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“I don’t know! I don’t know. I’m lost. I’m scared. I feel like I’m disappearing. My skin’s coming off. I’m getting old. Nothing makes any sense to me. Nothing makes any sense.”

— Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004), Dir. Michel Gondry (via wnq-movies)

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Serial Experiments Lain, dir. Ryūtarō Nakamura (1998)

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TW: SEXUAL ABUSE, CHILD SEXUAL ABUSE.

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Ive been thinking alot abt my past, mainly around the time i was 15/16 when i use to work at claire's part time (i was always wanting to make my own money to buy my own things) and im pretty sure i was sexually abused/exploited by my much older coworker. Im not comfortable going into detail but he did convince me into doing things, told me it was DDLG and also tried having me recruit other girls for him to exploit. He fed me many lies and manipulated me into thinking he loved me and at the time i was also going through the beginnings of my severe depression (my boyfriend at the time had taken my virginity but he cheated on me alot and things were rough at home) i always thought maybe this isnt right but he would reassure me into thinking its normal and okay to ne doing the things we did. Again i was 15, freshly 16. God even writting all this out is making me nauseous, around that time i had become obsessed with lolita (the movie/book) and pretty baby, both movies are about child exploitation and back then i really did see it as romantic because of the situation i was already in. I have never talked about this before until now, and if he sees this (hes on tumblr) i want him to know: back then, i told you i loved you. You told me so many things that did make me feel loved but i know now it wasnt. Youre a monster, and because of you i feel disgusted with my body because all i can see is everything you did. And if you want to say i was okay with it, it was because you groomed me and i allowed it. I allowed it because i did what every child does, listen to the adult. I was 15/16. I HAD JUST LOST MY VIRGINITY, I BARELY KNEW WHAT SEX WAS BESIDES THE ONE TIME W MY EX BF.you were literally about to turn 30. You tried getting me to get my friends into the same situation and im so disgusted. You haunt my dreams and thoughts, i havent even been able to talk about it until now and i cant even fully say everything because i feel like throwing up. Look at what youve done to me. Im turning 23 this year and i still feel like a child in my head because im stuck in the past. Give me my childhood back..

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