That girl.

Natalie Griffin. 16. Ouran Student. That girl. Rp account

[itsnataliegriffin]

My Love

Dear Love,

I'm so sorry that I had to leave you. I'm so sorry that our love had to end. I can't seem to want to get close to anyone. Of course I make friends but it's just not the same like it was with you. You were my best friend and my first love, and now I can't probably ever see you again. I left with unanswered questions and it's honestly killing me not to know. 

You want to know the worst part? I know that I won't ever be able to love again. I know that it won't be possible so why even try? Without you there just isn't even a drive to try and talk romantically to guys. Even as I write this to you I'm crying because I know it's over for good and what we had, I could never get with anyone else.

I miss you so much,

Natalie

[itsnataliegriffin]

Hate.

Dear Mom and Dad,

I moved schools almost every year and do you both know what that did to me? Every time I would get new friends, I would have to leave them. Every time I got new teachers, I couldn't see them. Every time I thought there was something solid in my life, it got ripped right out of my hands. You guys took my faith and threw it away every time you told me I had to leave my “home”. I never really had a home though. A home is somewhere you actually live and are happy and where you make memories. The only memories I had at these places I stayed were bad ones.

All those nights you both stayed out to drink and left me alone. I was only a child and I was left alone. Do you know how screwed up that is? You would come home in the morning and not even acknowledge me. I grew up with no one, and the people I needed the most, my family, weren't there.

Then, you took me away from my love. The first person I ever really trusted and you ripped him away from me without warning. Couldn't you guys have at least given me a months warning so I could have spent more of my time with him? Because of you both, I could never forgive myself for leaving him like that, and now I can’t even see him. So thank you mom and dad, for imprinting this depression on me that leaves me no other choice but to cause physical pain to myself only to relieve the emotional pain. 

With all the pain I could muster into this,

Natalie

[itsnataliegriffin]

musically-inclined-scarlett:

You know what? You’re right! Will you be going? It’s five dollars, and you get a free drink.

Tonight right? I wanted to go somewhere tonight and I would love to see you perform.. Definitely yes I am so going!

[auggie-fields-deactivated201312]

I wish I didn’t have class right now. The weather’s perfect to play outside.

[itsnataliegriffin]

Oh hey I'm Natalie or Natty, whichever you prefer. Nice to meet you Auggie!

[lahey-grayson-deactivated201404]

Least you get to know more people, right? …Forcefully. Get to know ‘em or… be awkward till we switch roommates again. Ooooh, where are ya goin’ to? 

[itsnataliegriffin]

-laughing- Oh yea forcefully is the best way of getting to know people! I'm not really sure where I'm going yet but definitely out for at least a little while, I'm in need of it!

[musically-inclined-scarlett-dea]

Unless I  mess up. Then I’d never hear the end of it, especially from Callum..

[itsnataliegriffin]

Oh don't worry about that! If you mess up which I doubt you will, think of it as like room for improvement. That's never a bad thing.

[musically-inclined-scarlett-dea]

Awh, thanks! I’ve just never performed knowing people in the audience aside from those I work with, you know? 

[itsnataliegriffin]

Yea I know how you feel it's always worse with people you know but if you think about it, it's better because they're there for you!

[lahey-grayson-deactivated201404]

It’s been a really weird day. We’ve been assigned rooms and roommates and I’m still adjusting to it. ‘Side from that, it hasn’t been too bad, I s’pose. How’s your day been? Minus the classes part. 

[itsnataliegriffin]

I know, I see I'm with Melissa and you're with Callum. Is pretty weird. My day besides classes hasn't been too bad, just can't wait to go out later!

[musically-inclined-scarlett-dea]

I’m so excited for tonight, but jeez I’m nervous knowing so many people in the audience will be from Oura…

[itsnataliegriffin]

You'll be great of course!

[itsnataliegriffin]

I'm already sick of this school thing, so not for me. But how has everybody else's day been?

[lahey-grayson-deactivated201404]

Desperate for attention?

[lahey-grayson-deactivated201404]

Natalie! I haven’t seen you yet today. Where’ve you been hiding?!

[itsnataliegriffin]

Oh you know, doing a lot of homework. It's quite a bummer really

[lahey-grayson-deactivated201404]

Desperate for attention?

What does being nice have to do with wanting attention? There are tons of other, more effective ways to get attention; not all people who get it are nice either. M’mum taught me better than that.

[itsnataliegriffin]

Desperate for attention? No way

[vienna-why-deactivated20140215]

Maybe you shouldn’t blare hideous songs.

[itsnataliegriffin]

Well, yea.. you're probably right

[vienna-why-deactivated20140215]

Sleep with one eye open tonight.

[itsnataliegriffin]

Maybe you should be a bit more careful

[vienna-why-deactivated20140215]

Is this your doing? Was this your prank on me?

[itsnataliegriffin]

If it was my blasting it at all hours that did it then yes, yes it was

[vienna-why-deactivated20140215]

Why do I have the cup song stuck in my head. I don’t even like that song. Help me.

[itsnataliegriffin]

Embrace its terrible quality of a song and dance! Except it's not really a dancey song. Oh well dancing is fun.

[itsnataliegriffin]

Hello everyone!

[lahey-grayson-deactivated201404]

I’ve never been to Ireland! What made ya come here if you’re from somewhere sweet like that?! Parents work a lot or something? Really dig London?

[itsnataliegriffin]

Well I always skipped around schools but when my dads job switched locations I of course had to move here with my parents.London's cool but ya know, I really miss my homeland.