chiaroscuro

31 yr old angel 18+ only ✦

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+32 finally finally finally

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i don’t want to live on the internet. i want to live in real life and in your imagination. i just use the internet to get in there

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i’m just biding my time until i can post directly to the inside of your eyelids

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That is a crazy amount of orgasms! I’m impressed!

How do you go about having so many orgasms and balancing a life?

thank you :)

finding balance can definitely be a challenge! i think it helps that i have experience with kicking addictions and recognizing when a habit is becoming a crutch or a problem.

my sexual needs and desires are very intense and though i’m capable of making myself orgasm pretty quickly with my fingers alone, getting the numbers i require can turn into a bit of a time consuming chore when i’m mostly managing it on my own. there are manyyyy reasons why i adore the man i have sex with, and the sex that we have, and one of those reasons is that he’s able to give me a massive boost in orgasm numbers in a very short amount of time. 30+ orgasms in under an hour is very efficient haha. i’m not able to give myself rapid-fire orgasms as easily, my body gets weak and it’s hard to push myself through the overstimulation. trapped in his big arms, i have no choice but to cum and cum and cuuuum.

but yeah, with my masturbation, i make sure to give myself 2 orgasms every day and if i have free time to indulge myself further i see it as a bonus. i’ve got a lot going on in my life that i’m passionate about to the same level that i’m passionate about orgasms!!

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What do you get off to preferably when you come so often?

well, a ton of my orgasms occur during partnered sex. these days it’s around 50/50, sex vs masturbation, that’s been a gradual shift. i used to never cum during partnered sex.

my masturbation inspo is wide ranging, though it’s almost always in my mind not on a screen. sometimes they’re very tame thoughts, including non sexual ones. thinking about the magic of all the love and life in the universe <3 thinking about kind things that have been said to me. thinking about people i respect telling me they’re proud of me. i often get off on just my connection to my own body, feeling my tender sensitive flesh under my fingers, feeling that organic electricity in a closed loop. i think about recent sexual experiences i’ve had, his hunger that only i can satisfy, him overwhelming me with more orgasms back to back than my body can handle, simply the feeling of his cock in my mouth. i often suck my thumb and long for his cock and it makes me cum very very quickly.

i also think about plenty more extreme fantasies while i touch myself- painful, torturous, mean scenarios. being brutally spanked, being teased and mocked and hurt until i’m a whimpering mess. these fantasies usually include more than two people using me at once, restraining me, talking to each other about me. recently a mutual shared with me a piece she wrote retelling her experience of being spanked and overwhelmed at a play party and i’ve had a lot of thoughts about that, about her and i competing to see who can take more pain, who can have more orgasms.

these days i rarely masturbate to visuals, especially porn. but there’s a vid in my likes of pornstar gabbie carter getting fucked by two men and i’ve used that a few times recently. she’s so cute and i’m playfully jealous of how impressive her tits are. but my favorite part of that video is probably the way one of the men continuously refers to her as “sweetheart”.

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What the hell happened in this sanctuary? I asked a simple question just to see her more, which was asking it just for fun, now it turned into a shitshow. Leave this kind lady alone and try breathing exercises before typing in anon if it does not work try jerking off.

feels so weird to have someone bring such rancid vibes to my sanctuary…

i’m very thankful that the sweeties here vastly outweigh the weirdos <3 for a moment i considered not posting myself today because of that guy but we can’t let immature freaks ruin our fun

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Follows girl. Waits for girl to post pics of herself. For free. Girl controls what she posts and how long. Complains because can't get free content. Checks out. 🧔

ridiculous behavior, right?

there’s an endless number of girls online who enjoy posting tons of visual content of themselves for free and for pay. if that’s what you want, go get it. if you want me specifically, you’ll get me on my terms. it’s not a complicated equation ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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bro thinks she's a celebrity, lmao. okay, bud.

am i the “bro” “she” and “bud” here?

“celebrity” is the furthest thing from how i view myself. i am simply protecting my own privacy and boundaries. i’m a hermit, i barely post myself anywhere online at all ever. i’m a shy private person. i didn’t post myself on here for like 10 months because it started making me uncomfortable. i’m doing these innocuous little tease posts to try to find a middle ground where i can show myself and still feel comfortable. and i’m getting attitude for it? that’s really disappointing

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edit: i’m guessing this anon was referring to the anon who defended me. i would argue that my defender is treating me like a real person while the whiny bitch anon is treating me like a celebrity. the rest of my response still stands.

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bro thinks she's a celebrity, lmao. okay, bud.

am i the “bro” “she” and “bud” here?

“celebrity” is the furthest thing from how i view myself. i am simply protecting my own privacy and boundaries. i’m a hermit, i barely post myself anywhere online at all ever. i’m a shy private person. i didn’t post myself on here for like 10 months because it started making me uncomfortable. i’m doing these innocuous little tease posts to try to find a middle ground where i can show myself and still feel comfortable. and i’m getting attitude for it? that’s really disappointing

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As someone who has access to her outside of tumblr , yall don’t even know how lucky you are she posts at all. Life happens, we don’t get everything we want, ever. So if you’re going to be impetuous and selfish about it, there’s the door. Nobody owes us anything, and you’re not even owed a gif of her doing chores.

<3 <3 <3

you see, i’m beloved and cherished. this tumblr stuff is just some extra fun i do in my minimal free time. i have no reason to cater to haters here. you’re either here to be sweet to me or you don’t exist in my mind.

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Nah I’m with that other anon we work longer than a few hours lmao. That response gets a yikes from me

i know you work longer than a few hours which is why i said what i did about checking your phone in the bathroom. if your job doesn’t permit you bathroom breaks, that’s a labor violation.

i’m a person with a job and responsibilities too… and none of you are entitled to seeing my body. if you catch a glimpse of me, you can feel lucky and enjoy it. if you don’t, you can either yearn and pine for me or you can choose to be a whiny bitch about it. neither route will change the boundary i’m setting in the form of posting and deleting.

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girl, some of us are employed; we can't be on here all the time 😭

i promise to leave the posts up for a few hours, plenty of time to excuse yourself to the bathroom to check my page :) if you aren’t committed to worshipping your saint, you can just admit that. we all have room to improve <3

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How about posting that and the new thing and make it a disappearing album?

i won’t be reposting any of the “disappearing” posts! they’re just for the eyes of those who are here at the time. fleeting moments are more special anyways, right?

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Fuck…

What did I miss out on when I was sick? What were those posts? Is there a way to see them again? Can you sit on my lap and tell me all about it?

you missed 1 post! i had gotten a request for imagery of me in my regular casual outfits and i decided it was something i’d be comfortable sharing but only in brief doses. so friday when i was outside doing some gardening, i propped up my phone and (for the first time ever) took a candid video of myself walking in front of the camera. i then trimmed the video and made it into a gif and posted it for 4 hours on saturday afternoon. i was wearing a tank top and shorts and gardening gloves and you could see my spindly legs.

i’m thinking of posting something different but similar today :)

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it’s the first of the month, yknow what that means?

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that’s right folks, it’s saint’s orgasm stat update day!! tadaaaaa

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i love keeping track of my orgasms for many reasons and one is that my stats can provide a much needed reality check at times for this insatiable mind and body of mine.

i’ve been feeling painfully unfulfilled in the orgasm department lately. life has been so fucking hectic for myself and for the owner of the cock that belongs to me. i haven’t been getting enough quality time with his cock and i haven’t even had time to make up for that by myself. i feel like this month i barely scratched the surface of the number of orgasms i desire and am physically capable of having.

but. i had 200 orgasms. the first time i ever got up that high was november of last year, this is only the fifth time ever that i’ve had 200 orgasms in a month. last may i had 164 orgasms at that was record breaking at the time.

it’s so helpful and interesting to have this personal index of data that i can reference when my unending neediness threatens to take me off da rails

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for those curious about how my 200 May orgasms were distributed !

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squirt stats were requested:

lowest month of the year so far :( but! double last may. <3 progress <3

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# posts that make me feel like an alien

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me giving dating advice “if he even considers cumming before you’ve had 25 orgasms, dump him!!!” #unrelatable #multiorgasmicprivilege

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it’s the first of the month, yknow what that means?

[insatiablesaint]

that’s right folks, it’s saint’s orgasm stat update day!! tadaaaaa

[insatiablesaint]

i love keeping track of my orgasms for many reasons and one is that my stats can provide a much needed reality check at times for this insatiable mind and body of mine.

i’ve been feeling painfully unfulfilled in the orgasm department lately. life has been so fucking hectic for myself and for the owner of the cock that belongs to me. i haven’t been getting enough quality time with his cock and i haven’t even had time to make up for that by myself. i feel like this month i barely scratched the surface of the number of orgasms i desire and am physically capable of having.

but. i had 200 orgasms. the first time i ever got up that high was november of last year, this is only the fifth time ever that i’ve had 200 orgasms in a month. last may i had 164 orgasms at that was record breaking at the time.

it’s so helpful and interesting to have this personal index of data that i can reference when my unending neediness threatens to take me off da rails

[insatiablesaint]

for those curious about how my 200 May orgasms were distributed !

[insatiablesaint]

squirt stats were requested:

lowest month of the year so far :( but! double last may. <3 progress <3