IZZIE'S MOMMIE BLOG

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Just an update.

There are things i don't usually admit. Like even though Im back into regular jeans, and I am 175lbs I still feel 260. When I look in the mirror I see progress, but I don't see me. How I imagine myself, how I use to look before kids. I have been considering a tummy tuck. Is my belly gross nope. is it huge, also Nope. but its not the same,Nothing is the same. I guess I just don't have it like that. My hard work doesn't end with losing a bunch of weight, It has to keep going. i guess since I don't have great genes I have ti work harder, faster and longer. There are people who snap right back after a kid. Not me, i gained a crap load of weight in trimesters 2-4. While in trimester 1 I puked my life away. Only to gain it all back plus some. I am in a size 10 jeans. Yes its not small but I don't want to be small. Ive been on the skinny side. I just want to be a size 6. Thats it. it considered normal and I will hopefully still have my boobs, and butt and all the fluffy stuff my husband likes to touch! He says I look great any size. Ive noticed though that he's been extra grabby lately, and I cant wear thongs around him without being molested. I am super insecure about my body. I guess the first step is admitting it. I just want to wake up and things look similar to the way they were before i had kids. But that wont happen as easy.

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A$$ shaking extravaganza!

So I am currently doing a series of work outs to mix up my weight loss adventure. I am doing about 20-35 minutes of p90x. I am also doing the hiphop booty shaking workouts from miss Keaira LaShae on suerherofitnesstv channel on Youtube about 10 minutes and the rest in Jillian Micheals. and i must say it makes my work out fun. I plan on also starting an evening work out. I went from doing 10 minute work outs to an hour long fun work outs, now i will be working out until i pass out at night and this week I will replace solid foods with liquids as i planned in my weight loss diary. I will be doing fast cleaning to break a sweat. I am determined to do this. I know I need to remember it took 18 months to get this weight and with dieting...No healthy habits...tons of water and movement will get me were i want. I am also for the next 30 days cutting out ALL UNHEALTHY FOODS! I am also taking vitamins (very important) and a calorie cutting pill from Jillian Micheals. just wanted to update. I don't even think anyone reads these blogs but maybe someone who either wants a pre pregnancy body back or maybe just lose weight will come across this.

I will also not weigh myself again until next monday...ive been weighing myself like 80 times a day...idk why i expect to see a change in a day. well good day!

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life as of 4/22/13

So i am in a rush as always and will just quickly give the tumblr world an update. so my labor was induced on 4/22/13 My little angel was born right before 12 am the next day. I named her Charlie Rose! Beautiful I know! Well that was like a month ago...if you count mondays which I do! So when I went into labor sad to say i was a whooping 260 pounds...HUGE WITH A CAPITAL HUGE...I KNOW! I am about 215 right now. which is what I weighed after I had my son...still huge. But I was 229 when i left out the hospital with her which means the 14 lbs lost i did that in a month from pure exercise! proud! any way my weight loss adventure is just starting. My goal is to drop 10 pounds a month. If I can lose more great! losing less is NOT an option. I want to be under 200 by my birthday and under 180 by my anniversary. Now for anyone reading this i know you are thinking...DAMN she's huge. well yes and no. I do not look like I weight 200 anything. my weight (thank God) is not in my stomach, for two kids back to back my belly is pretty flat...actually very flat. theres just a little extra skin from the baby bump...nothing Cardio and abs ripper x cant fix. But my weight is evenly divided into [ Breast, ass, thighs, hips, (sadly arms) and muscle and blood and organs ] Now I am a size 16...I wear them very loose. but still it saddens me when i go into my favorite stores and the biggest size is 13 but they fit like 10's! I will be writing a blog each week about my progress. is it easy being a bigger girl...hell no. Im use to being under 180. so for me to be 49 pounds over my fat girl weight is killing me. But im blessed to have the big breast and hips and ass and no belly so atleast i look smaller. I hope that some of this is water weight...but since i was very active before these kids its probably just fat on top of muscle. No short cuts for me! so what have I been doing,....a series of p90x, and Jillian Micheals. My goal for this week and doing a whole workout with out stopping! lets get it!

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Restless

These past few nights have been very hard. I can't sleep. Things have been crazy. So many emotions so little time to sort through them.

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5’9 ft tall. US Size 18 to US Size 3. 

#Ifshecando it, i can do it #looking great #healthy # goodbyebabyweight

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anxious and scared 2.1

Ok so the main point of this post and 2.0 was to get to the real meat of why I am even anxious and scared. Weight has always been as issue for me. growing up I was too skinny. My mom tried everything to make me gain weight and nothing would ever work. At 12 I developed some weird hormone issue where I would get chronic migraines and I was put on some mega steroids..well as you are guessing little miss stick became little miss piggy. I blew up like a blimp. I was hungry all the time and ate how most kids eat. But I never stopped being active. I was tormented for my weight and then developed a serious eating disorder that I felt the need to deal with it in the form of binge and purge ..That's right folks i developed bulimia. I would over eat on purpose then stick my hands down my throat and make myself puke until the green acid came up. That's How i dealt with it for about a year. I always chewed gum and i brushed my teeth 3 times a day and wore whitening strips because people who have bulimia usually have bad breath and yellow teeth. i hid this very well.  Then I lost all the weight. I went from being 140 lbs at 14 to 109. So once I lost all the weight I stopped. I converted to working out like a slave, but i was well hydrated with water and on very hot days I would add powerade for the retention of electrolytes.  Then My sister was also venturing in the same obsessive weight loss struggle with me. So we worked out like maniacs together and eventually eat healthier and then our habits turned into safe habits. well she got preggo, I became sister/auntie/baby daddy and gained weight during her pregnancy. I guess you call it sympathy weight. lol by then I was 16 so being 130lbs wasn't bad. i had also been active in sports so i quickly turned that fat into muscle. she spiraled out of control with her weight and while for about two years I stayed at 130 I stopped working out. I started working and eating fast food and junk food and then eventually at around 18 years old I noticed I was huge. 180 lbs I managed to drop about 15 for prom but that summer gained it all back. The guy I was dating was a stick and didnt gain weight at all and I was in love. i ate what he ate and while my thighs where getting bigger my self esteem was getting smaller. I hit about 209 lbs after i broke up with him at the age of 20 after I met my now husband but once I moved out of state. I was depressed and didn't know anyone. I finally said "israel you have no excuses" so i changed my eatng habits, drank water and instead of stress eating i ate to survive. i ate only when my stomach was 100% empty and once I was content, meaning the hungry pangs were gone i stopped. I got full off of water. i snacked on avocados, oranges  raw veggies. I got up every day before 6 am and walked, then jogged, then ran. I even started walking to the store and to everywhere I wanted to go. I got a job at a Gym and with my free membership why not work out. So i worked out there too before and after work. I even started surfing and when i didnt want to leave the house i danced in my room or played p90x dvds and did those work outs. I ate dinner at 6 went running again. came home hydrated on water and i would stretch infront of tv. I went from a whopping 220 down to 160. I moved back home after making plans to marry my now husband and continued the weight loss but slowly. we would work out about twice a day but in the form of intercourse but i didnt mind, he made me feel sexy and I liked being adventurous with him. then I got pregnant and i was very shocked, and scared. I had to stop working out and was put on bed rest then i started stress eating and my sister in law stuffed my face even more. So I went from 150-236. after my son was born I only lost 20 lbs. I had to do the rest myself. So a few months after he was born I had gotten down to about 189 now I am 38 weeks pregnant and I am 250..i rounded up because I am sure i will pack on a few more lbs in the next two weeks. But I am blessed because I carry my weight very well. when i have people guess my weight they stop at about 175. when i told my husband how much i weighed he called me a liar. Well I surely feel like a hell of a whale. But I have been stocking up on protein meal replacement shakes, workout dvds, dumbbells you name it i bought it I also have a gym membership. I even bought a stripper pole for extra workout. I plan on using it to seduce my husband after the lbs come off. But this is what i am noxious about. I want to lose weight, i want to work out I know i can do it. My weight goal respectably after two kids is 130-140. So I have 110-120 lbs to lose. I am giving myself a year to do it. I hope I do it in less but no rush. I have always been beautiful, and smart but I want to be healthy for my kids. I am tired of saying I am married or making my work schedule or parenting be an excuse. I am starting today April 2, 2013 at 1:31 pm to change my eating habits. I want any lbs gained to be pure baby and not fat. I have it all planned out and I also will be adding birth control to this regimen. I refuse to pop out another kid. I am not happy with myself in this size. Yes my husband loves how soft and plump my ass and boobs have gotten and he's in love with my big round baby bump but I don't care. I want them gone! I am happy to be a mother and excited about my baby girl don't get me wrong. But I am anxious to be healthy again. I did this to myself and it will take hard work, dedication and self control to get me back to the size I want to be in. Fingers crossed, feet on the ground and eyes facing forward to the future. good bye size 16 hello size 4.

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anxious and scared 2.0

So here I am 38 weeks and come change pregnant with my 2nd child. Whoohoo...not really! well really but not really really. I am 22 yrs old and have been with my husband for 3 years and counting. Our main jobs are being parents, then working then we manage to find time to be married. My husband has spoiled me with an extended maternity leave of 4 months. In this 4 months I would how ever like to say the 3 weeks have come and gone and I will be back to work i believe before the full 4 months. Also We just bout ourselves a lovely 4 bed room 2 bath home. So my break really isn't all at of a break. I also have my baby shower next week. then the baby will be here. So I have to get all glammed up for the baby shower and birth then as soon as i grunt my way through labor and delivery I will have to slap a bandaid on my lady part, pull up my briches and prepare to move in our home. Yeahhh me! Blah but this post isnt about any of that! I will expalin in 2.1 I'd just prefer not to write a novel, lord knows I will if I don't stop myself.

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Anxious and scared

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call me fat but bitch im "fat tastic"

call me fat but bitch im "fat tastic"