Inside My Strange Reality

writing about what I feel inside

[heatherlucky29]

[itsclolostinstereo]

Peter going from “we’re not going to kill anyone” to “kill them all” when he learned what happened to Rocket.

[enidsinclair]

It really is good to have friends.

[killbilled]

GUARDIANS OF THE GALAXY VOL. 1-3 dir. James Gunn

[darkleatherink]

[dicennio]

she’s so pretty

[insidemystrangereality]

You?

Are you happy with me? Are you in love with me? Do you care about me? Do you still love me? Are you cheating on me? Is there someone else other than me? Are you ashamed of me? Are you tired of me? I wish we went back to 2015 And stayed in love how we were in 2015

[insidemystrangereality]

I'm so nervous to talk to him tomorrow about my insecurities that I can't sleep. I'm scared what the out come with be. I'm scared to find out the truth

[insidemystrangereality]

I amazed myself

I amazed myself by how horny I was that day. I was so horny I wanted to pounce on top of my bf the moment I saw him. The only thing holding me back was that I was on my period. But this is what amazed me. By how horny I was I wanted to have his dick up my butt since I knew he wouldn't put it in my pussy cause it was bleeding. I told him how desperate I was to have sex with him that I would take it up my ass. Of course he was not gonna miss out on an opportunity like this. So he edged me on more to want it and oh how he made me want it more worked. But what I loved is how he did it. He didn't force me into it he made sure that I really wanted it. And when he was putting it in me, I told him I was scared and he told me its okay that he was only going as far as I was okay with and if I wanted him to stop, I could tell him and he'll stop. It made the experience more easier. It's weird it was my first anal sex and I liked it. How he took care of me and talked to me about it, it's how I wish my first time having sex was.

[insidemystrangereality]

I love

I love how I layed next to you, even though you moved and turned away from me. But you made sure our legs were touching and intertwined like if we were holding hands.

[insidemystrangereality]

Over hearing him tell someone

Over hearing him tell the host at his work that he was gonna marry me. Made me so happy. I love when he tells people stuff about us. Like what plans for us is not a secret or a lie he tells me it's the truth because he tells others it.

[insidemystrangereality]

The days after you left to Texas. I've been keeping myself busy by working, going out with friends, and drinking to get drunk. Just so I could hide my feelings of sorrow of how lonely I've been feeling with you away. But then came my day off and when finally reality hit that I felt so alone. Seeing you out with your friends while I'm home missing you. Not even a text of what your were doing or how you were. Not a single thing. And it hurt. I felt so alone.

[insidemystrangereality]

Should I go or not?

What should I do? Should I go home or go to him? Should I head to his work and hope he wants to see me? IDK I’m just sitting in my car wondering. Ugh I wanna see him but what if he doesn’t wanna see me

[insidemystrangereality]

Not to self: Dont ever do ever do this again

[insidemystrangereality]

Should I go or not?

What should I do? Should I go home or go to him? Should I head to his work and hope he wants to see me? IDK I'm just sitting in my car wondering. Ugh I wanna see him but what if he doesn't wanna see me

[insidemystrangereality]

I lost him

[insidemystrangereality]

I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. I'm not jealous. That's what I keeping telling myself. But I know I am. I'm just scared you'll leave me for someone else. I'm scared you'll find someone who is more your type.

[insidemystrangereality]

right now

Whenever you're mad at me I just want something to take my pain away. To take my mind off of me looking at my phone every 5 minutes. I'm here waiting to receive a text from you telling me you're done with me. A text saying you hate me. That you don't love me anymore. Right now, I'm drinking. When you're mad at me I just want to drink till I black out. So I don't have to be here worrying about when you'll text or be scared of what you'll text me. I hate this feeling that's why. I love you so much that it hurts when you get like this with me. I wanna be with you while I'm crying while you hold me and tell me you love me and that you'll never leave me. Habits by Tove Lo is what I feel like I have to do just to take you off my mind. I hate this. Please don't leave me. I'd rather die.