Isabel Flores

A blog dedicated to the things I find interesting.

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Études Topographiques vol. II

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3.24.21

I’m back. It’s been too long, but I’m finally coming into my own person. 

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8.13.2017

They always say do what you love and everything else will fall in place. I feel like I’ve been lied to. i had all these aspirations, yet I feel like I’m just standing still. 

I realized today that I’m not doing what I love. I find myself DREADING Monday and going to work. I get anxious. I think it’s been like this since 2015. It’s been two years that I’ve wasted my time, trying to make ends meet instead of taking risks. 

Here is to taking risks.

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8.10.2017

I’m officially 25. I can’t say I feel happy or sad. I just feel weird, empty. I just finished watching Crash. It just makes me wonder. 

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8.9.2017

I got the sweetest surprise in the mail today. One of my really good friends decided to surprise me by sending my dog, Oliver, some toys. I don’t know why I got so happy. I think it was because I was having a shitty day and getting this in the mail blindsided me. It’s weird, but I really appreciated the gesture. 

I love my dog and I like that my friend understand and knows what it’s like to care for an animal. He was also the one who told me about an episode in Futurama where it depicts a dog waiting YEARS for his owner to return. I don’t know but that episode really got to me and made me cry.

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8.8.2017

Two days till my birthday. all I know is that I’m tired but also determined to what is in store for me. I’m ready to move forward with my life. I don’t know if this sounds odd or irrelevant, but today I learned that you can only control the outcome of your actions and not the actions of others. 

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8.6.2017

So much has happened this past week. I finally acted my age and went out to a bar with some friends. I had to go back to work earlier than anticipated and I went to go see Kendrick Lamar. 

My weekend was pretty interesting. We arrived to Las Vegas Friday night, close to midnight. And to our surprise it was RAINING and there was THUNDER in sin city. That was something that wasn't expected from this little personal hell. 

Saturday was the day of the concert. I literally sat in front of a tv screen watching reruns of Cesar Milan’s Dog Whisper and Law & Order SVU. Only to step out the get some Chicago styled pizza from Rosati’s. We got ready around 7, left at 8 and where sipping on Fat Tuesdays by 9. 

At one point I think I was in a whirl wind of emotions because I got to see an artist (Kendrick Lamar) that I really connected with. His music helped me get through a rough patch in my life. It helped me come to terms with racism, my identity and depression.

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