slowly_starving

SW 182 | CW 158.4 | current 7.9 Back on my bullshit | UGW 109 ❤️🌹🎀❤️

[iradawn]

My face whenever I check my stomach in the mirror and I’m not skinny yet

[myhappyrainyday]

[iradawn]

You know what i love about thinspo? She looks freaking PERFECT. She is so effortlessly pretty. She just rolls about bed and she is perfect. 

[minimeana]

pink n perfect

[iradawn]

I hate myself.

I have gotten better but I have gotten so much worse. Why can we just skip to the part where I am skinny? WHY CANT I JUST WAKE UP AND BE SKINNY

[iradawn]

So I'm really guilty of loosing and gaining the same 5 pounds over and over again 😭🙃

I'm going to be better. Every single day I am going to be honest with myself.

[honeyriba]

NEW ED REDDIT COMMUNITY!!!

since r/proanaspiration was banned, i decided to make a new sub which was a little less toxic <3 its called r/edpals and there are specific trigger warnings, memes and more!! please join 🥺🥺

[diet-cigarette-diet]

[k-ayo]

[iradawn]

When i hit my UGW, sweaters will just fall off of my dainty beautiful shoulders..

[sparklejumpropenymph]

this is so embarrassing, i still feel so big and i need to lose like 20 lbs but okay

154 lbs vs 112 lbs

[iradawn]

this is what a 40lb difference looks like

[skinny-in-pinkk]

if ur anxious about thanksgiving tomorrow and u know it clap ur hands

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[cucumbercrepes]

[pvradisixcal]

[iradawn]

Reblogging because i love white dressesss

[edcynic]

For all those who glorify your EDs or hold onto them for social media fame or think you’ll one day grow out if it:

I went to treatment in 2006. It’s 2018. I was just contacted by a former patient I went to treatment with. She got me up to speed with the progress of our former friends.

Two have died. Many have relapsed and are still struggling.

Again. This was 2006. I was 20. Most of the girls there were in there 20s. And now we are in our 30s and some of us in our 40s. The person who contacted me is in her 60s and going back into residential in a few weeks.

Let that sink in.

Tumblr gives you a false reality. Eating disorders don’t stop when you reach a certain age. Eating disorsers don’t end once you hit 30 and are ready to trade in your pumpkin spice lattes and ugg boots and small apartments.

They continue when you buy that house and pay your first mortgage and get engaged and married. They are there when you get pregnant or have kids and go to your first PTA meeting. And sometimes they continue when you are 45 and getting a mammogram because you’re old enough now to regularly get those. They are there when you have menopause and they are there when your hair goes grey.

So if you think you’ll be spared, you won’t. Unless, of course, you get help.

You think any of us back in 2006 thought that in 2018, we’d STILL be struggling? Hello no. We got help because we wanted to be DONE.

And even then we all fucking relapsed. Not because treatment didn’t work, but because EDs are a bitch and need constant recovery.

Had I not gotten pregnant, my life would have gone into the shitter. And even with my daughter, I STILL can’t let go of the food.

Eating disorders are not jokes, man. They are with you for life. Recovery needs to be lifelong or you will be that 60-year-old woman either dying of her ED or still in treatment.

[naturallynina]

Reblogging because this is SO important and if it helps even just one person then it’s worth it❤️

[tooskinnynever]

This is the greatest post I’ve ever seen. Thank you so much!!!

[icantrecover]

I wish I had seen this years ago

[iradawn]

My ED is something i have struggled with since i was a teenager. Now im 22 and engaged and all i can think about is how fat i look in wedding dresses. This is supposed to be the happiest time of my life and all i think about is how fat im going to look in my wedding photos...

There is a reason this is a mental disorder. We all can't just turn it off. Its always there screaming at us. My fiancé has always been there for me and thats what keeps me going.

[ana-fucked-me-over]

So here’s all the vitamins I take when I’m restricting, as we all know how important vitamins are.

Turmeric- it actually helps to decrease inflammation that comes along with fat and can help reduce the actual production of fat tissue! It’s also been known to help with things like depression and heart disease (Amazon)

Hello Beauty- if you’re restricting it can cause Hair loss and your skin to lose some of its vibrancy, biotin and keratin help grow healthy hair and skin and nails (Amazon)

Literally Feel Great- we all know ACV can help with weight loss, as well as the cayenne pepper, and I for one would much rather have it in pill form than in a shot (Amazon)

Zinc- helps a lot with brain function, I’ve been taking it since I was little to help with my AD/HD, but it’s good for everyone, it also is good for immune health, and when you’re restricting, you want to make sure you’re immune system stays safe (pharmacy)

Vitamin E- heart health, also if you have a deficiency it can cause extreme muscle weakness and a weak immune system, so you want to make sure you’re still getting it in your diet (pharmacy)

Vitamin C- immune system (again) this one is definitely known for helping fight off sickness, if you’re not eating then you’re body is much more prone towards potential sicknesses as your body is already fighting to keep you going (pharmacy)

Vitamin B- obviously you could get this in pill form too but the mio makes water taste really good and is 0cal, B is known to help increase energy naturally which is awesome for a caffeine junky like me (grocery store)

These are just the supplements I take, every body has different needs, I just thought I’d put this out there in case it can help someone else. Also keep in mind that taking this many vitamins at once without food can definitely make you sick, and whether or not that’s something you want, you’re no longer getting the benefits of the vitamins, so if you can eat something small with it that’s best, if I’m on a fast, I’ll usually drink a cup of coffee when I take them and try to take them a couple at a time so that I don’t get sick. The nausea can help with hunger though! Alright sorry for the long post, good luck everyone and stay safe!!

[iradawn]

Certified medtech reporting in here! I work with elderly patients with dementia who can sometimes be very combative about their medications. Whenever medications are prescribed 'take with food' even just a pack of saltine crackers is enough to curb the nausea and side affects! Just a couple small bites of anything aids in digestion!!! Please don't skip prescribed medications!

[iradawn]

Is it just me or??

Does anyone else dream about how great it would be to get a parasite or a sickness that would make me drop weight like crazy??

Just me...

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[iradawn]

I want to feel the hot sun on my skin as i kay naked outside. I want to be able to lay in the sand on the beach and not feel like a whale.

[closure]

ig: k.els.e.y

[iradawn]

NOT ONLY DO I WANT HER BODY I ESPECIALLY WANT HER SKIN!!! (i promise im not actually a serial killer)