blue meets green

"Hey Honey" j.s. c.l. addiction JASPAR with a sprinkle of larry stylinson

[itskarealhere-blog]

www.rbnjb.com?a=16602962

R-a-y b-a-n glasses anniversary, only this day!

[fourthell]

im starting to irritate myself with my poor mental health like damn can a bitch just keep it together for a minute

[cutedatesuggestions]

cute date idea: we go to a locally owned bookstore and cafe to buy greek history books and shakespeare. seeing your brown eyes in the sun makes me believe in miracles and hearing your voice recite soliloquies makes me believe in aphrodite

[secretgaygentdanvers]

hi everyone im still pissed we never learnt in school that shakespeare was bi and wrote the sonnets about a dude and a woc he was into

[secretgaygentdanvers]

hi everyone im still pissed that we were told emily dickinson was a spinster when she spent her whole life writing love letters to a woman

[secretgaygentdanvers]

hi everyone im still pissed about the fact that we never got taught any of the super super gay Greek myths. it seems impossible to think they managed to pick all the hetero myths when Greece was just THAT gay but guess what? they did.

[secretgaygentdanvers]

hi everyone virginia woolf was also bi im still pissed that so much of literature is queer and has queer coding within it that deserves to be analysed through that lens in the same way that we don’t ignore the gender of an author, but sexuality is never mentioned in highschool literature classes

[renthebarbarian]

hi everyone i’m still pissed that we were never taught that da vinci was gay af and that the ideal the western world has of jesus (white, long straight brown hair) was based on one of his male lovers

[cryoverkiltmilk]

The general rule? History is more feminist, less white, and more queer than you have been led to believe.

[vouyeurism]

physically i’m here but mentally i’m living in a small apartment in new york filled with books and i am able to watch a musical whenever i want to but it’s whatever

[arealarchaeopteryx]

please don't ever think that no one cares about you

I work in an ER and we see suicides all the time. And we get at least 3 suicidal ideations a night. We all care about you. I promise, we do. A team of complete strangers who have worked 3+ 12 hour shifts this week who are being screamed at all day and night and probably haven’t had lunch and trust me, we still love you and care about you.

We had a 16 year old patient last night who we couldn’t save. We were in that room with this patient for over an hour, we did everything we could. And let me tell you, we all cried. The EMT’s, the nurses, the doctor. We all huddled together in the doctors dictation room and cried.

I went through the rest of my shift with smudged mascara and tracks on my cheeks.

I remember the names of all the patients that have taken their lives on my shifts.

I remember squeezing the hands, smoothing the hair, kissing the foreheads, and wiping away the blood and the vomit of every patient that has left me too soon.

I can still see every face that I have zipped into a body bag.

Trust me, someone cares about you. You have never met them yet. You don’t ever think about them. They are never remembered when you talk about heroes and role models.

But someone loves you.

[shroom-goddess]

damn….

[phantomkinoc13]

This made me cry

[croatoan-the-line]

When I was in hospital being seen to, being bandaged and sedated and surrounded by medical staff, my family was ignoring my calls, my friends hadn’t cared to check in. I felt terrified and hopeless and so very unimportant that it was taking everything it had in me to not drink the cleaning products left nearby by one of the cleaners, to make sure I finished the job properly.

There was a nurse though, who came into my room with a soft smile, who held my hand, who took away the bottles when she noticed me watching them for too long. There was a nurse that plugged in my phone to charge in case my family called back, that took away the bloody cloths the paramedics had left me with, that helped me put my hair up when it was sticking to my tear streaked face, because my arms were too sore to do it myself.

There was a nurse that saved my life twice in one night, who made me feel that I was worth being looked after, and her name was Emma and she was the most beautiful person I’ve met.

Months later, I was visiting my mother at the same hospital whilst she was incapacitated with back concerns. Whilst I sat and watched my mum sleeping, a nurse approached to check up on her. She met my gaze and she smiled immediately, face lit with recognition, and she said “oh my gosh, hey! How are you doing?”

People definitely do care about us even if we don’t think they do, and to the original poster?

Your faces are never forgotten either.

You’re more than heroes to me.

[servicek9s-deactivated20180617]

Im not crying you are 

[call-me-maddieee-deactivated202]

I remember the paramedics that picked me up recently after my attempt. They said they were “rooting for me to get better.” They said they “wouldn’t ever stop hoping I get better.” they too said they wouldn’t “forget my face.” It really sits with you when you realize people that don’t even know you care about you and are rooting for you.

[oneshoeshort-deactivated2021060]

As a paramedic myself, and someone who’s tried to take her own life twice, I feel I was not allowed to take it because it was my duty to spread my story around. Jared’s AKF campaign helped me do my fucking job. And let me tell y’all something. Us, the SPN Family, hear those words all the time. 

“Always Keep Fighting”

And sometimes, I’ll admit, they become so overused and repetitive that the meaning and message can get lost.

I was transporting a teenager to a mental health facility after her attempt. I told her my own story and it resonated with her a bit. But what got her to change her attitude towards recovery was this:

“It fucking sucks girl, but I tell myself ‘I am enough’ every single day and it does help over time.”

She nodded.

“So…what are you?”

“Enough,” she replied with such a beautiful smile. One that I think she doesn’t show very often.

I told her she needed to say it in front of her parents, who were absolutely distraught that she tried to kill herself. As a parent, I felt their anguish and they probably were blaming themselves for not seeing the signs in time.

She managed to tell her parents that she was enough.

Her father replied, “Damn right you are, princess.”

I don’t think this girl had a good relationship with her father (know the feeling) because she looked at him like he told told her she was going to be crowned Queen of England that night.

WE AS MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL DO CARE ABOUT YOU. EVEN WHEN NO ONE ELSE DOES.

I was alone in my initial struggle with depression/anxiety/suicidal tendencies. I NEVER want anyone else to feel that way.

[emoryhemsworth]

@oneshoeshort… I really needed this tonight. Thank you.

[oneshoeshort-deactivated2021060]

Since this popped up on my dash again (thanks @familybusinesswritingbro you gorgeous thing you!) I’m reblogging my own reblog for everyone to see.

[in-the-words-of-camp-campbell]

This made me cry.   There aren’t onions around. Honestly, I don’t think my mousepad will work with the tears on it.

-Mod

[23cherryfreckles]

Because it’s important.

[justwritingscibbles]

This is a powerful post that needs to be spread. There is someone who cares about you out there.

[dominic-dominatrix]

The g in gmail stands for gay now

[chewsdays-deactivated20250416-d]

*taps mic* harry is tiny, thanks.

[itskarealhere-blog]

I miss Jaspar.

[asadfangirlbitxh]

2013-2015

I miss 2013-2015 YouTube where everyone hungout and made videos.

No books.

No drama.

None of the Paul brothers.

YouTubers hung out all the time.

Troye and Connor spoke to each other.

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

Little things that help moods:

- getting enough sunshine - opening the curtains - eating regular meals - short walks with your favourite music - don’t stay up until 3am - don’t try to relate to tumblr text posts - get off tumblr/social media if it’s unhealthy - shower - don’t stay in bed the whole day - plan out your day - listen to music - change your clothes - set yourself small goals - say yes to fun events - drink water, it takes 5 seconds - talk to a close friend - remind yourself: a bad mood can lie to you - you’re not unwanted or hopeless - you deserve love so be nice to yourself

[vampalpatine-archive-deactivate]

20gayteen

°Demi Lovato kissed a girl in New Years

°Black Lightning gave us a black lesbian superhero

°Ellen Page got married

°Hayley Kiyoko and Camila Cabello’s interview

°Harry Styles’ performance of Medicine

°Love, simon

°New Troye Sivan’s music

°Cheryl Blossom and Toni Topaz kissed in front of a homophobic movie

°One day at a time gets a season three

°The bold type gets at least two more seasons

°Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe is getting a movie

°Alyson Stoners came out

°Demi and Kehlani almost fucked on the stage

°Hayley’s Expectations

°Naomi Scott and Bridgit Mendler supported Expectations

°Hayley yelled “i love girls” in her birthday party

°Hayley in Demi’s concert

°Hayley reunited with the girls from her music videos

°Janelle Monae released Make me feel and PYNK

°H&M commercial ft Winona Ryder and Elizabeth Olsen

°Everything sucks! gave us Kemaline and great lgbt rep

°Swan queen won march madness

°Marvel runaways gave us Deanoru

°Kehlani said she is “a power top”

°Troye’s photoshoot for Wonderland Magazine

[vampalpatine-archive-deactivate]

20gayteen

°Demi Lovato kissed a girl in New Years

°Black Lightning gave us a black lesbian superhero

°Ellen Page got married

°Hayley Kiyoko and Camila Cabello’s interview

°Harry Styles’ performance of Medicine

°Love, simon

°New Troye Sivan’s music

°Cheryl Blossom and Toni Topaz kissed in front of a homophobic movie

°One day at a time gets a season three

°The bold type gets at least two more seasons

°Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe is getting a movie

°Alyson Stoners came out

°Demi and Kehlani almost fucked on the stage

°Hayley’s Expectations

°Naomi Scott and Bridgit Mendler supported Expectations

°Hayley yelled “i love girls” in her birthday party

°Hayley in Demi’s concert

°Hayley reunited with the girls from her music videos

°Janelle Monae released Make me feel and PYNK

°H&M commercial ft Winona Ryder and Elizabeth Olsen

°Everything sucks! gave us Kemaline and great lgbt rep

°Swan queen won march madness

°Marvel runaways gave us Deanoru

°Kehlani said she is “a power top”

°Troye’s photoshoot for Wonderland Magazine

[vampalpatine-archive-deactivate]

20gayteen

°Demi Lovato kissed a girl in New Years

°Black Lightning gave us a black lesbian superhero

°Ellen Page got married

°Hayley Kiyoko and Camila Cabello’s interview

°Harry Styles’ performance of Medicine

°Love, simon

°New Troye Sivan’s music

°Cheryl Blossom and Toni Topaz kissed in front of a homophobic movie

°One day at a time gets a season three

°The bold type gets at least two more seasons

°Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe is getting a movie

°Alyson Stoners came out

°Demi and Kehlani almost fucked on the stage

°Hayley’s Expectations

°Naomi Scott and Bridgit Mendler supported Expectations

°Hayley yelled “i love girls” in her birthday party

°Hayley in Demi’s concert

°Hayley reunited with the girls from her music videos

°Janelle Monae released Make me feel and PYNK

°H&M commercial ft Winona Ryder and Elizabeth Olsen

°Everything sucks! gave us Kemaline and great lgbt rep

°Swan queen won march madness

°Marvel runaways gave us Deanoru

°Kehlani said she is “a power top”

°Troye’s photoshoot for Wonderland Magazine

[vampalpatine-archive-deactivate]

20gayteen

°Demi Lovato kissed a girl in New Years

°Black Lightning gave us a black lesbian superhero

°Ellen Page got married

°Hayley Kiyoko and Camila Cabello’s interview

°Harry Styles’ performance of Medicine

°Love, simon

°New Troye Sivan’s music

°Cheryl Blossom and Toni Topaz kissed in front of a homophobic movie

°One day at a time gets a season three

°The bold type gets at least two more seasons

°Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe is getting a movie

°Alyson Stoners came out

°Demi and Kehlani almost fucked on the stage

°Hayley’s Expectations

°Naomi Scott and Bridgit Mendler supported Expectations

°Hayley yelled “i love girls” in her birthday party

°Hayley in Demi’s concert

°Hayley reunited with the girls from her music videos

°Janelle Monae released Make me feel and PYNK

°H&M commercial ft Winona Ryder and Elizabeth Olsen

°Everything sucks! gave us Kemaline and great lgbt rep

°Swan queen won march madness

°Marvel runaways gave us Deanoru

°Kehlani said she is “a power top”

°Troye’s photoshoot for Wonderland Magazine

[vampalpatine-archive-deactivate]

20gayteen

°Demi Lovato kissed a girl in New Years

°Black Lightning gave us a black lesbian superhero

°Ellen Page got married

°Hayley Kiyoko and Camila Cabello’s interview

°Harry Styles’ performance of Medicine

°Love, simon

°New Troye Sivan’s music

°Cheryl Blossom and Toni Topaz kissed in front of a homophobic movie

°One day at a time gets a season three

°The bold type gets at least two more seasons

°Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the universe is getting a movie

°Alyson Stoners came out

°Demi and Kehlani almost fucked on the stage

°Hayley’s Expectations

°Naomi Scott and Bridgit Mendler supported Expectations

°Hayley yelled “i love girls” in her birthday party

°Hayley in Demi’s concert

°Hayley reunited with the girls from her music videos

°Janelle Monae released Make me feel and PYNK

°H&M commercial ft Winona Ryder and Elizabeth Olsen

°Everything sucks! gave us Kemaline and great lgbt rep

°Swan queen won march madness

°Marvel runaways gave us Deanoru

°Kehlani said she is “a power top”

°Troye’s photoshoot for Wonderland Magazine

[verylostpenguin]

Me: *goes to a bookshop to look for new books*

Me: *gravitates to books that I already own*

Me: *pointing excitedly* I’ve got that!