Peter Montgomery (and Neil Montgomery) - 19th October
Aidan & Phillip Montgomery - Jan 30th
Sherry has extreme devotion in her love love for her men in life. Blue and Pete. And her sons. Their story has the same beginnings from Clam shell incident. But, since Pete is her soul mate, it took him some time to fall in love with her. He is bi-sexual only cuz he has attraction for Blue. Sherry has always loved Blue as she thought he was her soul mate (since he was never attracted to her, but that was due to his trauma as a kid in a muggle school before Hogwarts) and so she canāt stand Wonhee, who, even though is Wonnie in drag, but cuz she is a woman, and Blue loves her, she doesnāt like her. Once Pete and Sherry became together, Pete has always loved her and allowed her to have smex with Wonnie and Blue, occasionally doing threesomes and is a very broad minded man, emotional and wears his heart on his sleeves.
Control- Nathan and Mina had extreme control over their sons, particularly Pete, whom they control to the point where Pete destroys Sherry and Blueās friendship after Hogwarts (thus the curseās 1st loss). But he deeply regrets it and knows he was controlled to do so. Blue forgave him and his friend ship with Sherry was restored.
A man of Devotion - Pete had saved Blueās life in their 6th year when a Slytherin boy was torturing Peteās dog Max and Blue, Wonnie & Pete went to rescue and that loon sent a curse at Wonnie which Blue jumped to save which Pete shoved so nobody loses their lives. The loon was put in a mental ward. Since that day, Pete had tried his best to keep control over his mind (which was controlled by that time, by Nathan), he lost his control towards the end, of course, but this memory was his fuel to try and break from the control at all point. He was finally control free when he and Neil broke into their parentsā home and broke the cursed objects that were used to control and curse them. Pete remains as the most devoted and loved friend, a loving, doting dad and uncle and a very open and endearing husband.
Kids - Since Fluffy was abandoned by his parents Jay and Jino, he was practically adopted by everyone, particularly by Cedric & Andrew. But legally Kyu would be Fluffyās parent as heās the God father. Pete and Sherry has two sons. As motherās milk protects a child from ill magic, Sherry gives her kids (all 4) cakes made from it. But Aiden had protested he wouldnāt have it, and hence he got controlled by Nathan. He almost killed Blue, but he threw him up the kitchen wall and Blue lost his memory (but had recovered later). He went to stay with Blueās mom Dana, for 24 hours within which time, Neil and Pete come to rescue him and break all the cursed objects. Aiden now helps Blueās uncle Salem (a twin to Sao Sr.) run his spice shop and is called Enkhen by all the Egyptian customers for his intelligence and prowess. His boyfriend is Fluffy. Phil ās boyfriend is Blue jr, aka Juni who is Bobbyās son. Both brothers are great with Herbology. Both are emotional boys with Aidan being stronger of the two.
A friend like no other- Sherryās love for Blue is never ending. They fight but love like lovers as well. Sherry has control over Blueās mind, as she protects him from spiralling and keeps in touch with everything heās feeling. Sheās a very strong woman, but sometimes she does cry too. Wonnie is her pillar and emotional support. Her approach to loving Blue is very blunt, often saying things like āiām the reason you have kidsā, or poisoning his food or fighting with him. Blue doesnāt mind this, for he knows she loves him with her heart. It seems weird but thereās no way to explain this. Sheās the only one, who has slept with all the boys (Pete, Blue, Wonnie and Neil) and both Blue & Neil are okay with the other sleeping with her. She is considered the pillar of the family.
Chasers - Blue, Pete Montgomery, Simon Choi (originally Key Lemmings, the last match was filled in Keyās place by Sharmine herself); Neferi & Dorian Montgomery Gulygan and Phillip & Aidan Montgomery (alternating).
Seeker - Neil Montgomery; Ted Somner (Wonnie and Shaunās son and Tut reincarnated).
Wonnie & Wonhee Montgomery - 1st March (Rose & Pierce Montgomery) is cousin to Neil & Pete. Wonnieās drag form is Wonhee. Partner is Shaun an son is Ted.
Blue was Nefertiti and Neil was Ankhenaten in their past lives. Wonnie was Smenkhare. Neffy is Meritaten and Danny is Nefertiti Tehsherit. Tutankhamun reincarnated.
13 y/o Neil had loved 11 y/o Blue ever since his first night at Hogwarts. Blue too, had felt like he found his soul mate that night, but they were too young. They liked each other, but Neilās homophobe father had him date a girl.
Clam shell incident- 15 y/o Neil, Pete, Bobby, Jay & Shaun made a plan to get their partners to have s*x. Basically plan was, they would go swimming and Jino would topple a bucket full of clams and then Blue, Sharmine, Wonnie & Jino would be āpunishedā. But it was just consensual smex between the two pairs. Neil cornered Blue in the 2nd floor library on the West side of the castle.
Saying I Love You- At the end of his 3rd year Blue found out from Sherry that Neil is indeed his soul mate. He was seen by the Montgomery twins crying at the foot of the staircase in Wonnieās shoulder. blue had thought Neil was straight and heād never get to be with him. His plan was to go to Egypt with Wonhee (Wonnie in drag) and together be Curse breakers. But he knew Wonnie and Shaun were a thing.
Early next year, Neil had felt Blue presence, when he wasnāt even there, but Sherry was there. That was the power of the Yakshi. Once he found out that Blue is his soul mate he ran to the same library and confessed his love to Blue.
Nathan & Mina (twinās parents) find out - Over at 5th yearās Xmas, the Montgomery parents find out that Blue and Neil are dating and that is why the twins have initially said they redo their 6th year, so as to be on par with Blue and Sherry. The parents would go on to put a curse on Blue that the one he loves the most, he would lose him forever and all the rest would disappoint him. Initially this was a death curse but the Egyptian family stopped it. Blue lost his love and friendship with Wonnie. The parents also put a curse on Blueās kids, that theyād go on to disappoint him (on the very day they were born) but Neil broke all the curses when the kids were 13 y/o.
Careers: Blue and Wonnie were curse breakers for Gringotts and they saved 5 dragon from there while a legislation was passed by Sao Sr. to protect animals from such cruelty. They then went to Bristol Bumblebees as Quidditch players. Blue resumed his chaser role & Wonnie his beater role. Pete and Neil bought the whole team just for Blue and thus started Bristol Bumblebees. They go on to win a lot of tournaments, Blueās broom Soban get broken by mistake by Gus Anderson (Blueās family friend but of an opposing team) and Gus helps him get it repaired. But he get fear stricken over losing his broom so Neil breaks theĀ broom and gets him Sherryās broom and his fears subside. Neil proposed to Blue at the final of their 2nd season match. Now, his paternal Grandfather has a family shop of antiques and Museum and he is the heir to that alongside his Egyptian cousin and Minister for Magic, Egypt Ankhen Gulygan. Initially he used to go there to do his job (after BB retired). But as of now, Neil goes there. Blue visits everyday to meet the family Sphinx Hatshepshut (with whom, his heart beat is connected. A relationship spanning 4000yrs, Nefertiti had promised Hetty sheāll be back, and is back as Blue).
Wedding & Wedding: Initially Blue & Nathan ad Sherry & Pete were married on the same day (a step taken by the supposedly turnt good Mina). However, it was a trap to poison Blue, which Sherry foiled. Blue and Neil wed on a separate date in Hogwarts, according to Egyptian traditions.
Kids: Sherry surrogates for Blue & Neil, and after having twins of her own, she planned on having twins for them. But she didnāt tell Blue. On the other hand Blue only knew that he was having a girl cuz Neil wanted a girl and not having a boy meant he canāt see his ancestors (through his son). At this point, their marriage is in the rocks. Blue was trying to get back together with Wonhee but not really. While Neil resumed his friendship with his ex gf ChristiĀ but as soon as he saw that she had other motives (sheās divorced) so he immediately repaired their marriage and cut himself off from them. But when the kids were born, Blue was overjoyed. He loves his kids with all his heart. They would try to disappoint him, Dorian (Danny) by saying that Blue was a terrible father and Neffy by sleeping with boys and being misandrist. Neil goes back to his house and breaks the cursed object that Nathan used to put a curse on them and thus all the curses are broken. Pete is also saved from being controlled.
Blue is very happy with his husband and kids. He occasionally contacts with Wonhee. His memory has been taken back to his 13y/o (happened as an accident and then Neil reversed it to save Blue from remembering all the bad things). So his experiences things anew. Bristol Bumblebees have risen again as the kids have taken their parentsā places.
So Blue is having some issues with Pete and that kinda sucks but also Neil said Sherry and Blue are the best and heād be perfectly fine with them cuz Sherry has earned the respect, earned the love!
Blue is now happy, well, kinda... threesome and Neilās thoughts on Wonhee... Itās been a while :ā)
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Now, to settle the matter of Christin. A few days after Blue coming back home, Neil took it upon himself to go to her house while telepathically connected to Blue, to force him to see that Neil has nothing to do with her and he knows of Blueās plan and he doesnāt like it and states that Christin should just be with her husband. Some more mingling times were revealed but the thing is, Blue totally shut him off and so he had to try harder to telepathically convey all this and so ended up sharing this with EVERYONE of the olā team! Wonnie upon receiving ongoing telepathy, came to the household to ask whatās going on, and Blue explain the plan he had made forĀ āputtingā Neil and that bisch together. Hearing this, Wonnie eye-rolled very hard and took him straight to Allenburg castle to, you know, have āfunā and keep Blueās mind off. Poor Neil, when he came home everyone knew of this except Blue, and so he told him about the whole thing himself and firmly requested to put the whole issue to rest. Neil has never been and will never be able to love anyone besides Blue. :ā)
Few days pass, Blue was one night sitting on the staircase when Fluffy came around. Among other things they talked about how Blue has helped him realize who actually loved him and wished if Blue would also know that he is loved. Blue requested him to be a bit closer to Neffy, revive their friendship, even though Fluffy finally has lost trust in her. Fluffy said heād go talk to her. that when Neil came down and boy did he converse like a true gem of a man! He told Blue that Neffy was, just quite like Blue, sacrificed her friendship for her love. Did Blue not sacrifice Wonnie companionship in order to be with Neil? Curse or no curse, it was only a natural human thing. She deeply regrets such a decision, etc. i forget the details but Neil opened the eyes of not only Blue but also of the two little friends who were eaves dropping from a flight of stairs above. They then go to sleep. Next day, Fluffy thanked Neil for believing in him (didnāt reveal though, that heād heard them talking the night before) and they hugged and Neil said Blue was sleeping, if he wished to go hug him, nowās the time, he was going to get hot choco for Blue. Such a sweet guy, really.
Neil had given permission for a threesome with Wonnie and Sherry. Well, to be honest, he always felt that the foursome they had with Sherry and Pete, was actually just loving respective partners in one room (he doesnāt know what an orgy is lol), so knowing that Sherry would be most happy with having her love for Blue rewarded and also Blue wonāt feel that much guilty as Wonnie would also be there. Blue informed that Wonnie was sexually interested in Sherry, obviously as she is a Yakshi. so Neil concluded that the three best friends should try this. Well, heād be in the shop working, most people in the house would be either gone to watch match practice or go to tend shops, so now is the perfect time. Blue took that advice and called Wonnie. But before that, he did ask Sherry that he got this permission for a threesome with her and Wonnie and would she be interested? Of course she would, itās what she has ALWAYS wanted, since school! And so, an amazing threesome ensued, where Wonnie showered her with love and compliments and butterfly kisses and Blue hugged her and it was hot and soft all in that one moment. After it finished, Sherry broke down crying panicking the men. She hugged Wonnie and kept hitting Blue accusing him of robbing this wonderful experience from her for almost 28 years! She said the three of them could easily have lived nicely together in Egypt and she wouldāve gladly bore both of them, children BUT Blue destroyed this chance. Of course she was being childish. There was no way Blue was going to snatch both of them away from their partners. He voiced this out and met with more hitting, then a kiss, because this was the best thing that Sherry said, had ever happened to her. Wonnie then had to leave, and now having had achieved THAT level of intimacy, Sherry just didnāt want to let him go. She begged him to stay, but Wonnie had to be on the match practice for his son, Shown would be there by now. Blue promised heād be right here by her side, to keep her comfy.
Neil too, after breakfast, when Blue told him about this, told him to reconsider his stance on Wonhee and make up. Blue obviously asked why Neil was doing this, being so generous and telling Blue to go sleep with all these people? Is he perhaps himself trying to do the same with Christin.. Blue was very quickly rebuked and Neil said that he understood now how important this friendship is (Wonnie-Sherry-Blue) and no matter what, no matter how much he be uncomfortable, he had to admit Wonhee deserves a second chance (especially since itās just Wonnie trying to juggle two lives together). Neil is the best, just saying. Neil, on the other hand was with Sherry, being the elder brother that he is, asking if she was happy, she was okay with the whole W-S-B threesome and simply talking about how he feels responsible towards her, also how that foursome was very feeble and she deserved better and thatās when Sherry said that was an orgy! Theyāre really very adorable together. Then suddenly, Phil entered the second living room, complaining immediately to his mum, how he canāt endure this side of his twin Aidan anymore. Itās like Aidanās not like himself. That peaked Neilās anxiety... Is this another attempt of mind control by his father upon this family? Phil complained to his mama, Sherry that he really doesnāt like how Pete and Aidan are behaving and he wishes his mum would lull him to sleep. Sherry was mollycoddling the boy when Blue arrived. Neil was surprised, as he thought theyād probably spend the night at the Castle. Blue placed his hands around Neilās neck and said, Wonnie has his life and he has his, thereās no need to spend nights together, not even with Wonhee. Itās all okay. :ā)
As they went back to the living room, Sherry had told Phil to have some night snacks since he was hungry, and then the three grownups, talked about how things were changing. Sherry already telepathically relayed to Wonnie to come home once again as the hottest Wonhee ever. She appeared likewise! She and Sherry started a kind of cat quarrel as to who does Blue love the most, thatās when Neil intervened saying heās a man of peace and letās not quarrel but focus on Blue who is horny right now and teased Blue. He fiercely denied any horniness. So Wonhee, who was wearing lace negligee and lace robes, went close to Blue and reminded him that his pants are betraying him and thatās when an embarrassed Blue left the room. Neil laughed and said, āBabini is forever a kid. A teenager, horny kid! hahah You have to treat him like that and then everything becomes easier! Thatās how I handle him now. Took me 20 years to learn this!ā The girls laugh at this and agree.
Briefly, Allenburg castle issue has been solved. Neil and Blue went and talked to his mom Dana, then she immediately called Oliver (her good friend, was a good friend ofĀ Blue as well and a Herbologist) and Hugo Nash (a legal wizard from the Council of Magical Law) and they all, including Sao Sr., went to BVienne Manor to confront Dan, as the ghost of great Grandpa Victor was cast out to live in Allenburg Castle, they all went there and with him reinstating that Dana owns the Manor and the Castle Montague being another witness), it was settled, much to Rubyās displeasure. The castle is owned by Blue and Cedric Diggory (due to familial ties between the Vienneās & Diggoryās) to be passed on to Neffy, Fluffy and Soban Sorenson Diggory.Ā
Days pass, Peter and Blue become more distant. Neil on the other hand acknowledges how Sherry has always has been so, so loyal to Blue. He, being the responsible and reasonable guy that he is, wants her sister-in-law to be happy, and so suggests Blue to make love to her (even though Blue is gay and is not interested in Women of course except Wonhee). Talk goes on and Blue agrees finally. Next day, Aidan sees the two kissing in the kitchen and something snaps in this otherwise logical boy. Huge argument ensues where Aidan accuses Blue of taking away not only his boyfriend but also now breaking his parents relationship. Blue defended himself by pointing out that his dad, Pete, slept with Fluffy and the boy only gave consent so that he may not be considered a molester. And Aidan himself is never serious about Fluffy, being still in a very active sexual relationship with Junior. Blue told them to first admit their own faults and then come jumping on them and after that he went straight to Egypt with intent of spending the next few months there.
Before leaving he told Neil to tell Peter to save his marriage otherwise once he comes back from Egypt, heāll take Sherry away from him and take care of her himself. Neil agreed, but he also knew that Peteās been making some deep deep mistakes. On next few days, Neil convinces, rather forces Blue to come back after three weeks.
Aidan wanted to propose to Fluffy on Bristol Bumblebeeās final match win, but the reason was just to tether the boy to him. Fluffy found out and broke up with him. They lost the match the next day. Fluffy found Soban to be a genuine guy. When Blue came back, he was very relieved to see him. Sherry, too, was very relieved, for she had never not sat beside Blue while eating, never not had him beside her and so she felt simply lost. Wonnie visited everyday to keep her company and comfort her. But nothing has been fixed.
Itās really pathetic, albeit helpful, to write my daily mood. But im tracking it via an app, and so will keep this place strictly for Blue and other personas and for some very drastic mood change, like today i had impulsive buying tendency and gambled away 220 seeds in a game named Everytown. Using dadās debit card. i also almost told him a lie. Then i went back and sorta told me i took more money than i asked for....
Mood: Suddenly feeling lost, lonely and very sad.
It's 12:42am of 10th Feb. Am making a drawing for a Canadian Veteran soldier Mr. Fred Arsenault for his 100th birthday on March 6th. And painting reminds me of how Dadabhai and Dava are not there.. No more there. So sending to this gentleman is kind of a way to wish them. Crying.
Mood: Empty, anger articulating, just low.
Have an empty feeling. Just too empty... Also in too much tummy pain. Also am going fat so anger is also there... Not making the soldier card though. Turns out the whole of Toronto knows of his wish and would surely send him letters. i don't have to.
Mood: Empty, minor sadness and anger, meh.
Doing artwork for Wonnie's bday and i made the art by basically drawing, the first time. So kinda happy with that.
Mood: Happy, Relieved, also Worry (3);
i received WONHO lyric book!! i'm so happy! Also i met one of the babies of 6oto Bunty and he/she is pure black. Gave bicuit and gave lots of love. Am worried about the kids... i know not all 8 will survive... And already love this little black one.
Mood: Happy, very sudden bout of loneliness and emptyness, then okay again.
Ok.. So i set up the poster on the wall and put the standees on my laptop table. Feel good about it. Took Wonho to my dance routine and OH GOSH during the middle of the routine, i almost broke down crying. Felt so alone and sad without really him or anyone, irl. Because i always wanted to dance in front of my favourite person, and was kinda doing that but also know full well that im never getting to do that in front if him or any dude irl. That hurts. But im okay.
Mood: Nervous, Angry (2); Torched the supposed interview by not going to it. Indian Silk house. Feeling nervous so dropped it. Also angry and upset that i just keep eating and keep eating without an end in sight. i'll eat anything and everything just to make myself fat, knowing full well I DON'T WANT TO BE FAT AGAIN. Also had bad dream. Mood: Devastated, Angry (4); Received the album today and NOT A SINGLE thing of Wonho. NOT A SINGLE THING. Everything IM and Hyungwon. Like WTF?? Tried to sell the album immediately. That's impulsive. So a fan from Kolkata is going to trade lyric books and Photocard, possibly tomorrow. Mood: Upset but a bit calm. Not even exercise could fix the problem. im still very upset.
Moods from beginning of day to night: Meh, Happy, elated, Anger outburst (anger lv 4).
So... patching family relationship or are we all just pretending? Dunno. But went to the Book Fair with my parents and genuinely enjoyed it. Whenever we go out, it truly feels nice.
That and exercise, meant that it was an all over okay day. Good.
Thought wise, been thinking of Blue on that other A/U where heās a History prof. and Neilās a student. The one where Somi is his sister and is married to Mike!! Yeah, so, thought wise im happy too.
My fucken certificate on Fashion, i did not even download it, nor is its physical copy present. An important thing, but i haven't even kept it safe. Like whattha fuck? So when went to download as usual fucken site doesn't work. So started to yell angrily at myself that i don't care how you do it but bring that certificate to me. Said to myself. Like fucken bring that certificate, produce it however way necessary but give it. Have since then downloaded it but the outburst hasn't left.
Blue today.. i mean my sudden bad moment regarding him 5th feb
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Been doing a bit of flash backing and revisited those days when Blue and all were in their 3rd year and he and Wonnie would make love for the first time. Oh how cute he was! All blonde, skinny dude with a face and heart of an Angel, he would make Blueās heart skip lots of beats. Then that fateful day in the beginning of 4th year, when Shown asked Blue for the umpteenth time that he wants to date Wonnie and he finally says yes BUT also, on one condition: Hands off Wonhee! A revenge to which Wonnie wore crop top to Quidditch practice cuz he knew that would KO Blue! And it did indeed!
Just Blue loving Wonnie purely and wholeheartedly. But you canāt call this āloveā. Yes they love each other, but it was the love of Friendship; at itās purest. Later Wonnie saying to Sherry how sex with Blue is like having all your fantasies being fulfilled cuz you tell him what you want and heāll do it. Sherry.. was sad, jealous (?) because Blue is gay and no matter what signals he give off, itās not a āSoul Mateā thing, nor can she ever get this. Ah... but she got it later no? But at what price?...
Why i brought this all up. Well i miss Wonho, and Blue misses Wonnie and Wonhee still pains him. He too revisits the memories, right? He revisited all these memories after having a conversation with Kyu, in the morning. A very drunk and teary eyed Kyu had apologized to him, saying that had he not walked away, Blue wouldnāt be in this mess. well, that isnāt totally true. i mean it did trigger the abandonment issue in Blue, and skyrocketed in him trying to set his life on fire by throwing people away from him, for fear he might be betrayed or people would walk out. Letās not forget how he planned on leaving everyone and going to Egypt alone. And Sherry had said sheād leave Pete and go with him. She was damn serious and has reminded him of this every other day. Yikes.
He had the whole day with Neil and they went out to work, spent the day actually having good company. But right after watching sunset together, Blue went all quiet... thatās when he revisited those memories and quite possibly, that option of running away with Sherry when he had the chance.
They were having dinner, when a quite Blue suddenly looked at Sherry, said, āYou always was so angry and jealous of Wonhee, right? iām so sorry i put you through this. Just know, Wonhee canāt even show an ounce of loyalty as you wouldā, and gently planted a kiss on her forehead and then left the house without saying another word. Shut his mind connection from Sherry too. Where was he? Allenburg castle. Alone. Just hiding from his demons.He learnt from Montague, the care taker, that this castle (which rightfully) belongs to his mum, is being sold off by his uncle. His relationship with his parents are still not good and since this is very much going to happen meant one of two things: 1) She knows but she didnāt step in or, 2) she doesnāt know and Blue doesnāt have the balls to tells her. Either way, his safe haven is being taken away.
Sherry on the other hand didnāt have dinner too. Surprisingly Kyu also left the dinner table prompting Neil to telepathically ask Sherry if thereās something going on between those two. Sherry didnāt know but believed Blue would never do that. sherry, for the first time after 20 years, saw that same look in Peteās eye that said, he again changed back to his old self. Somethingās not right.
Well, Sherry went to Kyu to find out what had happened to which Kyu said that how he has a man who wouldnāt have kids with him, didnāt even give him the āhusbandā status and how he feels bad that he left Blue only to be dealt in this way. Sherry was sorry abut this but, it was also, kinda true, so... She reassured Neil that nothing happened. But itās heartbreaking to know Neilās thoughts have gone to such a place that heād think Blue would sleep with anybody now...
Blue comes home and Neil was waiting for him in the main living room. They broke into an argument again where Blue tried to explain how he wanted to leave everybody during their 7th year and how Sherry would just not leave him and so heād take her with him. He wish he did that, then everyone wouldāve been happy. Neil only responded with, āWhat wouldāve happened to Pete, then? Did neither of you ever not realize that heād have no one?ā Blue, with a smile replied, heād have someone too, just like everyone else would. Funny, cuz Blue thought this solidified the fact that had Neil not have been guilty of the Clam Shell incident, heād very much pick Cristin and not him. But he didnāt say anything. then they had a whole segment where Neil asked why Blue didnāt tell him about the castle going away. Blue replied he didnāt have time to process it and heās the first person heās telling this to and also Sherry is finding out trugh telepathy. Neil asked what he was going to do about the situation (regarding the castle), and he replied he didnāt know; Neil asked if he was gonna sleep? He replied no. Everyone was watching tv as usual, and Neil went up to his room.
Sherry saw Blue and he took her to the dining table to finish the dinner and feed her and also explained why he thought such a thing. Heās sorry, heās always seen Sherry as that one friend whom he can trust and their love being pure as well, he treasures her. Sherry responded by saying that although theyāre not husband/wife, but theyāve been making this family for over 20 years right? Also, warned him not to talk to Pete, to which Blue replied āGladlyā. This took her by surprise, and so Blue explained itās not that he has ever pretended to be best pals with Pete. He just maintained a formal friendship with him cuz he had to. Theyāve had it twice incl. the foursome, but only did it cuz Sherry agreed to it. He always knew he canāt trust Pete. Sadly, Neil mustāve been heartbroken in his room cuz Pete could feel it (twin telepathy, am i right?) so he came up to them and accused Blue straight cut for breaking Neil heart, for jeopardizing Peteās marriage, etc. He accused him of bringing pain to Neil, the man who has sacrificed his everything just to be with Blue. Well, Blue misunderstood the last part andĀ replied very coolly, that yes, Pete was absolutely right. that is why he is trying his best to bring Neil and Cristin back together. But also, told him, rather than pointing the finger at Blue, he might want to check up on himself, having willingly slept with Blue and asked him how his wife would feel about this. Heās just standing up for this āwifeā, his friend Sherry. Sherry, anger raging, told Pete to please go and check up Neil and that sheād be with him as soon as she finished having dinner.
Pete, mustāve gotten the shock of his life? Guilty though he feels, and terribly guilty at that too, but being pointed out the truth... both brothers sought solace in each other, in Neil room. Had a conversation and calmed down. i dunno what they mightāve talked about. i know that Neferi came talking to Blue while he and Sherry were still having dinner. Blue told her to try and reconnect with Fluffy and she said no matter what she does, he wonāt be back to being that level of close with her. Blue, like everyone else, reminded her that it was her fault for throwing their friendship away in the first place and so sheāll have to patch it herself. This made Sherry ask Blue, if Wonhee never comes back, what would happen to Neferi? Blue simply replied, as long as this girl gets to be with Ted, he doesnāt think anyone else would matter to her and Sherry hit him quite hard on his forearm. āWhy do you always hurt me like thatā,āCuz you deserve it.ā āYouāre right hahaha.ā
My thought ends with Blue going upstairs to Neil, who is still awake, his hand outstretched to Blueās side of the bed. He slips in the bed and back hugs him. they have a deep convo where Blue again open fresh wounds by saying how heās really trying to patch things up between Neil and Cristin, brings up the Cristin fact, that how earlier, Neil never said he would also have no one, to which Neil again reminds Blue that if he really wanted to be with Cristin, heād have chosen her and not Blue. He chose Blue cuz he truly loves him and had fallen in love with him since they were kids and Blue was 11. Believe him.
i guess this day can be summed up with these moods: afraid, empty, sad, and just sadness....
After 8 years i think i had nightmares regarding my parents.. So automatically my fear was at itās height. Now add to that what i thought about Blue, which iāll talk about on another post. So was already emotionally not well.
The dancing (exercise) helped calm down tremendously. But itās still ya know, articulating. Finally when i saw a tweet saying itās gonna be 100 days Wonhoās not here, and that hit me like a knife. My imagination aināt helping me either.
So iām keeping myself busy with all this, distractions to keep myself from crying but i guess itāll bust out very soon.
Creative outlets and a sense of achievement has capped this day.
i changed my computer table and also did exercise. And so the anger or any bad mood is gone. Dad said heād buy me MX album. The achievement and also, ending my job in good terms with my boss, earlier today was also a tension relief.
i think i was already anger articulating, but from what situation.... Ah the fact that i didn't go to exercise made me regret it. Anger outburst and i hit the laptop so hard it fucken shut down. Cuz the Mozilla adblocker doesn't fucken work and so it kept taking me to a fucken site and just won't fucken work.
Goodness! i feel happy! :') Sense of achievement after successfully sewing a pouch for my bunny plushie i feel happy. Also watching meme videos that really lightened the mood. i pretended to laugh at the begining but now, im actually happy.
Moods: Sad, Angry, Empty and Calm.
Was sad and lonely because i saw my son, Ninoo, in my dream. Rescued him from a man and so in my dream i still had my son. Alive and with me.
Been feeling angry at the begining, with a sense of avoiding. Angry because Wonho's names have been deleted from the songs he made. But added again with him being seen as a solo artist. So am empty dunno what to do.
After that, Anxious because i had to meet my ex boss today to give the resignation letter and collect my salary but he's busy so great.
Now having done some sewing work for my bunny plushie i feel okay. Empty but ok. i feel calm. No anger outbursts.
