It's all about Me, Myself, & I

I am the Author of my own Story.

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Ang Aking Ina ay Bayani May Pandemya Man o Wala

        Lumaki kaming apat na magkakapatid na walang magulang na sumusubaybay. Bata pa lamang kami ng mangibang bansa ang aking Ina dahil sa hirap ng buhay sa Pilipinas. Walang Pasko o Bagong Taon na kasama namin sila. Ilang kaarawan namin ang lumipas na wala sila sa tabi namin para batiin kami. Dumating pa sa punto na tuwing uuwi sya para magbakasyon dito sa Pilipinas tuwing ika-dalawa o ika-tatlong taon, hindi na ako nae-excite na makita sya, iniiwasan ko sya dahil mananatili lang naman sya sa bahay ng isang buwan o minsan pa ay tatlong linggo lang at pagkatapos ay babalik na rin sa bansa kung saan sya ay naghahanap buhay. 

         Nang ako ay tumungtong sa hustong gulang nagsimula akong magtrabaho at minsa’y nabigyan ng oportunidad na makapagtrabaho sa ibang bansa. Dito ko naranasan na malayo sa aking mga kapatid. Naging malungkot ako dahil wala akong kasama sa aking tinutuluyan. Dito ko na napagtanto na naging masama akong anak dahil sa pag-iwas sa aking ina tuwing uuwi sya ng Pilipinas. Napaka hirap pala ng malayo ka sa iyong pamilya pero kinaya nang aking Ina para matustusan ang pangangailangan namin magkakapatid.

        Ilang beses na nakabalik ang aking ina sa Pilipinas ngunit tuwing uuwi naman ako ng Pilipinas ay nakabalik na sya ulit ng ibang bansa. Nang magpasya na akong bumalik dito sa Pilipinas para makapagtapos ng pag-aaral at makita ang aking Ina, ngunit dahil sa Pandemya hindi sya makauwi dahil sa lockdown kaya’t halos pitong taon na kaming hindi nagkikita sa personal. 

         Ngayong may pandemya pa, mas lalo nating bigyan nang atensyon ang ating mga magulang kahit saan man sila naroon. Hindi natin alam ang kanilang kundisyon dahil madalas na hindi nila ito binabanggit sa atin tuwing nakakausap natin sila. Madalas na may nararamdaman ngunit makita lang kayo kahit sa video call araw-araw, masaya na sila, at babaliwalain na ang kanilang nararamdaman. Hindi lahat ng materyal na bagay ay ikakasiya natin, mas ikakasiya natin ang magkaroon ng maayos na kalusugan lalo na ang kalusugan ng ating mga magulang na syang gumagabay sa atin kahit saan man sila sa mundo naroon, may pandemya man o wala. 

“Nay, ikaw ay aking bayani! Mabuhay ka! Maraming salamat sa iyong pagsasakripisyo. Maaari ka ng umuwi. Kami naman bahala sayo. Mahal na mahal kita.”

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Have you ever ask yourself of how long are you going to be in the same situation everyday in your life? Getting up so early to ride a bus or a jeepney to go to work, or if you are an employee who work from home that getting up to log-in and log-out, and yet receiving the same amount of salary per month? 

How does it feel being in the same situation everyday? 

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How do we build ourselves up in the faith?

How do we build ourselves up in the faith?

    I once question this to myself when life began to be harder and harder especially when I started to work and live far from my Family because I wanted to become independent. My faith to myself and God decrease because I couldn't see myself growing yet became more unconfident to become successful. I started to doubt my ability so as my faith in myself. But then one day I saw a book in Fully booked Greenbelt, the book of "The Power of Faith-Driven Success: A Journey Toward Living Your Dream by 30" by Isabel Hundt. This book open my intuition and gave me the idea to believe in myself and have faith because it will let you know the connection on how to relate one's energy and success along with faith. Now I know how to build myself up in the faith...you need to believe in your energy and what you have and not other have. Your faith to yourself will lift you up and success comes naturally. Focus on what your goal and act. Life is amazing when you have faith in yourself and God. So..How do we build ourselves up in the faith? Focus on our goal and stop doubting ourselves, fully believe in ourselves so we can build ourselves up in the faith.

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Corona-virus is REAL! Learn from it!

   I have been imprisoned in my own home for a year now due to the community quarantine, anxiety, worries  because I am scared to go outside. Straggling to accept the “New Normal”. So many question in my mind, “How am I gonna move forward”, “Is everyone okay?”, “Do I have to sanitize every time and clean all the things that has been used outside?”. Sometimes I talk to myself and telling her “Don’t be paranoid girl”. I have been reading books and eat a lot because of the stress and now even my body is struggling to lose fat. 

  One day I saw a post in social media of my friends from other country. They look so free, no face shield or mask on. I comment to her post and said “Is your country free from corona virus now?” She respond to me “No, but we are vaccinated already and just only a small positive cases of corona virus.” I envy her and her country on how fast and manage the pandemic so responsibly and quickly. I sent her a private message about what’s going on in my country and she told me “Corona-virus is REAL! We take it seriously and our country handle it quickly so it don’t spread fast. When the vaccine has been release everyone cooperate to be vaccinated and no one say no. Now we are free to travel around our cities without even wearing face mask, but other cities still required to wear mask.” How I wish it would be the same in my country. But of course different country, different government, and different policy. 

    This Pandemic, I have learned that we need to be motivated for us to cope up with the things happening around us. We have to be discipline and learn from what is the universe is teaching us. Now I am taking care of myself and accepting the new normal, that is why I enrolled in school even though it is only online class just to make sure I will keep myself busy and become more productive during pandemic to lessen the anxiety and worries. 

P.S. Don’t let worries eaten you up. Let just be positive in life not positive in covid. Be protected every time and take care of yourself. Luvyu ;*

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Self Reflection: Self-empowerment

  There’s a topic in our class about Self-empowerment. And this was one of the question: “How well do you know yourself?” 

  Before I couldn’t answer it too because “Do I really know myself well?” For the past years theres a lot of things in myself that I thought I really know when there’s a sudden situation I couldn’t decide to something for myself because it always came out with the question too. “Should I?”, Can I?”, “Do I need to?”, “Can I handle it?”, “Can myself cope up with it?”. These questions always appear when I need to do something to/for myself. It was like I really don’t know myself. Self-doubt and consciousness for what would be the outcome for my future self and what others will think of me. No self-confidence and worrying about others expectations. It’s like they know me and will judge me. Perhaps they know me well more than I know myself. Theres always “Bahala na”, “It’s up to me”, whether I do it in a good way that will not hurt myself or my future self. 

 But then I realized that no one knows myself more than me. No one will judge me for knowing who I really are, like what Michael Jordan said: “If you accept the expectation of others, especially negative one, then you will never change the outcome”. So I stop questioning myself and set others expectations because I learned that it is me doubting my own self while worrying about others thinking. 

    And now I became self-aware, self-confident, self-reliant, motivated and capable of achieving the goals I’ve set for myself. And yes, my answer is “I know myself well”, I know what makes me happy, I know how I respond to my stress, I know my conditions or issues, what kind of a person I want to be, and what personality type I am that no one knows only me, myself and I.