synopsis: heartbreak is inevitable, but not everyone is able to move on.
word count: 1k
warnings: mild profanity, mentions of infidelity, drinking, angst, unrequited love, major character death ! (not proofread)
author's notes: i haven't been here in a while, i missed you all !! apologies in advance for the angsty comeback ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁
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jiwoong can't remember the last time he was able to think straight; the memories of you clouding his thoughts. jiwoong wonders where it all went wrong. ten months ago he would get the phone call that haunts him 'till this night. nightmares, he'd awaken with cold sweat dripping down his forehead; the event playing in his mind like a broken record. he remembers your ever so serene expression, the way your skin was already cold to the touch, the feeling of holding you in his arms one last time. looking down at the shot in his hand, he catches a sight of how a singular tear hits the surface of the glass. "fuck." the singular tear lead jiwoong into a sobbing mess.
zhang hao wonders if you've been well. after all, it was his fault for being in this situation. but what was a man supposed to do given his future or his first love. he catches himself staring at your contact on his phone often, too afraid to hit the call button. do you still think about him too ? do you even still remember him ? he can't erase the last time he ever got to see you, standing so close yet so far away. he wishes he could've gone back and wiped those tears off your face. truth is, zhang hao can't move on, not until he finds a way to reverse what he's done.
hanbin knows that he couldn't have done things differently, even if he tried. he couldn't make you view him as more than just a friend. was this just the consequence of growing up together ? he can't help but wonder why you were so blind to see that he's been here the whole time. he wants you tell you, he really does. but hanbin can't muster up the courage to tell you about his feelings; seeing the way your eyes, heart, and mind focused on another guy. hanbin knows it's wrong to wish the worst upon someone, yet the sting in his heart convinces him more than the rational thoughts in his mind.
matthew was at fault, he fucked up, he knew. he didn't deserve to feel this way, he couldn't help it. two weeks ago he was living the life; a stable career and the girl of his dreams. a week ago, he traded the latter away. he didn't mean to, you'd caught him off guard. matthew looked around the room; there in the mirror, he looked at himself. the red mark, still stinging, served as a reminder to matthew. he'd never been so disgusted with himself, choked sobs threatened to rise up his throat; but he knew he didn't deserve to cry. not anymore.
taerae wanted this breakup and you did too, it was mutual. or so he thought, until he couldn't stop thinking about you; often catching him self reminiscing the times you two shared. this was something he should be over, after all, he was the one who initiated it. yet taerae couldn't understand the way his heart clenched when he saw you again a year later, your hand intertwined with someone else. taerae was never a jealous person, so why did he feel this way now after he'd let you go ? it shattered him to see the way you didn't even look back at him, maybe he was hoping for too much.
ricky had rejected you when you first confessed your feelings to him. he wasn't interested at all and you understood. he thought all was good between you two. eventually ricky noticed you weren't around him as much anymore, he didn't want to admit it; he felt a sense of longing. he missed the way you'd take time to greet him or walk with him to classes. he missed the way you'd ask about his day, mad at himself for all the times he pushed you away. ricky didn't want to admit it; he wished he hadn't rejected you, disappointed in himself for not realizing sooner.
gyuvin couldn't help but feel guilty; he was already in a relationship, however his heart told him that he still wanted you. gyuvin had admired you from far away for so long, he felt sadness for his girlfriend; but she wasn't the one he desired. gyuvin wasn't sure why he was with her in the first place, the guilt eating him up near breaking point. it was you who had taken over his mind and heart, it had always been you. he was frustrated with himself, one day he'll manage to tell you the truth; for now he would have to resort to his current life. it was selfish of him, he knew. but what his girlfriend didn't know can't hurt her, right ?
gunwook was crushed. for a moment, he really thought he had you. he'd been yearning and was over the moon when you had confessed you liked him too. that quickly ended. gunwook didn't mean to eavesdrop on you and your friend and quite frankly, he wished he hadn't. it stung, your words crushed him more than he ever imagined. he was so sure that your relationship was solid, it felt surreal. with a heavy heart, clenched fists, and tears threatening to spill; gunwook listened to your last words, confirming he was nothing but a bet to you.
yujin liked you ever since he was little. in his eyes, you were the perfect babysitter; you also happened to be his older sister's best friend. yujin would see you around often, how couldn't he catch feelings for you ? maybe it was a bit delusional of him, but he thought surely you must've liked him too or thought fond of him, why else were you always around ? after years of waiting, yujin finally decided today was the day he wanted to tell you. he sat on the couch, anticipating your arrival, only to have his heart dropped seeing your arm interlocked with a guy. he felt all sort of emotions, betrayal was the biggest one. he was angry at you, angry at himself; yet he couldn't do anything but smile weakly as you introduced this new guy, blood pounding through his head.
i was tagged by @starryoong, and i think this loaf completely captures my essence, lmao. if only there was an option to give them an absurd statement coat of some kind…
this:
is jadecore™️.
i’m tagging anyone who reads this and demanding that they cat-ify themselves. yes, you! say that i tagged you 😌
This was adorable thank you so much for the tag omg🥺
Like please😭😭 am just a lil cat
Tagging: @jessikahathaway, @moonleeai, @archivedkookie, @casuallyimagining, @taegularities, @wintaerbaer, @kingofbodyrolls, @han-nah-banana and everyone that wants to participate!!
end of the year. ive survived and that's scary but you know what? it'll be fine. we'll all be fine and im promising that; whether it be this year, the next, or far in the future, we'll be ok :)) it's stupid how this platform, one that my friends teased me for using, left such an impact on me as a person.
AKA. MY END OF YEAR MUTUAL APPRECIATION POST. (warning: these got long and sort emotional for me to write. well, as emotional as i can get fjkdhgkjfd. sorry if my coherence gets lost later on. forgive me if you weren't mentioned specifically for something; i have more mutuals that expected. it's genuinely surprising.)
if you weren't mentioned specifically, there's still a note for you at the bottom. sorry for making you scroll for long to find it :'DD
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @tiredsleep . . . the mutual who has stuck through it all. oh tired. tired, tired, tired. i think im a little stupid for how happy i get when you like a post or send an ask or keyboard smash in my reblogs. a lot of what i said in my long ask to you a while back is what im trying to convey now. the way we met wasn't through much special; i followed you and eventually you followed back. it was slow going in the ways we interacted but the nicest things take time and im so glad we're the way we are now. we're strangers, two little guys on the internet, and i think it's beautiful how we have this. you're an amazing writer, an all around amazing creator of the worlds you build and the characters you create. i don't think you realized how envious i used to be of you; you made it seem like it was easy enough for you to connect with others, your writing was something id never achieve with mine, it was flat out jealousy. it was my fault we were distant to begin with. i soon figured out that praise was correct: you are among the most wonderful people ive had the pleasure of knowing and talking to you, even if it's just through a screen. there's so much more for me to say that i constantly struggle to put into the correct words to get the point across. just know that you have great things out there for you. have a great new year, tired. we'll make it. im so proud of you.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @aelatus . . . the last standing mutual of all my og (close) mutuals. hello atlas! im not sure if you'll ever see this on tumblr since i know you don't log on much but you've been my mutual through three blog changes now; was there for my xstar-kidx era and kozmiixs stage. we've been through shit together, had banter about grammarly together, lost certain mutuals together, have changed blogs, changed themes, switched fandoms, fell out of love with fandoms. it's been a wild couple of years, huh? im so thankful we've met and got close in the ways that we did and that we're able to call each others close. your birthday is soon so in the case that i forget to say this on discord: happy birthday, the xiao to my albedo. live a life of freedom and joy, my love /p.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @izukxnnie . . . hara :((( i don't think you'll ever come to read this message but that's alright; maybe it's for the better kdfgh. i know i sent you that long winded ask on your blog already but i miss talking and interacting with you, even with all my awkwardness. im still so regretful of that one time i sent a request to join your world but then you were busy and i didn't read your messages until later that day as in hours later bc i was at school and idk if i ever responded to them in the end. maybe i'll send you a message on discord later. maybe i won't bc i'll be too sentimental. i really hope you're doing more than well, that you're happy doing what you do.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @ay-asterisms . . . the mutual who introduced me to so many others. i really have you to thank for what i have now, ay. truly. you brought me deeper into the hq fandom and introduced me to jennie, atlas, and others. we don't talk much but i'll say what ive mentioned before, you remind me so much of the sun. but not as the bringer of life and the ball we see every morning; a sun in the sense that you're a star closer to earth but still a star, still out there where there are multiple. the difference is that you just happen to bring a warmth that others can't provide for ones nearby.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @cryo-locket / @lo-cinno . . . you. im not even sure how we became mutuals, and my memory is pretty good. we just spawned in each other's zones one day and went yeah, alright. honestly, ive never said this to anyone, but you were one of the reasons i decided to focus more heavily on chinese. our interactions reminded me of why i wanted to relearn the language for myself: for the social connections. i genuinely love talking to you and always find myself laughing at our conversations. mainly because our timezone dif is so odd so it's always late in the evening when im on. your ebg was so fun and with all the pain it brought / hj, im so happy to have been part of it. thank you for putting up with my 2 am rambles and crack, hope you found laugh or two with them.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @pr3tty-jennie . . . you intimidated me when we first met. i still remember it actually: you had that kamninari theme and the most recent post on your blog was about how you couldn't remember the word for chandelier in english but knew it in french. you've been through so much, endured so much, and i respect you so much. always have, always will. your life story and the past don't define who you show as a person and im so amazed by that part of you. have a good day, good week, good rest of your life pretty girl :DD
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @june-again . . . it's crazy, you know? crazy how far we've both drifted off from the original fandom that brought us together? but that's character development. speaking of that, ive gotten the absolute pleasure of seeing you grow as a person and go through the motions of life. it's always chill talking to you, jokes come easy hah! you're an amazing musician, june. amazing person, amazing at writing, amazing at music; you're outstanding so in the words of Freddy fazbear from security break, way to go superstar! i knew you could do it and i know you still can.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @junjiie . . . the seungmin to my minho, the other half of 2min, the self proclaimed jeno to my renjun (have yet to be a dreamzen my b :(() and the no. 1 solieber. i was serious when i said you're the reason my other blog exists; you've been the biggest hype person when it came down to me going out of my comfort zone and writing. i was so nervous going up to talk to you at first kjfdhgkj but now, you're just another silly guy in my phone screen :DD thank you for sending all your updates about life and putting up with mine even though they never get answered- seungmin to not only my minho, but hyunjin too, let's keep being #Silly, yeah?? it's already the actual new years day when you're receiving this so i hope the year is off to a good start.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @sohyuki . . . MINT im hoarding the ask that you sent me on christmas day. im always so happy when you've shown up on dash and while im sad about how you've let tumblr mainly behind, i know it's for the better since well, interactions have been shit and probably will never get back up to the standard we held them to, even with all the effort put in. you are such an amazing all around person and like i said in my christmas note to you, keep writing. hoard it, feed into it, you have something wonderful going on with it.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @kamiyatos . . . user kamiyatos!!! lee!!! HELLO!!! it's always such a pleasure to talk to you and i hope you know that i keep your ramble about malleus' character and your plot idea for him in the back of my mind constantly, even though that ask has been lost to my actions of deactivation on my old blog. you're the biggest ayato fan i know who supports my works about him vocally AND you understand my vision on his personality... it's truly touching, y'know? thank you for being there, even when we don't talk as much as we should. i hope this year has been kind on you and the next one is even kinder.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @yinyinggie . . . yingyingyingyingerkjshkjfdg ok this may come as a shock, or maybe you already knew and were just playing along, but we used to be mutuals before the summer of last year. secret identity revealed ig?? eh im sure if you dig far enough into my dark past™️ you'll find smth about it so im not going to say anything about it :P but! one thing has stayed the same for sure: you are so easy and so fun to talk to and make conversation with. you know that ramble i left on the astro twerk form about feedback for the server? yeah. im 100% truthful. you've made something so inclusive and positive, have done to much to get tumblr active, please know that your efforts aren't wasted. im sure they feel like it at times but i appreciate it so much. and im sure others have the same sentiment.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @mhiieee . . . MHIEEEEEEEE MY SCARA FAN !!!! i love and adore your works so much and not to mention your characterization of scaramouche is top tier. ive got a lot to learn from you, mhie; i don't think you realize how much there is to admire when it comes to you as a person. you find such meaning and connection in the words and the world, the sincerity that comes with it,,,,, it makes me want to sob and roll around while also simultaneously wanting to take your brain apart neuron by neuron and psychoanalyze you. not in the freudian way though. ive had the greatest honor of being able to interact with you on not just one, but two!!! servers!!! i think it's a little silly how much i smile when you reply to smth dumb ive said on disc. have a great new year :))
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @ryuryuryuyurboat . . . RYUUUUUU literally the most stunning person to walk the planet ever like. hello??? our first interactions came from that ebg funny enough. does a little ★🪽 anon ring a bell? i only ever got around to sending you one sabo during that time but i hope you did enjoy what i came up with on the spot, i never was very good when it came down to kaeya's character. you are so intelligent and such an amazing individual, please always remember that.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @snobwaffles / @2nobwaffles . . . SNOB SNOB SNOB i always think of the pokemon when your name comes up. in my head, you will always be snom, the bug-ice type pokemon <33 IT'S SO FUN TALKING TO YOU and we haven't been mutuals for long either. im always thinking of the advice you left me when it came down to my rant about an irls party and there's something about the way you're able to appreciate and take note and find beauty int he smallest of things that get brought up. i wish you the complete best that 2024 has to off you. keep calm and snob on :DD
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @itaerae & @mins-fins . . . im putting the two of you together because well, i met you both at the same time through the server. while i can't consider it and, ive never really had such an inviting time in a server, much less a network, as ive had in zumblr. really, it's you two that i owe thanks to. our silly little convos are so fun and im forever thankful that ive found people to talk to on a server for once.
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @https-furina . . . the best server mother fr!!! omg it's so nice talking to you :((( i love the warmth of your words and how your emotions shine through text. it feels like i can practically envision the fond eyeball or the warm smile that you may or may not have on your face when messaging. i’ve had such a great time in the network and your pet names fjfbdjdbjdb have a great 2024 heh :DD
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @lethwal & @astrinityy . . . i don't think you guys realize how fun it was when we were all "debating" and accusing me of being a furry. honestly, i haven't had to stifle laughter like that in the middle of the night as hard as i did for a small while. not too long but long enough. it was a breath of fresh air and it was genuinely amazing to just be able to put the present on the back burner and play around like that. even though it was kind of late for me when that was happening- ignore that. it's always late for me when im online atp. i hope we can get past those baseless accusations you have both placed on me tehe. have a happy new years, you two. ALSO YIXIN!! GA-MING PROTECTION SQUAD RISEEEEE
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @/zumblr . . . there's so many of you and i can't find the proper words to express the welcome i felt when added to the server. it was nerve wracking, ive never really gotten around to talking to that many people or being that open on the internet before. it's funny how one summer can bring you out of your shell a little, eh? and all bc of some guys on screen lmao. thank you for the support and im happy to have met such wonderful people. thank you, again. @urielphix I AM. DETERMINED TO READ ADAD JUST YOU WAIT
𖣂 ┈ ⟡ ˒ @ everyone else, all my mutuals as of now and past, who weren't mentioned or mutuals who want to read something again . . . hello!! im sorry to disappoint by not adding you properly and for not giving a personalized thanks; it wasn't anything against it you at all. reason 1) i probably forgot as um. goldfish brain or 2) we just became mutuals pretty recently and haven't had the chance to really talk much / have been sort of long term but haven't talked much.
either way though, thanks for sticking around! im not the most. literate person. sometimes LMAO and im far from being a proud person of skill when it comes to the right words to say to people but im always happy when people find something worth it in my silly words. i hope we get to interact more in the future, as long as you can put up with my inconsistent (to say the least) replies and brain boggling posts that come from the depths of the midnight zone, that is. get ready for the ride that is this. clusterfuck of a blog place. LMAO,,,, if you haven't already scrolled through my stuff. if you have then um ready for more??? fkdjhgkjlghf
if you've made it to the end, thank you. and why?? im not that interesting or cool as everyone makes me out to be. if you had told 2019 me on tumblr that 4 years later, id be posting my works for everyone to see and also be proud of my own poetry, i would have laughed and called you absolutely insane. some of you have sat through me going through different gender and pronoun crises on dash back in 2020, and some of you ive only met this month.
whatever our situation is, i wish all the best for everyone . i’ll support you guys until the end of the earth and then some. have the happiest of happy new years, may your futures always be brighter than you say they are, and i’ll see you later 💛
i just logged back in after feeling like shit and i see this. JUN ☹️ honestly i was a little scared myself to be in such a big server but i'm so glad we met, especially since we were able to connect outside the server too, muah <33 thanks for making my 2023
synopsis: in which jiwoong takes you out to the nearby outdoor skating rank in hopes you'd fall for him to catch.
word count: 0.3k
warnings: lightly swearing, minor injury/falling ! (not proofread)
advent masterlist
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"do we really have to do this ?" your legs wobbled as the two of you slowly stepped inside the ice skating rink. it was cold, but jiwoong's large, warm hand interlocking with yours made the air less chilly,
"yes, we do. c'mon don't be such a scaredy cat, babe !" jiwoong snickered as he teasingly let go of your hand, letting you fend off for yourself against the sides of the rink.
"jiwoong !" you screeched, your legs buckling and your hands gripping onto the walls for dear life, glaring daggers at your so called boyfriend.
he cackled and held you straight again by the waist. "I didn't expect you to be such a wimp." you smacked him in the chest after he said that.
"easy for you to say, you promised not to let go of me, dumbass."you flicked his head, to which he pouted, tickling your sides in return.
after skating for a while, you were able to get the hang of it, pushing your legs back and forth, still gripping onto the railing from time to time. jiwoong, however, boasted about his great talents on the ice, which earned an eye roll from you.
"yeah whatever, see you at the other end of the rink, loser." you stuck your tongue out at him and took off across the ice. he grinned and followed right behind you.
that was until you heard a loud thud from behind. you stopped and swerved around, your eyes locking with jiwoong's figured, now sitting on the ground. he'd fallen right smack on his ass.
you looked at him and he looked back at you in silence for a hot minute, then you bursted into laughter, so much so that you swore your lungs were caving in.
jiwoong scowled turning his head away in embarrassment with his hand trying to soothe his sore bottom. this was not how he planned the day to go.
link for taglist: @kpoprhia, @wonswife, @chewryy, @watamotee33
nine days of christmas — itaerae's advent calendar
pairing: zerobaseone x reader
genre: fluff, comfort !
authors notes: it's christmas season ! i thought i'd give y'all a little treat for the holidays ᵕ̈ let's just hope i'm able to finish all the fics on time with my busy schedule lol
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𝐈. 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍 𝐈𝐂𝐄
pairing: kim jiwoong x gn!reader
synopsis: in which jiwoong takes you out to the nearby outdoor skating rank in hopes you'd fall for him to catch.
word count: 0.3k
warnings: lightly swearing, minor injury/falling ! (not proofread)
𝐈𝐈. 𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐄𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄
pairing: zhang hao x gn!reder
synopsis: in which the guy you're friendzoned by invites you to a winter cookout at his place.
word count:
warnings: friendzoning, very oblivious hao, unrequited love ! (not proofread)
𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐃 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐆𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐑𝐘
pairing: sung hanbin x gn!reader
synopsis: in which you go last minute christmas decor shopping at ikea, and things don't go out as planned.
word count:
warnings: mentions of getting lost and panic ! (not proofread)
𝐈𝐕. 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋
pairing: seok matthew x gn!reader
synopsis: in which you're awoken by the aroma of your favorite winter treats.
word count:
warnings: none ! (not proofread)
𝐕. 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐓 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐋𝐒
pairing: kim taerae x gn!reader
synopsis: in which a home date at taerae's house turns into the perfect karaoke.
word count:
warnings: none ! (not proofread)
𝐕𝐈. 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
pairing: shen quanrui x gn!reader
synopsis: in which mr. crazy rich asian can't help but spoil you at the mall during christmas week sales.
word count:
warnings: excessive spending ! (not proofread)
𝐕𝐈𝐈. 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐀𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓
pairing: kim gyuvin x gn!reader
synopsis: in which building a gingerbread house doesn't go as planned, looks like someone's ending up on santa's naughty list this year.
word count:
warnings: decapitation and amputation of gingerbread men ! (not proofread)
𝐕𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐔𝐓𝐂𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑
pairing: park gunwook x fem!reader
synopsis: in which romance sparks between the ballet dancers for the nutcracker and the sugar plum fairy.
word count:
warnings: reader is a little mean at first, enemies, grudges ! (not proofread)
𝐈𝐗. 𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐎𝐄
pairing: han yujin x gn!reader
synopsis: in which you were set up by your best friends under the mistletoe with your one and only childhood crush.
word count:
warnings: mild friendzoning, mild unrequited love, no kissing under the mistletoe because yujin is a minor ! (not proofread)
link for taglist: @kpoprhia, @wonswife, @cowsidfk, @doobinnies, @chewryy, @watamotee33
synopsis: in which hanbin visits the beach to recollect the sweet moments he shared with you before.
word count: 0.4K
warning: angst, character death, hallucinations ! (not proofread)
authors notes: i've been super busy with school, and haven't been able to find time to write ᴖ̈ but thanksgiving break is almost here so i'll be able to catch up soon !
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the aroma of sea salt and air hits hanbin as his feet pitter patter through the warm sand. it was mid july, the perfect time for a getaway beach trip. he's been once— scratch that, multiple times with you before, and each time it gets a little better. he smiles as he takes in the scenery, the waves gently crashing against the sand, the sun that rises across the horizon, the day couldn't be better. he turns to you, offering a hand, to which you gladly accept as the two of you walk off to find a place to set up your beach blanket.
hanbin noticeably steals glances at you from time to time, he can't help the way the breeze blows against your hair, making it flow at the perfect again, or the sunlight that reflected off your skin, enhancing your natural glow. mesmerized is the least you could use to describe the lovesick boy.
he pulls you by your waist to his side, keeping you close as he drew little circles into your hips. he smiles again when you lean your head onto his shoulder, the both of you looking into the distance, admiring the view. he steals another quick glance before taking your hand into his, gently squeezing and interlocking your fingers together, a sign that he wasn't planning on letting you go.
nothing could interrupt such an intimate moment, that is until he feels your hand go loose. he pouts, thinking you were teasing him again, and glances at you with an adoring expression. but your hand loosens by the minute and he sees your figure start to fade.
he panics, gripping on to the parts that haven't yet faded. confused, he screams out in agony, begging you not to leave him here. onlookers pass by and watch as the delirious man, most of them with concerned expressions. they don't seem to see what he sees.
when you vanish completely, he looks around in a daze, not able to wrap his head around what just happened. and then it hits him. all the memories come rushing in like a brewing headache. he hears the sound of the police sirens, the questions, and the ambulance that takes you away. he remembers it vividly, as if it occurred yesterday.
he grips his head in regret, tight enough it was probably bleeding. if only he were able to save you that day. if only he told you not to go in the water without him. if only he heard your pleading cries before you succumbed to the depth below. then maybe he could've enjoyed yet another day at the seaside with you.
synopsis: in which your memory recalls upon how meeting coincidentally with mr. dimple grew into much more.
word count: 0.4k
warnings: an excessive amount of fluff, pda ! (not proofread)
authors notes: a little taerae drabble for @luvjiun because today has been not so great on him ᴖ̈
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the autumn morning was cool and crisp, just the way you'd prefer. the sun had peeked it's way over the horizon as dews of light lit up the buzzing city streets. the aroma of fresh pastries and brewed coffee hit your nose as you approached the small café near the intersection.
the smell of pumpkin spice and candied apples filled your nostrils as the door made a little 'ting' when you walked in. it was a simple scenery, calm. with a smile, you made your way to the counter, ready to start your morning.
your eyes darted around as you stood waiting for your drink. a simple seasonal latte would do for today. in a trance, you heard the barista call out the name of your order. you got to the counter and grabbed the drink, your hand landed on top of another.
the realization hits you, and you're stuck in place, expression as a deer in headlights. that's when you noticed whom the other hand belonged to. it was a brunette boy. he looked to be around your age, prominent dimples poking out from both sides of his cheeks.
you saw the way his shocked eyes moved from your face to your hands. you both pulled away at the same time, a feverish blush now noticeable on both your faces. you were first to stutter out an apology, with him following quickly behind.
funny enough, the drink was neither of yours. the middle aged man behind you excused himself and grabbed the drink, leaving with not another word. you didn't know if you felt embarrassed for yourself, or the secondhand embarrassment for the cute boy standing across from you.
that day ended with both of you laughing over the silly incident and a whole lot of teasing and bickering followed behind it.
all your thoughts of the nostalgic scene vanished as you felt an arm wrap around your shoulder. the arm tightened it's grip as you leaned into it's inviting embrace. the autumn morning was cool and crisp, just like you'd prefer.
you smiled, remembering your little daydream as you looked up. the same brunette dimpled boy look right back at you, his expression tender. his smile lit up brighter than the sun that illuminated the buzzing city streets.
except this time, the brunette dimpled boy was now yours, no longer the stranger you laid hands on at first sight.
synopsis: an aspiring young florist in training lays eyes on the most beautiful rose he'd ever seen. what happens when her once blooming petals turn into prickling thorns ?
word count: 0.8k
warnings: unrequited love, angst, fluff if you squint ! (not proofread)
authors notes: a little drabble for @luvjiun's event ! i had so much fun writing this ᵕ̈ i did a little poetry-ish theme bc i know you like poetry hehe
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han yujin, a boy who grew up in a sunny, quiet suburban neighborhood. han yujin, a boy who'd found his solace and purpose in arranging flowers at a tucked away corner shop. han yujin, the young florist whom all the towns people knew too well.
han yujin, who found himself working day by day behind the counters of a cozy greenhouse. han yujin, who got quite used to the sound of the front door bell chime. han yujin, who developed a small habit of tilting his head up to greet every customer that walks in.
han yujin, who on this fateful day, locked eyes with whom he swore was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen. han yujin, who watched the way rays of sunlight reflect on her natural skin in a daze. han yujin, who's face brightened up hotter than the sun. han yujin, who now couldn't utter a single word.
han yujin, who noticed the way her eyes wandered around and laid upon the rose bouquet he held. han yujin, who saw the way she smiled and gave him a mini-wave. han yujin, who now felt the rapid beating of his heart against his chest. han yujin, who faltered before waving back with a nervous smile of his own.
han yujin, who regularly sees her everyday by noon. han yujin, who always noted the way she only orders the roses. han yujin, who subconsciously gave her the nickname of 'my rose.' han yujin, who'd realized he'd fallen head over heels.
han yujin, who now made sure to prepare her roses in advance. han yujin, who felt victory once he saw the way her eyes lit up as she walked in. han yujin, who admired the way her hair flew as she stepped through the breezy doors. han yujin, who's mind was now occupied with her splitting image.
han yujin, who's heart was now racing as they had their first long conversation. han yujin, who blushed knowing she now considered him a close friend. han yujin, who in the back of his mind, may have wished for a little more than just friends.
han yujin, who now had the courage to ask her for a day out. han yujin, who's smile shined brighter than the town after hearing her agreement. han yujin, who had the time of his life, laughing near the pond with his delicate flower.
han yujin, who was slightly puzzled when she hadn't made her entrance the very next day. han yujin, who waited intently as he stared at the door until the clock struck afternoon. han yujin, who now closed the shop feeling a bit blue.
han yujin, who grew upset when she missed a second day in a row. han yujin, who couldn't help but contemplate various different scenarios in his little mind. han yujin, who eventually thought he sounded silly and brushed it off.
han yujin, who still waited as days turned to weeks, and weeks turned into months. han yujin, who's eyes darted to the wilting roses on the counter. han yujin, who'd refused to stop preparing her roses in advance. han yujin, who hoped for her return one day as he now slouched on said counter.
han yujin, who was now a little bit older than the naive boy he was before. han yujin, who still ran the the small, tucked away corner shop. han yujin, who never forgot the rose that once walked into his life. han yujin, who's eyes still darted at the bouquet of roses he stored on the counter daily.
han yujin, who's eyes and ears perked up at the familiar sound of the door's bell chime. han yujin, who's eyes widened as he saw who walked in. han yujin, who was hit by a wave of nostalgia as the sight of the rays of sunlight hit her natural skin. han yujin, who's heart raced all over again.
han yujin, who's eyes trailed down to her hands, which appeared to be interlocked. han yujin, who looked back up and saw the new boy she dragged inside. han yujin, who now felt his racing heart drop to the pit of his stomach.
han yujin, who now looked at the way her eyes softened at this new man, just as she used to for him. han yujin, who forced out a smile hidden above the waves of jealousy churning inside him. han yujin, who now gripped onto the rose bouquet in anguish.
han yujin, who now viewed her once beautiful smile as bitter venom. han yujin, who felt the sharp prick of thorns as he watched his rose walk away in the arms of another. han yujin, who now started growing a hatred for red roses.
han yujin, the young florist who no longer kept a rose bouquet on the counter.
@LUVJIUN WROTE: i’ve always wanted to host a writing collab event hehe. now is my chance! and also a thank you to you guys for 69 soliebers!
the inspiration behind this event is the land of stories, and what is a land of stories without the tales to go with it? for this event, please write about our zb1 boys in different aus that diverge from the idol lives they currently have now.
but there’s a catch. to help you on your journey, you must pick one of the two word prompts provided below as well to write about.
the words you will have at your disposal to use are “roses” and “weapon”. it’s up to you whether the words show up in the actual writing of the fic or not.
DEADLINE to post your fics for this event is october 31, 2023. this is subject to change depending on if people need more time
[ GUIDELINES. ]
chose any sort of au + a word prompt + person/people from zb1 to write about
ex. fantasy au & roses with taerae
you can write for multiple members in one post as long as it’s drabble style.
all participants must reblog this post with the tag “#land of zumblr” to confirm they are going to post something
please tag me (@/luvjiun) in your fic and use the event tag, #land of zumblr, in order for your submission to be added to the masterlist
your submission must be sfw. nsfw will not be allowed.
the minimum word count is 500. there is no maximum. please remember to put a read more on your fic.
remember to include warnings, genre, and if the reader is fem, male, or gn.
if you have questions or need clarification, please feel free to send me an ask!
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