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Album Review: The Beautiful Ones - Jaded Love
The Beautiful Ones - originally out of Mesa, AZ - have walked the line between sensual 90′s hard rock and ruthless, metallic hardcore, since their initial demo in 2011 and really started to shine with their debut release, The Birth of Desire, on 6131 Records in 2012. Teaming up with 6131 once again, they come with a full plate on their debut full length Jaded Love. So what separates them from modern hardcore bands incorporating rock and metal melody into their songs like Twitching Tongues?
Truthfully, while the record has brought moments across it’s 35 minute and change run time, “Preface (Take It All Away)” might be it’s best track, kickstarting the album. “Love, Pain, I want them the same” might perfectly demonstrate the red v.s. blue, black and white dichotomy, styles-at-war style TBO carve into the wax. Like their name suggests, there’s a Prince-like delicacy as they weave in between melody and mayhem, like Alice in Chains coming out of a modern NYHC scene (giving some credibility to a Life of Agony comparison).
For modest production from Ryan Bram at Homewrecker Studios in Tuscon, and mastered by Brad Boatright at Audiosiege, it sounds absolutely huge. Drums, especially the toms, really punch and guitars are beefy with nothing missing in the low end. In Jaded Love’s softer moments, vocalist Tevita channels Scott Weiland, gently pouring soul on our ears over grooving rhythm commonplace in today’s hardcore landscape (”Bloom & Destroy”). The record really takes off with Tevita’s strengths; he’s really letting loose and showing that if the screws were tightened on songwriting and composition, TBO have the chops to ascend from the basements and VFW Halls into the next echelon with songs like “Flowercrown” and “Stay” (which might be the most unique and strongest track on the album). But often, they are anchored to the pit - the vocals and riffs often devolving (albeit creatively) into punch-inducing frenzies and yells.
Britty Drake from Pity Sex chiming in on two songs freshens the vocals enough to keep the main body a little less of the sing-screamy 1-2 punch that wears thin fast. “The Morning” twinkles and shines, breaking up too much low end thudding and slugging riffs. While the hardcore side has no shortage on this album, the doubling up on the breakdown build up on “Exhale (Room 312)” before letting it come down, not with a bang but with a whisper, might be one one of the most clever things a hardcore band has done in some time.
Sometimes, the riffs take the wheel, bobbing and weaving down the highway, in and out of traffic, not unlike Stone Temple Pilots would with “Sex Type Thing” or “Vasoline.” Songs like “Lovers Stomp” and “Flowercrown” will let the riffs drive and simultaneously stick their head out the window to feel the wind in their hair, grooving and twinkling simultaneously like hardcore takes on “Plush” and “Wicked Garden.”
When absorbing Jaded Love, often times the tempos shift, softening the lullaby before breaking down into heavy, chunky smashing riffs. “This Love” by Pantera comes to mind as a good reference for a lot of this material. In fact, Pantera comes to mind a lot as I ponder this album, but not just for comparison. Some members of TBO have spent time in LAHC stalwarts Alpha and Omega, who worship at the altar of Dimebag. And they should know as well as any metal or hardcore fan, Pantera can break it down and start a pit with the best of them, but not every song has a banging slow down, build up and pit riff. Unfortunately, TBO air on the side of caution too often and hammer out slam parts in nearly every song, and it hurts this record’s ability to transcend.
As good as their heaviness can be, it’s hard to say those moments offer up anything more than contemporaries and peers like Expire, Born Low, Hardside, or many other metallic hardcore bands can give us today. Jaded Love, and by extension TBO, shines brightest when they keep the tempo up and drop the mood in with shining guitar leads and Tevita roaring through a catchy chorus. At times it’s so heavy it drags, but that isn’t always a bad thing. For a debut full length, there’s a ton of growth from their early releases and yet still room to grow.
The Beautiful Ones - Jaded Love - B+
Sorting through some things in my computer and I found this text entry. I forgot I wrote a blog while I was in Germany and meant to post. It’s an interesting read as I was starving, sleep deprived and had never been further from home or felt so lost before. So yeah, here it is unabridged.
I’m in Ravensburg, Germany. Currently sitting in a hotel lobby that I’m not sure the name of - the outside wall had the word Ochsen on it and Google Translate is telling me that means “Mug Up.” Alright then.
I’m sitting here with a mixture of emotions that I’ve never really had before - excitment, nervousness, anxiety, frustration, annoyance and fear. Each one is like a different color on a pallet to paint the picture that is my mental state right now.
Speaking of paintings: [batgirl pic] A painting in the lobby of the Ochsen.
I am excited because I’m doing something I never thought I would do. I’m in Europe. I’m in Germany. Neither my parents or my grandparents have ever been to Europe, and I have always thought about it and wondered what it would be like. And here I am. Just the thought sends a subtle wave of energy from my inner core through my veins, down to my very fingertips.
Granted, I’m not on an exploration-adventure style trip. I’m here for work. I work Mon-Fri and leave Saturday morning. No time to really get out and do too much. Not ideal, as there is so much to experience and see and do in this country, let alone this continent. And I’m relocated to a small, quaint town in southern Germany called Ravensburg. It’s so far south that the nearest big city is Zurich, Switzerland, but I’m still too busy to even go there.
I’ve only been with this company for a week. Literally, I started Monday afternoon, and have barely worked a full week (I think I got 30 hours in this week) and they have shipped me off abroad to their headquarters. It’s strange that they would send an intern across the world for training. Wouldn’t it make more sense to have them work a different schedule and train remotely/over Skype/etc? Logistics are a strange thing.
Further, while my coworkers have been very warm and friendly, they aren’t what I would call organized. Since the HQ of the company is located here in Ravensburg (and our location is in Lynnwood, north of Seattle), you would think we would operate somewhat independently, if for no other reason than we are 9 hours apart and that makes it super hard to coordinate or communicate. But no, this company runs EVERYTHING through Ravensburg. I have been there a week and I still haven’t gotten my email set up. Rather, that is, I haven’t had it installed remotely onto my machine from the German IT. They made my email account and have emailed me lots of work related materials including dates and times of meetings, product info, and information about this trip. But I cannot access these emails because their email is not a web based email service…it’s a program that has to be installed on my laptop from Germany. Are they sending me all the way here just to install some email service?
Which reminds me - all I’ve heard are bad things about their work times and speed when it comes to the German IT. I’ve heard rumors that something that should take them an hour to do has taken a week, and a day job has taken 4 weeks. These might be fringe occurences, but it doesn’t inspire confidence for me to hand off my laptop to them when I report in tomorrow.
Oh, reporting in. That should be fun. I have to meet Gerald at 830 here in the lobby…but I don’t know what time it is. My laptop is running out of juice and I don’t have a key to my room yet. I have a power converter, but I don’t know if it will work on my devices. I hope so. It’s Sunday and apparently NOTHING is open on Sundays. That’s perfectly fine, no disrespect to that aspect of the culture here; just going to be an obstacle waking up in time for something when I have no way to set an alarm, or tell time, for that matter…
I’d have a better sense of telling time if I didn’t just spend 27 hours (including the time difference of 9 hours forward) on 3 planes, 2 layovers, 2 bus rides, a shuttle and a 30 minute car ride. For the love of God, just let me be in one place for a minute. I only got 3 hours of sleep between Friday and Saturday, before we left for the airport. I got a couple hours of sleep on the first flight, and anothern smattered 5 minutes here and there to make up an hour on the second flight. The third flight was on a tiny plane with the most uncomfortable seats I’ve ever sat in and it was only a 30 minute flight, so no sleep there. So from Friday morning at 8 am to Today, Sunday, some time around noon or so, I’ve had 6 hours of semi-sleep. I’m trying not to crash the second I get into my hotel room, but no promises…
Back to frustration - my company told me the flight numbers and times but gave us no confirmation numbers so checking in was a nightmare. Nor have they given us any info on the hotel. My coworker here has already been here so he knows where he’s going, yet he isn’t very communicative and tends to be indirect with every fucking word out of his mouth. Example conversation:
Him: Aaaand we’re here. Me: This is the hotel? [we are pulling up to a weirdly designed building and parking in an alley, not a street or parking location or anything, just a tiny alley] Him: Mmm. Me: What’s the hotel called? Him: Yeah, there it is, our hotel. Me: …Whats the name? Him: The name’s there on the wall.
Could I read for myself? Yes, once I knew what wall he was talking about - but for fucks sake, you’ve been here and you’re traveling with someone who has told you they’ve never traveled abroad, never been to such a foreign country, and need a little guidance - if they ask you the name, answer with the name or say you don’t fucking know. Oh, and I have no clue where resteraunts are or where I can get food (or whats good) and he does…and he tells me “I’m skipping dinner tonight so I will see you down here tomorrow morning!” Sweet dude.
Anyway, this is just the start of my travels. I’m annoyed that my mouth hurts from an infection and I can’t do anything about it. I’m frustrated that I’m in a foreign country with not much (read: NEIN) help or direction. I’m nervous about work because I’m an intern and I’m still a student - I’m good at what I do but by no means am I an expert so I don’t know if I will have the skills necessary to make this happen. I’m anxious because I’m exhausted, and I’m scared because I’m so far from home, from safety, from familiarity, from comfort. Fuck, they don’t even drink regular water here. They only drink mineral water and sparkling water. Who the fuck likes this shit?
I will be just fine. But I started this blog just to be able to start writing my feelings down again. It’s good to think outloud…at least into this notepad. Cheers…I will write again soon.
Aaand there you have it…me typing free form with no filter. Not always the best thing ever. But serves for an interesting read.
10 Movies Down...90 to go.
The Imitation Game - A- || A competetent period drama, with expert performances turned in by Benedict Cumberbatch, Charles Dance, Mark Strong, and Matthew Goode. Wasn't thrilled with Knightly but she was good. Movie was strong but lacked tension. Memorable for the performances.
Inherent Vice = A || Hilarious, smokey stoner noir. Paranoia is key. As my friends said, "The Big Lebowski meets Chinatown" - with big Coen Brothers vibes...definitely felt like more was at stake than with The Dude's case, but nearly as funny.
The Theory of Everything - B || While the movie and story was well shot and swiftly paced, it is mostly held up by Eddie Redmayne's exceptional performance as Stephen Hawking. Solid, but not entirely memorable.
Foxcatcher - A || Haunting. Great performances by Carrell. I'll say the obvious - the make up is distracting on Carrell but the delivery is captivating. Hard to find a negative thing about the movie. Maybe pacing, but slightly so.
Big Hero 6 - A- || Big surprise of the year, this movie was incredibly fun and heartfelt. A tad predictable, but it's a Disney movie. Not expecting them to stray, but creating fun energetic films with lovable characters and they delivered.
Jupiter Ascending - C- || Dizzying, messy and bloated. I hate that these three words apply to it but it's the truth. For something as grounded yet smart as The Matrix, it's hard to accept a movie that suffers from having too many loose ends, Transformer-ism (can't tell what the fuck is going on 90% of all action scenes), and too much too soon. The world building was fantastic and the Terry Gilliam/Brazil scene is fantastic, but it tried to be a modern Star Wars when it could have been far better as a modern Fifth Element. Or, you know, something new.
Whiplash - A+ || Teller is remarkable, like a young Tom Hanks with an older Tom Hanks sensibility. Simmons is just...captivating. Give that man that fucking Oscar.
Kill the Messenger - B+ || Movies about journalistic integrity seem hard to hold up in the world we leave in. They seem too whimsical, Don Quixote ish. Hell, that was the POINT of the entire series of The Newsroom. But Kill the Messenger is about just that, and does a good job I think. Not expertly paced, but decently written and well acted.
Sin City: A Dame to Kill For - D || Talk about missing the mark. The right pieces seem in place, but I fear that anything Frank Miller touches these days reaks of try hard. 300 and Sin City must have been lightning in a bottle and we just don't know it yet because 300: Rise of an Empire wasn't great, but it wasn't as bad as this schlock. Then again, Machete had the right tongue in cheek vibe, but Machete Kills had too much piss and not enough vinegar. Maybe Rodriguez is off too. Either way, this film just misses the mark every step of the way. What the fuck was Bruce Willis even doing?
Boyhood - B+ || Conceptually wonderful, and flows excellently. Doesn't feel as long as it is. But for as unique of an idea, it just feels a little...flat. The kids acting wavers a bit in the teenage years but cements stronger toward the end. The fruit of the labor shows with Patricia Arquette's emotions in the end. Solid movie, but not really rewatchable.
Welp, thats 10 movies out of 100 for the year of 2015. On to more!
Top 13 Albums of 2014
13. Ringworm - Hammer of the Witch
This is Ringworm's best album since Justice Replaced by Revenge. Hands down. Less of a focus on noodling solos and speed, but finally mixing those elements into the DNA of the songs themselves rather than bookending a track or blind aggression. They have some their catchiest songs ever on this record and they are as violent as ever as the reigning thrashy hardcore kings. Only one listen to "One of Us is Going to Have to Die" will prove that. "Violence, devastation, final battle cry. An end to all confrontation. One of us will have to die."
12. Pianos Become the Teeth - Keep You
Under normal circumstances, this might score high on my list as time moves on, but I hesitated with this album because I wasn't really familiar with anything else the band had together or put out. I finally caved in and check them out after seeing them build with Circa Survive, and boy am I glad I checked out this new record. Melody as dreary as rain against your window on a gray day with a slow and methodical rhythm keeping track, this record brings to mind the darker places that The National could go if they were so inclined. This record feels familiar even if it is the first time I've ever heard this band. I love that and I love this album.
11. Code Orange - I Am King
After having seen this band and played with them a few times, I knew that this band was on to something unique and special within the heavy hardcore realm. Like a young Converge with a taste for the uniquely chunky riffing of someone like Disembodied or The Banner more than the wave of "Entombed-core" bands of late. But no one was prepared for the thinners of the herd to come claim their scalps. When the music video for the title track hit peoples laptop screens and earbuds across the internet, I swear the earth shook with that 17/16 end breakdown. If there was one award that I would give this album, it would be "Most Unsettling." The damnation the trio of vocals spew into "My World" might make a monk consider immolation. "Starve" gave me the same uncomfortable, "nothing's right with the world" feeling that the 2009 Lars von Trier film Antichrist did. This album is made by 4 amazing young musicians, and honestly, they kind of terrify me.
10. Toothgrinder - Schizophrenic Jubilee
Like a dream blend of Dillenger Escape Plan, Botch, Animosity (from whom I hope is their namesake), and Faith No More, the thing that this band blew me away with in a short 5 song EP (the only EP on my list) was they were really able to create aura and mood in their excellent use of space. Yes, they are technical, brutal, precise and capable of writing fantastic hooks in time signatures that only Alice in Chains would typically pull off for a metal hook (looking at you "Polar Complex: Schizophrenic Jubilee"/"Them Bones"), but the tone of early parts of "Reality Juggernaut" and the softer side of "The Hour Angle" show this band really can branch out and range like tech-metal giants Between the Buried and Me and not feel as forced as some contemporaries like Periphery. A label needs to throw this band a lot of money for two things: 1) so they can get a killer producer and sit in a studio for months and explore their deeper recesses and come out with an insane killer debut (my expectations for that will be VERY high) and 2) so they can be marketed correctly - this band should be touring with every different kind of metal fan you can get them in front of. Put em on with Machine Head or Trivium and watch them steal the show. Put em on with Dillenger so the obvious people who would love them will gobble it up. Put them in front of Slipknot's maggots so they can taste some real metal instead of King 810. Get these tracks on video game soundtracks, bad TV shows and shitty scary movies. They will be huge with the right push. I am sure of it.
09. Killer Be Killed - s/t
Metal's latest super group, and finally one worthy of the moniker. A legend and 3 members of three of the best bands of the last decade have taken their individual styles and really amalgamated something unique. It leans heavily on Cavalrera's songwriting style, but filled in with the edge and virility only Puciato is capable of, and Sanders' distinct voice comes through in big ways. The rhythm is laid expertly by Elitch. While not really a "sum of all it's parts" like throwing Dillenger Escape Plan, Mastodon, Sepultura/Soulfly, and Mars Volta into a blender, it definitely doesn't feel THAT far away from any of the bands material (though Mars Volta would definitely be the biggest departure). A drop of that experimental side from Mastodon comes through, but mostly, it is a straight forward wrecking ball of modern metal with more memorable hooks or parts than a lot of their contemporaries are putting forward.
08. Rude Awakening - Collateral Damage
Owners of one of the best debut EPs in modern hardcore, Massachusetts/New Hampshire's Rude Awakening (MVHC!) now come into 2015 having notched Collateral Damage onto their belt, and the album is an absolute banger. The tone of the guitar and bass punch perfectly into some of the hardest hitting, fastest and rage inducing hardcore I've heard in some time. No frills, no experimentation, no branching out - but it's still short, to the point, memorable and leaves you wanting just a little more. An absolutely perfect hardcore record, no more or no less.
07. Mastodon - Once More ‘Round the Sun
Speaking of Mastodon, the way the Atlanta four piece dance into this album absolutely separates it from every other album they have done. It's got more in common sonicly with The Hunter than their previous concept-driven opuses, but this record has some of the best, catchiest metallic rock (is that a thing now? Metal has always influenced rock, I suppose) songs I've heard in so, so long. Songs like "The Motherload" and "Ember City" are just as catchy as their hits like "Curl of the Burl" but even riffier and more streamlined than ever before - which is what makes Mastodon like no other band in the world today. They have incredible, creative talent that is expertly applied to their parts and instruments, yet they are now creating what is essentially radio rock. Songs like these should dominate modern rock airwaves (a brief look at the Billboard Top 40 Rock Songs, it took me down to 22 until I got to anything I considered metal influenced in Five Finger Death Punch) but to align themselves with a band like that would be an insult. They are better than that. They are better than every band on the top 40 rock hits. Hell, they're better than every band on the top 40, period. They don't need to keep writing "Rush in a post-metal band" esque albums like Blood Mountain or Crack the Skye to flex their creative muscles - they have covered that ground many times with their first few albums. This is a step in the right direction, reminiscent of Black Sabbath and Ozzy's solo material that showed the world metal is more than the visual aesthetic bullshit, but can be catchy and can sell. This record is absolutely that.
06. Coldplay - Ghost Stories
There is something ironic in that this scaled back, more intimate album, preceding their apparent final album titled A Head Full of Dreams due out in 2015, is easily their most dream sounding record. Not quite dream-pop, but more like pop-dream-pop, this band took a break on the arena filling drums, overdriven poppy bass and huge hooks (though they left a few in) and replaced it with more complacent, relaxed keys, drum machines, and dreamy Blue Sky Reverberator sounding guitar riffs to create a record that sounds like it lives in the clouds. The mopey intro track "Always In My Head" is probably being tagged at the last scene of about 100 romantic comedies where they finally reconcile and kiss magically and fade to black. "Ink" has the upbeat stuff made for elevator radio stations everywhere. But tracks like "Midnight" which screams modernized Radiohead meets EDM, and the mostly acoustic "Oceans" or the beautiful album closer "O" reminds us why we love Coldplay, even they can be the punch line to a "Know how I know you're gay?" joke. This album soothes, hurts, and lifts. Sad that it is their penultimate album, but it leaves enough room for Coldplay to bring back their arena rock once more.
05. Irreversible - Surface
To this day, no debut has moved me as much as Irreversible's Age did in May 2006. It is a perfect adventure of post-metal and post-rock, traversing highs and lows in dynamic, heavy, melodic and haunting. Progressive. Since then, it seems they have traveled down that "progressive" hole for quite some time - the follow Sins was dirtier but a lot more long winded (and in some cases, less memorable). Then onto Light and their near unabashed Tool worship. I honestly started to check out at that point. The music was great but I never was as in tune with it as I was with Age. After taking in the heavier releases of Ashes and Thorn, I wasn't blown away with the direction of the band. Plucked Up By the Root, however, was the step back in the right direction I hoped for. The 24 minute track/album/release (which is now broken down by tracks on their Bandcamp) was the right taste of things to come. Finally Surfacing hit late 2014, and seeing 3 tracks and a 40+ minute run time, that cheshire grin spread across my face until I couldn't contain myself anymore. This was the Irreversible that moved me in early 2006. Moody but not too indulgent, dark but not oppressively so, and a nice balance of heavy and melodic. Their 8 minute build up to start "Degloving Injury" is some of my favorite material they have ever put out. I don't love the production of this album. In fact, if the production were Sins or Light level quality, or maybe big money studio quality, this might sit even higher on my list. But the reality is, this some of the best "post" shit I've heard in a long, long time.
04. Behemoth - The Satanist
What more can be said about this album that hasn't already been said? Topping nearly every metal blog's Top lists, the story of Nergal overcoming cancer (proving you sure as fuck don't need God to do that), and writing one of the best black metal albums in years, just sells itself. Dark melodies ring but don't drone; the drums are as ferocious as ever. The rhythm section is not as heavy as Evangelica but the tone is as moody as ever - up and down, dynamic and captivating. The guitars are airy and paint bleak streaks of red and purple across the sky while the earth turns to black in the depths of the attacking bass and drums. "O Father O Satan O Sun" might be the most jovial I've ever heard a black metal vocalist sound, but it sounds like true emotion pouring through. And by all means, "Blow Your Trumpets Gabriel" is the anthemic, blackened death we all need and crave from Behemoth. The record is heavy, more in tone and subject matter than actual weight of riffs and chunkiness, but the story lends itself to that. This album isn't so angry, but you will feel it none the less.
03. He is Legend - Heavy Fruit
Leading up to the release of this album, I read review after review, and one came up with a comparison that made my head spin. Once I got my hands on the album, I listened over and over and tried to reconcile this comparison a site made, and it didn't click. It wasn't until I saw He is Legend live recently, playing material from this and the impeccable It Hates You that it really clicked. The comparison was that this album feels like a combo of a more aggressive Red Hot Chili Peppers meets the melodic heaviness of Alice in Chains. At first I laughed - you wont find Schuyler scatting to a slap funk beat, but the AiC comparison makes some sense. You see, one of the things they did best especially with AiC's Unplugged release was they were able to show that their riffs created ambiance, and the vocal melody was a light, even if it was a black light, twisting through the darkness and ambient world created by the music. HIL does just that with tracks like "Miserable Company" and "Something, Something, Something Witchy."
Alternatively, the drive and energy of songs like "ABRACADABRA" and "No Visitors" show the maturation from some moves made on It Hates You where they were more akin to something like Deftones and Glassjaw's later material meets some of Every Time I Die's more sophisticated material, and while that comparison could still hold up, it definitely reached into new places. The swing and funk of "Be Easy" actually made the RHCP reference make some sense, especially in the live setting. But when this album hits its stride, taking ideas from the best of It Hates You and giving them the shine of this new found mood, Heavy Fruit really sores. "Time to Stain" hurts burns your soul with smooth acoustic guitars and layered guitar melodies, build a slow but bright burn. "Beethozart" dances around its dark melody into one of the heaviest smashing parts HIL have ever put together. Lastly, the title track and album closer "Heavy Fruit" dip into that "That's Nasty" darkness and heaviness they touched on It Hates You, while dipping between the bouncy beats and the new found RHCP influence, closing out as the best track on the album. The album is dense, and at times not as easy to slide into like their last outing, but it is a meaty, sweet treat once you work your way through the smoke and haze.
02. Gates - Bloom & Breathe
I preface this with saying my anticipation of this record was higher than any record I've had in the last few years. Perhaps too high as every time I listen to this album I feel like I'm still waiting for something...that being said, the album STILL blows its competition out of the water. After 2012 (and the subsequent 2013 rerelease) of You Are All You Have Left to Fear, if Gates hadn't been on my radar before, they sure as fuck were now. Melding the melody of late 90s emo, the layered textures of post-rock, and the energy of modern post-hardcore, they created a sound dripping in luscious melodies through the storming clouds driven by powerful rhythm, bringing to mind a more riff conscious Thursday. They have a lot in common with fellow NJ band Moving Mountains, and they often sound like a combination of the energy of early MM records and the polish and maturity of their later records. Moments remind me of Taken's Between Two Unseens but with a much more melodic vocal approach akin to Further Seems Forever. Their first EP The Sun Will Rise and Lead Me Home showed promise, but not the polish Fear displayed. They were ready for something bigger.
Bloom & Breathe starts with a slow build and crashes into "Bloom," the quasi title track, which showcases everything this band does, and does EXTREMELY well within its first 90 seconds - three part guitar harmonies, driving rhythm, catchy vocals with low and high dynamics, and a tone that remains heartfelt yet not so upbeat that it would be at home on a pop punk album. "The Thing That Would Save You" is a heartbreaking head-nodder with a beautiful tap riff leading into the swinging beat to start it off while guitar swells build up huge just to crash down to nothing but a subtle hum, and then slow get up and walk away head held high. "Born Dead" almost brings to mind later Thrice, where vocalist/guitarist Kevin Dye brushes alongside Dustin Krensue's mid-range voice being pushed to the point of a near scream.
No track hit me this year like "Low" - not the best on this album by any means - but in its construction as it was revealed by the band that it was built on by the tom fill pounded out harder and harder as the song progresses first, then the riffs filled the holes and melody, lastly the vocals and the lyrics. It's simplicity lends itself to their ability to layer dreamy synth-like guitar swells alongside guitar harmonies, then build into huge choruses. This band basically takes the sound of post-rock like This Will Destroy You or Explosions in the Sky and turns it into the best alt-rock songs you'll hear in a long time. Do yourself and listen to this song. Listen to this album. Buy this fucking thing, now.
01. Circa Survive - Descensus
It's a strange thought that it's already been a decade since Anthony Green started pushing his post-Saosin project with members of This Day Forward and Taken. At the time, Translating the Name was far and away my favorite release in so long, and the other two bands building up the band were huge for me as a young kid. The idea of this super group was fascinating, but Juturna exceeded all expectations. And the reality is, 10 years later, Circa Survive haven't stopped doing exceeding expectations.
Descensus starts off more chaotic and energetic than anything on Violent Waves (ironically) with "Schema" but it never strays far from a Circa sound. The riffs build and slide around a start and stop style that drummer Steve Clifford drops to build space in their songs. This is something they really explored in Waves - using empty space to open up songs and explore longer winded ideas and slow the tempo down from their typical path. But Descensus continues on, with more attention to guitar effects than ever before - Colin and Brendan really come out blazing with ideas and exploration where they seemed more subdued on Waves. Beard drives the bass and chord progressions with his memorable distorted bass and pocket playing. Where Blue Sky Noise faltered in that its dynamic and pacing felt off kilter, and Waves took the lower energy and came out with some of their best material even through the lens of something less driving, Descensus might be their best tempo'd, paced and balanced tracklisting since their post hardcore masterpiece in On Letting Go. This album is the first since then where each member shines equally.
Most importantly, this record contains possibly the best ending and material they have ever put together. Five records in ten years, with a consistent touring schedule makes it seem hard to believe one might be better than the other, but this band has created a sound that is most definitely their own, and the last 3 songs on this album really accentuate the high points of everything they do. Like a slip-hook-cross combo that drops the listener, "Phantom," "Sovereign Circle," and "Descensus" are push everything this band has done to its best and steps beyond that level. "Phantom" rolls with ethereal and dreamy guitar while Anthony bends and winds his melody around the slow hypnotic beat. "Sovereign Circle" is classic Circa, with the driving kick drum and catchy clanking riffs, textured in delay. Brilliant would be underselling the chorus and ending of this track. And right into "Descensus" we fly into their most progressive and post-rock influenced track yet. A perfect amalgumation of post-rock, prog-rock, alt-rock, post-hardcore, and every other weird bullshit genre you want to try and tack on to this band, the title track of this album closes with one of their best driving, rhythmic, powerful endings. This may not be their best album but it might be their most consistent. All hail Circa.
just a start. there will be more.
I spent a long time working hard to better myself, for myself. Really hard. Hard in the ways everyone knows but no one else sees; the nights alone when you're thinking of doing things you shouldn't. The vices - whatever they may be - are the things people want but no one needs. I spent so many nights thinking about giving in and doing pointless shit that could be fun for a moment but never long. It never, ever lasts, it never ever fills the hole.
I watched my brother scratch that itch for days, weeks, months, years. Hundreds of thousands of dollars, cars, apartments, dead friends, several months jail time, sleeping in a dumpster. None of it is enough to show him. None of it convinced him the things he was filling that hole with are the right things.
I understand why people turn to religion in hard times, in self doubting times. A god who unconditionally loves you and wants you to live in eternal happiness sure does seem like a positive to the bottomless hole a lot of us have tried to fill. I could never. But I understand it.
I felt good about myself in a lot of ways for a while. But I could feel it slipping for a couple months. Over a year ago, I was trying really hard to focus, but I felt it slipping. Life started being less grounded and so was I. I felt less in control. School was nearing an end for my degree and I didn't know if I would continue. Therefore, my income was also coming to an end. I cared about someone a lot and they didn't feel like it could work out, or didn't feel the same. It was never clear - but the outcome was the same. Instead of me accepting it I tried to hold on and the longer I did that the longer I felt myself slipping out. I let go of myself, I walked away from the things that were important to me, for only myself.
I spent many months down that road. I looked for things to fill those holes. I wanted attention. I wanted comfort. I wanted to be liked and to be loved. I needed it, because I couldn't comfort myself. I didn't like who I had become or love myself. I know now that I haven't for a long time. I blamed myself for others choices or problems, and it perpetuated my little cycle of self-hate. I had let myself down. I was desperate to feel better about myself, and I started making terrible choices.
I chose to ignore the clear signs of wrong I was doing. I was so, so selfish.