Hello my online diary!
Thereās a loooooot going on in my life and I donāt know where to start. Hmm siguro lets start nalang sa dami ng problema para negative tas positive na sa dulo haha!
Ayun nga, si mama super nabaon sa utang :( it started kase may utang na talaga kaming malaki before pero nakakayanan bayaran because malakas naman tindahan. Nasa 1.5m yung utang before tas nakalahati naman na nila and continous paying naman ang kaso dumating yung inflation diba halos lahat nawindang na ang mahal ng presyo so yung tindahan namin naapektuhan. That time madami si mama bayarin, utang kay alex paluwagan dalawa ata tas may mga side trip utang na maliliit lang naman before.
Edi ayun nga nagkaroon ng changes, naapektuhan yung tindahan humina yung benta. That time dalawa pa kase yung tindahan namin and si mama nalang mag isa nagtitinda kase may work na ako e. Kumbaga di ko nadin kaya tumulong pa kase pagod din mentally isama pa na unstable ako kase mejj di ko dama yung work environment ko anyways sa next nalang yan haha. So yun nagkaroon ng problem di pa naman malaki pero nagstart na nga si mama umutang utang. Siguro around March 2023 ko din yun nalaman na mejj nasasanay na syang umutang kung kani kanino kase nabubuksan ko messenger nya before e and sobra sya magmakaawa na mangutang. Knowing mama di sya gaganon e. Tsaka sa isip ko non may pera kame kahit ano mangyari. And then yun nga nalaman namin na nalulubog pala kami unti unti. Right there and then binenta namin yung isang lupa para makaraos. Akala namin makakaraos na hindi pa pala :(
Napaka malihim kase ng mama ko, akala nya pag di nya sinabi mareresolve nya mag isa lahat pero no! Di nya kinaya. Little we didnāt know tuloy padin pala utang nya hanggang sa umabot na umutang nnaman kame ulit kay bente uno ng 1.5m ulit and thats another 5yrs to pay ni papa :(
Papa didnāt deserve all of this. Dapat nag eenjoy na sila now. Konting galaw nalang kase nagwwork na kame eh kaya na namin ang bills pero it didnāt work that way.
Now, we are doing the best we can to pay the debt of my mama. Grabe na iniyak ni mama sa mga utang nya balde balde na siguro yon. Nakakaawa oo pero nakakagigil din kase at the same time. Ang taas kase ni mama akala mo perfect. Sya yung example ng tita mong ang daming kuda pero wala naman napatunayan. I know its harsh pero kase tru. Mapanlait pa tsaka she only wants you kapag may pakinabang ka. She is not humble or alam mo yun mabait na mabait talaga. Basta hirap explain. On the other side sywmpre wala naman kame choice kundi intindihin nalang. Nangyari na e. What more can we do diba? Edi mag solution nalang.
So thatās what we are doing right now. We have side business nadin na fishball halo halo and mini tindahan na hoping lumago ( cross fingers) and gcash cash in cash out. Grabe tong pagsubok samin as family.
One good thing about it is mas pinapatibay neto yung pasensya, tinuturuan kame magpatawad sa pagkakamali and inuuwa nalang ang sitwasyon. I can say na we are holding together to fight this problem as family. We are more open yo how we will solve it, how to handle our finances and its quite working naman. From time to time we are still going back na bat kase umutang ka ng ganto ganyan but at the end of the day we still reminded na pera lang yan sige lang matatapos din natin yan lahat. Unti unti lang. kakayanin natin yanš
Lord, we might see the problem bigger and think that hope is so small to hold on but please always guide us that you are with us, please make us feel that u are with us in this journey. Its so painful and its breaking us all but we know you have much bigger plans with our family. Please make our problems go away and give us your comfort. In jesus name amenšš„¹š