Depth over Distance @is-it-written - Tumblr Blog

I should've let you kiss me. I wasn't going to let you ruin your new relationship, thats not me anymore, but its the only way I feel I could've got you back.

Its me again. You told me that we were over "for now". I got happy for a day or two while my lame attempt at getting over you broke down and I wound up single again. I wanted so desperately for that phone call to be the opposite of what it was. I wanted you to give me a chance. I want to show you who I am now.

I'm the guy I wished I was and the guy you deserved. I'm freaking out that ill never have a chance. I want you in my life so badly its tearing me apart and I have no idea how im going to stay sane while I tell myself to wait.

Thats exactly what ill do though. Wait.

I'm holding out for even a glimpse of a chance with you.

I hope you see this. If you don't, I hope someone you know does and is able to tell you. I told you most of my feelings about you but not like this.

Its been a few weeks since I posted here. I think I originally posted in a hope you would see it. You didn't, but my feelings have stayed the same. This feels like a captains log. It probably is. If im im writing this, whos steering the ship?!

It's been weeks of thinking of living with you. I dont know where you're at or what you're doing. I keep running over all the nuances in my head to see if this is all a fantasy but I really don't know and im not sure I ever will