Dear Matt,
I know I’m really crazy.. I know. I know what I’ve done has done nothing but driven you further way from me.. if that is even possible. I often wonder how you feel about me.. you’ve blocked me, haven’t even given me a chance to talk to you. Just that one time was the only time I’ve gotten to talk to you and then just a couple days later I was blocked because i called you. you yelled at me.. fuck. maybe i should just let you go. i don’t know why you’re this extreme with me, maybe because you really just wanna be the fuck away from me. and i don’t really blame you, i guess. i am super possessive and i don’t know if i’ll ever not be.. ugh, but ... i really just do these things, genuinely, because i care too much. do you even want a girlfriend that doesn’t care? maybe just not care as much as i did? or at least not showed it the way i did? i don’t know.. I wish you were crazy about me, i wish you didnt know how to control your emotions when it came to me... in a good way, not a bad way.. seems like the only time you couldnt control your emotions was when you were yelling at me. i love you, and finding out that youre talking to someone else is devastating for me. i think it really set me back because i wasnt miserable before this. i wasnt happy, i was often sad but it was manageable (kinda). I know i need to let you go, do your life, and such... i’m so sorry. i dont even know what to write anymore but im sorry. im so sorry............... you probably hate me so much. sigh.......