alyssa

TW: everything basically 19 5’2 | sw: 141.5 cw: 98.7 gw1: 125:) gw2: 115:) gw3: 110:) ugw: 95:(

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i feel like no matter how much i excercise and how little i eat i will never lose as much weight as i would like to 

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u finally did lose all the weight u wanted to and u look amazing bby

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i have the smallest chubbiest hands of all time and i feel like no matter how much weight i lose they’re always going to look like that

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update: 40lbs down still have fat hands

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small and dainty, about to fainty

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i was talking to my best friend/ex boyfriend on the phone last night and we were talking about my ed (he knows literally everything about me i tell him absolutely everything) and he broke down. it was the first time i saw what my ed was doing to the people around me who love and care about me. it’s so hard for him to watch me struggle mentally and destroy my body. i know it’s hurting him and i assured him that i am going to stop soon and that i just need to reach my goal weight but him and i both know that’s not true and it hurts me that i’m hurting him bc i love him so much and i know he cares about me but i can’t stop and i don’t even know if i want to this is just so hard

[ironic-and-sad]

yeah this boy didn’t love me at all he pretty much never did and i’m pretty sure he was just using me for sex even after we stopped dating. turns out he cheated on me halfway through our relationship then he cheated on his new girlfriend w me and i didn’t know so that’s cool i was naive af

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i was high with this boy i kinda have feelings for and he was trying to get me to eat like the end of the joint but then i was like “no u eat it” and so i was trying to put it in his mouth and he like grabbed my wrist and then he was like “wow your wrists are so tiny i can get all of my fingers around it that’s so cool” and i have never been so happy and motivated to lose more weight in my life

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i was obsessed with this boy since i met him and we were really close friends for like over a year and i was pretty sure he didn’t have feelings for me. we ended up moving into a house together with some other friends and then like two months ago we started dating and he’s amazing and i’m so happy

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i haven’t used this account in a really long time and so much has changed wow like i was going through some old posts and idk it’s just crazy

[notaminnah]

to be understood is possibly the greatest form of intimacy.

[heshallruleoverthee]

Because it takes the most effort.

[timbllr]

[booksandcows]

[starving-luna]

me: ah yes, it is the first day of the abc diet. 500 cals. ez pz.

me: *binges*

me, next day: ah yes, it is the first day of th—

[misplaced-syllables-deactivated]

those who ask whether you’ve eaten or how you slept really really care for you

[undo-my-scars]

[myemptynothingness]

[modelsdaily]

[cravingperfection]

i am literally the ugliest, most disgusting person on this fucking planet. no one will ever love me because i am nothing but repulsive. and on top of that i have one of the worst personalities possible. no one wants to date a stupid, fat bitch like me. well, you know what that means: gonna start a three year fast to make up for it! ahahahahahahelpahahahaha i feel so unlovable i wanna starve myself to death

[slutstain]

[szpdspocks]

the stages of splitting: as told by spongebob

stage one: they don’t LOVE ME and HERE’S WHY NOW IT ALL MAKES SENSE

stage two: don’t block them don’t block them don’t block them d

stage three: ok i split on them and now i’m fucking dying because i rely on this person for validation but i just split on them

stage four (directed towards self): why the FUCK did you SPLIT you fucking CLUELESS BASTARD