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Eyes like broken light switches

That had never been turned on

Seeing the darkness in a world

That pretended it shone bright

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They patch up scars

But not minds

Inspiration to turn sadness

Into useless rhymes

Stitches healing

But minds breaking

Inspiration to turn breathing

Into aching

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I look into the river and see my reflection

The water projects a distorted image

Just like my perception of myself

I don’t know who I am

Or who I’m trying to be

I just want to see someone I’m happy with

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We sat in your car and talked about the things we imagined just before we fell asleep You told me how you thought about your perfect kiss Sitting on a beach with only the sun watching And I did too We sat in your car and talked about the things that made us laugh You told me your own version of the man from Nantucket You laughed so hard And I did too We sat in your car and talked about the horrible things that had happened to us You told me your mum died when you were five and that you barely remember her You cried so much And I did too We sat in the back of your car and didn’t talk at all The sun you imagined was replaced by the moon You pulled away And I did too We sat on the sidewalk and talked about us You told me that you thought it wasn’t working out I lied and said That I did too I sat up in my bed and stayed awake all night Until I thought about you falling asleep without me in your mind So I did too

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Pens picked up by broken hands

Guiding ink that can’t spell joy

On tear blotched paper

Hearts that never know

How to write of happiness

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He couldn’t help destroying beautiful things

Chasing them like butterflies

Touching their wings

And watching them fall to the ground

He would make himself red

To hide the black underneath

Catching them in swarms

Falling dust

Through clenched fists

He came too close

I let him

Reaching out his hand

Just as I flew away

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I've only been following you for about twenty minutes now and your blog has already sucked me in. I've related to so many posts already and just can't keep myself from scrolling down further to see if somebody actually knows how this all feels. Thank you for this blog, it's let me know that I'm not alone anymore.

Wow thank you so much, it’s comments like these that inspire me to continue writing. xxx 

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I'm a car crash on a road nobody drives on.

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I've never really come across a poem that gets me, that I really understand.But then I came across your blog and it feels like your poems are speaking to me. So I just thought that I'd thank you. Thanks

Wow thank you so much I really appreciate that 

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Your poems are so amazing! Thanks for sharing them with us.

Thanks so much! 

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Hey .. I've been following you for almost a year now .. and just want to tell you that i'm going to unfollow you , i find your blog triggering and i'm recovering from depression , just wanted to let you know why , Thank you for all the posts , for every single beautiful poem i really wish you are doing fine i wish from the bottom of my heart that you will be fine , please stay strong .. You are really special <3 i love you :')

Hi there, I completely understand, and thank you for taking the time out to message me and let me know. Thank you for sticking around and reading my posts, I really do appreciate it, and I'm sorry for the triggering content. Thank you for your kind words, and I wish you all the best in your recovery, stay strong <3

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