to love me is to suffer me

ivy | she/her | mostly posting about LOST | also anything liz mitchell | ivyjune on ao3 |

[ivyjunebug]

i’m getting tired of crawling all the way | juliet burke | lost

[ivyjunebug]

i thought good guys get to be happy i'm not happy

juliet burke | lost

[lockeskidney]

lost moodboard 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

[fuck-all-governments]

[elizabeth-mitchells]

she's so tired of his old man yaoi bullshit

[lostyaoi]

One thing you have to remember about the characters on Lost is that it seems like they were sleeping in jeans very often, maybe constantly

[prettyboyhere]

yeah i'd believe in god for her . particularly one of the deadly sins

[emilyscully]

at the beach, in every life

insp.

[vampiricbisexuality]

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[paint-me-in-watercolour]

honestly kinda accurate lol tyyyy for the tag :))

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[ivyjunebug]

me & oliver <3 also... the little quote thing was a little too on the nose lol.

no pressure tags of course but: @emilyscully @autumn-breezes @taweretsdagger @obsessivedaydreamer @phoeberidgers

[creativepromptsforwriting]

Character: *is finally happier than they ever expected to be in this life*

Writer: Great. Now you're definitely going to die.

[shnehollander]

rewatching lost and making it everyones problem ↪ S2 + colors

[valtsv]

i refused to stay buried because i love you why are you running

[valtsv]

babe it's me i'm just covered in dirt and blood because i had to claw my way up into the light and crawl on my hands and knees back home to you stop screaming

[nightmarist]

A COMINT !!

[in-a-faradaze]

“You always want to run away, Katie.” “Yeah, and you know why.” Kate Austen & Tom Brennan, Lost

@pscentral​ event 47: inspiration [insp. by @imtheiliad]

every taylor swift song 1/∞: “Run”

[ivyjunebug]

"bad men prey upon you because you are insecure. if you would just be more confident or maybe learn how to avoid these types of men..."

I finally broke down in front of someone I care about regarding everything that has been going on in my life lately. and this response had me feeling so very tired. but also as though I am going to lose my mind.

working on insecurities and confidence is neither easy nor linear. that much I feel I understand after being in therapy for literal years now. I am rewiring my entire brain for me, not for shitty men who do shitty things, or in hopes of saving myself from them. I mean, yes, that is a goal, but it is not the goal. I do often feel like I am a common denominator when it comes to the situations in my life in which I am a "victim", even if I am told I did everything right and it isn't my fault and all of the other kind (but somewhat empty) reassurances. especially when it comes to a man overpowering me in one way or another, especially when it happens back to back in my fucking graduate school program. but I didn't invite these men in–they saw that I had boundaries. they just swept past them before I even realized what was happening. I wish I was better at standing up for myself. and with some people, I can. but I am shy and anxious and I have a lot of self-doubt, which has never been the easiest for me to hide. so yes, when men who are my superiors masquerade as 'mentors' in my field, belittle me, and play on my weaknesses right before they shift into monsters wanting sex or a woman to stroke their egos or simply someone to scream at and call names, I fold and my freeze response kicks in.

and that is all my grad school experience has been. for nearly two years. two different men separately breaking me apart until I finally had to leave. it was appealing to the graduate school advisor who turned out to be a best friend to one of these men and being practically dismissed from an entire program despite a perfect gpa and high performance rates and everything that is supposed to matter. it was retreating into myself until i was more ghost than human for nearly a year.

it is giving up two years of my life and credibility and taking on student debt with no degree to even show for it and no prospects of a career to look ahead to. only a lawsuit to plan.

I don't know, but I don't think high confidence and liking myself would completely change any of this.

[ivyjunebug]

UPDATE:

GUESS WHO JUST WON A LEGAL BATTLE AGAINST THESE BITCHESSSSS.

I have to briefly re-enroll to take a comprehensive exam in the spring of 2027 to (re)prove my knowledge, but I'm gonna pass if it kills me and these bitches are gonna have to give me my damn degree that I did all of the work for.

[ivyjunebug]

Chapters: 32/? Fandom: Lost (TV 2004) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

They come back.

What if Sawyer and Juliet crossed paths before ever stepping foot on the island?

[ivyjunebug]

what if i can't get in? how will i see you again?