[jaane-ghazal]

90s bollywood x dark academia

[anxietyproblem]

[without-ado]

Full Snow Moon over Ely Cathedral

l VeronicaJoPo l Cambridgeshire, England

[shayadwohsune]

cook with him or cook for him?

[dyingenigma]

[holycalf]

when fiona apple asked “how can i ask anyone to love me when all i do is beg to be left alone”. well i have not found an answer but if anyone else has lmk

[soulmvtes]

some little moments 🫶🏻

[jaane-ghazal]

my almost lover

two in the morning for me

[weltenwellen]

Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

[crimsolyn]

sometimes i feel like i still carry the sadness from when i was 13

[twirld]

Fairies by the Brook (detail, 1895) Max Pirner

[girlrustcohle]

fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

[fangsforfags]

fake idgafer. i saw tht haunted look in ur eyes

[fangsforfags]

fake idgafer. i saw u replace ur guilt with anger

[jaane-ghazal]

"Everything i want to say/ I swallow"

• Every soft thing i ever wanted to tell you, I swallowed, clamped down on my tongue, shoved it down my throat until it filled my mouth with blood.

• I downplay every feeling, every connection, anything of substance, because if I don't, life might just rip it from my hands.  

• I let it go, let it slip through my fingers like sand, because the harder I clutch, the faster it leaves.  

• I teach myself to loosen my grip, teach myself to believe you were never mine to begin with.  

• Trapped, suffocating, trembling, with desire, i teach myself not to let it mean anything, because what if it could mean everything? And then, what if it doesn't?

• I scream and scream and scream, but my body is a soundproof box; I am shaking, trembling, screaming so loud my ribcage rattles, but no noise escapes my lips.  

• If you peeled the skin from my body, you would see: every inch of me is a wanting so pervasive it has devoured everything else.

• You would find a hunger so ravenous it carved itself into my bones, threaded itself through every vein it could find.  

• I see too much. I hear too much. I feel too much. I am too much. My body aches from carrying all the things I never said out loud.  

• You cannot ruin something that isn't there, so i leave first, telling myself it will hurt less this way.

— Rushda

29.04.25

[lunamonchtuna]

— Clementine Von Radics, from In A Dream You Saw A Way To Survive; "The Fear" (via lunamonchtuna)

[lunamonchtuna]

— Clementine Von Radics, from In A Dream You Saw A Way To Survive; "The Fear" (via lunamonchtuna)

[mournfulroses]

Lidia Yuknavitch, from Reading the Waves: A Memoir published in 2025