IRIS AZLOU

"Je fais ce que j'aime" Instagram: @irisazlou & @makeupbyirisazlou

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TIDAK BERARAH

Apa yang kau punya?

Tidak ada.

Apa yang kau banggakan?

Tidak ada.

Apa yang kau syukuri?

Setidaknya, ada banyak walau tidak bisa aku banggai.

Aku tidak memiliki apa yang bisa mereka banggai.

Aku tidak tau apa yang ada di dalam hati mereka.

Aku sampai tidak bisa berkata, padahal aku sedih.

Nangis atau Marah pun aku tidak bisa, karena aku tidak tahu untuk apa.

Menyemangati pun aku sudah tidak bisa.

Kenapa?

Karena aku tidak merasa berguna.

Kamu menyerah?

Tidak, hanya saja aku tersesat dalam kebingungan.

[irisazlou]

PERFECT

What does it mean? Perfect. A person who have everything? They look beautiful, charming, they’re rich, they’re perfect, ya, perfect.

You sure? Do you want to get one of those perfect people? Before you said "Yes", you may think first the real perfect means... in fact, no one is perfect here, just remember that only God who get a noble of the "Most perfect".

What you have now is a given. What your task now is blessing. God never let anyone to be perfect, they must be have weakness and strength, they smart but they don’t rich, they rich but they’re not as beautiful as you, etc. So, what? Have you blessing today? For what you have now and look out there, a lot of people crying because they can’t eat, can’t go to school, don’t have money.

Just think deeper, keep silent, be quiet, and think... think before you do something and before you make a decision.

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IT’S ME. IN THEIR EYES.

Keep silent is a bad thing

Holding everything

Crying inside

Shouting in my head

To whom i can tell?

No one.

Who is understand my feel?

No one.

I am bad.

I am not perfect.

I am weak.

I am nothing.

Who is gonna help me?

No one.

Who is gonna cheer me up?

No one.

No one is perfect.

But i am the most unperfect one.

I never be the one who makes them proud.

I will never be the good one.

Is it sad?

No.

Is it hurt?

No.

Does it kill you?

Yes.

[irisazlou]

As sweet as sugar?

My first impression to you is that you’re mature to think and act. Even people know you as a playboy / fck boy? But actually you’re not. For me, you’re a normal person, you look such a playboy because of your past, but i know actually you’re not.

I believe in you, i believe in every single word you said, even i believe that you’ll never dissappoint me.

Time to time, we walk every single day with many problems that i should be more patient to face it, cause i feel it was the first time i found someone who having many girl friends but always be honest with it. I also believe that you’ll never be serious with any one else except me.

We walk through any different story, and i see that a big change in you, then i wish you’re litterally change.

Unfortunately, what i wish, hope, and face all the time are only MY BIG DREAM AND MY HALLUCINATIONS. You’re not change, you didn’t serious to me, you’re not such as a different boy i ever know, yes you’re same with people who broke my heart up and broke me down.

You found another girls, and make them in serious way as you did to me. Many promises you made to me and many words you said that make sure you never leave me. But then what? These all are bullshit?

One question: what are my mistakes? Tell me, and you may be leave with your new girls, it’s hurt me but your honesty bring me to be more sincere of losing you.

So, is all your words only as sweet as sugar without proof even just a little from you to me?

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This is what we called Love

i never asking you that we should having a status. I feel comfort with our relationship now, even many people ask and contra with it, it’s like we aren’t be able to do things that maybe they think it’s only people who are in relationship can do. I don’t even care with that perception. What we do now, it’s what we live between both of us. People just see and think what they saw, but i think they never think more wisely. We’re not kids tho, so please think wisely, and be mature.

What i want from you between you and me is not status, but i want you to be honest whatever you did, like usually you do to me. Another thing that i want you to not as close as we do with another person, simple as that. You know that i can be mature, and i can understand what you want this time, and what you can’t do, And see? it doesn’ matter for me, since we meet i never make it a problem when i know you’re close with a girl or even more than one girl, i don’t ask you to stay just with me, even it hurts. Otherwise, i know this is what you’ve do since we haven’t meet, so what? i can’t force you to do what i want, i let you do anything that bring you to happiness, cause what? i believe you’ll gonna open your eyes that i still loving you and stay behind you no matter what in the end. I wish when you’ve opened your eyes then you realize these all, you gonna love me more than i expect.

WIth Love,

I A

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i act as mature as i can to face him it doesn’t mean i force my self to be mature but this is what i feel i’ve changed

Changed to think wisely Changed to face any kind of problem wisely Changed to be more positive in any situation Changed almost in everything

because i realize that i’m not teenage anymore? not as old as you guys think but i understand how i should do  i try to make everything comfortable

these all what i should do in love life i stay for him even there’s no certainty in our relationship because status isn’t what i want now but a thing that i want to know is...

The real of his heart to me. 

[irisazlou]

You: Hi, why you look different?

Me: am i? i feel the same, nothing's different

You: hmm u sure? what you wanna say? just be honest

Me: nothing. i'm ok

You: i know you, we didn't know just yesterday

Me: yes you know me, but not whole of me.

You: really? i don't think so

Me: yes, if you really know me, you know what i want, how i feel, and how actually we are. i have real heart, i'm still normal like another girls in this world.

You: .......... hhhhh

Me: what? why did you keep your mouth? just answer me, open everything from your mind.

You: i know what you mean, but you also know how i am, arent you?

Me: yes i know. But please, i'm not crazy, i can feel hurt, i can feel broken, but i know i'm not supposed to be jealous to you, because we're just friend. But i know you litterally understand how my heart feel, aren't you? you're not crazy.

You: so what should i do?

Me: ......... ask to your self. I promise to always beside you, and waiting because i believe people change to be better, but i'm not waiting forever.

Then, "You" can't answer her words, even her question. He still confused, but "Me" still understand his condition.

-To be continue-

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Kamu, mengapa bisa-bisanya membuat diriku percaya begitu saja tanpa memikirkan hal-hal yang lain sebelumnya? please, hingga saat ini aku tidak bisa menemukan jawaban untuk hal ini. Seperti terkena serangan petir tiba-tiba, tetapi ini tidak terasa sesakit serangan petir, but i have no idea later on. Kedatangan kamu adalah hal yang bahkan tidak pernah terfikirkan sepintas pun di benak ku. Kamu hebat! orang pertama yang tidak bisa sama sekali aku tebak hingga detik ini, dan kamu adalah orang pertama yang membuat aku sangat terjatuh dan takluk pada semua yang kamu lakukan, padahal aku tahu semua baik buruknya tentang diri kamu. Aku merasa tertantang, untuk membuat kamu kepada ku selalu, bukan berencana jahat, tapi aku ingin sekali membuat hidup kamu adalah aku, setelah keluarga kamu. Aku tahu ini hal yang berat, tetapi kamu tidak menyadari satu hal, di samping kamu yang merasa keras dan egois, kamu belum sadar bahwa aku hampir memiliki sifat yang sama dengan kamu, itu kenapa aku tidak menyerah begitu saja meski aku tahu bagaimana kepribadian mu. Yes, I love you for sure, and i’ll show you with what i am, i can make sure that you love me back for real. 

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When i love someone, it's the time where i will never care about another guy, even just look at them, no i won't. Unless he broke my belief, i can do it more

Iris Azlou’s

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Cinta timbul tanpa di minta. Cinta juga tidak bisa di paksa. Ini ada dengan sendirinya, tanpa di cari dan tanpa di harapkan. Rasa ini ada karena suatu tarikan dari pihak lain yang membuat kita merasakan hal yang beda, bukan merasakan hal yang sama saat kita bertemu teman-teman. Cinta dengan keluarga ada, tetapi ini adalah rasa cinta yang berbeda. Cinta yang di rasakan ini  anggaplah rasa special untuk seseorang yang special. Merasakan cinta bukan berarti harus memaksakan akan memiliki status hubungan dengan seseorang itu, kita bisa menjalani ini sama-sama tanpa status, tetapi dengan kepercayaan yang kuat, kejujuran yang selalu ada, dan tidak ada kebohongan sedikit pun. Bisa saja dengan seperti ini, orang-orang di luar sana yang memiliki status hubungan karena rasa cinta, kekuatannya kalah dengan kita yang memang tidak memiliki status, tetapi benar-benar menjaga satu sama lain. 

I wish you will do like i do. Believe me, i will never dissappoint you.

Dear,

Love

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Untuk setiap wanita tercantik di bumi ini, boleh aku pilih satu darinya dan kemudian bertanya tentang wanita mana yg sebaiknya aku tunggu?

Who’s this btw?

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School Style (4) par irisazlou utilisant sac à dos en cuir

Muscle tank, 689.000 IDR / Adidas activewear pants, 1.126.250 IDR / Trucker jacket, 655.740 IDR / Vans baskets semi montantes en cuir, 1.267.645 IDR / Anya Hindmarch sac à dos en cuir, 15.519.255 IDR / Adidas hat, 318.000 IDR / Maybelline travel bag, 143.715 IDR / Maybelline face makeup, 89.965 IDR / NYX blush, 79.500 IDR / Wet n Wild beauty product, 26.365 IDR

[irisazlou]

Problems come... Life isn’t ready yet The previous doesn’t finish yet We just breath normally But why’d you come already? We aren’t the people you mean.. WE’RE NOT! I don’t think why Why people the most wise and respected like you.. Yes, YOU! could be the most stupid in this world?

-Iris Azlou, Cold Night, 23/08/2017, 23:14 PM

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My life isn't just about you Many things that important Many things that i have to run to And many things that i have to raise My life isn't just for loving you Please appreciate my heart that always stand Stand without any reason Stand without any trust It doesn't easy to stand like i do Stand, seems like nothing happened Stand, seems like happy without any tears Stand but holding the hurtness I don't need romantic life I don't need the sweetness I don't need your promises Even i don't need your love more and more. What i need is... Appreciate me Appreciate my heart that i give to you And appreciate what i believe to you -Iris Azlou, Morning Warmness, Thursday 4 May 2017.

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Doneee!!! I coloured it thooo. Wdyt? So, don't forget to visit my polyvore (id: irisazlou) to see the real outfit that i made.😉👍🏻

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On process✏️✒️🖍🖌 The Outfit was created on my polyvore (id: irisazlou)

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It's doneeee!! So, i put my phone on the right, with the pict of outfit that i created on my polyvore (irisazlou). Is that cool? I mean it's cool to imagine outfit that you created, wear by someone, then you sketch it. I love this activity❤️