i hate myself

k, 19, they/she vent acct ✟

[daddystinygirll]

I’m not “battling mental illness” or “fighting bpd” they are in fact, beating the ever living fuck out of me

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[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

when the "i don’t need anyone anyway“ act wears off and all i want is for someone to hold me in their arms and tell me their biggest fear is losing me.

[iwillchangethislater8]

i constantly go between wishing I didn’t have scars and wishing they were so much worse

[worthless-mess]

"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

[oshidorifuufu]

*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

[down4fems]

girls want loser gf until they realize she barely leaves home, never party, plays video games all the time and in need of affection 24/7

[bpderanged]

Is it really negative self-talk if it's true? What if I'm not being self-deprecating but self-aware and realistic? What if people are the ones lying?

[iwillchangethislater8]

when I try and tell myself them hating me is all in my head and then i remember they haven’t reached out in 3 days

[deadtears777]

I hate people who still tell me it gets better even after 9 years of me just getting worse and worse

[iwillchangethislater8]

imagine hating me and I’m just in bed watching doggy bath time videos

[maybeshehasbpd]

it gets worse before it gets way worse

[fawnprincessbl0g]

I froze when I first saw this scene

[iwillchangethislater8]

i can’t imagine how exhausting it must be to be around me no wonder all my friends leave me

[bone-sawz]

i hate when people cry around me because i just don’t know how to deal with it.

i can barely deal with my own emotions how do you expect me to help you with yours?

[shxns]

i think the worst part of any cluster b disorder is talking about what you're going through.. it's hard to communicate that im going through something and why without sounding like andrew neiman. talm bout some IM UPSET 😭😭

[nympha99-deactivated20251117]

I hate myself again, I believed I could be more. Like, having friends would fill the void in my heart and like it'd erase any of the shit I've done. I feel sorry for my friends, for having to have met me. I feel sorry that I had to experience this pain.

I feel sorry I had to remove myself this way..

This was for their sake. Hopefully they'll see it too.