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PSA!!!

i’m back! i revamped my multi and i can be found on the new blog at @fracturyd !!!

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PSA!!!

i’m back! i revamped my multi and i can be found on the new blog at @fracturyd !!!

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HIATUS NOTICE: 

i will be taking a break from this blog. i have no idea for how long but i know for sure that it is not permanent. i will still be lurking occasionally and i will definitely still be able for chats and possibly small threads on discord. i just need a small break from tumblr. 

discord is: azkabanned#7853

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plotted starter // @lyonkept​ from ben 

FOR  SUCH  A  WELL-KNOWN  and  active  crime  family,  the  security  at  the  chastel’s  home  residence  was  seriously  lacking.  it  wasn’t  openly  easy  to  sneak  in,  but  it  was  still  relatively  easy  and  that  suited  ben  just  fine.  he  took  in  the  details  of  each  room  as  he  moved  discreetly  through  their  house.  it  only  took  him  a  minute  to  realize  that  the  family  were  all  outside,  but  he  was  only  looking  for  one  chastel  in  particular.  when  he  finally  saw  her  on  the  balcony,  it  was  as  if  it  was  his  lucky  day.  he  moved  silently  until  he  was  right  behind  her.  his  hands  trailed  up  and  down  her  arms  before  he  breathed  into  her  ear,  “MISS  ME  PRINCESS?”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   HE TOOK HER BY SURPRISE AS SHE FEELS HERSELF BEING LIFTED UP; once her bottom hits the perfect marble counter top her body jiggles in all the right ways– unable to help herself she’s pressing her knees into his hips as they kiss. SHE WAS HIGH ON ECSTASY when he touches her– every kiss upon her neck was sparks against her flesh that weighed a million pounds as he pours all his feelings into it– she can’t help but grab the dark long raven locks against his shoulders; golden curls bounding as she nods in agreement. she had missed him so much more. “and i you, ben. i missed you so much. it’s almost too much.” she whispers bringing his mouth down to capture his lips between her own.

THIS  TIME  WHEN  they  kiss,  it  is  not  frenzied  but  it  is  just  as  intense  as  the  first  one.  his  tongue  moves  slowly,  as  if  he  has  all  the  time  in  the  world  to  kiss  her,  to  taste  her.  as  his  mouth  explored  so  did  his  hands.  they  traveled  down  her  arms,  lightly  tracing  over  her  skin.  he  gripped  her  hips,  running  his  hands  quickly  over  her  baby  bump  and  down  to  her  thighs.  he  opened  her  legs  wider  and  moved  closer  between  them,  his  hands  moving  under  her  dress  and  back  up  her  body  to  take  the  clothing  off.  he  pulled  away  from  her  lips  and  smirked  as  he  looked  at  her  in  just  a  bra  and  panties  before  he  took  those  off  of  her  too.  finally,  she  was  naked  and  he  was  taking  off  his  own  clothes  without  taking  his  eyes  off  her.  he  moved  towards  her  again  and  this  time  he  pulled  her  forward  until  she  was  slightly  hanging  off  the  counter  with  him  between  her  legs.  “hold  onto  me  okay?  I  GOT  YOU.”

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pregnant and divorced.       /          @iraescible​

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   when she finishes with a spit and rinses her mouth she uses the back of her hand to wipe at her wet mouth, orbs unable to look away from him as he just simply watches her with gentle yet intense eyes. those eyes that she hadn’t seen in months is causing all sorts of emotions to wave through her; love, passion, want. the agony of being single and pregnant.. the thought alone sends shivers down her ivory spine. placing two hands on his hips, she steadies herself as she feels his soft lips against her flesh, heat rising in her cheeks. “please,” ella says as her chest rises and falls with anticipation, arms automatically reaching up and lazily throwing them along his neck, lips hard against his– instantly lips were burned with electricity as she kisses him, their mouths perfectly in tune with each other; clinging to him for dear life. 

AS  HER  ARMS  WRAPPED  around  his  neck,  ben  gripped  her  hips  and  lifted  her  up  until  she  was  sitting  on  the  bathroom  counter.  even  when  they  were  denying  their  feelings,  kissing  ella  was  never  a  hardship  for  ben.  she  may  look  sweet  and  innocent  but  she  tasted  absolutely  sinful.  chocolate  strawberries  and  cinnamon  was  an  unusual  combination  for  the  most  part  but  ella  made  it  work.  one  of  his  hands  gripped  the  back  of  her  neck,  tilting  it  up  slightly  he  trailed  kisses  all  over  her  neck,  trying  to  control  his  desire  to  rip  her  clothes  off  right  fucking  now.  “ella.”  he  sighed  softly,  “I  FUCKING  MISSED  YOU.”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   when he doesn’t say anything she sits in silence, all questions probing her mind as his soft gaze just lays on her; without saying a word. wondering if she had upset him? ella can’t seem to find any emotions that would tell her anything. and then he’s telling her to come, and she does– she would follow him anywhere. she looks at him briefly as he holds out the truth brush; with a smile on her face as she chuckles lightly. indeed, her mouth was disgusting but he would have to get used to her being slightly gross from time to time. “– putting it lightly now, are we?” she teases, taking the brush from his hands and walks to the empty bathroom; turning the knob to run the water as she starts to brush her teeth, already feeling clean. “happy now, pretty boy?”

HE  ROLLS  HIS  EYES  at  her  teasing,  but  the  look  on  his  face  is  as  fond  as  ben  solo  is  capable  of  looking.  even  leaning  against  the  doorway  of  the  bathroom  his  eyes  shine  with  happiness  just  watching  her  do  something  as  simple  as  brushing  her  teeth.  it  wasn’t  the  action  that  had  him  happy,  it  was  simply  her.  she  was  here,  in  his  house,  in  his  life  again  and  he  was  internally  giddy  at  the  thought.  when  she’s  finished,  he  walks  up  behind  her  and  turns  her  to  face  him.  “yes  i’m  extremely  happy.  i’m  happy  because  you’re  here.  i’m  happy  because  i  can  do  this,”  he  leans  down  and  kisses  her  left  cheek,  “and  this.”  a  kiss  to  her  right  cheek,  “and  especially  this.”  he  leans  down  and  kisses  her  lips  for  the  FIRST  TIME  IN  MONTHS.

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT LED TO US GETTING A DIVORCE? oh, he was bringing it up so soon… elladora knows that this conversation was bound to happen when she had entered into his home. ben had every single right to know what really happened then and why they got a divorce, why she left him. it wasn’t easy… to leave the man of your dreams all because of fear. a happy moment between them now gone, memories that haunted her had to come into play again, and she was worried. as soon as he says those words, thinking it was all his fault– the blonde can’t help herself as she shifts slightly to face him directly. “you didn’t do anything wrong! i promise you, you didn’t– you didn’t do anything wrong. i am so–” she pauses to take his hands into her own, bringing them to her chest. “– sorry. i got mostly in my head about certain things.. and i couldn’t shake it..” it was somewhat the truth. in the end, she truly did believe she was a means to an end by the words of snoke himself. “I SWEAR TO YOU, I’M NOT GOING ANYWHERE.”

BEN  STARES  AT  HER  for  a  long  while  without  speaking  before  he  pulls  away  from  her  and  starts  to  get  up.  “come  on.”  he  helped  her  up  and  started  walking  towards  one  of  his  guest  bathrooms.  rummaging  through  a  drawer  he  found  a  new  toothbrush  and  gives  it  to  her.  “thank  you  for  telling  me.”  he  finally  says.  he  didn’t  say  he  believed  her,  nor  did  he  say  ‘it’s  okay’,  but  he  got  an  answer  to  the  question  that  haunted  him  for  months.  “now  brush  your  teeth  because  i  really  want  to  kiss  you,  but  you  were  puking  in  my  bushes  when  you  got  here  so  that  can’t  happen  until  you  BRUSH  YOUR  TEETH.”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   THERE LIFE TOGHER pre divorce was SO good— why did she have to be so foolish and listen to that vile old man? she will truly never know. elladora really could only blame herself for the past several months of being unhappy, being alone. granted, she had thought she was doing the RIGHT thing, giving him what she had truly thought he had wanted from the start.. to be CEO. they had a plan. they had a contract. falling in love wasn’t part of the plan, yet here they were; her back gently pressed into his soft chest, warm long arms wrapped around her so tightly she could easily fall asleep. blue hues are soft on him as she looks up at him again, his words were piercing her heart over and over again. “i don’t DESERVE you.” she cries out shaking her head as she tries her hardest to fight the tears that sting the corner of her hues. he was everything to her, burring her face into his chest, fingers clutching at the fabric of top. “oh god ben, i love you too. i love you so much.” 

HIS  WORDS  WERE  TRUE,  but  he  hadn’t  meant  to  just  blurt  it  out  like  that  because  he  didn’t  want  to  overwhelm  her.  however,  his  words  were  out  in  the  air  and  his  heart  was  on  the  line  (so  to  speak).  this  silence  that  followed  his  confession  felt  heavy  in  a  way  that  ben  didn’t  know  how  to  fix,  but  still  it  stretched  on.  he  could  do  nothing  but  stare  at  her  until  finally,  she  spoke  and  he’s  already  shaking  his  head.  ella  deserved  everything  she  wanted  from  the  world  and  if  by  some  miracle  she  still  wanted  him,  he  would  spend  the  rest  of  his  life  proving  it  to  her.  then  he  hears  the  words  that  swept  away  all  the  pain  and  doubt  of  the  last  several  months.  ella  still  loves  him.  

he  sighs  in  relief  and  hugs  her  tighter  against  him.  then  he  took  a  deep  breath,  “ella  can  you  tell  me  what  led  to  us  getting  a  divorce?”  he  asked  gently,  “i’m  not  trying  to  upset  you  and  if  you  really  don’t  want  to  tell  me,  then  don’t  and  i  won’t  bother  with  it  again.”  he  would  let  it  go,  he  just…  “i  just  don’t  know  what  i  did  and  I  DON’T  WANT  TO  LOSE  YOU  AGAIN.”  HE  FINALLY  ADMITS.

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lyonkept​ (ella):

      THE  GUILT  THAT  HITS  HER  LIKE  BRICKS,  was  too  much…  unable  to  get  over  her  own  problems  she  had  kept  something  like  this  from  him.  the  man  whom  she  loved  so  dearly;  had  kept  this  from  ben.  although,  it  wasn’t  entirely  ALL  her  fault.  she  had  someone  to  blame.  someone  she  didn’t  even  want  to  think  about.  entirely  too  grateful  that  he  pulls  her  to  comfort,  already  taking  better  care  of  her  then  she  had.  watching  as  his  hand  spreads  across  her  belly,  noticing  the  contract  between  skin  colors;  ella  having  a  sun  kissed  glow.  fingers  place  over  his  hand,  neck  turned  slightly  to  keep  his  gaze  unable  to  look  away  as  she  laughs  gently  at  his  ‘woah.’  nodding  at  him  in  agreement.  “do  you  promise?”  she  asks  sheepishly,  swallowing  hard  as  she  ghosts  digit  across  the  top  of  his  hand.  “i  um—”  finally  looking  down  at  their  hands.  “i  don’t  know  the  sex.  i  couldn’t  bring  myself  to  know.”  

SITTING  WITH  HER  LIKE  THIS,  ben’s  mind  couldn’t  help  but  get  lost  in  the  memories  of  their  relationship  after  they  finally  stopped  fighting  their  feelings  for  each  other.  how  they  would  have  movie  nights,  or  have  a  dinner  together  at  home,  or  how  she  was  determined  to  show  him  that  there  was  a  life  outside  of  working  all  the  time.  he  was  pulled  out  of  his  thoughts  long  enough  to  hear  her  speaking,  “yes  i  absolutely  promise.”  he  assured  her,  watching  her  as  she  looked  down.  “maybe…  maybe  we  can  find  out  together  when  you’re  ready?  i  can  take  off  work  just  let  me  know  when.  unless  you  want  it  to  be  a  surprise  and  wait  until  you  give  birth,  we  can  do  that  too.  i’m  ecstatic  just  having  a  baby  with  you.”  he  held  her  closer,  tighter,  hand  rubbing  her  stomach  again.  ben  felt  like  he  was  floating  he  was  so  happy.  “I  LOVE  YOU  SO  FUCKING  MUCH  ELLA.”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

      IT  WAS  TRULY  SURREAL  when  her  belly  had  dropped  and  she  no  longer  could  fit  into  her  small  sized  clothing.  a  day  that’s  full  of  emotions  of  realizing  her  body  wasn’t  actually  hers  anymore,  she  would  be  sharing  it  with  another—  her  entire  life  now.  it  wasn’t  just  about  elladora  chastel,  she  was  going  to  be  a  mom.  the  blonde  tries  to  regain  control  over  her  emotions,  over  her  stress,  knowing  it  wasn’t  good  for  the  baby.  a  huge  wave  of  relief  washes  over  her  body  as  he  tells  her  that  she  wasn’t  crazy,  still  unsure  herself..  ella  leans  into  his  touch,  forgetting  how  much  she  had  missed  his  warmth  and  comfort.I’M  RIGHT  HERE.  instantly  tears  are  threatening  to  spill  at  the  corner  of  her  hues,  reaching  for  his  hand  as  their  baby  continues  to  shift  she  wants  him  to  feel  it.  pulling  at  his  hand  she  raises  the  summer  dress  she  wore,  placing  his  tender  hand  over  the  spot  she  could  feel  the  baby  moving  around.  “you  are  here.  –  can  you  feel  it?”  ella  asks  with  wide  orbs,  unable  to  look  away  from  him.

ELLA  WAS  PREGNANT  with  his  baby.  his  baby.  he  was  going  to  be  a  father.  his  mind  was  still  processing  that  this  was  all  real.  that  ella  was  here,  in  his  arms  and  pregnant.  he  knew  it  was  going  to  take  a  little  longer  for  him  to  fully  process  it  but  for  now  he  was  full  of  excitement.  when  she  leaned  into  him  he  led  her  to  the  couch  again  but  this  time  he  sat  with  her.  laying  on  the  couch,  he  pulled  her  fully  into  his  arms.  as  ella  reached  for  his  hand,  ben  let  her  place  it  wherever  she  wanted.  when  he  felt  movement  under  his  hand,  his  eyes  locked  with  hers  as  they  widened  with  wonder.  “woah.”  so  there  they  sat;  on  his  couch,  hands  feeling  their  baby  moving.  “this  is  our  baby  ella,  our  family,  all  right  here.  i  won’t  leave  our  family  ella,  I  SWEAR.”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

    it’s  unusual–  the  difference  there  was  when  he  had  wrapped  his  arms  around  her,  no  longer  petite  size;  she  was  21  weeks  along–  she  wasn’t  exactly  skinny.  arms  drop  to  her  sides  as  he  holds  her,  strong  arms  keep  her  tight.  she  had  been  such  a  fool  believing  in  snoke  in  all  of  the  lies  he  had  been  telling  her  from  day  one,  however  still  till  this  day,  she  still  was  afraid..  afraid  for  ben.  hands  reach  up  to  wrap  around  his  wrist,  noticing  the  way  he  can’t  let  go  of  her  stomach–  the  way  he  was  apologizing  so  many  times—  how  could  she  have  been  so  foolish?  “it’s  not  your  fault,  ben.  don’t  you  apologize.  i  came  here–  acting,  well,  crazy.”  ella  freezes  when  he  asks  her  why  they  got  a  divorce..  a  subject  she  truly  did  not  want  to  talk  about  this  very  second.  he  knew.  he  finally  knew  about  his  child.  with  wet  orbs  she  looks  at  him,  licking  her  lips  slowly–  wincing  again  as  her  stomach  starts  to  shift,  growing  incredibly  uncomfortable  she  lets  out  a  sigh,  hand  coming  up  to  pinch  the  bridge  of  her  nose.  “ben,  please—  i  just–  i  need  a  minute.”  she  finally  gets  out,  realizing  it  was  her  baby  that  was  moving  inside  her,  making  her  grow  pale–  this  was  the  first  time  it  had  moved.

BEN  TRULY  HADN’T  paid  attention  to  her  change  in  weight.  yes,  he  knew  it  was  there  and  he  knew  why,  but  to  him  she  was  still  and  will  always  be  beautiful  regardless  of  what  she  weighed.  even  when  he  pulled  away  from  her,  he  kept  one  arm  around  her.  “you  aren’t  crazy.”  he  says,  shaking  his  head.  “you  were  angry,  stressed,  and  upset.  you  had  every  right  to  be.”  he  noticed  her  tensed  when  he  asked  about  their  divorce  and  he  didn’t  pressed  the  issue  while  she  was  struggling,  but  he  would  be  asking  again  soon.  he  wanted  to  know  what  happened.  it  was  his  understanding  that  they  had  both  fallen  for  each  other  and  he  wanted  to  know  exactly  why  he  had  to  let  her  go  when  he  never  wanted  too.  “it’s  okay,  take  all  the  time  you  need.  I’M  RIGHT  HERE.”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   orbs watch him carefully as he stresses himself out for being entirely too stupid. ella doesn’t truly LIKE being mean to him; now in the current situation she’s about fifty fifty, with him still struggling to figure it out– not putting the two times together, she was utterly frustrated. the blonde sucks in a few large breathes of air, trying to relax her body as her muscles started to become knots, a familiar cramp in her lower belly causes her features to scrunch together a hiss escaping her mouth– wild blue orbs flew open as her  abdomen grew into tight knots; a feeling she hadn’t known; it wasn’t like her period– it easily has her in tears, and curled into a small ball for comfort when she realizes she will have to go to the doctor alone. soft hues are on him as he says her name again, instantly at his command. that’s when she caves– that’s when she finally gives in– two trembling hands come up to capture his head in her tiny little hands, not breaking eye contact with him as she opens her mouth and confirms with a “yes.”

  “now–” she says shakily, her voice frail, on edge as she tries to stand her own ground for what may come next. “don’t you dare go yelling at me for not telling you. i tried! god damn it ben, i fucking tried! i texted you, i went to your office— you wouldn’t see me! your hot new assistant made it perfectly clear! i— i couldn’t go to leia with this – i just barely got your stupid address by mistake!” 

BEN  HADN’T  TAKEN  HIS  EYES  OFF  HER  since  he  connected  the  dots  in  his  head,  which  means  he  saw  her  scrunched  up  expression  and  heard  her  hiss.  the  sound  knocked  him  out  of  his  shock  for  a  moment,  then  she’s  in  his  face,  her  hands  on  his  cheeks  as  she  finally  answers  him  with  a  ‘yes’.  instantly  his  arms  are  around  her  and  he’s  holding  her  tightly.  “i  never  knew  ella.  i’m  so  sorry.  i’m  not  going  to  yell  at  you  ella,  i  can’t  because  i  never  knew..  about  any  of  it.  the  texts,  the  office  visit,  i  didn’t  know.  i  do  know  that  i’m  firing  my  assistant  though,  effective  immediately  she’s  fucking  gone.”  he  vows  as  he  pulls  away  only  to  rest  one  hand  on  her  stomach,  “i’m  sorry  i  wasn’t  there,  i  didn’t  know,  i’m  so  fucking  sorry.”  he  kept  repeating  it,  he  didn’t  know  if  he  was  talking  to  ella  or  the  baby,  he  just  kept  apologizing.  

finally,  he  looks  at  her  and  just  asks  one  question,  “ella?  WHY  THE  HELL  DID  WE  GET  DIVORCED?”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

   she’s doing it again, pacing. three steps forward three steps back, and repeat. ben solo, smartest man she had ever known.. couldn’t put two and two together? he couldn’t concept the idea of simple math? perhaps was he playing dumb to get out of it? he couldn’t stomach the idea it was his? the once glowed woman now was shaded pink; looking up only to see him start to pace the room, entering his kitchen, knuckles white. the last time she had seen him this way was the day before their wedding in a full panic. it doesn’t help, it makes it so much worse. 

   finding her breath she breathes out hard, nose flaring slight as she looks at him as if she had daggers between them. she absolutely would not sit down! taking a few long strides she’s in the kitchen in front of him, hand on her hip– finger pointing at her belly, moving her head slightly to get him to just LOOK at her.  “– it’s been five months, ben!” she cries out– dropping her hand in defeat, shaking her head. 

‘WHAT  DOES  THAT  have  to  do  with  anything?’  ben  wants  to  shout  but  he  doesn’t.  he  just  resumed  his  own  pacing,  rolling  his  eyes  at  her  ignoring  his  request  to  sit  down.  it  wasn’t  worth  the  effort  for  him  to  keep  repeating  himself  and  he  was  too  frustrated  to  bother  again  anyway.  he  knew  it  wasn’t  fair  to  be  upset  with  her,  but  she  still  hadn’t  answered  his  question  and  he  was  too  upset  to  continue  to  play  the  guessing  game.  in  his  mind  it  was  simple.

“i  know  how  long  it’s  been  ella.  i  don’t  see  what  that  has  to  do  with  anything.”  he  sighed.  he  was  just  tired.  yes  it’s  been  five  months  since  they  divorced  he  didn’t  see  what  that  had  to  do  with  anything.  it’s  not  like  he  accused  her  of  cheating  or  anything  he  knew  she  wasn’t  that  kind  of  person.  however,  he  didn’t  see  what  the  timing  of  their  divorce  had  to  do  with  anything.  five  months  was  plenty  of  time  for  her  to  get  pregnant  by  someone  else  it’s  not  like  her  pregnancy  had  anything  to  do  with  him…  ‘no  no  no  no  no!’  the  word  ran  through  his  mind  over  as  he  turned  to  look  at  her  and  just  froze  staring  at  her.  no  no!  it  was  possible  but  it  couldn’t  be.  it  couldn’t  be  his,  it  couldn’t.  she  would  have  told  him,  she  would  have  told  him.  she  knew  where  he  worked,  she  knew  his  family,  she  obviously  somehow  got  his  address  if  she  showed  up  here  today.  there  were  other  ways  of  getting  in  touch  with  him  besides  text  messages.  if  that  baby  was  his,  she  would  have  raised  hell  to  tell  him.  it  couldn’t  be.  still  he  had  to  know,  “ella…”  he  said  slowly,  as  calmly  as  he  could,  “are  you  trying  to  tell  me…  that  you're  PREGNANT  WITH  MY  BABY?”

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lyonkept​ (ella):

    it was heartbreaking the way her body simply melts when he calls her name. oh, she thinks to herself stopping in her tracks– it feels like pounds of weight is lifted and she can finally see clearly. it was just her name off his lips, and this was the way her body had react? a puddle of mush? as if nothing had happened? warm heavy hands are on her shoulder– and she’s instantly in tears– hiccupping as she tries to breathe, her golden head nodding up and down as she listens to everything he has to say; leaving her speechless and doe eyed. 

   taking a seat, she still tries to process it all trying her best not to get more upset and confused.. why did it have to be his assistant? why didn’t he break that routine? digits come up to swipe away gently at her skin, still fuming. baby daddy? the blonde can’t help but rise on her feet again, knuckles white. was he blind? “my baby daddy? ben are you kidding me? how long have—- how many months have we been DIVORCED, ben?” 

TO  SAY  HE  WAS  RELIEVED  when  ella  finally  sat  down  would  be  an  understatement.  he  had  only  gotten  more  worried  for  her  when  she  started  crying  during  his  explanation.  his  fingers  slowly  brushed  over  her  cheeks  as  he  helps  her  wipe  her  tears.  however,  the  relief  about  her  sitting  doesn’t  last  long  because  it  is  only  moments  later  that  she’s  up  again  and  questioning  him  on  the  timing  of  their  divorce  of  all  things  and  at  this  point  ben  is  so  confused  and  frustrated  that  he  is  the  one  up  and  pacing  this  time.  

he  kept  reminding  himself  to  stay  calm  but  it  wasn’t  really  working  anymore.  he  knew  she  had  to  be  struggling  if  her  spiraling  emotions  were  any  indication  but  he  was  also  going  through  the  gamut  of  emotions.  he  was  still  reeling  in  the  shock  of  seeing  her  after  all  these  months.  he  was  constantly  telling  himself  not  to  look  at  her  stomach  because  the  thought  of  anyone  else  getting  to  be  with  her  made  him  sick.  he  was  worried  as  fucked  because  she’s  puked,  screamed,  and  cried  all  within  a  matter  of  minutes  and  he  didn’t  know  what  to  do.  he  was  also  confused  as  hell  and  frustrated  because  he  still  wasn’t  getting  any  answers.  pausing  his  pacing  and  bracing  himself  on  the  kitchen  island,  he  turned  to  looked  at  her  and  simply  said;  “please  just  tell  me  whatever  it  is  you  need  to  tell  me  because  i  don’t  want  to  keep  coming  back  and  forth  and  for  the  love  of  all  that  is  holy  ELLADORA  SIT  DOWN.”