dirty laundry

[astrolouis-deactivated20200816]

i said whoever used to turn down louis’ mic at one direction gigs your moms a hoe

[natureandbeauty]

[venuskissed-deactivated20180212]

dolly parton: jole-

me

[xoxomorganalexis]

@jack-bakarat-atl

[jack-bakarat-atl]

accurate

[jack-bakarat-atl]

might fuck around and kill myself tonight

[jack-bakarat-atl]

i just wanna wake up tomorrow and not have to worry about feeling like you care for me. i want you to take all of my doubts and show me that they’re nothing. i want the old you back because the new one just keeps breaking my heart.

[squidong]

Periods are canceled for 2018. This year, I don’t want to bleed unless it’s from a wound I earned in honorable combat.

[saiasus]

Them: are you a top or a bottom?

My vers ass:

[yuckywilliam-deactivated2017021]

we’re gonna delete deadnames

reblog to delete your dead name

[chaoschalcedony]

I dont have a dead name but reblogging this also deletes your friends dead names

[dirtycreekwater]

hey guys our dead names are now deleted

[doodlefriend-deactivated2022121]

for anyone who needs it 

[jack-bakarat-atl]

just keep fucking up kristina

[jack-bakarat-atl]

overthinking

it always ruins me. out of nowhere, i’ll start overthinking and find a way to put everyone around me in a shitty mood. i’m losing the girl i love, the one i’m supposed to grow with because i’m constantly overthinking things. she was always so happy until i grew this monster inside me. now i barely see her smile when i’m around. i’m just this burden for people anymore. they always have to worry when i’m going to hurt myself next or when i’ll finally snap and end it. i can never open up and explain it to anyone because they’ll just get annoyed and get pissed at me. i realize i have a good life and i have so fucking much to be thankful for. i have everything i could ever need, but that doesn’t stop this monster from eating at me. it doesn’t stop this hole in my chest from growing until it’s consumed me and i’m nothing. everything and everyone is slipping away from me and i don’t know how to stop it. i know an end is coming with the love i found, the love i was supposed to keep. and how do i tell myself it’s time to let her go before i ruin her life more? how do i tell anyone it’s my time to go

[jack-bakarat-atl]

waiting for the day that you leave like everyone else

[neaarty]

[jack-bakarat-atl]

needing you today

[jack-bakarat-atl]

made lunch and i can’t even eat now

[phi-lophobic]

excerpt from a book I’ll never write. (1)

“I, um, I just.. You know what? I hate you. I hate you for making it hard for me to breathe without you next to me. I hate you for making my hands sweat each time you look at me with those eyes. I hate you for making me look pathetic when you’re on the other side of the world. I hate you for not helping me wash the dishes. I hate you for making me run out of tissues each time you leave. I hate you for making this long distance thing so easy yet so difficult.”

A tear slipped from her eye as she placed her palms flat against his heaving chest. Her breathing was unstable, matching his under the contact of her hands.

“I seriously hate you. But most of all, I hate that you made me love you. And I hate you for making it so hard on me to unlove you. I hate you for being you but I love you all at the same time. I love you, so so much, and I hate myself because I can never stop.”

As soon as she stopped, his warm hands cupped her cheeks as he gently placed a kiss on her lips. Her tears kept running, as he wiped them away with his thumbs. Lifting her head up and placing his forehead against hers, he smiled,

“I love you, more than you’ll ever know, and trust me, you and I would hate me even more if you ever stopped.”

[jack-bakarat-atl]

pushed aside like i’m fucking nothing

[jack-bakarat-atl]

i feel so empty