Show me what the stars look like tonight.

There rests an old poet in the farthest reaches of my soul, and she's learned the tricks of her trade only conversing with Monsters. Feel free to submit a secret at any time! C: Some poems deal with content that may be triggering, and are tagged as such.

[iorbither]

So how is NAPOWRIMO going for everyone?

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I'm so glad you're back. I love your poems more than any other poets' that I've found on tumblr :).

Why thank you! If you like mine - you will love these other lovely writers who also write poems for others secrets:@anotherpassenger@inkskinned

[iorbither]

Are you still taking secrets for poetry material? I love your writing, and I've been waiting forever for you to come back. I'm so glad you did.

I am taking secrets again! Thank you! :)

[iorbither]

Hugs, friend? Yes. Hugs.

Thank you!

[iorbither]

To your new poem 'Pretty'; I have the same problem. I personally identify as androgynous moving away from the gender spectrum entirely (so I guess more genderless), but I'm very conventionally attractive/feminine and have a habit of using it to my advantage... so I couldn't possibly be anything other than fully a girl! >.> Only one person I know has ever noticed/accepted it, and I hope you find someone who can see that in you too- 'pretty' is not your fault, nothing to do with you or who you are

Here you go, beautiful anon who sent in the secret. You are not alone. <3

[iorbither]

“I've recently been struggling with my identity. Biologically a female, I've never felt that nor have I felt like a man. I always saw myself as in between, but the people I've confided in have discouraged me. They think I'm perfect as a girl, and have refused to see me otherwise. They think it's a waste because I'm too "pretty." “

[dear-poetry]

Should I bring back my ‘secrets’ poetry series?

Just want to hear from you guys on this. My mind is a lot more clear emotionally and I think I could continue once more. However - if I do, I may make a whole new blog instead of a side blog to keep things better organized. Opinions?

[iorbither]

Welcome back! I'm sorry that you've had such a rough time (I know that rough doesn't even begin to cover it) but I want you to know that you're very important-- both as a person and as an internet poet/presence. I'm sending you all the good vibes I can from farfaraway. Anyway, it's really great to see you active again! cheers

Thank you so much for this, and I want you--and everyone else to know that I am trying!  :)

[dear-poetry]

Please read.

As some of you know, or have heard from me—my father has cancer. 

(Mesothelioma, lung cancer )

And he is schedualed for surgery at 11am Monday morning to remove his left lung and the pleura around his heart. This is a pretty serious surgery and he will be on a ventilator possibly from 7 to 14 days depending on his condition. ( But lets hope he heals much faster then that! )

So, I’m here asking—whatever your religion is, please pray for him and my family or at least keep us in your thoughts! 

The power of positive thinking goes a long way!  I wont be around for however long this takes, but I will try to post udated in case anyone is interested in his condition!

Here is a pic I snagged of him at ihop last weekend:

-Kayla

[iorbither]

To all those who follow my blog, I'm going to be honest.

I've lost my spark. It's been almost a year now that my life has decided to destroy me.  After dealing with personal, self issues, I found it hard to write.  But then, in November, my dad got diagnosed with terminal lung cancer.  We are having much more bad days than good and I find it very hard to even feel human anymore.  If that makes any sense. I do apologize for my lack of everything.  I wish I felt better so I could help you all.  But I don't have the strength right now.

[iorbither]

I’m afraid of becoming bored of my relationship and throwing away everything good in my life for sex.

[iorbither]

I feel inadequate and undeserving; even when the love is mutual, things seem so hopeless.

[iorbither]

I cut myself for the first time since I've been with him.

[iorbither]

Your every word moves me. Thank you for being able to express feelings and thoughts I can't ever seem to communicate. Makes me feel less lonely and a little more understood.

You are so very welcome, friend! :)

[iorbither]

He was happy before he started dating me...

[iorbither]

"My neighbor molested me when I was 5, and I still see him in school almost everyday."

[iorbither]

"I’m not lost, but sometimes I want to be."