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Seven Years

Seven years of love and hate. Seven years of hello and goodbye. Seven years of tears and smiles. Yes, seven years. All through these years, I do not know which ones are true and which ones are not. I am too confused between the truth and the lies about us. Are we pretending all these times? Are we even truly been in love at all? I doubt. This is all just a play pretend. A fiction we both created that we both thought we needed. This is love and stupidity combined. Yes, seven years. Seven long years.

What I See

You see a beautiful smile, I see mental turmoil;

You see a happy face, I see brokenness;

You see eyes that speak the truth, I see an abyss of grief;

A wide array of sorrows and miseries.

Joyfully Waiting

Lord, I know you have better plans for my future. You know exactly the reason why I need to go through what I've been through in this lifetime. I will patiently wait for my time, Lord, in accordance with the timeline you've set before me. I completely trust in You, my past, my present, and my future.

Wonderful Disaster, Sweetest Temptation

It all started with butterflies in our tummies, rainbows around our heads, stars above the skies, and hearts floating right before our eyes. You just added bright colors to my black and white, exciting flavors to my bland life. You simply blew me away.

Our story was beautiful. Perfectly imperfect, beautifully flawed, deliciously disastrous, and gorgeously messed-up. You both rocked and wrecked my world. You hit me like a hurricane, but I’ll pretend I never loved a hurricane like you. Those deadly kisses unto my skin, toxic touches of your lovely fingertips cut like swords, and those sweet stinging whispered words to my ears softly kill the tiny innocence left of me. You are the sweetest temptation. An achievement and a downfall. Everytime we make love, I hear angels cry. Each little moans are heaven-like but every knowledge of it hurts and cuts like shards of glass. Your body is a wonderland, a promising paradise, and yet, a perfect mess, a beautiful chaos at the same time.

Lying has become a norm. It's as easy as uttering ABC’s and counting 123’s. It has become like cancer that ruined the fairytale-like relationship we both once had. I wanted your honesty so bad. I'd rather hear the bad and sad truth than listen to you sugar-coated lies. You say things you don’t really mean. You speak of superfluous words, however, do the opposite. Those flowery words that aren’t backed up with actions. No efforts in whatsoever known and visible ways. And that, my love, is just one teeny weeny reason out of a hundred reasons why we can’t swim along the same river together.

Now, you beg for more. More patience, more understanding, more waiting, more love, more hope, more trust, and basically more of everything. Isn’t it a little bit too much, don’t you think? It’s like you’re asking me of something as deep as the ocean. What’s frustating thing about it is that you can’t even swim it for me. You can’t ask for something you can’t do for someone yourself.

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A pat on the back...

Before this day ends, I would like to give myself a pat on the back. I am so glad I've successfully gone this far in my life without actually stabbing myself to death. I never lost hope in believing that someday I'll discover what I am truly meant for in this world. Remembering every single day that everything will fall into place in God's right time. I am writing this to all my friends out there who experience the exact (or not completely) same thing as I do. Don't drown in negativity, instead, train yourself to become fully devoured by the positive side of life. Although I know it's hard, I, myself, can attest to that (been struggling about it for quite some time), but just be courageous and try NOT to worry about so many things (coz I know our thoughts can sometimes run a million miles per minute). Just believe you can. So, I beg you and I beg myself, may we go find ourselves with our own eyes and with our own spirits. May we always search for truth (and ofcourse, that includes Jesus), wherever and however it may be. And when we finally find it, may we look at each other with bright smiles and hope other's have found it, too. Goodnight. #KREativeWriting #LateNightThoughts #FightNegativity #PositiveMind

So smile, darling...

When you have to let out that smile God gave you for today, coz He just loves you so much that He wants what is best for you and that He wants you to be happy, despite the things that's going on around you. People are going to hurt you, talk about you, dislike you, judge you, and belittle you. But you know what, none of those matter. Don't take it seriously nor let that affect your mood. Respond with grace. Let them do and feel that way about you. Pray for them instead. God loves you, remember that. He knows you more than anyone else, even more than you do to yourself. He sees through your heart. And that is what matters the most. So smile, darling. You are loved. Goodnight! 😘😘😘 #KREativeWriting

Little Fairytale

Yeah, I'm a free-spirited as a child. A little childish, yes, shameless to say, just living in my own little fairytale so to speak. With a soul of a gypsy, a heart of a hippie, and a spirit of a fairy, I know I can conquer greater things ahead. Hans Christian Anderson once said, "Life itself is a most wonderful fairytale." Yes, he must be right. Just spread your wings, sweetheart, you'll have no idea how far you can fly. Ride with the wind, dance upon the mountains, and clamber through the clouds. All you ever need is faith, trust, and a little pixie dust. Soooo, sprinkle your fairy dust wherever you go today, honey! Be like a fairy like me. 😘😘😘 #KREativeWriting #FairyTale #FairyLover

Cancer

You lock up memories in your mind. It's where you have kept pieces of the ones that hurt you still cut through like shards of glass. But always be reminded, these may keep you up at night, make you cry, destroy you over and over, you just need to convince yourself that there will always be a beautiful tomorrow to start a brand new day, another opportunity to let go of the negativities that has become like cancer to your existence. Keep believing. Keep dreaming. Keep expecting. Keep hoping. Go and make something beautiful of your life! #KREativeWriting

I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say.

Be YOUnique!

Beauty radiates in a woman who has peace, love, and contentment. It is not something you were naturally born with. 😊 It blooms through refinement by life's trials and experiences. It is choosing to stay positive in the midst of the most negative of circumstances. She knows that God will never leave her nor forsake her. 😍 She speaks words of life, faith, encouragement, and wisdom with love, gentleness, and prayers. This is radiating God's love at its best. May God's precious love cover you tonight, ladies. ❤ And of course, wake up tomorrow with the kind of beauty that sets you apart from any other woman. If you know what I mean. 😉 Be YOUnique! #KREativeWriting

Hurricanes

Bcoz I've seen you at your best, been standing in the middle of it, and yeah, I've witnessed you through the bad times, motionless in the eye of your hurricane, I would go through all the worst with you over and over again just to see you calm, unhurt and at peace. I am a hurricane, too. I come raging through the storms of my life, and sometimes hurt the people that surrounds me even those who try to protect the fragility in me, despite my unreasonable and uncontrollable power. I know I've shown you different faces of me, the different intensities of my emotion, those times people wouldn't and couldn't understand the things I fought for and for what I believed to be right... But you stood by me and never left my side, though exhausted and sometimes discouraged, you remained. Here you are... Hurting... Bcoz of my ungrateful mouth. Shame on me. Forgive me for that. Maybe it's not supposed to be easy for you. Maybe you're one of the rare few who can handle tough times and still choose to be a loving person. Maybe it's going how it's supposed to be going bcoz you're built for it. Maybe it's just your time to refine and redefine your purpose in my life. Maybe the pieces are being put in position and maybe it's not a test at all, maybe it's all being prepared for our good and rushing it could ruin everything. Maybe we're as different as we feel the same about ourselves. Maybe we call it LOVE. Maybe this is just the way our relationship growth looks and we need to be okay to accept that. As long as we know that we're giving it our all and showing the very best of us, and that we keep going. I think I'll just end it here. I don't want to tire you from reading this lengthy message I purposely made for you. I couldn't post this on FB coz I feel more comfortable writing my thoughts here. Anyway, let's not stress a thing. It's going to work out bcoz we're not going to stop putting the work in. I want to work on myself with you by my side and I want you to work on yourself with me by your side. I know life ain't easy so let's do this together. #KREativeWriting #ANoteForYou #heavensanity #LoveAtItsBest #LoveThroughTheWorst #RollerCoasterRideWithMe #YourHurricane

I wish I could tell you...

Silent nights give me chills. I feel soft blows of the wind on my nape. Lying on bed in a dark room with my eyes forcefully closed and taking slow deep breaths. I whisper to the air, mouthing words with almost no sound, I say to myself, "Hold on. You can do this," while bracing my self very tight. I immediately felt light. It was the most comforting hug ever given to me. And in that moment alone, I knew it was You. Jesus, the Prince of peace and the Giver of greatest comfort anyone can receive. I remember when I prayed hard to God for something I wanted for so long. I could barely imagine how possible it would be for Him to bless me with it. But He was faithful to me, as He always have been. Gratefully, He had entrusted me a gift I have long wished for. At first, I was all ecstatic and filled with hopes and dreams. But as time goes by, the fire has slowly fade away. Storms come to destroy and put out the fire, but it remained its warmth despite all. But it's dying... helpless and hopeless in the dark. So I put on my hardest effort to make the fire grow stronger and stronger. I believe my efforts wouldn't be in vain as I continue to make things work out the way it should be, and to believe for the possibilities of the impossibilities. I wish I could tell you, the person so close to me, about something my heart has been wanting to tell you. I hope it's as easy as uttering ABCs and counting 123s. I've had silent struggles I cannot tell you. Simply because I don't want to burden you with anything. Sometimes, I wish I can rewrite my story. It didn't start quite as I planned. But I know all these things happen as God planned it to be, and I completely surrender under His control. I may have driven in a wrong direction and sometimes make wrong turns, but just let Him take the wheel and be the captain of my life. Pls take over my emotions and release this torment inside. Fill my heart with peace and gladness so that I may be able to give out the amount of love this person close to me duly deserves. Grant us the gift of serenity that we need, and the gift of communication and understanding of our differences. Jesus, take the lead and we'll follow. #KREativeWriting

People are blind to reality. Ultimately, they only see what they want to see. Everything you look for and all that you perceive has a way of proving whatever you believe. Choose to see the bright side. Remember that you are blessed. Be ready for God's surprise. 😃 #KREativeWriting

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Have fun floating...

There are times in your life where you just feel like you're floating in a calm, crystal clear, warm water. 💧 You just lay there and go where the waves take you. 🌊 It gives you this little peace that is usually associated with comfort and a deep sense of serenity. You don't have to think about anything, just be lazy, relax, and feel the waters against your skin. Such stillness requires a lot of letting go of the hurts 💔, forgetting what is already over 💭, a great amount of acceptance of the things that you cannot change 💞, and holding onto the hopes and dreams that your heart earnestly desires 🌟, for you to float amidst the weight on your shoulders. I know for a fact that there's only one being that is capable of making us experience that one-of-a-kind, amazing feeling... 👆 it's God alone. As the song goes, "These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive." Yes, the steadfast love ❤ of God is more than sufficient and we just couldn't ask for more. There are so many things to be grateful for. Look around. It's there. Have fun floating. #KREativeWriting #inKREdibleAdventures

You know what's keeping me awake? This. Not all couples are privileged enough to have reached a certain age together and yet they remain truly, madly and deeply in love with each other. Been dreaming of a lovestory far beyond what I'm able to imagine. Love moves in mysterious ways anyway. I hope it comes to me mysteriously beautiful in ways only God, the best Lover, can provide. There's no any other better reason I could think of why I remained single all these years. He has prepared me for something big and great, and made me fully armed and ready for the awesomeness that is yet to come. I don't wanna be with a man and be unhappy for the rest of my life. I wanna be with a man I can totally enjoy life with every single day. So I'd better be entrusting my heart to the One whom I know will never hurt me, the Almighty, so He can protect it. I'd be waiting happily with grace. It'll be worth it. #RelationshipGoals #Til70andBeyond #MeAndBaeAt70 #KREativeWriting

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Truth and Lies

I hope you're going to be honest with me. I admit I am having difficulty with trusting someone whose trustworthiness is already made proven questionable by himself a number of times. Do what you say you're going to do. If you're not sure you can, say so. Don't make promises that you can't deliver. Be a person of word and be honest if something won't work for you. And equally as important, if something changes, communicate those changes immediately. Don't just leave someone hanging or wondering. There is pain in truth but greater pain there will be in lies.

Because My Soul Deserves Peace

I just want you to know that I have finally decided to forgive you. Not because you apologized or because you acknowledged the pain that you caused me, but because my soul deserves peace. But this does not necessarily mean that I have completely forgotten what you've done to me. You've lied to me numerous times and the fact that you kept on hiding a lot of information from me that I think I deserved to know hurts like spears right through my bones. The pain in these wounds will go away one day but the scars will always stay. I hope you'll not make the same mistake again, because like candle, the fire burning in my heart goes off, too, and I won't be able to make the same fire for you once more.

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