a burning hill

@jaamun

I fear I will be ripped open and found unsightly / dishwasherheart's lit blog

4,477 posts

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

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i only have 4000 more of the rent to give (and then i will be on time june onwards )

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

162/200

i only have 4000 more of the rent to give (and then i will be on time june onwards )

blackcoffeestudies

Mutual fascination is always a risky business. Lacan suggests that it is the consequence of an imaginary identification in which the self strives to incorporate the other in an act as aggressive as it is loving. It is never clear who, snake or snake charmer, is mesmerized by whom.

Elizabeth Grosz, Jacques Lacan: A feminist introduction

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

Goal - 94/200

136/200

159/200

long post to be pinned

hello i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all. money doesn't matter much but it does. i am in a bad bad kinda place lol i can't even afford a cab rn. but more than anything, do read what i write if possible, because i want to make something out of my nothings and everythings.

i wish i had more to offer in exchange. i can still do ur hw, or anything. yknow how it is. proofreading. poetry. i will help you with whatever possible wherever whenever. that's what i have always tried to do.

i really hope by the time i have finished a year in this company, they pay me more. and that by the end of this year, my parents and i have a respectable distance in between us.

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

NOTE: this isn't the fundraiser for the cat, and the friend. none of that money has been used by me. i have all the proof of all the cat food bought, hostel/hotel/pg rent paid, cabs they have taken.

this is my personal paypal .and pls dont send me any hate message lol, i literally have 300 rs in my account and tears in my eyes. my parents again did the same thing, and i like a fool thought it would be better this time. this is NOT a fundraiser. this is not anything.

as for the zines and the emails that some of you paid me for, they are scheduled over the span of time, so they will keep reaching you slowly. international posting is a little expensive so it is taking time. but it will reach you.

95/200 goal

thank you thank you thank u

long post to be pinned

hello i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all. money doesn't matter much but it does. i am in a bad bad kinda place lol i can't even afford a cab rn. but more than anything, do read what i write if possible, because i want to make something out of my nothings and everythings.

i wish i had more to offer in exchange. i can still do ur hw, or anything. yknow how it is. proofreading. poetry. i will help you with whatever possible wherever whenever. that's what i have always tried to do.

i really hope by the time i have finished a year in this company, they pay me more. and that by the end of this year, my parents and i have a respectable distance in between us.

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

NOTE: this isn't the fundraiser for the cat, and the friend. none of that money has been used by me. i have all the proof of all the cat food bought, hostel/hotel/pg rent paid, cabs they have taken.

this is my personal paypal .and pls dont send me any hate message lol, i literally have 300 rs in my account and tears in my eyes. my parents again did the same thing, and i like a fool thought it would be better this time. this is NOT a fundraiser. this is not anything.

as for the zines and the emails that some of you paid me for, they are scheduled over the span of time, so they will keep reaching you slowly. international posting is a little expensive so it is taking time. but it will reach you.

95/200 goal

thank you thank you thank u

i would like to explain my situation a bit:

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000 INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother’s sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately/eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can’t balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work , i only have enough for two days)

i got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard (i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am… well… embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

long post to be pinned

hello i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all. money doesn't matter much but it does. i am in a bad bad kinda place lol i can't even afford a cab rn. but more than anything, do read what i write if possible, because i want to make something out of my nothings and everythings.

i wish i had more to offer in exchange. i can still do ur hw, or anything. yknow how it is. proofreading. poetry. i will help you with whatever possible wherever whenever. that's what i have always tried to do.

i really hope by the time i have finished a year in this company, they pay me more. and that by the end of this year, my parents and i have a respectable distance in between us.

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

NOTE: this isn't the fundraiser for the cat, and the friend. none of that money has been used by me. i have all the proof of all the cat food bought, hostel/hotel/pg rent paid, cabs they have taken.

this is my personal paypal .and pls dont send me any hate message lol, i literally have 300 rs in my account and tears in my eyes. my parents again did the same thing, and i like a fool thought it would be better this time. this is NOT a fundraiser. this is not anything.

as for the zines and the emails that some of you paid me for, they are scheduled over the span of time, so they will keep reaching you slowly. international posting is a little expensive so it is taking time. but it will reach you.

95/200 goal

thank you thank you thank u

long post to be pinned

hello i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all. money doesn't matter much but it does. i am in a bad bad kinda place lol i can't even afford a cab rn. but more than anything, do read what i write if possible, because i want to make something out of my nothings and everythings.

i wish i had more to offer in exchange. i can still do ur hw, or anything. yknow how it is. proofreading. poetry. i will help you with whatever possible wherever whenever. that's what i have always tried to do.

i really hope by the time i have finished a year in this company, they pay me more. and that by the end of this year, my parents and i have a respectable distance in between us.

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

NOTE: this isn't the fundraiser for the cat, and the friend. none of that money has been used by me. i have all the proof of all the cat food bought, hostel/hotel/pg rent paid, cabs they have taken.

this is my personal paypal .and pls dont send me any hate message lol, i literally have 300 rs in my account and tears in my eyes. my parents again did the same thing, and i like a fool thought it would be better this time. this is NOT a fundraiser. this is not anything.

as for the zines and the emails that some of you paid me for, they are scheduled over the span of time, so they will keep reaching you slowly. international posting is a little expensive so it is taking time. but it will reach you.

95/200 goal

thank you thank you thank u

“Fresh air, sleep, and rest will help to make you strong.” In Training For Health. 1935.

long post to be pinned

hello i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all. money doesn't matter much but it does. i am in a bad bad kinda place lol i can't even afford a cab rn. but more than anything, do read what i write if possible, because i want to make something out of my nothings and everythings.

i wish i had more to offer in exchange. i can still do ur hw, or anything. yknow how it is. proofreading. poetry. i will help you with whatever possible wherever whenever. that's what i have always tried to do.

i really hope by the time i have finished a year in this company, they pay me more. and that by the end of this year, my parents and i have a respectable distance in between us.

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

NOTE: this isn't the fundraiser for the cat, and the friend. none of that money has been used by me. i have all the proof of all the cat food bought, hostel/hotel/pg rent paid, cabs they have taken.

this is my personal paypal .and pls dont send me any hate message lol, i literally have 300 rs in my account and tears in my eyes. my parents again did the same thing, and i like a fool thought it would be better this time. this is NOT a fundraiser. this is not anything.

as for the zines and the emails that some of you paid me for, they are scheduled over the span of time, so they will keep reaching you slowly. international posting is a little expensive so it is taking time. but it will reach you.

thank u for helping . im still in the dumps. but everybody who has been kind, sent a message, an anon, it is all registered in me. when i am alone and free i will be replying asmuch as i can . i miss my cat . i wish my boss gives me a raise. i wish my parents left me alone

long post to be pinned

hello i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all. money doesn't matter much but it does. i am in a bad bad kinda place lol i can't even afford a cab rn. but more than anything, do read what i write if possible, because i want to make something out of my nothings and everythings.

i wish i had more to offer in exchange. i can still do ur hw, or anything. yknow how it is. proofreading. poetry. i will help you with whatever possible wherever whenever. that's what i have always tried to do.

i really hope by the time i have finished a year in this company, they pay me more. and that by the end of this year, my parents and i have a respectable distance in between us.

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

NOTE: this isn't the fundraiser for the cat, and the friend. none of that money has been used by me. i have all the proof of all the cat food bought, hostel/hotel/pg rent paid, cabs they have taken.

this is my personal paypal .and pls dont send me any hate message lol, i literally have 300 rs in my account and tears in my eyes. my parents again did the same thing, and i like a fool thought it would be better this time. this is NOT a fundraiser. this is not anything.

as for the zines and the emails that some of you paid me for, they are scheduled over the span of time, so they will keep reaching you slowly. international posting is a little expensive so it is taking time. but it will reach you.

thank u for helping . im still in the dumps. but everybody who has been kind, sent a message, an anon, it is all registered in me. when i am alone and free i will be replying asmuch as i can . i miss my cat . i wish my boss gives me a raise. i wish my parents left me alone

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