JACKSON.

forgive me father, for i have sinned.

[justanotherrpmeme]

bold which habits your muse has

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justanotherrpmeme:

nail biting | throat clearing | lying | interrupting | chewing the ends of pens | smoking | swearing | knuckle cracking | thumb sucking | muttering under their breath | talking to themselves | nose picking | binge drinking | oversleeping | snacking between meals | skipping meals | picking at skin | impulse buying | talking with their mouth full | humming/singing to themselves | chewing gum | leg jiggling | foot tapping | hair twirling | whistling | eye rolling | licking lips | sniffing | squinting | rubbing hands together | jaw clenching | gesturing while talking | putting feet up on tables | tucking hair behind ears | chewing lips | crossing arms over chest | putting hands on hips | rubbing the back or their neck | being late | procrastinating | doodling | shredding paper | peeling off bottle labels | forgetfulness | running hands through hair | overreacting | teeth grinding | nostril flaring | slouching | pacing | drumming fingers | fist clenching | pinching bridge of nose | rubbing temples | rolling shoulders

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emmqs:

❝     Yeah, I DEFINITELY couldn’t do the whole  a u t o p i l o t  thing. My brain is constantly on whenever I’m doing something. It’s like, holy shit, what does this person think, what does that person think, what am I doing wrong & right. But your way is admirable! Doctors and nurses have a really hard job, and I’m serious that it’s nothing I could do.    ❞

      “i’m not a doctor JUST yet. praying that in a couple more years something will come of my time here, but until then i’ll try my best to save lives.”

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lorvlais:

‘  don’t i know it! i used to have a black cat back in high school. i don’t believe my mother was too fond of it, though. no dry skin, no inflammation, no numbness, no red spots or rash. i’m telling you, itchy right hand? good luck.  ’

     “general good luck, or good luck for something coming up? are you EXPECTING anything?”

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kclbys:

     “ y– yeah, our little secret. a secret based in GARLIC BREAD. —— i like your house. it’s um, it’s cozy. ”

      “it’s small, but it’s home until i move back or get a roommate so i can move into a bigger place. i don’t mind, though, a couple candles can keep the place light and warm, then i’m not spending much on electricity. i’m not here much anyways. i spend plenty more time at the hospital.”

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lorvlais:

@jacksonnk !

‘  you know, i’m not superstitious, but my palm’s been awfully itchy today. and i’ve seen three black cats at the very least—– though they may just be contributing to sheffield’s picturesque reputation.  ’

      “well black cats are just sweethearts, and maybe the itchy palms are coming from something else. do you have dry skin?”

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kclbys:

     “ i’m a growing boy; i can HANDLE it. – but should a doctor really be feeding me such UNHEALTHY meals ? i’m scandalized. ” 

     “i’m not a doctor just yet, so i think we’re okay right now. it’ll be our little SECRET, alright?”

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emmqs:

❝ Oh, God, I’d never be able to do anything medical.,.ly related. A bunch of screaming kids? That I can handle. Heart attacks & broken legs? Not my cup of tea. Or, you know, COFFEE. ❞

    “it’s all kind of, heat of the moment, kind of acting, you know? you don’t really realize what you’ve done until you’re washing your hands and someone’s been sewn up.”

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emmqs:

❝ Okay, I might not have updated my closet all that recently, but I’m pretty sure I don’t have a SUIT hanging around in there. But, uh, a dress or something should be fine, right? As long as it lands somewhere between nightgown and ballgown? – – But, yeah! That sounds fine. You & me & seven-thirty in the morning. I’m hoping COFFEE is a part of breakfast before the early-risers bit. ❞

     “dress is good! and coffee is good, too! i don’t know how good my BREW is, but it sure is strong. medical student life, right?”

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kclbys:

     “ well, um, i think whatever you wanna’ make is good enough for me ! but, you know, if you happen to have the ingredients for spaghetti, i sure wouldn’t complain. it’s my FAVORITE. ”

      “spaghetti? i can do spaghetti. garlic toast, TOO? the dieticians might not like all the carbohydrates, but if you want some, i’ll start cutting the bread.”

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kclbys:

     “ —- er, no, no thank you, i’ll be okay for now. listen, jackson, i… thank you. for this. letting me stay here. you don’t have to open your home to me and… just, thank you. ” he was always raised to be polite, of course, but kelby’s gratitude wasn’t just for show. the bruises that littered his arms and patterned his chest were proof that he COULDN’T stay at home; at least not now. kelby could only thank G o d for the hospitality jackson was offering him. he was an angel. “ so um, ” gosh, he couldn’t be any more awkward, could he ? “ what’s for dinner ? ”

      “well, whaddya want, kelby? first night here has to be kinda special, right? keep you comfortable in these circumstances. have any food you really, really like?”

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emmqs:

❝ Uh, yeah! That’d be great, I’ll come on over with some money and an empty stomach. Is there like … a DRESS CODE for this? I know vanity’s a … big no-no, but I remember a lot of fancy hats from my days spent on the ends of pews. But then again, Sheffield has never been anywhere near black tie — oh, and, uh, is there … a specific time? How early is church, anyway? ❞

      “i just go with a suit, it’s what my momma used to have me wear. if you want to meet at mine for seven thirty, we’ll head to the church for nine. early risers ceremony, when it’s less crowded and your mind isn’t full of all the stresses of the day YET.”

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@kclbys

      “so the bathroom is over there, and you can take whatever you want from the kitchen. i’ll make up the guest room AFTER dinner... uh, is there anything else you need?”

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emmqs:

❝ Not saying it out loud is worse, because then you’ll NEVER know if they don’t like you. But – now’s not the time to worry. I trust that they’re sweet. Maybe they won’t even hear my … frog croaking noises over all the singing anyway. A girl can hope, right? — — I won’t place any bets on my enjoyment, but I’ll try my hardest to remain OPEN-MINDED and enjoy myself. Especially breakfast – – which, actually, do you need me to bring anything? I could stop by Holt’s or something? ❞

     “i make all my food, don’t worry. nothing is required besides your presence, and maybe a little donation if you want to help out the church. do you want my address?”

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emmqs:

❝ Okay, breakfast too. I can’t deny anything homemade, but you have to let me help cook to … pay you back! I’ll do my best to not mess everything up, scout’s honor. You bring the food, I’ll bring my mind, open and ready to learn — — and I know there’s the whole God doesn’t judge thing, but I dunno, what if … other people there do. I’m not exactly a REGULAR ATTENDEE. ❞

      “even if they do, they won’t say it aloud. i prefer morning masses to the afternoons, anyways. those are full of sweet elders, so gentle they couldn’t hurt a soul. you’ll like it, emma. i promise.”

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tcner:

     “ yes, sir, i’m beating the ever living crap out of myself. you know, just for some fun. look, we can— ” kelby paused, lowering his voice and gaze so he didn’t have to see just how INTENTLY jackson was looking at him. “ it doesn’t take a genius to understand it, sir. it’s not a big deal, alright ? i can handle this – i can handle him. it’s not so bad; it just hurts when i move. i’m f i n e. ”

     “it just hurts when you move? kelby, i shouldn’t even let you leave this hospital room. i should be calling the police. i should... i should... do you want more advil?”

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emmqs:

❝ It would be nice to have somewhere to go for once, actually, but … judging by the substantial corrections of my knowledge, I don’t really think I’d fit in too well. But if I can get a crash-course in Bible knowledge and how to sing without hurting other people’s ears, I’ll give it a shot. Sans breakfast, you really don’t need to buy my willingness to broaden my horizons. Promise. ❞

      “i do make a good breakfast, i promise, but i can also teach you anything to make you more comfortable if you want to come with me next sunday. first of all, god doesn’t judge, so why would he care if you can’t sing?”

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tcner:

     “ i– i. more people have to see this ? can’t we just get through this as fast as possible, jackie — ? i just… i mean. you’re the doctor, SIR. the bruises.. ? i’m just very clumsy. i was mopping and stepped in a wet patch and, well. you’re a smart man, sir. you can fill in the blanks. ”

      “kelby, it’s not the first OR second time you’re here. i don’t think i should learn my patients first names and remember them without looking at their file. ...are you doing this to yourself?”