I'm Happy You Exist!

*TRIGGER WARNING* I don't promote self hate this is purely an outlet for me! I'm 26 and I have hypermobile Elhers Danlos Syndrome, severe anxiety and depression. I'm here for anyone who needs to talk!✌🏻️🖤

[gonexinsane]

I’m a burden to everyone in my life

[remanence-of-love]

[sunflowerstwin]

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[emotionalwords]

actually, there’s nothing worse than realizing you shouldn't have told someone so much

[gabapentinblues]

i wish that wanting to die wasn't my entire personality

[sheleftforher]

Love-Bombing & Idealization Love-bombing isn’t love. It’s a ticking time bomb. 💣

[quoteastic]

You deserve someone who isn't okay with losing you.

[sheleftforher]

Mourning the Illusion, Not the Person You don’t just grieve the person—you grieve the illusion. 

[askyea-poesy]

She did not need much, wanted very little. A kind word, sincerity, fresh air, clean water, a garden, kisses, books to read, sheltering arms, a cosy bed, and to love and be loved in return.

Starra Neely Blade

[sadmates]

I am not meant for casual love. I was born for soul consuming love and obsession.

[itsmyselfhateblog]

It's not fucking fair

[emotionalwords]

[curlyhaircripplegf]

its me the disabled ass bitch my leg hurts and my heart is singing the jaws tune

[curlyhaircripplegf]

my current thoughts on mobility aids I've used

Unassisted walking

Pros

Not feeling judged 

No jokes at my expense

Cons 

Ouch 

Fatigue

Cane

Pros

Reduced fatigue

Able to take weight off one problem area at a time

Cons

Hurts shoulder 

All weight on wrist

Can only assist one leg at a time

Crutches 

Pros

Able to switch gaits to take weight off problem area(s)

Very stable and balanced

Can move quickly

Significantly reduced fatigue (still affected by inclines)

Cons

Cannot hold anything

Difficulties opening doors

Difficulties going upstairs for non-fatigue reasons (you try walking upstairs and also carrying two big sticks, it's difficult)

My arms get tired (they’re getting stronger)

People love to stare

[bisexualbaker]

[ID from Alt: A chibi anthropomorphic pig wearing a zebra hoodie and a blue knee brace. The pocket of the hoodie is the Disability Pride flag.]

Since the convention is over, I can share this now!

This is the art I made for the Accessibility Passes for this year at a local anime con. I stepped down from staff in 2022 for reasons I'm not going to get into at the moment, but I made sure that the person who took over the Accessibility Department for me knew that she could always contact me with questions and I'd do my best to help her out, and also that I was willing to make the Accessibility Pass art every year.

The zebra hoodie is, in fact, a reference to EDS, but I decided to throw in the knee brace as well for anyone who isn't familiar with the slang. To my surprise, the person who made the buttons recognized the zebra reference; she told me that she actually has a couple of family members who have EDS.

When I went to pick up some stuff from the con at closing today, I also checked in with the Accessibility person, who told me that there were a lot of happy comments on this year's art. I'm incredibly happy, because I'm pretty sure this means I achieved my goal: I wanted to try to make disabled convention attendees feel seen/acknowledged.

I'm planning to rejoin convention staff this upcoming year, and hope to contribute to making the con more accessible once again. The con isn't at Wiscon level of accessibility, but I like to think it does a pretty decent job for a medium-small convention.