Bleh

[itsrealisntit]

I hate when i can’t sleep because then i get really sad and think of you

[hellomissmabel]

“She was an old soul, waiting for an old love to return to her. The kind that opens doors and causes your cheeks to burn with comfortable warmth.”

— “Original" by Annelies, excerpt from the series Morning Wild Boy Hair. 09/07/2016

[xxxfalling4youxxx]

“Maybe our paths will cross again in a few years time and you’re breathing will become shallow because you forgot how much you loved my smile and I’ll tell you how in love I was with you back when I was just figuring it all out and you’ll nod and smile and I’ll tell you that breaking my heart was one of the stupidest things you could have done and you’ll nod but you won’t smile this time. Because you’ll realize I’m right. You’ll realize that no one has appreciated you as much as I did and you’ll study my face and wonder why you left because everything was so good, you’ll wonder if you could take it all back and start again, wonder why you thought you could find someone better but those are questions you’ll have to live with because you know it’s too late for us now, but you really wish it wasn’t.”

— unknown

[wordsthat-speak]

“That old feeling is still in my leaking heart.”

— Last Words: The Final Journals of William S. Burroughs

[ruthgdavid-deactivated20180523]

Reblog if you have someone in your heart but you aren’t in theirs

[itsrealisntit]

04-04-18

I’ve tried to ignore it but I’ll always love you

[itsrealisntit]

12-20-17

The sad part is no matter how much I hate you, if the chance was given, i would always go back to you. Always.

[jodiefoster]

My heart! She longs for something ! What does this bitch want

[itsrealisntit]

My life either gets a meaning today or I'll feel like an idiot. Ommmmgggggggggg my heart is all over the place. I'm a nervous wreck.

[itsrealisntit]

Okay maybe this wasn't a dumb idea. I keep thinking of "success will come in your plans" fortune cookie and okay happy thoughts have come in my head. I'm no longer negative. Maybe this was meant to happen. Buuuuut I'm not getting my hopes up or letting myself get carried away in happy thoughts.

[itsrealisntit]

kill meeee.

this was a stupid thing to dooo

[itsrealisntit]

fuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkkkk meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[itsrealisntit]

My heart hurts. I need to stop thinking. I'm so sad and i know the only solution to this has a high chance of making me even more sad.

[itsrealisntit]

09.09.17

It's been 4 months or longer idk it seems like forever and I can't stop thinking about Jordan. I miss him so much. I wish we could be together

[itsrealisntit]

Baby names

I knew it wasn't a coincidence. When we dated we had baby names picked out. Rosalin Adele Barrios and Adan Noel Barrios. That was the name for our kids. We broke up and I forgot about them. 5 years later, your mom has a baby and it's a girl and guess what her name is? Rosalin. When I heard it, it sounded familiar but I thought we had chosen the name Rosalie and maybe you just switched it up to not sound like the name we had picked for our future kids but I'm reading my journal and I wrote down the names we had picked out and for the girl we picked "Rosalin" ... and thats the name of your baby sister... oh God I miss you so much.

[post-breakup]

thoughts

Sometimes my heart breaks and my throat chokes up when i have memories of you. It’ll be a small thing like tonight i was walking with my bike in the rain and all i could remember was one of the last times i spoke to you in real life. That time i biked all the way to your house because I needed to have some closure. But after talking in your backyard for a bit, it started raining. I just remember waiting for my bus with you and I remember you giving me a hug for the very last time. At that moment…I didn’t feel anything so I knew I was over you. But in my head it seems so sad. Like we were really giving it all up and I cant believe I didn’t cry in the rain. 

It’s hard to recollect the things I felt for you. But because I pushed all of them away, they keep coming back in bursts and I hate it because I know I’m over you but the part of my heart that still cares breaks a thousand times more because of these memories. 

[ly-000]