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I’m thankful for those who actually care about me and go out of their way to talk to me and show me love at my darkest times or when I’m upset about small things, so many people in my life, yet a select few who have actually ever cared. I love you

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They tell me I’m too young to want to give up already- that I should be patient and positive because I still have a lifetime ahead of me. They’re right. There’s a lifetime to come. But a lifetime has already been lived. Because when you’re 23, you’ve had 23 years of experiences that have molded you into who you are. You’ve lived your own 23 year old lifetime. And people don’t understand how that could be enough to make you want to close the curtain before the start of Act II. Because 23 years to them is just the warmup; it’s the learning experience, the period of growth, the rite of passage where everything is the end of the world and you’ve just gotta ‘hang tough, kid.’ But 23 years to you is the looking glass that shows you a world where that leaves you straddling the entrance between the potential and the finite. It’s the rabbit hole you’ve been perpetually falling through, wondering when the hell you’re finally going to hit the bottom. It’s not the damn warmup. It’s the internal monologue of you screaming at the top of your lungs that you’re done and you’re tired and you’ve forgotten the meaning of the word hope, while people walk by you and tap on the glass box you didn’t even know you were stuck in. Don’t tell me I’m too young to want to give up when life doesn’t give a shit about how old you are when it starts to break you.

because let me tell you: a lifetime is subjective (via amandagenine)

#today is my 23rd birthday #23