Being a girl is: wanting to go to bed early but deciding to just get on tumblr/wattpad/Ao3 for a little bit and then end up finding a fic series that you really like and read until well past your usual bedtime then keeping on because itâs already past your bedtime. Then being mad when you wake up in the morning because you overslept your timer.
iâm left heartbroken and disgusted by the events that take place in this world. it leaves me questioning the existence of beings. what hurts me more is seeing how quiet this community is on the issue. you have platforms with a 1,000+ followers and willingly choose to stay silent.
please educate yourselves and take a look at whatâs happening in palestine. i have friends with families who are fighting for their lives right now. these people have been fighting oppression for decades. use your privilege for something. use your platform for something. please iâm begging you. just because it isnât directly effecting you doesnât give you the excuse of staying silent.
a reminder that if you choose to stay silent in the face of oppression, you have chosen the side of the oppressor.
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â[nostalgic] summer romance!au han jisungÂ
late birthday present for him and stays! | other skz aus
âyouâre stepping on my foot.â
âdeal with it.â
âyouâre so bossy, no wonder the kids donât like you.â
âdo you want me to stomp on your foot next, jisung?â
he smirks in response
a half chuckle from nervousness because you might actually do it if heâs not careful
and another because just getting this response from you makes him giddy
the other camp counselors roll their eyes at the usual banter between you - head of troop 4 and him - head of troop 8
every summer is the same story
the infamous you vs. jisung rivalryÂ
in everything from team sports to arts and crafts to lunch chores
the rumor going around is that it all started when you two were both campers instead, years ago, chasing each other all around the grounds and giving your troop leaders at the time the biggest headaches of their lives
now all this time later, you two werenât campers anymoreÂ
and yet
your fighting still managed to cause a wave of groans heard deep deep into the forest and sky
but right now, under the canopy of the main cabin
everything seems to be just a little more tense
your hands are on his shoulders and jisungâs are on your waist
excitable troop 11 leader minho is standing five feet away
pointing to the two of you as an example for the troves of pre-teens that are sitting criss-cross on the floor
ânow, for some of you this might be your first formal bonfire dance and i know youre excited, but we have to go over the dancing rules. first rule: keep a safe distance.â
you and jisung are obliging by that rule perfectly
there is no way youâre about to press any closer to him, and youâre sure he returns the sentiment
minho weaves his hands into the space between your bodies just to make a pointÂ
it somehow seems to push the heat and familiar woodsy smell that comes off jisung toward you, it tickles at you skin and you want to swat it awayÂ
but you keep rigid and ignore minhoâs wrist that bumps your hip
you truly wish heâd just hurry up asÂ
this is getting beyond embarrassing
probably because you are the least suitable couple for this demonstration, you literally hate each other and due to some kind of misstep on your part or the stars refusing to align today
you ended up here
âsecond rule, you should let your partner lead. in this case, jisung will lead.â
you try to mute your scoff, but it comes out loud and echoes. jisung does that dumb smirk of his again.
âthird rule: for slow dances, go in a square formation. like so.â
minho clears his throat and throws you two a look
you throw it back at him because - hello, you only agreed to stand still in this position not actually dance
but jisung suddenly curls the hand thatâs on your waist a little tighter and with a confident nudge starts swaying you two in the devastatingly awkward silence
âminho, can we at least have some music?â
you hiss, you feel your skin hot with humiliationÂ
âright right.â
itâs some popular ballad from a drama you didnât bother to watch, you try to concentrate on the sad lyrics
because jisung is effortlessly moving you two through the beat
and the blatantly obvious difference in his fluid like movementsÂ
and your creaky, robotic ones is just crushing youÂ
the song - after what seems like a million years, accompanied with minhoâs chattering - finally comes to an end
jisung twirls you around and when you come up on the turnÂ
you expect to see it for the third time
his smirk
but heâs not smirking, let alone even smiling. heâs just staring at you as if something other than embarrassment is scrawled across your face
you take offense to it - why wouldnât you? youâre enemies
and you harshly tug your hand from his
without a word you return to your clustered troop at the back of the cabin and jisung shuffles to join his too
you donât notice it, youâre busy doing your head count but he throws a glance over his shoulder
did you really hate it that much?
the bonfire dance rolls around at the end of the week
itâs been the same old routine up until then
your troops going head to head in anything and everything, you and jisung barking at each other like angry dogs and doing whatever possible to get on each others nerves
you have effectively erased the whole dance tutorial stunt minho had pulled on you both from your mindÂ
(and the mind of everyone else that even tried to bring it up)
and with the way jisung was acting, you suspect he had too
and now - under the fairy lights and smell of barbecueÂ
you watch the kids mingle and laugh, the music isnât that loud - so you can still make out the buzz of words here and there when you hear
âdance?â
you turn around and jisung is standing there. he straightens up and you see the bright, orange tshirt all the counselors wear and the handmade bracelets from his troop on his wrist
you see the cargo pants you make fun of him for wearing all summer long
and the bandana that hangs out of the right pocket
his eyes wide like those of a frightened rabbit on a hiking path in the mid afternoon
if he was anyone else in the world, and not the him that youâve known for years, you would have been smitten
which you find both hilarious and mortifyingÂ
âwhat?â
âare you not going to dance?â
ah, so youâre here to finally make fun of me for not being able to dance. what else could i expect from han jisung-
âdo you want to dance with me?â
in an only natural reaction you scrunch up your nose and eyebrows, glare at him and go
âwhat? no. of course not.â
âwhy not?â
âbecause -â
âi want to dance with you.â
he blinks in perfect clarity, like what heâs just said is some kind of given and not an anomaly thatâs been built up for yearsÂ
âjisung - i dont know what you are getting at, but it isnât funny-â
he puts a hand out and his warm fingertips brush yours
the dance, the buzz of other people, the music, the food, all of it melts out of the frame of your mindÂ
you still step back and away from him and jisung doesnât move
âim not being funny. please dance with me.â
âi canât dance.â
you blurt out, even though heâs the last person you want to confess that too
but this is so weird and you feel suddenly like the only person in the worldÂ
âthatâs ok. we donât have to dance here.â
part of you is sure itâs an imagination youâve conjured at the weakest point of this summer
as jisung walks through the lamp lit path to the back of the counselors cabin, out to the little meadow there thatâs wet from the rain that came down hours before
youâd watched the droplets from inside the lunch tent, jisung had watched you from three tables over
he stops in the middle of it and you can smell him and the night woods
âno one will see us here.â
his hand finds your waist and you start to tremble
âjisung, what are you doing?â
âim going to dance with you.â
you shake a little more violently
âwhy, you and i hate e-â
he leans in so fast you almost choke back on the last word when his lips brush yours and his hand on your waist becomes less a feathery touch than a grip that flows a shock through you
âive never said that, ive never said i hated youâ
his lips whisper against yours
âyouve never said you hated me either.â
your hands find the front of that obnoxiously bright shirt and you should push him away but you just bunch the fabric up
he doesnât move
âwe should have said it.â
âno.â
he kisses you again, and again, and again, and again until the only thing you can remember is what it feels like to be held so close to him in the warmth of his body
youâre dizzy because you canât even remember itâs jisung until you are pulling apart because someone is yelling his name and your name
âwe should go-â
âwill you dance with me later, another time?â
you have a feeling his hand around you wonât let go unless you give him an answer
you look at him - eyes adjusting to the moonlight casting a shadow over his face
âyes, another time.â
a decade later - youâre standing on the floor of a wedding hall
your shoes are stuffy, the chatter of people all around you and the smell of food somewhere down the reception hall
you feel out of place and slightly embarrassedÂ
people are going to start dancing soon, arenât they? i donât want to danceâŠ..
you regret coming for a fleeting second - but you couldnât say no - youâve known the groom, bang chan, for some time
refusing just because you didnât want to make a fool of yourself for one dance would just be-
âare you not going to dance?â
the voice comes from behind you and you donât turn, because you think you cannot be hearing correctly.
âdo you want to dance with me?â
a hand takes yours and pivots you toward them slowly
suddenly the wedding halls white walls and lilacs turn to old wood and climbing ivy
the bright orange shirt, the cargo shorts, the big and soft and beautiful eyes
âjisung?â
âi want to dance with you and you said youâd dance with me later, remember - another time.â
his hand in yours reaches forward
and he turns from young and clumsy
to more mature and handsome
with a sharp jaw, long and heavenly features
when he softly tugs you by the waist toward himÂ
you swear you can still smell the trees on him
the memory of a scent from all those years ago
âi cant danceâ
you mumble and he reaches his lips down toward your cheek, âthatâs ok. we donât have to dance here.â
you are in the tight hallway between the closed door of the staffs kitchen and the stairs leading up to the second floor of the hall
no one is around, theyâre all gone - jisung is holding you close and turning you in small squares
âyouâre stepping on my feetâ
he whispers and you want to laugh, but you think you feel the tears roll down your eyes when you mutter back
âsorry.â
he shakes his head, and he seems like he wants to pull you right into him. tighter. closer. to make up all this time.
âno, youâre supposed to say-â
âdo you want me stomp on your foot next, jisung?â
hi!! i rly liked your first writing it was so cute and you described jisung so well too! can i request a friends to lovers with han? kinda slow burn like they're really good friends but jisung gets jealous of her close friend and reader secretly likes him too but she doesnt wanna ruin the things between them so... one day they get into a fight and they end up making outđł bc shes like "wtf we're friends" smut is ok but just a make out would be fine too the details r up to uđ
why yes you can! Thank you for requesting hehe you are my first ask ever  ⥠I hope that you like it, hereâs some best friend âsungie for ya :) Â
all yours | reader x jisung |
Paring: self-insert, female reader x han jisung
Genre: fluff ân a lil bit of smut & angst Â
Tags: student!reader, bestfriend!jisung, lab partner!felix (haha), friends to lovers, mutual pining, best friend au, college au, jealousy, slow-ish burn, mentions of exams, some yelling, reader is secretly whipped for jisung (and jisung for the reader), explicit language, marking, that good good makinâ out
Word count: 2.4k
âHey!â
The little ball of paper that you had crinkled up bounced off Jisungâs arm with a soft pat.
âWhat happened to studying together? You said that you were gonna quiz me.â
Jisungâs eyes popped up from his phone screen looking a little bewildered. âSorry, I just...got a little distracted.
âDistracted? Looking at what?â
âOh, nothing.â He placed his phone down, clicking it off.
âIs ânothingâ code for some girlâs Instagram?â You dished him out a teasing smirk. âI think you forget that I know you better than you know yourself sometimes.â
Jisung shuffled the papers in front of him pretending like he had something to do. âPsh. I was not.â
â--Does she go to school here?â
âI told you, I said no.â He furrowed his brow trying to look as serious as possible, but that was nearly impossible for someone as naturally adorable as him. âWhy are you drilling me? Arenât you supposed to be doing some work right now?â
â~So are you~â You teasingly sang back to him, giving him a kick under the table just for good measure.
Jisung threw your balled up paper ball back to you. âLetâs just get back to what we were doing so we can leave. I donât wanna end up like him.â
He nodded over to the end of your table where a student had fallen asleep mid-chapter. His nose twitched and he snorted a little bit. You knew exactly what Jisung meant, you didnât want to be at the library at 11pm on a Tuesday either; it was your better judgement that told you.
âCan we get food after this?â Jisung asked after approximately five minutes of âworking.â
âSounds good to me.â You quipped, barely allowing your eyes to leave your computer screen. You found that you always had to try you best to let him not distract you. He was really good at that.
You slid a stack of index cards in front of him. âAsk me these? Iâm having a hard time getting the Latin names down...if youâre not busy?â
âNope!â He piped, and shoved his notebook away.
âOkay!â He said with determination and a little bounce. He fixed his oversized hoodie before starting, looking adorably lost in the fabric.
He asked you the first question, but it barely met your ears. There you were, getting distracted by him again.
screw you Han Jisung, you thought to yourself.
âă*ăâă
âI just donât understand how you make sense of all that crap, I could never be a science major like you are.â
â--And I could never understand production like you do.â
âAnd this is why we work.â Jisung grinned with smiling eyes while he opened the library door for you. âIâm starving, I canât stop thinking about--â
â--Y/n??â A voice called from behind the two of you.
The two of you whipped your heads back to see a loveable looking blonde and freckled boy bounding to catch up with you. It was Felix, your lab partner from zoology. The two of you were nothing more than classroom friends, but his friendly kindness was always something that brightened up your terrible 9 am lab.
âFelix!â You beamed, holding the door so it wouldnât close on him. âAre you here studying for the exam as well?â
âOh yeah, I just...my brain couldnât take it any more,â He sarcastically mimed his head pains, âI just need to get some sleep now.â
âI just donât get how they expect us to know all of those phyla like its nothing.â
âI know right?â He chuckled.
Next to you, Jisung silently poked at the elevator button to go down.
âIs it alright if I head down with you guys?â
âOf course!â You motioned him in.
Once the doors had closed, the three of you found a different corner of the small box to plant yourselves in.
âshit-sorry, Felix, I didnât introduce you, this is Jisung.â
âHi!â Felix shone, and Jisung gave him a curt nod back.
Felix waved to two of you goodbye, leaving you in the nighttime snow. You noticed that as Felix walked away he had a little bounce to his step; and you couldnât help but crack a little smile.
âOur usual?â Jisung asked you with a little edge to his voice.
You linked your arm around his, letting out a little shrill sound when the fabric of your two coat sleeves met. âSounds good to me!â You nuzzled up into him while both of your bodiesâ heat intermingled.
The two of you walked on under the streetlights which illuminated the falling flakes in streams of light. You never loosened your grip, as had become your habit lately when the two of you walked around. Jisung never seemed to mind; the two of you had been mistaken for a couple more than enough times thanks to it. When it did happen, it didnât phase you at all. Being close to Jisung was like second nature to you.
The whole walk over Jisung never uttered a word, which was uncharacteristic of his usual boisterous self.
âIs everything okay?â
He sniffled, âYeah, I think I just got kinda tired out of nowhere.â
âAh.â You mouthed, and squeezed his arm a little harder.
After a momentâs silence, he somberly announced, âIf youâre in the same class as him, maybe you should study with him.â
âHuh.â You tsked. âYeah, I mean I never thought about that before...I guess that could do me some good.â
You looked slightly up to him: a product of him being slightly taller than you. His brown eyes remained stoic, and you couldnât figure out why. You hated it when he wouldnât tell you what was wrong, but he was also stubborn at letting up.
âBut thank you for helping me tonight! You know that I reeealy appreciate it.â You turned your tone as cutesy as you could--Jisung hated it, but you knew that it could bring a smile to his face.
His gaze softened a bit. âAnytime. Youâd do the same for me.â
âă*ăâă
Jisung rested his head on your shoulder on the bus ride home with his phone weakly held in his hand. One more bump in the road and you knew that it would go flying so you carefully took it into your own lap where it would be safe. You wouldnât dare moving an inch because you had a feeling that he had closed his eyes. Time had slipped past 1am, and you had to keep fighting yawns yourself. The bus driver had been blasting the heat, so it wasnât hard at all for you to feel cozy.
You glanced down at his open hand in his lap. It looked exactly like he was beckoning for you to scoop it up in your own. You wondered what what happen if you did. What would he think of it? Would he think anything of it? You had held hands before, but every time you had it had been under purely platonic pretenses. If you just grabbed it now, what would the pretenses be then? The two of you cozied up on a bus: that was something that couples did.
You shut your eyes closed tightly and tried your best to banish all the thoughts clouding your head.
Jisungâs hand twitched, looking even more inviting.
screw you Han Jisung.
âă*ăâă
[7:14pm]
jisung: you want to come over? Changbin is cooking and i donât wanna eat whatever heâs making alone
[7:31pm]
me: sorry, Iâm studying with Felix at the library, I think that we are gonna be here late. Itâs all the Latin, Iâm drowning in the Latin, Sung.
Iâm sorry.
see you Friday once Iâm out of this hell?
[7:34pm]
jisung: see you friday.
âă*ăâă
You pounded on the door to Jisungâs apartment with your phone in hand, the white screen showing you the number that you had worked so hard for.
âOpen the door!â You called giddily. âJisung! I know that youâre in here, we need to celebrate! ~I can treat youuu~â
Just as you were about to knock again, the door swung open, revealing a wet haired Jisung in his grey sweats and tee. His brown strands of hair were scattered around his head while he rubbed at them with a towel.
âShit! Canât I shower?â He jested.
It took all your will power not to ogle him more. He looked devastatingly handsome, but you swallowed down how utterly flustered he had made you.
You cleared your throat, âUh...sorry...â then remembered your phone in your hand. âI got a 96! Can you believe it! Iâm even surprised too, when I was taking the test I just got so nervous...â
âAll that studying paid off huh?â He cockily rose an eyebrow. âYou can go ahead and thank me now, without my help...â He shrugged with a grin.
You invited yourself in and threw your bag down at the door like you usually did.
âThank youuuâ You sung. âOh! And studying with Felix really paid off too.â You took off your shoes, thinking of how nice it had been to finally study with someone who knew your class topics. Not that Jisung wasnât helpful, but you and Felix were on the same page. âHe knew it all way more than I did, so he was super helpful. I forgot to text him--â
Jisung closed the door behind you with a slam that made you jump. He moved away from you, not meeting your eyes. The air around the two of you suddenly became thick with something that did not feel as excited as you just were.
â...do you wanna maybe watch a movie?â You moved closer. âOr we could get some deliv--â
â--Why even bother coming over here?â Jisung suddenly huffed.
âWhat?â
Jisungâs words flew out of his mouth sharply, âIf he was so helpful? What are you doing here, huh?â
âJisung, I donât understand...â Your heartbeat quickened in your chest and you felt anxiety swell there as well. Jisung never spoke to you like this. He never sounded like this.
He growled out a little sound in frustration. âI-I just...canât believe you--â
â--Me? Jisung, what did I do?â You threw your arms up, genuinely confused.
He ran his fingertips over his temples and let out a deep exhale. âY/n, donât pretend like you donât know what youâre doing.â
Your temper started to become seething and you felt your ears get hot. âTell me Jisung. Tell me what I did. And while youâre at it, what has been up with you these past few days? Being short with me, and distant, yeah-Iâve noticed...what are you doing??â
Jisung heaved breaths in and out of his chest, then ran a hand through his hair. He still couldnât meet your eyes.
For a moment, a flash of panic surged in your head, making your heart ache with an unexpected pain. You truly didnât know what he had meant, and if you had made a mistake, you knew it could mean loosing him. God, that was the last thing in the world you wanted. It always was.
âIf I did something wrong tell me because clearly I donât know!!â You yelled back at him, straining your throat.
He walked up to you, then grabbed your shoulders with a firm grip. Finally, you saw his eyes, brown and soft, holding a type of pain that you hadnât seen in him before.
screw you, Han Jisung.
âJisung, I--â
You were shoved by the shoulders in milliseconds to the door behind you, the impact nearly knocking the wind out of you. You gasped in your surprise, but you mouth was immediately shut by Jisung ramming his lips into yours. His hands needily took your face into his palms with his mouth blazing with hunger for you.
It took you a moment to realize what had just happened and steady yourself after being so startled. His lips were so soft and warm, your brain had a hard time recognizing that he was really doing this. His haste made no indication of stopping so you let yourself do what you had wanted to do for years: you kissed him back with everything that you had.
As soon as you did so, he let out little desperate moans between your lips in response. You let your arms wrap around his back and he fell into them just right. Naturally you took one of your hands to the back of his head and tangled up your fingers in his hair. God, it all felt so good. Jisung snaked his arms around your waist and pulled you into him with force, crashing your hips together.
The two of you clumsily made your way to the couch where he threw you down and crawled over top of you just as fast. He moved to your neck then traversed around your skin, sending shivers all through your body. Your hands eagerly found his back where you dug into him, wanting to be impossibly close. To your side, he carefully took your hand in his, weaving all of your fingers together.
Jisung pressed down into you and began to suck at your neck without holding himself back. It was such an intense feeling that couldnât help but moan out soemthing you didnât know you could. You felt his mouth turn into a grin on your skin while he continued. It stung a little when he removed his lips, but he gently kissed each mark as if he was soothing it once he was done. He stopped to admire the little array of purple bruises he had made. Â
âI want you all to myself.â Â Jisungâs voice was hoarse, but still honey-covered in desire.
âWhat are we doing?â You asked him in breathless disbelief.
âIâve wanted to do this for so long.â He whispered, and appeared to calm his breaths. âI donât care.â
"You donât?â
âWhy should I?â He cocked his head and used his free hand to caress your face.
â--That this could change things between us?â
âYou donât want it too?â He looked a little confused.
You felt a blush rush to your cheeks. Â â--No! I do, I do...trust me.â
âThen can I kiss you some more?â Jisung grinned down at you as loving as he always had, but this time it meant something slightly different.
â...please.â
He lowered back onto you, connecting your lips once more. Jisungâs tongue languidly smoothed onto yours and you already felt intoxicated by the feeling. You tightened your fingers around his.
â GENRE: college au, best friends to lovers au, fluff
â SUMMARY: Thereâs only one thing that can help your stressed out mind when you have a week left to finish the most important assignment for your art class of them all, and that is the honey voice of your best friend. What a shame heâs too shy to sing sometimes.
â WORDS: 5kÂ
â WARNINGS: swearing and that is it me thinks
You hear the silent melody coming from your best friend sitting on the other side of the couch, quiet hums gradually flowing into coherent words as he mindlessly scrolls through social media on his phone, his low singing filling your empty living room as you take your eyes off your phone and watch him.Â
He looks casual, just like always. The army-green hoodie looks about two times his size enveloping his body, the hood thrown over his head to hide his messy hair, sweatpants hiding a little bit of his foot as well as if to make him look extra tiny today. The song coming out of his mouth sounds similar, yet it still sounds new to you when you catch him randomly singing during the day on times when he forgets he doesnât want anyone to hear.
âIt cannot wait, Iâm yours-â his head snaps up to meet your eyes, immediately shutting up and looking back to his phone screen.Â
âNo, whyâd you stop?â you whine, pouting. His voice is good. Too good, for never getting singing lessons and basically not even trying while he sings.Â
ââCause it sounds bad,â he mutters, furrowing his brows.
âIt doesnât.â you firmly say, desperate to make your best friend believe your words in order to hear him sing more often. For some reason, his singing always managed to bring a sense of comfort into your heart. It felt like the sunlight shining at you in the cold days of winter, sweet and soothing for your freezing heart.
âYeah, right,â his cheeks flash pink, rolling his eyes.Â
âYou hear me singing all the time and I sound like a dying racoon, I really donât understand why youâre so shy about it when you sound like angels coming down to earth to bless us all,â you giggle, poking his sides.
He laughs softly at your compliment, shaking his head. This was how it usually went.Â
He started singing out of the blue, you stopped everything you were doing just to listen to him, then he realised you became too quiet and stopped in the very second.Â
âI wish you sang more. I like your voice,â you point out, watching him flash an even deeper shade of pink as he shyly giggles at your confession.
âSorry to break it to you, but I wonât,â he shakes his head in disapproval. It annoyed you, how he just never seemed to believe your words.
âBut why? You never believe me when I tell you you sound good,â you pout, furrowing your eyebrows and throwing your fists in the air in a sense of frustration.
âAnd that, my dear, is called not believing in yourself.â he giggles, making you roll your eyes.Â
âI donât get it,â you sigh, standing up and moving to the kitchen, âanyways, I am on my way to paint the rest of the assignment I have for my art class, so if you donât want to sing me something, at least put some music on,â you yell white putting your empty mug into the sink.
As you walk back to the living room with your art supplies you managed to snatch from the desk where you put them before, you hear the familiar sound of your bluetooth speaker turning on, making you sigh. And thatâs for your daily dose of Han Jisungâs singing. You sit cross-legged at the ground, taking your paint brushes into your hand, hearing the song he decided to put on playing from the speaker. You recognise it being the one he was humming to himself just a few minutes ago, smiling.
âWhat is the theme anyway?â he asks, genuinely curious.
âNature,â you roll your eyes, not really interested in painting trees the tiniest bit, but having to do it anyway, because you canât just paint whatever you want and get away with it in your art class.
âSo like, trees and stuff?â he teases you, knowing damn well how much you donât like the particular assignment in the first place.
âTrees, mountains, butterfliesâŠâ you ironically smile, blobbing a whole lot of green paint onto your palette, grunting, âand I wanted to be chosen for the showcase this year, but I guess weâll have to wait until the theme is not about rocks and rivers.â you scoff.
âOh please, youâll do great anyway,â encourages you Jisung, âyou can paint well even if itâs just trees and mountains."Â
"Iâm not Bob Ross, Jisung.â you mutter, hating the way the green paint looks on the canvas in the first place.
âYes you are,â he giggles, âyou paint just like him."Â
"Tells me the one who sounds like Mariah Carey but tries to act like he canât sing,â you tease back, enjoying the way his eyebrows furrow at your comment.
đŹđźđŠđŠđđ«đČ: in order to attend the biggest music field trip of the year, jisung needs to bring up his grades. his only hope of passing? you.
đ đđ§đ«đ: fluff, comedy
đ/đ§: iâve never done a smau before, so iâve done a ridiculous amount of planning to unveil this baby. i hope you guys enjoy this (itâs highly indulgent).
the first day of august, your summer break was becoming shorter and shorter and before you know it youâll be a freshman in university.
your high school experience wasnât the best but it also wasnât that bad either. you have an amazing group of friends who you used to hang out almost every single day after school to study and do homework with, you got good grades for the most part and no annoying stereotypical high school students messed with you during your senior year so there wasnât much to complain about. it used to be different in the past, that is, until you met the one and only lee felix who has made your life easier and much more exciting.
if it wasnât for felix you wouldnât be as happy as you are right now but donât tell him that because if you do, youâll get a âi didnât do anything, i only gave you a little push, the rest you did all by yourself!â from him, not taking any credit for helping you as much as he has.Â
your friend group consists of felixâs close guy friends and your girl best friend, hyunjinâs sister, yeji. you would have gone crazy already if you didnât have her. being by yourself with so many chaotic boys surrounding you wouldnât have been an easy experience.
today felix texted you saying that he had a surprise announcement for you. now, whenever felix says he has a âsurpriseâ it can go very well or extremely bad. last time he said he had a surprised he made chocolate chip cookies for all of you, with chanâs help, but the time before that he almost burnt the kitchen making pancakes with seungmin. so you were expecting pretty much anything at this point.
it wasnât until you heard your doorbell ring that you stopped scrolling through you phone, waiting for a special someone to arrive. this was almost your daily routine. either he would go to your apartment, which you shared with yeji, or you would visit him at the dorm, which he shared with the rest of the other 7 boys. if the two of you werenât hanging out alone then youâd probably be with the whole group. it was very rare seeing you two being separated. the rest of your friends would constantly say that it was some type of unspoken rule you two had but, in reality, you were always together because you enjoyed each otherâs company. of course, youâd sometimes go out with just one member or just not with felix but whenever that would happen youâd also text him throughout the day. he made you happy. you made him happy. everything was as simple as that. two friends who cared for one another and loved spending time together.
just two friends.
friends.
it was a simple word.
7 letters.Â
you didnât know the meaning of a friendship before meeting felix. you never really had much drama with your past friends, but, as i said, they were past friends, meaning they werenât your friends anymore. many times you felt like it was your fault that those friendships didnât last. it wasnât your fault though. you would always question why youâd be the one texting first every time, why youâd always make plans, why youâd always ask how they were doing and if they needed help with something, and why theyâd never do the same. you felt alone while being surrounded by a bunch of individuals. that didnât mean they were bad people. it just meant that they werenât the right people for you to be with. you always gave your 100% and they appreciated it but never did their part so after a while you started to isolate yourself more and more. you werenât completely alone but as time kept passing by you realized you kept spending every afternoon at home playing video games, watching a movie, reading, painting or listening to music all alone in your bedroom.
then you met him.
him, who cam to talk to you in the cafeteria because he saw you eating at the corner of the table not participating in your friendâs conversation. him who introduced you to his friends 2 minutes after learning your name. him who got excited and almost cried the time you said he was like a ray of sunshine in everyoneâs lives. your sunshine. him who invited you to prom because he thought itâd be cool to dance a slow song together since the both of you would usually just do random dance-moves that required way too much energy.
that was felix.
your felix.
ây/n, are you there?â âyeah, sorryâ you realized you were daydreaming, reminiscing old memories with a big smile on your face as you remembered felix getting shy when you said he looked like a fairy with his freckles. you loved his freckles more than anything in this world. well, maybe it was the second thing you loved most in this world.
âtoday iâm telling you the surprise announcementâ he said with his chest puffed and a proud expression present on his face.
âmay i know what it is then?â
âiâll tell you when the time is rightâ
âlix, youâve had me curious all morning tell me what it isâ you whined like a toddler although deep-down you knew it wasnât going to work on him. it may work on chan and changbin, but not on felix.
âyouâll have to wait and see heheâ yes, he did have a smirk on his face as he said this.
after you had decided which movie to watch it was now time to relax for approximately 2 hours next to felix on your couch. you werenât paying attention to the movie though. a thought kept running through your mind. âshould i just say it? he wouldnât get mad would he? i donât think he would⊠weâve known each other for a long time i donât think heâs gonna be surprised. itâs pretty obvious at this pointâ you were thinking of every possible reaction he could have to your own announcement when you felt a warm hand touching your cheek.
âyou okay there?â he asked you.
âyeah, why?â
âi donât know you just looked like you were deep in thought and i wanted to check up on youâ
âlee felix always being such a gentlemanâ he smiled at this, a soft giggle leaving his mouth.
âyou remember the surprise thing i told you about, right?â
âyou mean the one you didnât want to tell me about?â
âyeah yeah that one.. wellâŠâ his eyes were now looking directly at yours. a few seconds passed, you stayed in that same position, just looking into each otherâs eyes. thatâs when he took a deep breath and said it.
ây/n i like youâÂ
âfelix wha-â
âiâve liked you since the first day i talked to you on that cafeteria and maybe i didnât know at the time how attracted to you i was but i understand it now⊠b-but i donât want you to feel pressured okay i just really needed to say it because all i know is that i want to spend the rest of my life by your side as your friend or as your lover, it honestly doesnât matter to me as long as iâm next to youâ
as the seconds passed, every thought you had before was now vanishing. âis he serious? i- i mean he probably is since heâs waiting for me to say something but..â you had always thought of this happening one day. all of your friends talked about you two getting together eventually but you didnât know it would actually happen. you had him in front of you confessing his feelings. him, the boy whose smile made your day 10 times better, the boy who was always there for you whenever you needed a shoulder to cry on, the boy who came to you every time he wasnât feeling well so you could make him feel happy again. lee felix.
your lee felix.
âwhy not both?â âw-what?â
âwhy canât you be my friend and my lover? i want you to be bothâ there it was, that beautiful smile of his.
âare you serious? please donât play with me you know iâm very sensitive to these type of thin-âŠâ you pressed your lips to his. an action youâve been waiting a year to do. such a simple thing but that for some reason took a lot courage. courage you didnât have until he confessed his feelings for you. the kiss was slow and soft, your lips barely touching but every single emotion could be felt in that one kiss. so many days, weeks, even months thinking about how it would feel to be in his arms as he kissed you.Â
âtook us long enoughâ he said after you broke the kiss, placing your forehead to his.
(the picture at the top goes along with the chapter)
"OH MY GOD!!!"
"what the hell happened now?!" hyunjin thought as he had just been woken up by minnie's screams. "did i really sleep till the next morning!" "did she just wake me up for t- i'm sorry but i did not sign up for this." hyunjin was annoyed. he didn't sleep well yesterday since he kept checking on minnie to see if she was okay during the night. "at least i have enough time to get ready and get to work. i'll get you some snacks on my way home although i think minho gave us enough for a full month." minnie told hyunjin while making her bed. "minho... i liked that one, and he clearly liked me." "hyunjin i'm going to take a shower, i'll be right back." "do i also have to take a shower?"
when minnie came out of her shower hyunjin couldn't take his eyes off of her. she looked different with her white dress on. as she was doing her makeup hyunjin climbed up her dresser and kept her company. "do you like my makeup? i tried something different today, you know, tHe gLoW uP pHaSe." she laughed at herself. "she's cute." "i'm done. how do i look?" "beautiful." "hopefully i look decent enough." the girl said looking at her reflection. "i have to go now. i'll see you in some hours okay? be good. bye hyunjin." "how could someone leave her?"
30 minutes had passed and hyunjin was already bored. he turned himself into a human and was currently walking around the apartment. "maybe i should do what she did this morning." so he took a shower and changed into the closet full of men clothing that was supposed to be for minnie's friend. "technically, i'm her friend too so..." he had to recognize it. he looked good as a human. "i can get used to seeing this pretty face every day." he said, looking at his reflection. "what do humans do? should i play music? yea, i'm going to do that." after some time listening to minnie's cds he found himself moving his body to the rhythm of the song. "wait i know how to dance?! i'm the whole package!"Â
minnie got 10 minutes early to work so she decided to get the boys a coffee and herself a piece of cake from the cafeteria located inside of the building. when she got to the office, she saw that the boys were leaving their stuff, signaling that they had just arrived. "guys i brought coffee for everyone." "yes! minnie my savior, the love of my life! thank you." minho said taking a sip from his coffee. "hey! she's the love of my life!" "jisung stop being annoying she doesn't like you back, let it be br- oh thanks minnie." seungmin said, giving minnie a big smile. "hey don't be rude to the poor boy, he's just jealous of minho and i. here you go dumbhead." she said while ruffling jisung's hair. "i am not jealous! you love me more than him, right?... right?!" "if that lets you sleep at night then, yes, jisung, she does." felix answered his question. "i hate you all." "hey! what did i do?!" "not you, baby, i love you." "i am not your baby, han jisung." "i like this drama." "seungmin shut up!" "jisung don't yell at him!" "are mom and dad fighting?" "shut up felix!" minnie yelled as minho was just laughing in the background until there was a knock on the door. "hi guys, boss told me that he's planning to hire an assistant for all of you so if you know anyone who you think could fit the job you should tell them." seohyeon informed the group of friends. "you done now?" "don't listen to jisung, seohyeon. he's grumpy today. thank you for telling us." minnie told the girl as she was now leaving their office. "what the hell was that?" "you know i can't stand her." "you don't have to be rude to her." "why do you care? go pay attention to minho instead." "are you honestly jealous right now?" minnie asked her best friend, not understanding why he was acting this way. "i'm taking a break." jisung said as he left to go outside.
of course minnie being minnie, followed him. she saw him sitting on a bench outside looking nowhere. she sat next to him and placed her head on his shoulder. "are you mad?" "of course i'm not mad at you. i could never be mad at you, minnie. you should be mad at me for being an asshole" "but you looked angry." "i just don't want to lose you okay. i'm scared. every day you're closer to the rest of the boys but act more distant towards me." jisung said looking down, minnie feeling her heart ache. "jisung you're never going to lose me. you are my best friend and i love you more than anyone else in this world okay? who was there for me when i decided to move to seoul? you. who helped me through the whole yunho ting? you. who also moved to seoul even though i told him multiple times it wasn't necessary but he is stubborn and does what he wants? yea you. i love you a lot." she grabbed his hands and intertwined their fingers. "i'm sorry i shouldn't have acted like that. you're allowed to have more friends i'm sorry i love you." the boy said looking down. "it's okay, i've known you my whole life, remember? i know you're not like this. let's get back inside, okay? we have a lot of work to do." "oof, don't remind me."
"should i go out? i shouldn't ... right? i'm just too bored. i don't have a phone so i can't text people and i also don't have friends so i definitely can't text anyone." hyunjin said debating whether to go outside or not. "i'm going out. i don't care." and out he went. forgetting he didn't have a way to get back into the apartment but he'll figure that out eventually. he walked through the streets of seoul, many girls and boys kept staring at him since he was a good looking young man. he went to han river and stayed there for a few hours just looking at everything around him. "when does minnie get home? was it 8pm?" he asked himself but then he remembered he didn't know how to read time. "i think i should get going then." he knew he was forgetting something but didn't quite know what. and as he was about to open the door to the apartment.Â
"wait i don't have a key." well, now he figured it out.
you decided his laugh was one of your favorite things in this world the second you first heard it. seeing him laughing with his friends while you all were splashing water at each other made your heart beat race at an incredibly fast speed.Â
summer time. the period of summer. the beach, the ice cream, the sun, the swimsuits and having fun. or thatâs what most people would hope for.
it was day 5 of your summer vacation and saying you were excited was a misunderstanding. you have been wanting to go to the beach for over a month now but finals kept you stuck at home, studying until 3 am, but now that school was over for the next few months, you can go to the beach as much as you want to.
y/n was currently packing everything she would need for her beach day with her friends. as you and your friends had decided the night before, you were supposed to bring the food so you decided to bring some snacks and also some fruit to stay healthy at least for today. (although we all know you were probably going to buy ice cream later that day).
her friends were already waiting for y/n at the beach. not many people were there today so they would be able to have a good time. an hour had passed and they decided to get out of the water and eat some food.Â
as they were drying themselves they noticed a group of 7 boys who looked around their age sitting down pretty close to them. one of the boys smiled towards them. you could say y/n felt her face heating up and it wasnât just because of the sun hitting her directly on her face. âheâs cuteâ she thought. the girls reciprocated the action as the rest of the boys waved at them with shy smiles on their faces.Â
âiâm so hungry right nowâ ryujin announced. âme too, i feel like i could eat everything y/n brought and two full pizzasâ yuna said. âhonestly, sameâ chaeryeong agreed. âwe can eat everything y/n brought and then go get a pizza if weâre still hungryâ. âthatâs our yeji always being so smartâ lia said. âof course! although i do think i brought food for at least two familiesâ y/n announced. âitâs okay, we can always share with the cute guy who smiled at you and his friendsâ ryujin teased. âhe didnât smile at meâ âgirl did the sun affect you already? he was clearly looking at youâ chaeryeong said. once again, the heat hitting your face as fast as lighting. âwhy is it so hot all of a sudden?!â you mumbled under your breath. unfortunately, loud enough for yuna to hear. âawww sheâs flusteredâ âokay stop, donât mess with y/nâ âthank you yej-â but before you could finish your sentence she interrupted you. âjust because sheâs embarrassed, all smiley and probably having a breakdown inside thanks to a cute boy smiling at her doesnât mean sheâs flusteredâ âstooooopïœâ you whined while your friends were laughing.
as the laughter was dying down, two boys were walking your way, volleyball in hand. âi think this may be yoursâ âoh yeah, thanksâ you thanked the boy whose eye smile was the softest thing you had seen all day. âno problem! also, we were wondering if you girls wanted to join us. weâre all cool i promiseâ another guy said. âummâŠyeah, sureâ ryujin answered.
turns out, they were actually cool. you soon memorized their names and got to know them a little bit and although it shouldâve been somewhat awkward since you all just met, for some reason, it felt right. they were all very nice boys, chaotic, but nice.
ây/n iâm hungryyyyyyyâ âyuna how can you still be hungry?â âi donât know, did we eat all the fruit already?â the young girl asked, her eyes full of curiosity and clear hunger. âwe still have watermelon, do you want some?â you asked her as she nodded her head. âi can help you with thatâ the cute guy who had previously smiled your way, whose name you learned was mark, asked you. âthank you, markâ âno problem, i actually love watermelon so i wanted to grab a bite as wellâ he said, now scratching the back of his neck. âoh so youâre not really a gentleman you just came for the fruit?â you playfully joked which made him get even more shy. ân-no i mean⊠i also came to talk to youâŠâ his tone was quiet and soft, just above a whisper. you could tell how nervous he was just by listening to his voice. this made you smile âheâs very sweetâ you thought to yourself.
âhey love birds! weâre going to the water, are you coming?â haechan yelled at you. âyeah, sure!â you both yelled back. âwell i guess my watermelon will have to waitâ mark said while passing yuna her piece of fruit.
the water wasnât too hot nor too cold, it was perfect. different tones of pink and orange were painting the sky as the sun was starting to set. everything about this moment was just perfect. you were currently watching some of the boys talk. by âsomeâ i mean one, mark lee. he had a big smile on his face as he was just chatting with his friends, every now and then looking at you to check if you were having fun or to keep you entertained with a conversation. you noticed how shiny his eyes would get the more he smiled, how he would stutter whenever he got excited or how he would constantly run his fingers through his hair due to how wet his hair was. what you didnât notice was the way his eyes would get even brighter whenever he looked at you, how his smile got bigger when you spoke or how whenever haechan was going to splash water he would get in front of you so you wouldnât get salty water in your eyes. you all got into a water fight for whichever reason. you were splashing some water towards jisung and chenle while renjun was splashing water towards you. jaemin and jeno were attacking lia yeji and chaeryeong. yuna and ryujin stayed on the sand since they were eating, watching you act like little kids. and of course, haechan was trying to drown mark.Â
you surrendered to renjun since you were getting tired of playing so you stayed out of the fight to laugh at. them being chaotic 5 year olds until someone got your eye. they were all laughing now but his laugh was louder and somewhat softer than he rest. his eyes were the brightest, you could see a whole galaxy in them as he threw his head back from happiness. you decided his laugh was your favorite thing in this world the second you first heard it. the more you watched him laugh, the faster you heart beat got.
half an hour after and you were now just listening to mark play the guitar while the rest of you were singing random songs. you learned that they all had beautiful, soothing voices. you tried to concentrate on each of their voices but mark kept taking your attention away from them. the sky was now filled with stars and you felt like you were in a different dimension since life had never hit this differently. he caught you staring at him and sent a wink your way. you tried to look somewhere else but you were mesmerized by him.
jeno took the guitar away from mark so he could relax for a little bit. you remembered how mark had previously told you that he felt the need to be the older brother /role model of the group and take care of everyone always so seeing how jeno was looking out for him made you smile.
âhiâ mark said with his soft voice. âhiâ âyou know i didnât want to come to this beach today but iâm glad i didâ he confessed. âyeah? why are you glad?â âwell because if i hadnât come i wouldnât have met you and i also wouldnât have seen your smile⊠and that wouldâve been a crimeâ âoh so he knows how to flirt?â you joked, trying to act cool although you were screaming on the inside. âwell, he triesâ âiâm glad you came todayâ you said as he put his arm around your shoulder.
your smile had never been bigger than at this very moment. you may have just met mark but you were so comfortable being with him it felt like youâve known each other for years. you were happy just being next to him and that happiness was visible in your smile. âyour smile makes me crazy. it may be my second favorite thing in the worldâ he was looking at you in the eyes. âoh yeah? whatâs the first one then?â âwatermelonâ mark said as you playfully hit his arm. âwell youâll have to ask your watermelon for a kiss then because iâm not gonna give you one after you said thatâ âahh man what?! i could have gotten a kiss are you serious!?â
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