I'm also a nonsharing yumeshipper of Corbeau from PLZA! (doubles dni!)
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I will mostly only draw stuff from my current fixations, but if you have any OCs that you want me to draw, either put your request in the ask box or DM me. :)
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I said I would take some time off, but given the gravity of recent events, I feel it is my responsibility to inform the community. Zeal recently uploaded a video to YouTube titled "i have killed myself," which was deleted approximately 5 minutes later.
As you can imagine, the video is a farewell message and a supposed response to the serious public accusations made by REN. However, over the course of an hour, Zeal fails to provide any evidence that clears his name or defends him in any substantial way. He limits himself to pointing out three minor inconsistencies that are easily explained given the context of the abuse. In his own words, because of how quickly his team and the community cut ties with him, there was "no reason to keep going."
Most disturbing is that he once again claims his relationships with REN were consensual and mutual, going as far as to apologize for "being bad at sex." This statement, besides being disgusting, completely downplays the nature of the assault allegations. He even refers to those episodes with nostalgia, as if they had been positive experiences, only to then label REN a liar and claim he doesn't understand why they did this.
Later, he apologizes to his work team (programmers, animators, artists, and external collaborators), lamenting that he ruined their reputations and "wasted" their talent and the time they dedicated to Pressure. He also speaks in what appears to be Danish for about 7 minutes to address his family. The video concludes with Zeal crying and constantly repeating his intentions to take his own life, expressing fear regarding the outcome of this entire situation.
It is vital not to be deceived. What we are witnessing is an emotional manipulation tactic aimed at both the general public and REN. They specifically stated that they did not want Zeal to hurt himself, and the fact that he is using self-harm as a response proves that, once again, he has no real consideration for the victimâs feelings or well-being.
While the community was processing this, the user who re-uploaded the video reported that Zeal was allegedly in the hospital. Hours later, a new statement emerged, this time attributed to "Zealâs mom," threatening to take legal action against REN for supposedly damaging the developer's reputation, career, and mental health.
It is important to understand that this is another form of intimidation; legally, a defamation lawsuit would crumble in the face of the overwhelming amount of evidence presented, and a "damages for emotional distress" argument would hardly succeed when the truth is the primary defense. The real goal of these threats is usually to financially drain the victim, clean the accused's public image, and force a narrative shift from "aggressor" to "victim of harassment."
However, the most recent update suggests that all of this might be a sham to buy time. Zeal's account was detected as active on Roblox, presumably playing Arsenal, while he was supposedly hospitalized. Furthermore, a deeper investigation has raised suspicions about the authenticity of his mother's account, which appears to have been created for this purpose and shows signs of being an alt managed by him.
Finally, i want you to know, REN, that you have our full support and solidarity. It is devastating that you are being subjected to these fear-based power plays after showing such immense courage, but you are not standing alone. Your truth matters, and we will continue to uphold it against every attempt to distort the narrative.
To the community: stop playing Pressure and withdraw all financial support. Continuing to engage with the game now means actively enabling an abuser. Do not feel guilty for your past supportâyou didnât have the facts then; however, now that the truth is out, the responsibility is to act.
This goes beyond Zeal. People like Wil, Kat, and Zerum, who were aware of the situation and chose silence to protect their profits, are accomplices. Choosing money over human lives is inexcusable, and they must be held accountable as well. No piece of entertainment is worth the cost of a person's safety and dignity.
Please take care of yourselves and try to take a break from this situation as well; I know how heavy and difficult it is to process. I will keep you updated if anything else comes to light. In a few days or weeks, I will decide the future of this fan-project, but for now, it will serve its role in spreading awareness.
I do not support pressure or the people behind it. Even if I remain in the fandom, even if I continue to enjoy things related to Sebastian, I do not support pressure.
I do not support Zeal, I do not support Zerum, I do not support Kat, I do not support Wil. I do not support anyone on the pressure dev team who knew what Zeal did to Ren and chose to stay silent or even cover up Zeals actions.
If you are unaware of this situation, there is a doc posted on twitter going into Renâs experience with Zeal and the rest of the dev team. I highly suggest you read through at least some of it before making any opinions on the situation.
My thoughts as someone who has been fixated on Pressure for the last two years + even did official art.
For those of you like me who need to move on but are scared to because the media is close to you.
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Hi. Since this is going in the pressure tag, I might as well introduce myself. Iâm Cotgar, the artist of the Gotchapon birthday artwork and the most recent Sebastian Solace reference sheet. Iâve been fixated on Pressure since October 2024, even committing personal things to it such as cosplay, merchandise, personal poster works, and two years of fan art.
My statements here assume you know the bare minimum of what happened: Zeal sexually assaulted the previous soundtrack musician, Ren.
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I want to approach this as a community member first and foremost.
My take? The gameâs done. I personally wish to see no more support for it, as although the main focus of the document is Zeal, Ren mentions cruel involvement from the dev team and their blatant coverups of Zeals actions, painting Ren as âunstableâ. I have promptly left the discords, which I encourage you to do as well.
As for what to do mentally? Thatâs the hard part as someone whoâs been so invested in the lore, story, gameplay, and every other aspect of the game. I literally doodled gotchapon this morning all over my work papers. But as someone who doesnât wish to support the game anymore, I really find it hard to just cut that off. I am not defending the devs in any way by saying that. I am coming purely from a hyperfixation standpoint where my blorbos are jingling around in my brain.
I would like to say: you will not be incriminated to still love the characters for who they were before this point. I will still forever adore the characters Iâve grown to love. But not the ones who wrote them. Anything with them beyond this point in time is considered Not the characters Iâve surrounded myself with. With losing your sense of humanity as a person and involving yourself in disgusting shit like that, I believe that you lose the right to keep people âdoing what You want with their charactersâ. AKA. If I were to still draw Sebastian, letâs say, I could with no connection to the writers. I will not draw him with his wedding ring, for instance. He does not deserve to be âmarriedâ to a dev self insert. Itâs not the self insert thatâs the problem, mind you. Itâs the dev.
I suggest now is the time to maybe review that list of shows youâve been dying to watch. Check out those games that maybe, if youâre like me, youâve been scared to play because of fear that itâll take over the hyperfixation.
Move away.
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My connection and statement as *technically* an artist for the game:
I am horrified. One of the most prevalent things in Renâs document was the use of cute animal imagery to lull Ren into a sense of security. (From my experience), Kat and Zerum do the same thing. It is unbeknownst to me if it was manipulative. That is not my point. My point is that itâs real language used in the dev team, and it does not surprise me itâs being used maliciously. I am more so scared because I began picking up this habit because people I thought were âcoolâ were using it as fun conversation. I am impressionable. I began picking it up. Renâs document showed this to me and I suddenly felt my gut drop.
I will be brief. I have past experience of mental abuse and manipulation. Reading Renâs document was familiar to me. Not to such a sexual extent, but in a manipulation extent. Seeing the bunny imagery sickened me, as it made me realize that trauma flares that I had worked years and years in therapy to get rid of were now validated: I donât know whether to trust the devs that were smiling and being so polite to me.
I will not work with Pressure anymore. End of story.
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You are allowed to still like the characters. The lore. The story. But supporting it is different, and I am ashamed that I have for this long. Am I sad that I probably canât post any more drawings of the silly fish being sad? Oh fuck yeah. That dude fucking rocks.
But this is not about me. To fellow people who feel sad about it too, this is not about you.
This is about being a fucking human being
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I await to see what the devs say to try and damage control.
I'm no longer going to associate myself with Pressure.
Fuck Zeal. Fuck his game. Support Ren.
Document link in this text for those who want it and don't have access to X.
No one should have to go through anything like Ren did.
April is sexual assault awareness month. Here is a link to a hotline for supporting victims. You are not alone. You are loved. Your trauma is valid. Stay safe.
Hi! It's been talked about that Sebastian does shower before and is generally well-kept. Would you like to elaborate on that?
Sebastian associates the act of self care with humanity. It should then be inferred why he tries to take good care of himself. What is important to note is that his hair is important and considered a defining characteristic.
It's to cope with his stripped autonomy, convince himself that No, I'm different from the rabid animals they keep in these cages, gnawing at the metal, scraping against all surfaces of their enclosures. They are animals. They can't think about anything other than the hunger. No, I am capable of more. Inside me is a human man who knows restraint and control and to care for my body.
In this, he's something of a hypocrite. He'll call himself a human or a monster depending on what he's doing. Concerning the cannibalism, he'll say "I'm no longer human, so it's okay. Just this once." Concerning his need for cleanliness, he'll say "Deep inside me is still a man. I am human, and so I do what humans do."
This isn't to say he wasn't disgusted by the cannibalism while he did the act, but he would use this language to soothe the severity of his actions after it happens.
