Hi fellers welcome to my deplorable lair! I'm Gingi!
I'm a multifandom/oc artist, sorta? I just kinda draw whatever the brain tells me to... So yeah, while I might linger in a specific fandom space for a while i may eventually move on to another thing.
My blog is 16+, you can expect some suggestive artwork and blood/gore ect.
art tag - #smiufflingart
talking tag - #otterwittering
oc/nonfandom tag - #miscfunnies
DNI:
prshippers, bigots ect ect just dont be a weirdo idk
ART REQUESTS STATUS: closed sighh
INBOX: it might take me 5 years to respond :,} but i promise i read everything...
ARTFIGHT: here, i'm not sure how active i'll be this year! i'll be mostly focused on making sketchy revenges though
hello, i just wanted to give a small update, especially cause my last post was probably pretty worrying
i added a small hiatus warning to my blog and im not really going off it yet, but since i did that so silently i figured an actual post might be a better way to announce it...
i just wanted to share i'm doing better and resting! and drawing, surprisingly. i'm not really quite in shape to respond to all of the comments yet, but i'm still very thankful for all of the kind words i received... i honestly expected people to be more judgemental... thank you so much for the understanding :,}
i dont know when actual posts will appear again, but that's probably fine. i kinda just wanted to let everyone know i'm safe and improving (moodwise i mean)! i'm taking things slow, drinking a shit ton of tea, working on uni stuff and buying treats. its been working pretty well for me.
uhh... this blog ain't really my journal so i guess i don't have anything more to say. just - i'm doing decent and i hope yalls day was decent too :,3!
cw for poor mental health talk, i have something i want to talk about regarding my online activity and projects
hey all
this is kind of a disappointing announcement to make and it's not very easy for me but. i'm gonna have to put aquaphobia posting on pause for now. i'm not doing great at all.
i kind of rushed into it because i genuinely, really needed to fill the void of daily pressure and pressure in general to keep myself functional. but truthfully, it hasn't really been working.
does that mean im discarding everything i wrote and im dissatisfied with it and hate creating it? far from it, actually. but there's really important parts of it that i need to polish for my own sanity like esteban's design, the overall facility design, logistics, everything. this is a lot to think about and the daily challenge isn't motivating me to work on it like i thought it would, it's getting me stuck in place because i want something ready to draw or present. i can't draw what isn't properly designed yet.
and i have to admit this has been taking a toll on my mental wellbeing.. especially because i'm not used to being the solo oc creator. i like to be part of a team or a fan for bigger projects. i'm not very fit for being the sole creator of something original, i think there's a reason why i haven't done it in years.
so yeah. aquaphobia is going on a hiatus from publicity. what now?
that's where it gets really conficting for me. while i work on writing and making concepts for aquaphobia i still need a replacement for daily pressure/any form of art to keep my routine stable. especially now that i have to crunch studies again because april was a literal black hole that passed in a blink of an eye. i don't even remember most of it. i need to be mentally okay and feel like things are normal again.
that all to say - i think i'll be going back to making pressure stuff. i didn't want to, because i don't really want to give that team exposure. they don't deserve it. but with my art overall and health on the line, not having an active interest (pressure was literally my only interest and the only thing that was able to pull me out of a ditch to do something in my life) is well... kind of dangerous to my wellbeing. i was hoping that i would get hooked on something else by now, it's almost been 2 months, but since that's not happening i guess i have to take the route of a hypocrite fall back into my previous passion.
it'll probably in a way be some kind of a rewrite, but since it'll not exactly be innovative or of its own identity i can't call it an ocverse. just kind of an au or a reclaimed version, i guess.
i don't know, this is probably what i'm gonna do, even if im not the most proud of it. there's nothing wrong with enjoying characters of pressure and i never judged anyone for sticking with them, but i didn't really want to do it myself. it kinda sucks that i don't seem to be able to just move on like many others did.
side note: i know this isn't that deep to many people, but it is that deep to me. shocking, smiuffzo isn't the best functioning individual and needs seemingly silly crutches to work?? no way! /s
thanks for all of the support on aquaphobia so far! as i said, im not shelving it and i still care about it deeply. i'm also not going to literally force myself to not post about it ever until it's in a perfect state or whatever. it's just not going to be very frequent all consistent i suppose. i want to do it more freely and without feeling any obligations. also, it feels arogant to add this but i know theres a possibility someone will ask so im just gonna mention it here: it's still okay to draw or indulge in the characters of aquaphobia. its just that theres some slight possibility of them having their design updated and all in the future,,
also regarding the possible pressure content, im gonna turn off reblogs on these posts to prevent them from spreading too far. also there is going to be a disclaimer on each one cause i do in fact still support ren. i just have to be a little selfish here because i do not want to drop out and also not remembering most days of your life and sulking for hours daily is a really, really exhausting experience.
Newest post made me wonder, what stuff does Samuel genuinely enjoy that are considered more "normal" to human standards
reading and studying/learning! listening to music is just like, fine too.
genuinely enjoys a good talk (ignore the evil intentions that are most often hidden behind it). coming up with gifts to give or completing requests of his patients is one of their favourites, if that counts.
eating a filling meal is hardly a hobby but he does enjoy it too!
Considering one of the latest lore dumps...does that mean the fissure in the sky could be making crippling bird people if someone got close enough by exposure? :)
i do imagine it would give avian features or be more climate/weather anomalies focused instead of mutations!
hii. i took your fish and turned them into cats hope that’s okay. very endeared by magdalene i love her a lot… (i am so out of practice drawing samuel it’s been so long…..)
AWWHAAAA THEYRE SO ADORABLE?? THEY LOOK SO WARM AND HUGGABLE AND SOFT?? oh kibby maggie you deserve the world...
ESTEBAN LOOKS SO MAJESTIC BTW LIKE WOAH. WOA..
and as usual its an absolute pleasure to see samuel in your style again :,] THEY LOOK AS LOVELY AS ALWAYS!! NASTY LANKY THING LOOK AT IT NEXT TO SNOOZING ESTEBAN... THAT MENACE
Very curious about the Puddle and what horrors it contains
Also really liking the Aquaphobia stuff so far, it feels both like a love letter to what you enjoyed about the game that shall not be named and your own unique spin on the concept of Underwater Hell World™
hehehee thank youu :DD im glad you enjoy the aquaphobiaing so far... i guess it kinda is what you described! i needed to fill the void somehow after all...
but uh,, ANYWAYS... PUDDLE LORE TIMMEEE i'm just going to copy n paste general fissure lore i wrote if nobody minds. long post (but lowkey very story relevant coughs) so it's gonna be below the cut
Proteus's Puddle – The 2011 Fissure
What lies in the puddle can be split into three “eras”:
The Fractal Deep
The Perplexing Vascular System / The Perplexity
The Patulous Complex / The Complex
The Fractal Deep – Silence before the storm
A primarily empty, seemingly boundless dark ocean. The only things that exist here are unrecognised species of aquatic creatures, geometric currents of bubbles and occasional dismembered seaweed-looking plants drifting into oblivion.
Curiously, even when nothing else exists, weather does. Strong currents mimicking gusts of wind, air bubbles tapping on the surface of submarines like rain, flashes of weak light simulating a storm. While these are harmless most of the time, when The Deep starts to conjure phenomena such as tornadoes… exploration becomes a little more tricky.
The Perplexity – Evolution
The depths filled with vein-like tendrils, forming mangled corridors.
What scientist first thought was just biological waste gathering at the entrance of The Puddle turned out to be something far more fascinating. The Fissure began to create a structure out of materials available to it. It doesn't look like much yet, but the architectural shapes are unmistakable. It's observing the station and trying to recreate it.
This is the era in which predators began appearing. Previously all species found in the ocean were weary, but docile. But as the ecosystem evolves, a need for protectors and hunters arises. The Deep responds to the call.
The Complex – Organism
Semi-successful mimicry of reality. The tissue that built its walls started to die, forming a petrified, sturdy construct resembling Station Neptune, interlaced with locations it observed in various pictures or other images scattered across the facility.
The layout is hardly logical, but far more expansive than the actual building. It contains biomes, such as “Proxima” which is the closest to the entrance and most accurate in its mimicry of the station.
Areas closer to the entrance are considered rather safe, the complex itself isn't alive and not much dangerous fauna approaches the threshold. The further away one ventures, though, the more instabilities and sea predators await. The Complex and its denizens require sustenance, after all. And just like humans don't take kindly to outer beings infiltrating their world, the outer beings push back against them.
On the edges of The Complex the same veins from before can be seen as it spreads. What awaits past the mangled tendrils is what conjured the false structure into existence in the first place – it all comes back to The Fractal Deep.
What The Puddle adapts:
Whatever it sees in its close proximity – but it doesn't quite understand what it mimics. Thus, things inside it appear in strange order: weather > weak organisms and microorganisms, viruses > waste created by these organisms starts forming an environment > simple predators appear (although the fissure does not quite differentiate earth’s predators and prey) > proper environment appears and spreads > advanced predators appear > intelligent life forms crawl out (curiously, a fissure can stir human-level intelligence in organisms or objects already existing on earth! These are thought to be “experiments” conducted by it in preparation of creating its own version of mankind).
What it gives:
Omens – previously discussed, omens are signs that a fissure is going to manifest and can appear as early as 50 years before they form. Things that could be classified as omens persist after the opening too, but they lose the “omen” status when discovered after it.
Mass mutation events – a part of a species mutates and becomes an anomalous subspecies. Most often those mutated organisms try to migrate to the fissure’s location (unattained small plants are technically no exception, as the old generation dies the new one grows nearer the fissure). Mutations are themed after this location. Proteus’s Puddle causes marine life-like features, for example.
Individual mutations – humans with dormant fissure-born DNA that activates because of its manifestation fall into this group! These organisms don’t experience the drive to crawl into the fissure, in some cases being completely disgusted by the mere idea.
Strange weather phenomena – erratic dances of light in the sky, strange storms, sky colors and so on! Numbers of natural disasters also tend to increase.
Mutations via exposure or consumption – hello Esteban, Magdalene, Mścisław and many more explorers of Station Neptune!
What are the fissures?:
Studies are being conducted, but there's no deliberate answer yet. One theory suggests an allegory of gore – our world being the outer skin layer and a fissure being the muscles shielding a skeleton of sorts (yet another layer of reality). Others suggest a plant metaphor approach, either calling us or the fissure a seed planted in the other to grow. Last theory compares the two worlds to a machine – neither infiltrates the other, they are just here as parts of something far greater, forced to cooperate like cogs.
Without the fancy, dreamy language the theories boil down to basic groups: questioning who is the perpetrator in this conundrum, the fissure or us? Is the fissure a portal to another world, or is it an extension of ours? Is it mimicking or is our world “infecting” it? Is it truly boundless, or is it just a barrier to cross? Are we meant to coexist, merge or destroy each other?
Proteus’s puddle is not the first fissure:
There have been at least three other fissures before this one, out of which two have been archived.
“Sovereign’s Iris” – 1921 in the sky above the Gobi Desert, too high above to gather sufficient sustenance and copy material, closed on its own.
“Blood Spill" – 1999 McMurdo Dry Valleys, closed by scientists two years after discovery via special artificial fluids.
The third one, “Guesse’s Hypothetical”, is theorized to have appeared during the evolution of mankind. It would’ve been left open for long enough that it would start mimicking and “deploying” human-like organisms, which is considered to be the speculative “final phase” of a fissure’s lifespan. These potential humans are nicknamed “Faces from the rift”.
The theory was presented by one of the first researchers hired by Invocation Corp. - Eduarda Guesse. The basis of Guesse’s theory lies in the existence of the Uncanny Valley effect and the undeniable traces of fissure-born DNA present in some individuals. Often that dormant DNA activates as part of the Omens phenomenon.
It’s important to know that fissures are a recognized threat because of how hard it would be to keep one a secret. However, Proteus’s Puddle is the first one to be kept hidden from the public, as operations around it are against the law (fissures are to be closed as soon as possible to prevent cataclysms, plagues and other potential harm).
bwahaha! Inquisitive anon here asking the exact same questions I’ve asked before but for another character!
what are Esteban’s goals currently? Does he want to escape or just survive?
and what would Esteban do if there was a child right in front of him/ref
have a fantastic day from your friendly neighbourhood curious creature
hello returning anon! thanks, i hope your day is fantastic too :D
esteban's goals while "working" under invocorp were rather simple: try to keep your sanity in tact and not die either via exploring the puddle or anything else.
he does dream of freedom, sure, but he's also aware that he's literally in the middle of an ocean, as far away from land as possible and without any clearance to establish connections that could get him out. also, everything at the bottom of the ocean that the station doesn't touch is completely barren.
but y'see, a fish can only last so long in a heavily supervised facility that throws him into an interdimesional suffering nexus every monday followed by being prodded in a lab every other thursday.
if the puddle, say, suddenly destabilized for some reason and the machines keeping it open at a safe level were to start failing... i don't think he'd pass the opportunity to make waves.
