Ok why do i like it?
Why do i think Hatred not having 'aura' is better?
Well, look back at yourself, do you think youre 'cool' when youre pissed off? when the world seems to be against you, when you loathed somone for being a horrible person, for what they did, for what YOU did, what you did in the past and what you made.
Was it just not- pathetic? loud? irrational? dumb? impuslive? lashing out? egdy?
when you hate your mind goes primal. you go HATE HATE HATE. THEY WILL PAY. I HOPE GOD STRIKES THEM DOWN. I HOPE THEY DIE. I HOPE THEY GO TO COURT.
I can see that, as ive felt it not so long ago with the pressure drama. It made me sick, angry, dissapointed.
and Player is just that, reminder, they are a person.
Lost, away from home, missunderstood, surrounded by people yet nobody truly SEES them, they cant relate, they cant help, the only way is forward.
What they desire the most is to just- get the goal, buliderman, and illumina, and just go home, thats what they desire, somone to help them finally. They listen to buliderman beacuse if hes trapped here- then if they leave, by listening to him, theyre free, they can go home, and the only way to do is go forward and listen.
Player hates their emotions, they hate how they feel, nobody likes to feel negative emotions. They hate how lonley they are, they hate how much they wanna go home, they hate how afriad they are, they hate is so much they want them gone- locked up, repressed. And so, hatred being them- player, does just that. Hate hates Player, aka Player hates themlseves, they scream at themselves- REPRESS. STOP FEELING THIS WAY. ITS FRUITLESS. STOP FEELING. WE NEED TO GO FORWARD. IF YOU CURL UP AND CRY YOULL DO NOTHING. YOURE USELESS. YOURE PATHETIC
it was always edgy and it is now- but people hate it beacuse its in their face. its CLEAR Player is a character now, not a blank slate. Imagine you being in this scenario if you cant imagine it. Imagine being lost in a world that doesnt exist anymore, but it did.
The only way to finish the journey is go forward, and like gosh darn if Player is gonna do it by fighting themsleves even in the messiest, pathetic, ugliest way, without any aura, just full on patheticness and no humility, so be it.
When youre depressed, you dont have aura. When you have anxiety, you dont have aura. When you feel like your life is ruining apart its not a villian story + aura, its a tragedy. None of this is supposed to be cool. Its supposed to be patheitc, pathetic and again, pathetic.
I did giggle in the end with how much Player held anger, and you know what? you do the same, when you look back how you used to act when you were angry, at that moment it felt like a blazing row, but it just ended up being a pathetic reaction from a human being, where they act like an child and not a grown adult.
I love the new rewrite, I wished peope would see it the same way as I do, but am I gonna change my opinion on it? no.
yes, there was some flaws, I felt like fears section was a tiny bit lacking...but its okay. the message was clear, it came across, we had a mission to do, and we did it.
Player is a person, a tragic one, slowly welded into a weapon despite being told to having support. Fate wants them to keep going, even if its about to strip them of any self respect they have left.
Even if its very emberessing
Player, hates themlseves, and they hate the world they are in.
They just wanna, go home.