Antisocial Pessimist♥

Seventeen year old Senior, at Akamai Boarding School. Currently taken, by Ryan Cotter.

[itswhitneyhart]

Need | Aiden & Whitney

[asliceofaiden]

itswhitneyhart:

Whitney shrugged at his question. “Come in”. The girl closed the door and ran over to her bed with Blondie. “God, I missed you! How is the best puppy in the world? Huh? Yeah, because you’re a nice puppy.” Continuing with the mommy voice, Whitney kissed the dog’s head a lot of time, not caring that Blondie would like her face a few times. “Do you want some kisses, too, Aiden?” The girl teased. 

Aiden kicked off his boots before hanging his jacket on a knob. “Puppy? She’s almost two-and-a-half years, you know?” he chuckled while following the two to her bed where he simply leaned against the wall. “Sounds a little too dangerous,” he admitted, crooking a smile. “What’s going on?”

[itswhitneyhart]

“She’s still a cute puppy, aren’t you” Whit reply to Aiden but kept looking at Blondie. “You can sit on the bed, there hasn’t been a men in this bed in a long while.” The blonde said, moving to the side and wrapping her jacket around her body tightly. She laid down, holding Blondie as close to her body as possible without killing the dog. “I don’t know, I just need a friend. I’m sorry I haven’t reached out in a while. It’s been hard to open up and talk about problems and stuff. How are you? Girl problems or anything?”

[ryan-cotterr]

itswhitneyhart:

“The problem is that I don’t care what type of monster you think or tend to be. I love you just like that. I don’t care if you have killed, done drugs, sent someone to kill or whatever it is you think you did that doesn’t deserve anyone to love them. I love you for who you are with me, how we are when no one is around, when it’s just us two. And I hate that because you’re the only person that can destroy me and make me feel complete all at once. So I don’t care if you don’t want to do good, if you want to keep being Big Bad Ryan Cotter, that’s the boy I am in love with, so deal with that.” She stated, her eyes never leaving his and not caring how pathetic she sound. It was Ryan, she meant everything she said. For fuck sake, he once paid her for sex. Whitney was deeply in love with this boy, that she would do anything for him. Seeing him like this, thinking everyone was judging him, made her mad because she couldn’t careless of what people said about him or them or anyone that was capable of loving Ryan. 

Ryan shook his head and looked away from her as her small rant continued. He didn’t want to hear this, not today, he had enough on his mind already. He didn’t want to slip up and do something he would regret later just because he was feeling weak right now. “Just shut up, Whit…please” he said quietly before looking back over at her, “I have enough going on right now, I don’t need to deal with this too” he said, blatantly ignoring everything that she said to him, thinking it was easier that way. 

[itswhitneyhart]

“You don’t have to deal with anything, Ryan. I’m not asking you to marry me or to get back with me. I know you don’t trust me even though I say a thousand times that I didn’t want that kiss. I was just letting you know that people love you no matter how bad you think you are.” She moved her hands from her chest to the back of his neck to play with his hair like she used to. “I’ve missed your company, I just want to be here for you in anyway you let me. I’m not going to pity you, I just want to hold you if you’d let me.” 

[itswhitneyhart]

Need | Aiden & Whitney

[asliceofaiden]

itswhitneyhart:

Hearing the knock on the door, Whitney yelled “Coming.” Standing with the pillow in her hands, she walked over to the door and opened it. “Hi, there.” Her accent thick. “Hi, Blondie, how have you been? Have been a bad girl because that’s what I wanted you to do, to cause problems in daddies life.” She spoke with the voice the moms normally talk to babies. 

Aiden glimpsed the girl as soon as she opened the door, along with her bold accent and random pillow. “How’s it going?” he greeted with a tiny frown while letting go of Blondie’s leash, cause she went all ‘I haven’t seen you in a million years’ when spotting the girl in the door.

[itswhitneyhart]

Whitney shrugged at his question. “Come in”. The girl closed the door and ran over to her bed with Blondie. “God, I missed you! How is the best puppy in the world? Huh? Yeah, because you’re a nice puppy.” Continuing with the mommy voice, Whitney kissed the dog’s head a lot of time, not caring that Blondie would like her face a few times. “Do you want some kisses, too, Aiden?” The girl teased. 

[enhancier]

[ryan-cotterr]

itswhitneyhart:

Whitney placed her hands on his chest and leaned forward, resting her body against his. “You think I don’t know that? You think I don’t know with who I’m inlove?” She stared him in the eyes. “But it does.”

He looked down at her sternly, not moving from his spot, “I think there’s a lot you don’t know” he was vague, what a prick. “It doesn’t. Nothing has power over me”

[itswhitneyhart]

“The problem is that I don’t care what type of monster you think or tend to be. I love you just like that. I don’t care if you have killed, done drugs, sent someone to kill or whatever it is you think you did that doesn’t deserve anyone to love them. I love you for who you are with me, how we are when no one is around, when it’s just us two. And I hate that because you’re the only person that can destroy me and make me feel complete all at once. So I don’t care if you don’t want to do good, if you want to keep being Big Bad Ryan Cotter, that’s the boy I am in love with, so deal with that.” She stated, her eyes never leaving his and not caring how pathetic she sound. It was Ryan, she meant everything she said. For fuck sake, he once paid her for sex. Whitney was deeply in love with this boy, that she would do anything for him. Seeing him like this, thinking everyone was judging him, made her mad because she couldn’t careless of what people said about him or them or anyone that was capable of loving Ryan. 

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[ryan-cotterr]

itswhitneyhart:

Whitney rolled her eyes and waited for him to finish his speech of anger. “Are you done?” She asked, not waiting for an answer. “Ryan, I know you. I know this act of yours. You’re better than you were before and I’m not the only one who has seen that. If you want to go ahead and keep being mad to the world for something that already happened and can’t do more damage to you. You can’t let it have this kind of power over you.”

“Maybe it’s not an act and you just don’t want to accept what I am” he said, stepping closer, “Maybe, just maybe, you dated the biggest asshole in New York and everyone else can see that and you can’t. I’m going on the majority on this one” he shook his head, “it doesn’t have power over me!”

[itswhitneyhart]

Whitney placed her hands on his chest and leaned forward, resting her body against his. “You think I don’t know that? You think I don’t know with who I’m inlove?” She stared him in the eyes. “But it does.”

[ryan-cotterr]

itswhitneyhart:

“Ryan, what happened to you is horrible but you’re not alone anymore.” Walking closer to him. “There are more people out there like you. There has been a lot of boys that have been raped before and maybe you can help them move on, help them see that it doesn’t end your life no matter how rough it went. Turn this bad thing into something good, that I know you’re capable of.” She spoke with tears in her eyes but still locked with his. “I don’t know anybody stronger than you in this world.”

“Don’t try to talk to me about what happened, don’t fucking do that, don’t say that word.” he said shaking his head, “Something good? Seriously? Nothing good comes out of this and fuck you for saying that something might” he said angry, “And what makes you think that Big Bad Ryan Cotter would have any interest at all in doing something good?” he said, fully aware of the lovely reputation he made for himself.

[itswhitneyhart]

Whitney rolled her eyes and waited for him to finish his speech of anger. “Are you done?” She asked, not waiting for an answer. “Ryan, I know you. I know this act of yours. You’re better than you were before and I’m not the only one who has seen that. If you want to go ahead and keep being mad to the world for something that already happened and can’t do more damage to you. You can’t let it have this kind of power over you.”

[itswhitneyhart]

Need | Aiden & Whitney

[asliceofaiden]

itswhitneyhart:

After receiving Aiden’s text, Whitney through her phone to the side and hugged her pillow. She felt scared and alone at the moment. The blonde knew she couldn’t call Ryan because it hurts still, not having him the way she used to. She called the only person that didn’t turned her back on her, that didn’t judge her. She knew they haven’t talked for a while and ever since she came back from being MIA, she look for him or anything until now. It was difficult explaining everything she went through to someone that would just look at her with pity but Aiden has always been there for her in her worst times and for that she was always grateful. 

Aiden didn’t take long ending up outside Whitney’s place. With Blondie sitting beside him, he held her leash while knocking on his friend’s door. He wasn’t one to text for eternity, so he’d figured why not wait and ask her what the hell was going on when he saw her. It was safe to say he hadn’t seen her in a long time. Blondie was prolly gonna jump all over her, which was what her stupid brain used to do when seeing someone she hadn’t seen in forever. 

[itswhitneyhart]

Hearing the knock on the door, Whitney yelled “Coming.” Standing with the pillow in her hands, she walked over to the door and opened it. “Hi, there.” Her accent thick. “Hi, Blondie, how have you been? Have been a bad girl because that’s what I wanted you to do, to cause problems in daddies life.” She spoke with the voice the moms normally talk to babies. 

[itswhitneyhart]

Need | Aiden & Whitney

After receiving Aiden’s text, Whitney through her phone to the side and hugged her pillow. She felt scared and alone at the moment. The blonde knew she couldn’t call Ryan because it hurts still, not having him the way she used to. She called the only person that didn’t turned her back on her, that didn’t judge her. She knew they haven’t talked for a while and ever since she came back from being MIA, she look for him or anything until now. It was difficult explaining everything she went through to someone that would just look at her with pity but Aiden has always been there for her in her worst times and for that she was always grateful. 

[alexromero]

It’s funny, you and I, isn’t it? That we’re here and… And we’re happy, that after everything, we’ve made it. And you’re going off to work and kissing me, and it’s like I’m watching a movie, but it’s not a movie.

[ryan-cotterr]

itswhitneyhart:

Don’t do that, Ryan. You can go ahead and pretend to the world, you can be sarcastic with everybody else but me. Talk to me, I won’t assume anything, just talk to me. It’s still me, Ryan. 

You already fucking know everything there is to say, you knew what happened already, now everyone else does too, that’s it, that’s the whole story

[itswhitneyhart]

“Ryan, what happened to you is horrible but you’re not alone anymore.” Walking closer to him. “There are more people out there like you. There has been a lot of boys that have been raped before and maybe you can help them move on, help them see that it doesn’t end your life no matter how rough it went. Turn this bad thing into something good, that I know you’re capable of.” She spoke with tears in her eyes but still locked with his. “I don’t know anybody stronger than you in this world.”

[itswhitneyhart]

text: Blondie's Bitch

Aiden: Okay..

*almost two minutes later*

Aiden: Do you want me to come over?

Whitney: Please, bring Blondie

[itswhitneyhart]

text: Blondie's Bitch

Whitney: I need you.

[itswhitneyhart]

ryan-cotterr:

I’m doing just fucking great, how about you? {he said sarcastically}

Don’t do that, Ryan. You can go ahead and pretend to the world, you can be sarcastic with everybody else but me. Talk to me, I won’t assume anything, just talk to me. It’s still me, Ryan. 

[itswhitneyhart]

ryan-cotterr:

If you have something to say about it then just fucking say it already, I don’t care

How are you?