𝑫𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝑯𝒆𝒓.

[jackahl]

⊰  # 𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐀𝐇𝐋  ⊱  —— ;  ᵃ ᵐᵘᵗᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵉˣᶜˡᵘˢᶦᵛᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᶦᵍʰˡʸ ˢᵉˡᵉᶜᵗᶦᵛᵉ ᵒʳᶦᵍᶦⁿᵃˡ ᵘⁿᶦᵛᵉʳˢᵉ ᵇᵃˢᵉᵈ ᶜʰᵃʳᵃᶜᵗᵉʳ.  ᵗʰᵉ 𝑱𝑨𝑪𝑲𝑨𝑳.  ᶦⁿˢᵖᶦʳᵃᵗᶦᵒⁿ ᵈʳᵃʷⁿ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵈᵉᵃᵗʰ , ʲᵘⁿʲᶦ ᶦᵗᵒ , ᵈᵘᵃˡᶦᵗʸ ᵒᶠ ᶠᵃᶦᵗʰ , ᵛᵃʳᶦᵒᵘˢ ᵃⁿᶦᵐᵉ , ˢᵖᶦᵈᵉʳ ˡᶦˡᶦᵉˢ.  [ ... ]

 ❝ ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑆𝑂 𝐶𝑂𝐿𝐷  𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑖𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑜𝑢𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑁𝐸𝑉𝐸𝑅 𝑀𝐸𝐿𝑇.  ❞

ᵃ 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲 ᶦⁿ ;  having one foot in the grave , combating more than inner demons , what it means to find out religion is real , how the cold can feel like burning , to be so close and yet so far , becoming an observer of life , sunlight being cold to the touch. 

                     ❝ 𝑖𝑛 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑟𝑦, 𝐷𝐸𝐴𝑇𝐻 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑏𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑.  ❞

𝑪𝑨𝑹𝑹𝑫.                /       ᵃ ʳᵉᵛᵉˡᵃᵗᶦᵒⁿ ᵇʸ  𝐭𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐲. 21⁺. 𝐞𝐬𝐭.

[illusion-over-reality-blog]

「ベルセルク」

[helltoraise-deactivated20230812]

#  𝙷𝙴𝙻𝙻  𝚃𝙾  𝚁𝙰𝙸𝚂𝙴   !   preying   upon   normal   healthy   cells   ,   𝖙𝖍𝖊   𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖗𝖚𝖉𝖊𝖗   gradually   𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬   𝐭𝐡𝐞   𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭   from   within.   eventually   𝖙𝖍𝖊   𝖎𝖓𝖛𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗   consumes   its   host   completely   ,   and   𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲   𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐲𝐬   𝐢𝐭.

[illusion-over-reality-blog]

「アイアムアヒーロー」by 花沢 健吾

[jackahl]

𝑾𝑯𝑰𝑪𝑯 𝑫𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑰𝑴 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑬𝑺𝑻 𝑨𝑹𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 ?

𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘬𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘮

socialization doesn't come easy to you. You might struggle to be heard or seen by the ones around you so you prefer to avoid it all together, as frustrating as it can be sometimes. For that reason you might be selective with the people you blend with, and at times it might seem that nobody will truly understand you. But when you find those who resonate with you, you're an extremely kind and loyal friend. Most importantly, you're smart, and people always value that about you. They will constantly rely on you, ask for your guidance and advice, and you're happy to provide it. You like being the reliable friend. You don't get crushes easily, but when you do you don't really know how to handle them. They feel overwhelming and like a waste of time. There's no way they like me back, is it? What if I ruin it? What if I'm reading way too much into it? Remember to relax enjoy the feeling once in a while, chances are that your crush sees that intelligent and kindhearted person everyone else seen in you as well

tagged : @helltoraise tagging : @artifactually​ @dyuuku​ @haloheavy​ @oneirevetai

[caterpie]

Hellsing (2001)

[lazenj-deactivated20220905]

# 𝐇𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐘 :   𝘚𝘖   𝘊𝘓𝘖𝘚𝘌   ,    𝐍𝐎𝐖    𝐈    𝐂𝐀𝐍   𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖    𝐘𝐎𝐔     /      ( ᵃˡˡ ᵗʰᵉ ᶤᶰᶰᵉʳ ʷᵒʳᵏᶤᶰᵍ ᵗʰᶤᶰᵍˢ   )  .  an    independent,    private    &&        highly    selective    original    character    based    on    my    own    canon    &    inspiration    from    eldritch & biblical    influences.        a    study    in    survivor’s    guilt    ,    acknowledging    your    self    worth    ,    second    chances    ,    run    girl    ,    run    ,    the    trauma    of    being    the    sole    survivor    ,    am    i    even    human    anymore    ? ,  finding   divinity   within   me ,  god   is   a   woman, she wears a halo above her head , heaven missing an angel .  triggers    will    be    present    ,    please    proceed    with    caution    !!!        created    by    gina    .    MINORS    DO    NOT    INTERACT    /    PERSONALS    DO    NOT    INTERACT        !

[jackahl]

𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞​.

   *      permanent lyric  call     —      @jackahl​​​​​      |      pretty when you cry      *     

      ❛ ❛        i'm   𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲   when   i   𝘭𝘪𝘦.     ❜ ❜  

   ❛❛   𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒆𝒓 when you tell what i want to know.  ❜❜   the ghoul quips without skipping a beat, the chain belted at her help clanks against the wall as she uses the stable archway of the room as a pushing point to send herself in motion. force herself into dwellings, into the succubus’ space. for privacy , self soothing says despite the electric tinge that caressed the back of her spine when the space between them diminished with every click of heels.  ❛❛   listen,  ❜❜   the deep thrum of her voice juxtaposes the whisper jackal carries on her breath, only for helmin to hear.   ❛❛   it’s not my idea to come here, i’m not looking bother you, but you know these streets better than most.  𝑤ℎ𝑦  𝑡ℎ𝑒  𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘   is there a sudden swarm of demons in the area ?   ❜❜

[notstilinski]

The Bear Starters !

Taken from  the 2022 Hulu series, The Bear! Some of these have already been edited. You can change them however you see fit! 

“You cut vegetables like a bitch.”

“(Name), I am saying something. You are my favorite bitch.”

“Don’t say sweetheart, you fucking weirdo.”

“Listen, I’m trying to talk to ya, okay? Don’t be rude and start doing a million things-“

“One plus one equals your an asshole.”

“That’s how you say hello to me?”

“You smell like this place.”

“It’s redundant and white. Just like you.”

“Hey, has (Name) always been an asshole?”

“Look at you. Fucking softie!”

“Merry Christmas, Lizards. Sounds like we have a real problem out here.”

“DeVry teach you to fix that?”

“It’s um… A lot of words.”

“Yeah, but they basically say we’re getting killed on labor.”

“Is my hair on fire?”

“I’m telling you… Beware of bitches with little notebooks.”

“FYI. You cocked it up, you’re gonna caulk it out.”

“I wasn’t expecting company, by the way. These Arby’s cups are from different visits.”

“Can’t believe I’m taking orders from a fucking toddler right now.”

“Still looks like a kid painted it with their asshole.”

“I stopped by to see you. I should have stopped by to break your legs, but, you know what, I guess I’m getting forgetful.”

“Really good short-term, (Name). Congrats on that.”

“Look, I’m, uh- I’m fine. You know, I just have trouble breathing sometimes, and I wake up screaming.”

“Whatever. I know tons of people that cry out of nowhere.”

“We can’t curb that kind-of chaos until the thinking changes.”

“Like, I just, uh, follow orders even if it leads to tensions and chaos and resentment and ultimately does not work out.”

“No, it’s just, uh, I felt like (Name) was alive for a second.”

“You two looked like you joined the dumbass cult.”

“You stick to your shit, and I’ll stick to mine.”

“Fuck brunch.”

“Why are you doing that? Why are you trying to put a t-shirt on a fucking hot dog?”

“Chill. I’m not gonna bring up shit, alright?”

“I suffer from anxiety and dread.”

“One bite of a doughnut brings much joy, two bite brings sadness.”

“If you’re into it, then I’m into it.”

“I didn’t really know him well enough to miss him.”

“Yo! What is good you fuckin’ replicants?”

“Fuck your vibe!”

“Don’t ever fuck my vibe!”

“He’s mean! He is not nice! He is a fucking asshole!”

“Yeah, I also have a lot going on. Do you know I also had a brother die recently too?”

“You’re such a soft, shitty bitch.”

“Will you fight with me tomorrow?”

“Yeah, you will. But not cause you’re you, just cause shit happens.”

“If I don’t do anything, this place will burn down. and all my anxiety will go away with it.”

“I mean, my whole shit got rocked, and there’s not a night where I don’t stay up thinking what I could’ve done different.”

“We have finally gotten this to a place where things are sort of, kind of, a little bit chill, right? I would like to hold on to that as long as I possibly can.”

“I don’t know. I’ll ask him when he’s not dead.”

“Okay. Good. So, you’re a psychopath. Cool.”

“You know you don’t realize, this is a delicate ecosystem… and it’s held together by a shared history, and love, and respect.”

“Keep not processing trauma, (Name).”

“Is there a name for that thing where you’re afraid of something good happening ‘cause you think something bar’s gonna happen?”

“They say I’m contagious, I only cause bad news.”

“I think the thing that pisses me off is the thing that I’m probably too embarrassed to admit. Is that you never ask me how I’m doing.”

“I guess all the time I feel like I’m kind of trapped because I can’t describe… how I’m feeling. So to ask somebody else how they’re feeling, that just seems, uh, I don’t know, insane?”

“The point of this is that it is a business. Not, uh, some sort of a hollow shell you can project your dying fantasies or whatever onto.”

“No, this is a war on you shutting the fuck up, (Name).”

“Somebody get me a fucking sharpie that fucking works! Fuck!”

“And that’s why you hate that I’m here, right? Because I see you for the loser that you fucking are. And everyone fucking knows it.”

“I’m fucking sorry. I’m- I’m sorry. I’m really— I’m just fucking this up, guys.”

“I didn’t have a lot of friends growing up. I had a stutter when I was a kid. I was scared to speak half the time. And, uh, I got shitty grades ‘cause I couldn’t pay attention. I didn’t get into college. I didn’t have any girlfriends. I don’t think I’m funny.”

“I always thought that my brother was my best friend. Like we just knew everything about each other.”

“I didn’t know my brother was using drugs. What does that say?”

“The more he wouldn’t respond, the more our relationship kind of strained, the deeper into this I went, and the better I got.”

“And the more people I cut out, the quieter my life got.”

“I, uh, I feel kinda bad ‘cause I feel like I haven’t really like asked you how you’re doing. Um, with everything, since, you know.”

“I left you into my home, and this is how you treat me? You reward me with memories for cooking for you?”

“That’s exactly what they did. They destroyed it like a bitch.”

“(Name), I stand before you, a penitent man.”

“No, but seriously though, if you ever try that shit with me, I’ll fuck your ass up.”

“I don’t know. And I didn’t really want to give it to you because it meant that he was gone.”

“Oh, shut up, you old bitch.”

[twcbelts]

*         send   META   +   a   word   ,   a   name   ,   or   phrase   and   i   will   write   a   head  canon   based   off   of   this   !!!  

[jackahl]

 meme.   ——       ◇ ;   ❝  need a hand ?  ❞   /   @hirsangels​

                 boots sends vibrations against the stairwell’s suspended back, the heels distinct echo crawls along down the walls looking for reprieve in the walls seams to the outer world waiting. 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘴𝘦𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘨𝘦𝘥. 

     the bright lined gap between a weighted set of doors at the 1st level is eating away at what time was left to gain her advantage. pushing her shoulder into it’s rusted frame as it whines and groans and attempts to hold its lock, laughter mocking her attempt. its grotesque mouth hanging long and wide, slime dribbled in mirthful grin as it lunges down.

                   𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐫 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬.

    and she tumbles unto the grit of pavement that covers the bottom level of the empty parking garage. or so thought until her expression mirrors the one of the confusion and outright surprise of the woman that was in short proximity. captivating was lacking of better term to describe her and yet accurate when within her pause, the curse as pierces her leg with its slim glinted claws. a cough escapes her to cover the shock of pain.                   ❝  need a hand ?  ❞

      hitching herself to sit up on her hip, acting was an incredible forte of jackal’s in her after years. no human need know what horrors lied beyond their world, even if they clawed and clamored their way in hers.  

    ❛ ❛   no.  just a little light headed.  ❜ ❜

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

[deadxdoll]

[feral-ballad]

Clarice Lispector, tr. by Stefan Tobler, from Água Viva

[promptfairy]

𝟑, 𝟒, 𝟓   ♡   𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄

“  let’s go home.  ” “  um,  excuse me?  ” “  you broke it.  ” “  need a hand?  ” “  please,  help me.  ” “  i missed you.  ” “  i’m not sorry.  ” “  tell the truth.  ” “  what happened here?  ” “  got a minute?  ” “  life’s a bitch.  ” “  you’ve done enough.  ” “  i’m still learning.  ” “  don’t touch me.  ” “  was that you?  ” “  there’s no god.  ” “  you deserve better.  ” “  you’re a saint.  ” “  you are enough.  ” “  maybe you’re right.  ” “  this will pass.  ” “  you complete me.  ” “  you got this.  ”

𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑

“  don’t be so dramatic.  ” “  no guts,  no glory.  ” “  i’m calling for help.  ” “  run away with me.  ” “  it’s always been you.  ” “  some things take time.  ” “  you’re being awfully quiet.  ” “  please don’t hurt me.  ” “  snap out of it.  ” “  did you miss me?  ” “  how do i look?  ” “  i wanna get better.  ” “  whatever floats your boat.  ” “  i’ll love you always.  ” “  what are you waiting for?  ” “  at least i tried.  ” “  give me a kiss.  ” “  what’s the fucking point?  ” “  god,  i love you.  ” “  i’m doing my best.  ” “  i waited for you.  ” “  you woke me up.  ” “  stay with me tonight.  ”

𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄

“  you can’t keep doing this.  ” “  i think i love you  …  ” “  you make me feel special.  ” “  are you upset with me?  ” “  you need to heal first.  ” “  let me see the wound.  ” “  is your brain even on?  ” “  don’t give up on me.  ” “  you are perfect to me.  ” “  i can’t take this anymore.  ” “  you are my favorite person.  ” “  you had me at  ‘  hello.  ’   ” “  i wanted to see you.  ” “  don’t give me that look.  ” “  you’re a work of art.  ” “  i’m not scared of you.  ” “  i have  …  so many questions.  ”  “  do you think i’m stupid?  ” “  just tell me what happened.  ” “  i just want to help.  ” “  we need to be careful.  ” “  what did you just say?  ” “  i miss talking to you.  ”

[ohmydramatic]

Lee Ra El icons, ep 4

[midnightinthemagicmicagarden]

Fireworks Show

Watercolor on Black Paper

2022, 56"x 76"

Red Spider Lilies, Lycoris