1 serving of bone broth and miso soup and

you are an witness

[heavymetalhazard]

oh my god

[internalresistance]

Have my frst sem exams starting from tomorrow let's go

I am not exactly stressed, yet. There are things that need to be memorized and we can do it

[internalresistance]

Feeling a lil anxious.

Painted my nails and did sm trial eye makeup. I don't wanna go out tmrw but if I look bomb I might as well

[internalresistance]

21 jan

1.54 am

This fucking physiology prof hasn't even sent us the full bunch of material and next week is our final paper like WHAT THE HELL PLS

[internalresistance]

19 jan

1.03 am

I have my major practical exam tomorrow. I still have like three four more specimens to memorize and apart from that I have to practice a few diagrams like digestive system of cockroach and I will be doing allat for the frst time tday so I really have to drill everything into my memory as efficiently as I can . I have to do a bit of decor for the notebook as well which won't take much time so byebye. Oh I also have to remember the mouth parts of cockroach and it's dissection god. Plus if in staining we get parasites we have to identify that and write their characters as well but finding parasite is the real catch here. What else do we have on our plate uh

Oh on the identification I have pharynx gizzard of earthworm to memorize as well.

Mhm so I am not exactly stressed cuz I do see myself getting all of this done nicely ahead of time. Ahead of like whatever time we have left before the 2 pm exam.

[internalresistance]

Jan 16

1.56 am

Interestingly my brain's working really well. Mollusca seems easy to memorize. It's probably because the professor teaching this material was really thorough. Glad I paid attention in that class. Usually college classes are never really boring , well a lot of other things but not entirely boring. I pay attention just fine. Physiology is something I need to worry bout maybe cuz I didn't attend many classes and *sighs* I need to do quite a lot of reading but it's honestly doable, it isn't that vast.

[joelpersels]

[internalresistance]

15 jan 2026

3.56 am -

Been having the perfect snack for 3 days now . Ingredients simple , 15 minutes to make it and TASTES IMMACULATE. I just finished my bowl and I was thinking why this is going to be my next hyper fixation food and why this is literally too perfect to get over ever . The answer is - it's tangy and it has got sm munch to it and u can make it as spicy as u like. It's healthy if u analyze the ingredients. Literally not s single bad thing in the bowl and banger taste what even jsjskskwkw. I am gassy btw, as usual. Oh this bowl is also perfect in the sense fuchka is perfect. Kind of same flavours although no potato or crisps here. Bye

[internalresistance]

Jan 14, 9.19 pm -

I am studying . Around 2 hours 20 minutes recorded. I am doing my md subject right now and as easy as this additional course was sold to be lemme tell you it is not. I have to memorize a lot of additional stuff to keep the boat of this subject floating. Ain't no way I am gonna let this subject mess w my cgpa.

[internalresistance]

Jan 13 2026

1.27 am -

I have a test in my tuition at 9 am , I am not going to attend it. Have to think of a perfect excuse for when the prof will text me asking why did I not come ? I have exams starting from 27 th and a practical on 19 th.

New year sighs. Could barely feel the beginning of sm new. Life's moving at the same pace as it was three weeks ago. I need to lock in for the exams. Hilarious cuz I have said it a thousand times when faced w an exam , an important one always. I am somehow always locked out and unprepared and guilty. Maybe she's right .

I am gonna go sleep now. And wake up in around three hours to study. A weird faith in my capability to do incredibly better than others or is this something I want really bad so I strategically plant it in my mind to keep playing it

[chronictranssexuality]

"you don't owe anyone anything" You are a tar pit. Speak for yourself. I personally owe the cafe employees my dishes put away and my friends a listening ear and small scared insects a cup and a gentle trip outside. Hyperindividualism is a rancid infection borne of capitalism and willfully misinterpreted therapyspeak and I will defy it by continuing to be kind regardless of whether or not it benefits me personally

[ph-cutie]

sheepish is a really funny word. fuck im so nervous (turns into this)

[internalresistance]

I missed my first day of college. I didn't check my mail that was sent last night. I freaked out for a good few minutes. I don't know what to wear , I haven't shopped in idk what feels like a decade, nothing fits me , I feel ugly and so not ready. However I told myself that it's fine it's gone whatever whatever , it was orientation only , I didn't miss any * actual * class.

I pulled out the syllabus , I am not even sure if they are going to follow the schedule chronologically but Cnidaria was the first chapter so I am going to watch a lecture on it incase the prof decides to throw in some questions . This is all hilarious . I am trying to change my mindset in a night so that tomorrow I feel a bit confident. Also there's a bunch of things I need to get done w before I leave for class tomorrow, so I am gonna write those down . Idk idk. It's a bit nerve wracking I feel like I am not ready , I should have been a gorgina house of knowledge before I stepped foot in the classroom but that's a lil impractical now. I will just write tomorrow, I have a feeling that shit's not going to be near as serious as I am making it in my head.

[rythms-of-synthax-deactivated20]

Quote of the day

[baffledtreesquid]

I’m seeing a lot of people saying this post changed their brain chemistry, and as a neuroscientist I wanted to say yes!!! Yes it does!

Wanting something requires dopamine signaling, but liking something doesn’t.

If you have a mental illness/disorder that affects dopamine, you might feel that you don’t want to do the things that you like. You do still like them. You will appreciate having done them.

Let your likes guide you.

(If you want to read more, here’s one experimental paper about it. https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC5171207/ This theory called the incentive-sensitization theory was originally created to explain behaviors in addiction but can be applied elsewhere as well)

Rewards are both ‘liked’ and ‘wanted’, and those two words seem almost interchangeable. However, the brain circuitry that mediates the psych

[murraysiskind-deactivated202511]

It’s so crazy that suicide prevention is just people going awwww don’t!! Awwww come on noooooooooo stopppppp

[allhailklisz]

[sandersstudies]

Since being diagnosed with cancer my husband has become very willing to step into arguments at his workplace and elsewhere because “nobody wants to be seen yelling at the guy with brain cancer” and so far his success rate is shockingly high.

[internalresistance]

I am going crazy I need real life simulation like please send me an interesting ass angel . I WANT TO LIVE