lazy hazy girl all alone hahaha

So thank God, in this coming winter, I have my company to face it.

Tomorrow we’ll be facing one of our exam, so wish us luck yaaah (yup, I keep asking for your prayer even tho I know no one reading this blog) :p

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[7]

‘Hai, selamat bertemu lagi, aku sudah lama menghindarimu...”

Yap, after three weeks, finally I couldn’t resist your charm. I shouldn’t have join that VC,  Maybe if I didn’t join, I wouldn’t feel this way. But the temptation was so real, I saw you on the list and it drove me crazy lol

I didn’t even talk, or turn my camera on, cause all I want is just to see your face. But then you called my name, and asked me to turn my camera on, asked about how I’m doing so far etc. I know it’s just you being nice, and maybe you always do that to everyone. But me and my dumb head always respond to your voice and words in a very excessive way. I’m so happy I didn’t realize that I broke my wall. The wall that I build for the last three weeks to defend my head from your charm.

You! Why are you so far away? Why can’t you feel the same way? Why don’t you love me?

Well, I realize that  I’m being too obsessive again, So I’ll start to build my wall again. I hope it won’t fall too easy like the last one.

HAH!!

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[6]

It’s been a while since the last time we chat.

I really did my best to avoid my own imagination about you in every way.

I didn’t scroll our chat, I didn’t respond your jokes on group chat either. I tried to keep busy with everything. That way, I’m not interacting with you anymore. Even my mind didn’t think about you as much as before, and that makes me a little happier.

But then, you come again through my dream. It destroyed all the progress.

Again, it’s not your fault. It’s my brain.

I keep trying to move, but then they send a picture of you, with hairy head. You look so dazzling and more attractive. God knows how many times I keep looking at that picture in awe.

Why so hard?

I can’t imagine how hard it is for Arie to forget Amik. How disappointed Aflah with his love life. Me with my one sided love is just nothing compared to their wrecked six years relationship.

Move on is hard, but that’s still do-able. So, I’ll keep trying. Because I don’t want to be a fool anymore. I don’t want to disgrace myself. I have to knock my brain and make it realize that sometimes what we want isn’t always right for us, and in living a hard life, we have to keep the balance between optimism and reality.

Let’s fight this feeling. YOU CAN DO IT!

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[5]

Hari ini Lebaran, dan aku merindukan kamu. Memang tidak ada hubungannya. Sejak kapan sih postinganku pernah nyambung hahaha Bahkan alamat blog, judul header, tema tulisan, semuanya, ga ada kaitannya satu sama lain. Jadi, ternyata ini udah postingan ke-5 yang aku tuliskan tentang kamu. Setelah aku baca ulang (tentu saja dengan perasaan geli dan jijik), ternyata keempat postingan sebelumnya isinya hampir sama. So, supaya agak beda, aku udah memutuskan kalo di postingan kali ini aku akan mencoba memahami kenapa aku bisa suka sama kamu. Aku suka kamu karena... Mungkin karena kamu itu... Cakep? Ga juga, masih ada temen kita yg lebih cakep dari kamu. Banyak. Baik? Iya baik sih, tapi ada yg lebih baik sama aku daripada kamu. I don't know. I just like you. Mungkin karena pada awalnya kamu mengingatkanku pada orang-orang yang aku sayang. Sahabat-sahabat terbaikku. Sifat kamu. Tingkah kamu. Lalu aku mulai memperhatikan tiap gerak kecilmu, aku rasa sejak saat itu aku mulai menghilang. Apakah aku berubah sejak menyukai kamu? Well, semoga tidak, karena aku tidak ingin kehilangan jati diriku hanya demi kamu yang bahkan mungkin tidak menginginkan kehadiranku. Wait, tadi konsepnya mau nyari tau kenapa aku bisa suka sama kamu kan ya? Kok malah jadi melenceng bahas diri aku sendiri sih -___- Ya intinya aku tetep gatau kenapa pada awalnya bisa suka sama kamu. Ya ampun tulisan ini alay banget. Tapi aku bakalan tetep memposting tulisan ini, supaya kelak ketika semua ini berakhir, aku jadi ingat betapa noraknya aku hahaha

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Listening to All I Can Think About Is You by Coldplay

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