[fairycosmos]

a slaughterhouse. an outlet mall. slot machines. fear of god. you know the usual

[isabellaapotter]

needed to post this somewhere and at least here nobody knows me or who this is about

[isabellaapotter]

me🤝filling my weekdays with so many activities so i don’t have time to think about the debilitating yearning i have in my heart for genuine love

[isabellaapotter]

the nessian crumbs in a court of mist and fury are TO DIE FOR

“Nesta’s screaming was the only sound. Cassian blindly lurched toward it — toward her, moaning in pain.”

“Cassian again stirred, slumping on the floor — but his hand twitched. Toward Nesta.”

both of these take place after cassians wings had been shredded and he’s bleeding out on the floor btw

[isabellaapotter]

kanan: “we’ll see each other again. i promise”

and then they DONT.

[isabellaapotter]

no you don’t understand he literally never sees ezra again

[isabellaapotter]

kanan: “we’ll see each other again. i promise”

and then they DONT.

[isabellaapotter]

drunk and played “noah kahan radio” on spotify and it played carlo’s song anyways if you never hear from me again then you know why—

[isabellaapotter]

rereading acotar cause i miss feyre and rhys, and feyre touching rhys’ wings before knowing what that does to him is SENDING me.

[isabellaapotter]

feyre shape shifting to have wings and the first thing rhys does is TOUCH them

[isabellaapotter]

sometimes i worry that because ive been alone romantically for so long i use all the love in my heart to my friends that when i do finally get into a relationship that i wont know how to love him as much as i love my friends.

[isabellaapotter]

rereading acotar cause i miss feyre and rhys, and feyre touching rhys’ wings before knowing what that does to him is SENDING me.

[isabellaapotter]

women are so great because of our innate instinct to mother any and everything we see. i am in my early 20s and have never had children nor do i see myself having children in the near future at all. nonetheless, there’s a little girl at the beach who keeps going underwater for a long period of time, and i subconsciously watched her to make sure she was safe for about 30 minutes until she left.

and i know im not the only woman to feel this way. it’s so wonderful to know that if im there, a child will never be without silent protection. and i hope in the future when i do have children, other women feel this way about them as well.

[isabellaapotter]

just reformed a debilitating crush on the same guy i’ve been crushing on and off for 3 years. who could have seen this coming

[isabellaapotter]

was it casual when you held my hand walking through the crowded bar? was it casual when you made sure i had something to hold onto walking home on the uneven cobblestones? WAS IT??

[isabellaapotter]

just reformed a debilitating crush on the same guy i’ve been crushing on and off for 3 years. who could have seen this coming

[isabellaapotter]

TIME IS MOVING TOO FAST EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP ITS NOT FUNNY

[isabellaapotter]

and if i said kanan/ezra is my favorite master padawan duo what then

[isabellaapotter]

kanan loved ezra so. fucking. much. i honestly don’t doubt that if kanan could then he’d have gotten back solely to not leave ezra. he loved his son so much. and ezra WAS his son. he learned to use the force to see just to be able to help ezra continue his training after he went blind.

i honestly think that kanan and ezra’s relationship surpasses kanan and heras. and that’s not to say i don’t love kanera, i do, like a lot. but kanan and ezra have a bond that i feel in the depths of my literal soul.

[isabellaapotter]

and if i said kanan/ezra is my favorite master padawan duo what then

[isabellaapotter]

so the jedi, right? they’re not allowed to form connections that would prohibit them from making the best decisions for saving the most people, right. example, they aren’t allowed to have a lover or best friend that they’d be inclined to save in a fight more than other people.

amazing rule except i hate it, and i was thinking about it and i realized that almost every single jedi we know and love literally breaks this rule. every single fucking one.

however there is one girl that comes to mind, ahsoka. she is the QUEEN of not throwing the mission in favor of saving one person. if you think this is an ahsoka appreciation post you’re wrong, unfortunately i dislike her for this quality. she’s the only one that does Being A Jedi correctly and i dislike her for it.

in short, i don’t think they’d ever let me be a jedi. pretty sure the temple would explode if i ever walked in. and also fuck ahsoka