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I want to spend my days with you forever

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It’s amazing to me what just a little time away can do to a person.

Hello again, it’s nice to hear from you

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We used to joke about dancing on one another's graves for whoever went first... My very best friend.

Now you’re gone and I don’t feel like dancing at all

October 1, 2013 - July 16, 2016 - now

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I have to thank you for joining me. Though you didn’t stay you caused a wreck inside me that needed to be woken up

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‪I let you in the deepest parts of me that hardly anyone had ever explored.

Brushed off the dust and cobwebs to make you a home just for you to leave because you never asked for any of that‬

Empty

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I’m feeling sad and lonely. Please be with me so I only feel sad.

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I was completely blind sided, I didn’t expect you to leave. I never saw you even leaving. Come back.

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I need help, I need you

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the words slipped out so fast I don’t think you had time to even realize what you were saying

i love you, you said

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Is love worth laying in bed and falling apart for?

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The thought of letting someone in again makes me shake. I don’t think I know how to be alone... but I think I need to be.

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text from my ex

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You just fit like that missing puzzle piece I been trying to find everywhere

You

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This “talking” stage is so complicated. Do you want to be with me or not?

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We did it. We hooked up. We held each other the way we once did. How do we look past this now?

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I met someone new. Wish me luck that he’s nothing like you.

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I’m so scared of being wrong about a person again... should I just be alone?