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21 yrs of struggle 5'4 cw: 108 lbs, gw: 95lbs

[istarv3]

CW: 108.6 lbs

[istarv3]

your clothes didn't shrink, your body just grew

idiot.

[istarv3]

i just got a new scale after years of only being weighed at the drs

im about to be unstoppable

[istarv3]

is it body dysmorphia or am i just a fat ass?

[istarv3]

my body is so much prettier when i am starving

[honeymoonglimmer-deactivated202]

I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up again

[istarv3]

im so exhausted

[bows-of-satin]

$p0 for today 🎀

[istarv3]

he said "god im fucking lucky you're light" while carrying me :)

[istarv3]

is it weird to watch movies and shows portraying anorexic behavior to purposefully trigger myself?

any recommendations?

[velvetrosedoll]

[istarv3]

it went from my mom threatening me with doctor visits to my boyfriend taking over and saying im a few days away from ending up in the hospital

i just cant bring myself to eat its disgusting

i need the all of the fat off my body

[istarv3]

being freezing cold in the middle of summer is not as fun as i thought it would be

my fingers are literally turning purple

[istarv3]

the guy i like likes someone smaller than me im going to kms

[istarv3]

My mom found herself at my door just a couple minutes ago asking me if I was okay for the third time today. I kept insisting that was okay, i feel healthy, i'm not hungry, ive already eaten so much today all while trying to keep my stomach from growling to reveal the liar i have become.

[istarv3]

this is a sign to fix your sleep schedule <3

[istarv3]

all im getting from this is that not sleeping makes u fat, goodnight

[istarv3]

btw i changed my fast into a liquid fast i cant go without my coffee and got a diet coke and monster as well but everything is low cal and im still going strong without any food :) <3