For once in my job I wanted to walk out today. I wanted to never need to step foot in there again, you know why I didn't?
I don't have the finance behind me not too. Some people might say, well thats not a reason to stay, you would be correct Mr Speaker. I didn't leave because I worked with awesome people and what I do I believe can really help people re-start their lives.
I work at the bottom of a job that realistically I wasn't meant to be in, but I ended up in. It's humbling starting at the bottom because you meet the most amazing people, you learn the job from scratch and even i decide to go upwards, I know who I can rely on.
Now back to the reason I wanted to walk out, I do night time work sometimes, when I say sometimes I mean every week, myself and another colleague have worked all throughout covid working in the office 5 fay's a week when no one else did. We did every late night, took on every task that was handed or delighted to us and smiled throughout. We are abused, screamed at and pulled down everyday, yet we still carry on. How did they repay us? HA! THEY DIDNT. No pay rises, no help, no offer for us to take a break whilst someone else does our job, nope. We get more to do. Now I'll take my fair share of work, but this time I had plans and it wasn't my time to do the night time, oh well. I was told, beating back and forth about its because leave was based this way. Nope. Not my fault, I refused, but yet. I still have too I even got asked. What plans do you have?.. I'm outside my working hours.. none of your business.
This. This was the point I decided no more, i will stay at my job but I have now gotten the energy to put myself first. I will no longer but my heart and soul into that job because they lost it. I will however put my heart and soul into my film travel blog to create my destination instead of having it written for me. No longer will I allow myself to be told when I can my holidays or a day off.
I refuse to let anyone run my life anymore. I refuse to let someone make me feel so dam angry and upset that I felt today.
I refuse to be abused and let down time and time again. I refuse to be miserable at a job because I cannot financially provide for myself with out it.
It's time to really get my business off the ground and work for myself.
I know I can do this, and I'm determined to do this.
I am financially free, socially free and mindfully free.














