Always seeking the Lord.
"Blessed are they who keep his testimonies and seek him with the whole heart."
Psalm 119:2
On True Blessedness
"And it came to pass, as he spake these things, that a certain woman of the company lifted her voice, and said unto him, 'blessed is the womb that bare thee and the paps which thou hast sucked. But he said Yea rather, blessed are they that hear the word of God and keep it." Luke 11:27-28
There is nothing which I may say of myself or do of myself that will give me anymore than the Lord has already willed me to receive. All that I have I must humbly give. These words are for those who desire context or a connection from Spirit to heart.
Daily I seek the Lord, for personally I have known what it means to be full of myself. To be full of myself, meaning, to feel empty. To always feel empty led me to seek wisdom. I found it in many places. Taoism, Buddhism, Plato, Aristotle, Epictetus, Marcus Aurelius and so on I blazed through the philosophies of many brilliant men.
I would feel quite alright when I'd study the Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey, or the 5 Elements of Effective Thinking by Edward Burger and Michael Starbird. I was equipped with knowledge, but not with what I soon came to realize I was lacking. What I lacked was life in its own true light with wisdom.
I lacked THE Truth. The Truth that is eternal and fulfilling. Once you find THE Truth, you feel it's comfort. Once you learn of the Truth you hunger for it and are only satisfied reading the written word of God. For God is THE Truth.
I was called to repentance in my spirit. I began my journey exactly as described by Christ through the Beatitudes (unintentionally and only seen in hindsight).
I was poor in spirit. I saw my sins and I mourned. I felt meekness become my burden before it became my blessing. I hungered to live right by God. I learned of his mercy. I seek a pure heart now by seeking the Lord each day. I am seeking new ways to use all resources at my disposal to make peace. I welcome your criticism and if persecution comes you can find me praising the Lord in my spirit always.
To be blessed is to obtain everlasting peace. The peace that I have is a treasure bestowed upon me by faith in God and his Son Jesus Christ. I heard his inspiration to repent and I did. I knelt down and begged forgiveness.
I journeyed long to get to this point and yet still am a pilgrim seeking him in my heart always. Humbly I am just a man walking in spirit with my head bowed in the yoke of God's will.
I've become his by living prayer and submitting myself to the yoke of kindness. Denying myself and carrying a cross of humility. I share all that I may for the glory that is God's. My treasure is in the one who formed me. The Truth. The bread of life. The light of all mankind. Always and forever to learn of him for he is meek and lowly in heart. And so each day I deny myself and carry my cross and follow him for I keep his word in my heart. I will abide in Christ. "Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can you, except you abide in me." John 15:4
I follow with the Beatitudes he spoke during his sermon on the mount (Matthew Chapter 5).
If you struggle to ascertain portions of this in some forlorn emotion of disbelief or self righteousness; may I illustrate that Jesus Christ spoke this sermon before any kind of mass media existed and it is written upon a plethora of ancient documents that support one another before networking was like it is now, simple and easy to transmit information. Only scribes or those imbued with the Holy Spirit could write these accounts. Now these texts exist to the extent of an entire building worth of texts with this message. The mere number of accounts are so high and yet it reaches us today. The message was quite simple. Meekness alone will allow one to inherit his words in truth, peace, and mercy.
When I felt most empty I did not pray to Buddha, I did not pray to Bertrand Russell, I didn't pray to Tolstoy or Dostoyevsky, I did not pray to Caesar, or Marcus Aurelius… I could not for there is only One True Living God and his first Commandment is written upon my heart and those were only men who died and only lived but so long. Brilliant as those men may have been; who gave them such abilities and gifts to think as they had? Who gives even the smallest of amenities expects us to have faith in the least of things. I have read the works of many but only one truly fed my spirit. It was not a work of mankind, but of the One True Living Spirit of God.
"He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in that which is least is unjust also in much" Luke 16:10
Glory be to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.